if i am not me

Draco found himself running in an endless forest, as if he was looking for something eagerly - that was the black-haired back that he had been watching silently for a long time.

I don't know when I appeared here, but I vaguely remember that when I heard the so-called plan behind the door, my mind went blank, and when I came back to my senses, people had already appeared on this pre-determined battlefield.

I don't know how long I've been running, but I don't remember running for anyone like this, including myself.But now he only hates himself why he didn't hurry up, hurry up, maybe... he can save him.Why save him?I don't understand, there is only one thought in my mind, to save him!

Finally, I saw his messy black hair in the clearing in the woods, but it was always too late.I knew it when I saw the dozen or so figures surrounding him, but why was I still walking forward?Knowing that continuing will only lead to death...

"Expelliarmus!" Hearing himself yelling like this, and seeing the person who wanted to attack him covering his hands, surprise flashed across his eyes, he too... me, too!

Black messy hair, fuzzy face, only a pair of green eyes so bright and clear, let me indulge as before.

Why are you here, he asked me.But who knows?I also want to ask why, knowing that I am going to die, I picked up the wand without hesitation.It's just that the calmness in my heart now answers me, what I want is that you still stand in front of my eyes, that's all.

"I'm just here to pay back the life I owe you." The words against his will echoed in the air, as if he was laughing at himself.Obviously, she just wanted to stand by his side.

However, we can only and can only talk in this way. That kind of mutual disdain is the only tacit understanding we have had over the years.

Looking at him quietly, the blurry figures around him seem to have disappeared, and only his upright figure is in the eyes, even though we are facing death at this moment.

The confusion conveyed in the green eyes made me smile, because of his eyes.We seem to have never been so calm. His expressions in memory seem to be angry, indifferent, and sarcastic. This is the first time I have seen such a cute expression.

They asked me to leave, and he seemed to mean it too.But how could I go, since I'm already standing here, don't even think about letting me leave his side.

This stubborn Gryffindor!

Do you still suspect that I have bad intentions now?But...it's self-inflicted.The flash of this thought made me suddenly want to laugh, as if I remembered the endless troubles that have emerged over the years.

I don’t know when a red-haired person appeared next to us. I hate it. I hate that the red-haired man can stand beside him so naturally. It’s so natural. Is it because they are both Gryffindors?

The redhead started yelling again, he's always been noisy, so it's not unreasonable for me to target him, isn't it? But why didn't he talk all of a sudden, why is his sadness so strong, so strong that I want to be desperate Hold him in your arms and tell him: "I will be with you, no matter what you are."

In the end, I opened and closed my mouth a few times, but I couldn't speak.

Because the surrounding figures moved, the final battle began.

The palm of the hand naturally pointed the wand at him in the center of the crowd, and used the spell that he had secretly practiced countless times. He was surprised, and they were also surprised.But as expected of him, he reacted quickly, and the redhead did a rare thing that was not so stupid, and we escaped.

It's endless running again, but this time we have a common goal, so where is it?Can not remember.I only know that if I get there, the inexplicable hope in my heart may be realized.

The thought made me smile like never before.

In the end, however, we seem to have failed.The coldness of the whole body, the pain from the depths of the soul made me unable to even scream, and I knew that I was dead.But even so, I couldn't bear to close my eyes.

I want to see him, at this moment, I hope to have his reflection in my eyes.I hope that in his eyes, I can finally have my existence.

In an instant, in those green eyes that were deep enough to absorb my soul, I saw reluctance, reluctance, and nostalgia. At the same time, I saw in his eyes, the platinum-haired... grown-up me...

"Xiaolong, dear, wake up!" The sound of knocking on the door was accompanied by his mother's call, and Draco, who woke up, wiped his sweaty brow, and after a long while he replied in a nasty voice, "Okay, mother .”

Hearing the sound of his mother leaving, Draco let his exhausted body lie back on the big soft bed.What did you dream about last night?

It seemed that he dreamed of a person, a person who made him feel full when he thought of it now... Rubbing his chest, Draco frowned.I can't remember clearly, it seemed to be a nightmare, but it also seemed to be a sweet dream.

Merlin, his mind had never been so confused.

"Don't think about it, it's just a dream." Patting himself on the cheek, Draco woke himself up and sat up again.Today he had to prepare well. Although he often went to Diagon Alley, today was different. Today, he went to become a Hogwarts freshman.

Thinking of this, Draco curled the corners of his beautiful lips, and he had a hunch that today would be a happy day.

Buying pets, buying books... Merlin, why do so many people come to Diagon Alley to buy things today? The crowd makes him feel annoyed.

"Xiaolong, let's help you choose your wand, and you can try on clothes yourself here." After finally buying almost everything except the robe and wand, the Malfoys stood opposite each other on the small stool in Madam Malkin's robe store The boy above said softly.

With approval, they left, and Draco was bored and let the clerk put him in different styles of robes one after another.As time goes by, his impatience gradually grows, Merlin, how long will it take, can't this damn clerk be faster?

"Are you going to buy Hogwarts school uniforms, my dear?" Mrs. Malkin's voice sounded, and Draco knew that he had met a future "alumnus".

Raising his eyes, a thin black-haired figure appeared in front of his eyes, with messy hair, a small and delicate face, and - a pair of green eyes, like the eyes in a dream... a familiar feeling.

But it is impossible to know, such a boy dressed as a Muggle, it is impossible for him to come into contact with it.

"Hey, are you going to Hogwarts too?" Drake was a little surprised that he would strike up a conversation with him, but he finally concluded that he was extremely bored, and he just needed someone to relieve his boredom at this time, he told Own.

Said some naive words in a arrogant tone of a playboy, just like how he usually behaves in front of everyone, because the black-haired boy is just a future "alumni".

The boy is very interesting, he looks well-behaved, but he is actually a naughty boy, he can't help but be attracted by his agile eyes and his demeanor.However, he could not see the future of "friendship". It was impossible for an heir of the Malfoy family to be friends with an orphan whose blood was unknown.

Draco lowered his eyelids and made his voice rusty and polite, not knowing why, he knew the boy should understand him, and if he was smart enough, he would shut up.

But he was wrong. "By the way, my name is Harry Johnson. What's your name?"

The sincere voice made Draco feel momentary doubts.Did he not read his hint?But at the same time, why is there a place in my heart that is just around the corner, as if urging myself to answer his question.

"Draco Malfoy." After a few struggles, he heard himself answer, and he felt relieved for a moment.

Vaguely, he seemed to hear a voice saying to the boy in front of him, "Hi, we meet again."