if i am not me

The orphanage is always lively, especially when everyone gathers around a table to eat, this feeling will be more obvious.Watching Ruth quietly put the onion on Joan's plate, Harry couldn't help but chuckled.

He also sometimes thinks that maybe he is lucky—he miraculously has a brand new life, has a grandfather who loves him to the bone even though he doesn't like to talk, and can even be taken by Mary after his grandfather dies. back home...

Looking at everything in front of him, he said to himself, he should be satisfied.What happened two years ago seems to have become a little far away, and the once biting coldness and pain remained deep in the soul, becoming an episode that I didn't want to think about when I dreamed back at midnight.

Taking a sip of milk leisurely, Harry looked up at the oppressive gray clouds outside the window, and thought of that Harry Potter who didn't know if he still existed in this world.

He had always thought that he had come to a world without magic—not only because of his own magic power, but also because there seemed to be no wizards in the city he lived in.

This place is too strange to him, and the magic world is like an illusory dream.

In fact, he had never really understood the magic world.In the relatively peaceful first few years, his life was only school, Diagon Alley and The Burrow. After the war broke out, he almost only went back and forth between the headquarters, St. Mungo's Hospital and various battlefields... But when he thought When he will end his life as an ordinary Muggle, the hidden magic power is activated, which makes the existence of the wizarding world beyond doubt.

After waking up in the hospital, he was sure that he was still alive. What he thought about the most was to find Harry Potter. It had nothing to do with anything else, he just wanted to see "him".

Dursley's home is in Surrey, not far from his city, and it usually takes only 4 hours to get there by train.After his physical condition gradually stabilized, he went there secretly once, using Apparition.

I still remember the feeling of being in another world when he was walking on Privet Road in Xiaojinhui District again, counting the house numbers one by one, until he stopped at the gate of No. [-] Privet Road, he still felt as if he was in a dream.It was still as he remembered it, with the always shiny brass doorplate, the flat lawn and the newly planted hydrangeas.Looking at all this in a daze, Harry didn't rush to knock on the door rashly. He knew the family too well, so he just walked silently to hide behind a bush and waited quietly.

Not long after, he saw the fat and tall figure in his memory appearing at the door with a briefcase. It was Uncle Vernon.Behind him was Aunt Petunia, and Vernon gave Petunia a kiss on the cheek before giggling and getting into the car, backing out of the fourth driveway.Ten minutes later, Dali, who was shouting loudly, was also sent out of the house by Penny, and went to school with Moken who came to wait for him.In the following time, everything happened repeatedly as Harry remembered. At nine o'clock, he heard Aunt Petunia packing things in the kitchen and the sound of the TV.At twelve o'clock, she began to prepare lunch for herself.At one o'clock, Petunia left home for a visit. At 04:30, she came home and started preparing a big dinner for the family.At five o'clock, Dali said goodbye to Peel and Morken and went back to the house. At 05:30, Fernon's car returned to lane four...

For a whole day, he didn't see the person he wanted to see, and his too long memory made it impossible for him to recall whether Harry Potter did something at that time, so that he was imprisoned in that prison again. In a dark closet.It wasn't until the lights came on that he thought over and over again before he tidied up his clothes, walked to the door of Dursley's house, stood on tiptoe and rang the doorbell.

The person who opened the door was not Harry Potter as he thought, but Aunt Petunia. The disgusted expression on her face after seeing the person clearly let Harry know how bad his current attire was in her eyes, especially It's the shoulder-length hair.With little time, he didn't care whether his appearance would bring any trouble to Harry Potter, so he calmly said that he wanted to find Harry Potter, but he didn't expect to get an unexpected answer in exchange.He still remembers the look in Petunia's eyes at that time, the kind of eyes that seemed to be looking at a psychopath, and the mean mouth said coldly, "There is no such person", and Petunia's thin figure disappeared in Desi. Behind the mahogany gate of the Li family.

Harry, who had never imagined this possibility at all, was very surprised. After all, in his opinion, since he still possesses magic, and since the Dursleys still exist, it is impossible for Harry Potter not to stay at Privet Drive [-]. No, that boy has nowhere to go, and he knows it better than anyone.But the truth is, the aunt who, though hypocritical, would never question the existence of her nephew told him in a completely unaffected manner that there was no boy named Harry Potter in this family.

What does this show?

There is only one possibility - that history has changed.

After returning to the orphanage, he had to lie on the bed for a few more days due to the weakness caused by the consumption of mana. Mary was shocked and angry at his sudden appearance. During the time, he basically lost the freedom to go out alone.But this is not important to him anymore, there is no reason to go out alone, and lying in bed will not hinder his brain's thinking.During that time, he thought a lot, thinking of Harry Potter, James and Lily, Sirius, Ron, Hermione and even Malfoy... An urgent desire prompted him to want to He wanted to go back to the wizarding world to figure out all the problems in his mind, but he couldn't.

