if i am not me

In the early morning of the weekend, Lily Potter got busy early. The blue sky outside the window indicated that today would be a beautiful day. She was in a good mood and decided to let Mr. Potter sleep late.

Gracefully waving the willow wand in her hand like a conductor, first let the utensils in the kitchen move, Lily turned to the living room with satisfaction, but after seeing the messy documents and clothes in the room, she was a master of housekeeping She couldn't help but sighed.Skillfully using the spell to put everything back in its place, Lily hoped she could finish all the work before they arrived.However, given the current situation, the task may seem daunting, but thankfully, challenges are the last thing she fears!

"Cheese, red wine, pie, baked potatoes, oh—almost forgot this." Writing down the dinner menu on a notepad, Lily added it while checking the dishes.

Lily attaches great importance to the evening party, she almost wants to display her perfect craftsmanship to entertain the guests tonight, so the hostess is cautious, even though she knows that even if she makes a bunch of things that even trolls don't want to eat, they will not eat them. She doesn't mind, but she just wants them to eat the delicious food she made, not for anything else, just because it's them.

There was a "bang bang" sound from the collision of pots and pans in the kitchen, and Lily's figure was busy running up and down the house. I believe that even the Hungarian Shufeng who has been cast with the stun spell cannot continue to be in a coma. What's more, Mr. Potter, who thinks he is a normal person.James walked out of the bedroom calmly, rubbing his messy black hair comparable to weeds. After more than ten seconds of confusion, he remembered that today is the weekend—the day of their party!

Showing a charming smile, James lazily walked towards the kitchen. Sure enough, Lily was waving her wand to stir the delicious thick soup. He reached out and hugged her from behind, and gave his beloved wife a good morning kiss, "Good morning, dear."

"Good morning..." Lily kissed back, but then frowned. "Go and wash your face! Shave off your beard!" James just nodded upon hearing this, his hands still tightly stuck to Lily's slender waist.Seeing that the people behind her hadn't moved for a long time, Lily raised her beautiful green eyes slightly and let out a gorgeous smile, "My dear——"

"I'll go right away!" As soon as Lily said that, James was already three meters away, leaving her with a slightly hurried back.Seeing her husband's somewhat comical actions, Lily couldn't help but burst out laughing. Who would have thought that a person who is usually so vigorous and vigorous is actually so childish?

In the following time, Lily finally successfully completed the preparations after chasing away James who wanted to help countless times but was only going to be a hindrance. Now, they just need to wait for their arrival.

Just after two o'clock, two men suddenly appeared at the door of Potter's house. No one knew when they walked through the straight street in front of the door. Fortunately, today is the weekend, and no one will be there just after their lunch break. Time to pay attention to those who roam the streets.

"Ding dong!" Remus pressed the doorbell of James and Lily's new house, and within 2 seconds, the door opened with a bang, followed by Lily's familiar roar, "James, I Told you to use—hands—”

"I use my hands, dear!" Looking at James walking towards them, Remus noticed that his old friend was wearing only a slipper, and the man with one bare foot grinned at him Laughing, what was tightly clutched in his hand was the magic wand used to open the door.

A powerful fist hit the light brown-haired man's shoulder. James and Remus both laughed as they felt the other's strength. What else do we need to say?Hugs are enough.

"Sev, Remus?" A beautiful female voice came from the house along with the sound of going downstairs, and soon, Lily's fiery red hair appeared in front of the three of them. "Oh—" He rushed forward and gave Remus who was standing in front a big hug. The corners of Lily's eyes were a little moist.But who is Lily?Soon Remus saw Lily with her hips akimbo staring at him and the man behind him fiercely.

"Remus! Huh, okay, I won't talk about you first," Lily shifted her gaze away from the innocent Remus, and looked deeply at the black-haired man. "Sev!"

Snape has been silent since he entered the door. In fact, he regretted it the moment the door opened, but... Looking at the energetic Lily in front of him, his usual cold face softened, "Hi, Lily .”

A faint greeting dissipated the anger in Lili's green eyes, and this usually tough woman gave her a tight hug, "You bastard..." Her voice was choked up, but she couldn't stop thinking about it.

"I know." Severus just gently stroked the woman's fiery red hair, he knew what she was thinking.

James gritted his teeth and turned his head to pretend not to see it, but the creaking sound of his teeth still showed the man's current state of mind.So he didn't like Snape being within 10 meters of Lily, even knowing they were just brother and sister—

—But at least he’s still there now, okay?Can you not ignore his existence.

Remus burst out laughing at the interaction between the three of them. Sure enough, it was right to come with Sif!

