if i am not me

Remus Lupine is a very optimistic person, at least he thinks so.If he hadn't mentioned all the experiences from childhood to adulthood, who would believe that those memories belonged to him—except, of course, his good brothers.

He can see it, and because he was so lucky to meet James and Sirius, his life can be so happy and smooth, at least compared to other people like him, he is really too happy.The love of his parents during his childhood, the company of his friends during his teenage years, and even after graduation, he found the job that suits him best. Who would say he is lucky?Life is impossible to be perfect, so he has long learned not to ask for extravagance, as long as he can be as flat as he is now, although this in itself may be the biggest extravagance.

But now he feels that his extravagant request may be broken, although this is just his feeling.

The dinner time was coming to an end, but there were still many students rushing to take advantage of the last ten minutes. While enjoying dinner, the restaurant that should have been quiet was a bit noisy.Putting down the cup in his hand thoughtfully, Remus' eyes drifted involuntarily to the Slytherin dining table. Yes, he admitted that his uneasiness came from the black-haired boy.But the figure he wanted to see had obviously already figured out the restaurant's serving rules, and left early—at least before he came.

Shaking his head and smiling bitterly, when did he learn to sit in the dining room like this just to take a look at that figure that only looks alike?Wiping his mouth with a tissue, Remus wasn't going to continue this stupid move, at least not when it wasn't necessary.

"Remus!" Suddenly, a small voice came to his ears, and the immature voice made Remus reveal a charming smile.Nodding barely, Remus walked out of the restaurant as if he hadn't heard anything, and walked directly to his room at Hogwarts.

As soon as he entered the room Dumbledore had prepared for him, he saw a thin figure squeeze in through the open door.Shaking his head with a smile, Remus closed the door, and sure enough, the figure rushed into his arms as soon as he turned around. "Remus, Remus, I miss you so much!"

Lovingly rubbing the unkempt hair of the baby in his arms like his father, Remus said calmly, "You told me to pretend I didn't know you."

Leo hugged his waist tightly, filling the tip of his nose with the smell of Remus.Hearing what Remus said, he pouted and said dissatisfiedly, "I just pretended not to know me, and I didn't say you couldn't 'take the initiative' to get to know me! Well, you ignored me for four days, for four days You didn’t come to the party for the past two years—it’s because I miss you so much—”

Rubbing Leo's hair vigorously again, this little devil in the world was really made more and more mischievous by James and Sirius.Now he finally deeply understood why Lily's letters to him were always full of helplessness, and it was not without reason.Remus, who felt that he was not too old, couldn't help worrying about whether he would get wrinkles because of sighing too much, so he squatted down so that his eyes were parallel with Leo's, and said resignedly. "Okay, little guy, how do you want me to make up for your spiritual loss this time?"

Showing a sly smile, Leo looked at the helpless Remus and said slowly. "Remus, you also know that first-year students are easily bullied by senior students, in order to prevent poor me from being bullied..." Then he blinked and gave him a look of 'you understand'.

Hearing Leo's request, Remus stroked his forehead with a headache.It seems that the preschool education operation of Prongs and Padfoot was successfully destroyed by Lily, which was a good thing...but now the little guy turned his attention to him, to teach or not to teach?This is a very serious question.

After teaching, he successfully completed the brothers' historical legacy, and gave the little guy a layer of security—although he had reservations about the little guy saying that his personal safety was threatened.But... imagining the hawk-like eyes of the demonized Lily and Professor McGonagall, Remus hesitated.

Leo also knew that his request was a headache for Remus, and he knew better than anyone what kind of existence his mother was.But Dad and Sirius had been banned from teaching him all "non-academic" spells, and now all his hopes were pinned on Remus.After waiting for so many years to get his own wand, he was unwilling to let it slack off because of his inability to spell.

But he didn't want to see Remus in such a troubled state, so he decided to give him some time to think about how to avoid letting his mother know. "By the way, Remus, let me tell you something interesting."

Hearing Leo change the subject, Remus, who understood what he was thinking, gave a wry smile, stood up and pulled Leo towards the sofa.Waving his wand, he made a cup of honey milk tea for Leo. Remus held Leo and sat on his lap, pretending to be listening and waiting for Leo's next 'interesting thing'.

After taking a sip of the hot milk tea, Leo smacked his lips in satisfaction, thinking of Harry, his already big eyes sparkled even more. "Remus, I know someone who looks very similar to me! If you look closely, they really look alike, especially the nose!" He pointed to his own upturned little nose, as if offering a treasure.Harry's expressionless smiling face flashed across Remus's mind immediately, and he kept smiling calmly, beckoning the overly excited kid in his arms to continue.Urged by Remus, Leo said more enthusiastically, "He is Harry Johnson from Slytherin. Unexpectedly, a Slytherin! But he is really nice, Remus, it was obviously me that day He accidentally bumped into him, and he didn't blame me."