The trauma left by that battle on his body was beyond his expectation. Although he could occasionally cast a few simple spells, once it involved advanced magic like Apparition, the magic power in his body would be completely overdrawn.The extreme instability of magic power makes it impossible for him to travel back and forth between London and the city he lives in within a day. Even if he can do it, he appears in Diagon Alley without money and a reasonable identity, except for attracting unnecessary attention There is no other practical significance.

Yes, he is just an orphan Harry Johnson now, a Muggle who should not know the existence of the wizarding world at all, and cannot appear alone in the wizarding world before he is old.

There were too many things he had to take into account, even if he thought he was doing everything right back then, there was no guarantee that the Aurors would not find any clues.He also hopes to have a normal life, and this desire makes him have to work hard to continue to endure until he has the ability to rationalize everything... Before that, everything has to be tolerated.

Time flies, and the chirping of summer cicadas fills the air with drowsy laziness.Suddenly, a rhythmic knock on the door broke the rare silence in the afternoon.Harry put down the book in his hands in surprise, got up and walked away from the shade of the tree towards the iron gate.

Opening the door lazily, Harry glanced at the person who came, but immediately, he, who was always indifferent, could only open his green eyes, staring blankly at the man who was still wearing a black cloak on a hot summer day.He has a pair of sharp black eyes, and the same jet-black hair is smoothly attached to his cheeks, and his cold eyes give people the illusion of a sinister prey——Severus Snape, the double-faced agent of the year, Professor of Potions at Hogwarts.

Snape glanced lightly at the boy who opened the door for him. His long hair was tied into a ponytail casually. His facial features were handsome and heroic, but the most attractive thing was his pair of emerald green eyes like a lake in early spring. , you will be caught in it inadvertently.There was a moment of confusion, but soon he stabilized his mind, looked away from the boy, and asked lightly, "Excuse me, is Ms. Mary McDill there?"

Harry didn't realize what Snape was talking about for a while, although he had expected this situation, he was still a little dazed when the facts were in front of him, so he nodded hastily after a long while, opened the door and held Snape Pu invited into the yard.Mary knew there was a visitor when she heard the door knock, so she quickly and calmly invited Snape into the living room, waiting for the strangely dressed black-haired man to explain his purpose.

Snape didn't talk too much. After sitting on the sofa, he said directly, "Ma'am, after receiving the reply to your appointment letter, I believe you have understood my reason for coming." Seeing Mary nodding slightly, Snape Pu showed a kind smile. "As stated in the letter, Harry Johnson is qualified to be a student of our school, so we hope you can allow him to study in our school."

As early as a few days ago, Mary received a strange letter. Not only was the letter paper made of parchment, but the content also revealed a bit of weirdness everywhere.Mary didn't tell anyone, including Harry, because it seemed to her like a nasty prank.However, the man sitting opposite her told her clearly that everything was true, and that there was nothing false about it, so it was hard to accept for a while.After sorting out her thoughts, Mary took a deep breath and asked cautiously: "What school is it, as far as I know, he didn't apply for any private school."

"Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, the best wizarding school in the UK, he doesn't need to apply for the exam. If he has this ability, his name will appear on our list!" Snape said dryly, obviously I'm getting a little bored with this question.

"Wizard?" Mary's beautiful eyes widened in surprise, as if he was speaking a language she had never been exposed to.

Snape, who is used to this kind of reaction, just continued his unfinished sentence in a narrative manner, "Yes. I think I need to explain it to you now." Repeating the words he did not know how many times, Snape Begin explaining to the child's guardian until she fully understands.

After the shock, Mary couldn't regain her senses for a long time. She felt that the world was too crazy. In order to win her trust, Snape even performed one or two small magic tricks to make her fully understand that it was not a trick.After a long time, the always resolute young woman rubbed her forehead and said doubtfully, "You mean, Harry is a wizard like you, and he can do the same things as you in the future?"

Snape suppressed his impatience and nodded solemnly. "Yeah, if he's talented enough, he'll be the best."

Mary pondered for a long time, and finally decided to let Harry make his own choice, "I think, let him make his own choice. If he is willing, I have no reason to object."

Soon, Harry was in the living room and stood beside Mary.Now he has completely calmed down, he understands that this is an opportunity given to him by the heavens, a chance to enter the magic world justifiably!Snape looked at the boy who opened the door for him just now with an unmoved expression. After carefully examining his facial features, he took out a letter from his arms and handed it over.

The envelope was the heavy parchment Harry was familiar with, and it was clearly addressed in emerald green ink.There was no postage stamp, and the bold coat of arms on the back of the envelope attracted all his attention.

A coat of arms with a large "H" surrounded by a lion, an eagle, a badger and a snake.That is a sign belonging to Hogwarts, a sign belonging to the wizarding world...

Unable to wait to open the letter, Harry saw the familiar font.

Headmaster of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry: Albus Dumbledore.

(President of the International Federation of Magic, President of the Wizarding Association, first-class magician of the Merlin Sir Order)

Dear Mr Johnson:

We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted to study at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.Enclosed is a list of required books and equipment.Semester is scheduled to start on September 31.We will be waiting for your owl to bring your reply before July [-]st.

Vice Principal (Female)

Sincerely Minerva McGonagall