"Hey, can you go in first?" Sirius just saw such a scene when he appeared at the door of Potter's house. The rare and gentle Severus was hugged tightly by Lily, and next to him were the extremely depressed James and... ...a narrow-minded Remus.The corners of his eyes twitched, but he still made a sound to signal the fact that they were still standing at the door.

It was a pleasant afternoon, yes, everyone except one jealous man thought so.Since the Potters have been working abroad all year round, they haven't had much time to get together over the years, and the only few gatherings are always missing one or two people due to personal work.And Severus... If it wasn't for Lily's return to China, he would have enough reasons not to attend any of the gatherings, which was also one of the reasons why Lily lost control of her emotions just now.In fact, if Lily wanted to see Severus, all she needed was an Apparition Charm, but it was precisely because she understood him that she could only write letters, invite, wait, and get all kinds of reasons why he couldn't attend.

After a delicious dinner, Severus and Remus said they needed to leave, since they were teachers after all, not some idle looking guy.

Lily understood this, but a certain man who had drunk enough jealousy had been longing for someone to leave.Pretentiously beckoning, James closed the door of his house mercilessly, not even thinking about saying goodbye to Remus and Sirius.

Severus wasn't angry when he saw this, he had found enough space this afternoon, and being able to make James Potter so aggrieved was one of the motivations for his presence here today.Sirius stood quietly by the side and looked at Severus's rare wanton smile, and also smiled. The cool night wind brought a refreshing smell of hay, which made him suddenly seem a little more courageous.

"How about we go for a walk?" Pretended to ask Remus, but Sirius looked straight into Severus' dark eyes.This sentence was like a spell, calming Severus's smile and returning to his usual slightly cold expression, "I'll go first." After finishing speaking, the two of them did not wait for a reaction, and after a loud noise There were only two figures left on the empty street.

It would be a lie to say that he wasn't depressed, so when Sirius turned his gaze back to meet Remus' half-smile look, he could only return a wry smile.

"You are such a failure!

"Smiling unchanged, the words he said made Sirius even more frustrated.

Sighing deeply, his usually confident tone was full of helplessness, "I know..."

"So, dear Director Oro, would I have the honor to invite you to share this beautiful night with me?"

Sirius pursed his lips, put his hands lazily into his pockets and walked towards Remus standing in front, sighed again. "It would be great if the person beside you is not you."

"It's your own incompetence, and you still do this after so many years." Now Remus rolled his eyes, God knows what happened to these two people.

"Hey... I said Remus, shall we talk about something else?" Hearing the change in the tone of Remus's words, Sirius hurriedly changed the subject, despite this kid's usually polite appearance, but Against a few of them, it's a waste of words.

Remus raised his eyebrows, knowing how his old friend was feeling right now, he could only swallow a bunch of lessons.But thinking of another matter, he couldn't help but put away his joking mood.After a long pause, Remus said, "Sirius."

Sirius, who had been a little wandering, retracted his thoughts when he heard Remus's different tone than before, fixedly looked at those wise eyes, and vaguely guessed Remus' question.

Sure enough, "What's the situation with James and Lily now?"

Avoiding his eyes that seemed to see through everything, Sirius said calmly, "What, didn't you see it today?"

"Sirius!" The tone was sharp, and he knew that when Remus spoke in such a tone, he was really angry.

Suppressing the pain in his eyes, Sirius said seriously, "Remus, don't ask...you just have to believe that they're fine." There was a begging in his tone that he didn't realize.

Just because Remus doesn't ask doesn't mean he doesn't know anything. The truth of the year has been sealed in the torrent of history, but the imprint left behind is indelible.He didn't ask when James and Lily forgot everything, because he knew that such a choice was right for them.He didn't even ask if they were arranged to go abroad, after all, staying in the old place would cause unnecessary trouble.But now that they had returned, he thought it was because the situation had improved, but what he saw was a dose of potion several times higher.

"I really don't know what Dumbledore thinks?" Yes, he has not understood since 12 years ago, why do they have to forget?Is it just because they lost...

"Remus!"

silence……

After a long time, Remus said wearily, "I know! Since you can guarantee..." The night sky was full of stars, but the people under the stars lost their idle interest.

"I'm leaving, I still have class tomorrow." Remus returned to his usual smiling face, and looked at his handsome friend opposite.Sirius just nodded, and now they really didn't have the leisure they had just now.

The moment before he left, Remus suddenly remembered something, "By the way, check someone for me."

"Who?" Sirius agreed happily, anyway, it's not just once or twice that they used his official position to serve him.

"Harry Johnson!"