The corners of Remus' eyes couldn't help twitching when he heard this, and said, "Don't you really want him to blame you?"

Leo, who was talking about it, was very dissatisfied with Remus' complaint, and made a face, Leo said, "You know I don't mean that. Although Dad and Sirius said that there are actually good people in Slytherin Yes, but there are not many like Sev." Rubbing his forehead again, Remus had to remind. "You better not call Severus that to your face..."

Sticking out his tongue, Leo blinked innocently, "Of course I know! I'm calling Professor Snape in front of him now! Oh - that's not what we're talking about now. Let me tell you, ha Li can’t help but look very similar to me, and his eyes are emerald green like his mother’s. They are very beautiful! I like his eyes the most. And he is really nice. I heard George and Fred, that’s it. The Weasley twins, Harry, he..."...

In the following time, Leo was almost repeating the exaggerated words of the twins, but Remus didn't feel impatient, on the contrary, he hoped that Leo could say more.Similar appearance, same name... Is it really just a coincidence?Judging from Leo's words, he was obviously of Muggle origin (because Harry came from the Muggle world, forgive me and thank the magic world for the speed of information dissemination), but he entered Slytherin—although not There is no precedent.A proud little snake can get along with a group of lion cubs. It is not an easy task to get the twins to use such exaggerated compliments based on the experience he has gained from other teachers... This, this What kind of person is Harry Johnson?Remus felt himself getting more and more curious.

Suddenly thought of something, Remus interrupted Leo, who was beaming with joy, "Have you talked to James about this? After all, they look so similar, maybe they are relatives." He hoped that Leo The guy didn't talk much.

Tilting his head, Leo said with an old-fashioned look, "I am no longer a kid who has to report everything to my parents! Besides, Hermione said that there are three people in the world who look exactly like you and look alike There are more, we look alike is not unusual. But Harry himself is sure not my relatives, otherwise I would have told my dad. Oh... If so, it would be great, I can go to him in a legitimate way played."

Hearing an 11-year-old boy say that he is not a child, which is full of childishness in itself, made Remus pinch Leo's delicate cheeks amusedly, but he wondered when the boy wanted to pester others and needed reason.Follow your heart and ask questions.

Leo sighed deeply, obviously quite troubled. "It can't be helped, Harry always has that Draco Malfoy by his side!" Thinking of how many times he found opportunities to get close to Harry these days, he had to watch helplessly because of various emergencies. With the back of his departure, Leo tried for the first time what it means to be aggrieved, but he couldn't get any evidence at all.

Leo is not someone who suspects others casually. Before there is no evidence to find the real murderer, he will determine the list of suspects in advance.He listed a bunch of people he thought were possible, including Ron, the twins, and even Hermione, but after contacting him, he didn't think that Ron, who was too straightforward, could make him do things without knowing it; the twins did. Suspected of pranks, but over and over again, they won't get tired of him and he's tired of it; Hermione, in fact, apart from her intelligence, he really can't think of her motives.So after repeatedly excluding suspects, Draco Malfoy's name topped the blacklist in Leo's mind.

"You like Harry very much?" Although Remus used a questioning tone, he was already quite sure.This kid seems to be paying too much attention to Harry Johnson. This is not like their usual little devil!

Making a clear look, Leo took a sip of milk tea to moisturize his dry lips.If he didn't really like it, he, Leo, wouldn't do such things as pestering people. "I want to get close to him!" With a slightly domineering tone, Remus sighed once again that the little guy was indeed James' son.Looking at his messy hair that he had rubbed, Remus smoothed out the strands of hair one by one with his hands, so that they would no longer be so messy and curled up.

"Go for it then. I think he'll like you too." Their babe is a little mischievous, but mostly cute.

Encouraged by Remus, Leo recalled the gentle look in Harry's eyes when he looked at him, and raised the corners of his mouth full of confidence, "I know! Now it's just about getting rid of obstacles."

Looking at the little boy in his arms with relief, Remus thought that he was right in agreeing to represent Defense Against the Dark Arts for a year.

"By the way, have you considered it? I want to learn TripJinx (tripping spell), Tarantallegra (Tarantallegra dance), and Rictusempra (itching spell)..."

Listening to Leo's endless counting of those mischievous spells with weird names, Remus rolled his eyes, and he took back what he just said, maybe he shouldn't have come at all, especially knowing that this little guy is The case of Hogwarts.