if i am not me

Peter hurriedly walked on the muddy path in the country, stopping from time to time to look around, and then continued on after confirming the direction.Not long after, he was standing in front of a red and white house, but for some reason, he did not have the firmness on the road at this time, but seemed very hesitant.After much hesitation, he still knocked on the door, and the door opened quickly and cautiously.

The one who opened the door was an extremely handsome man, with long black hair flowing over his shoulders, but now they looked too messy, just like the owner's anxious mood.

Seeing the person he had been waiting for for a long time, Sirius pulled Peter past him and entered the room, closing the door vigilantly.The screen shifted with Wormtail's sight. This is a very ordinary one-story house. From the various traces inside, it can be seen that the people who live here don't seem to plan to stay for a long time.

"What do you want me for?" Rubbing his hands uneasily, Peter wondered why Sirius, who had been avoiding the Dark Lord, would come to him at such a sensitive time.

As if seeing his uneasiness and timidity, Sirius frowned and didn't speak for a while.But after touching his arm wrapped in a black cloak, he gritted his teeth and stared blankly at Peter's dodging eyes. "Wormtail, would you like to be the secret keeper?"

Stumbling on his feet, Peter looked at Sirius with incredible eyes, hoping that it was just a joke, but he only saw seriousness and firmness in those eyes that were so dark that they seemed to be able to absorb people's souls—he was not lying, This is not a game they played in their spare time back then.

Trembling uncontrollably, Peter knew very well what would happen if he was not careful as a secret keeper. Death was just a relief.

Sirius should know what Peter was thinking, they had been friends for so many years anyway, even if the boy always stood cowering behind them.But now he has no other way, this way is the one with the highest probability of success among all the schemes he can use.

"Listen, Wormtail..." Sirius held Peter's trembling hands tightly, and said urgently, "You know, I was originally their secret agent, but now the Dark Lord seems to be getting more and more interested in me. Clearly, I can't guarantee whether I can safely help them keep their secrets in the next moment. Oh-listen, listen... Now, let's go to them and quietly replace the secret keeper with you. This matter is only the four of us I personally know..." He seemed a little out of breath, swallowed before he continued, "Only the four of us know... I will find you a place, you hide there, and I will continue to be a bait outside. Don't worry... Wormtail, no one will know where you are. You'll be safe, sure! I promise."

"Promise...promise?" Peter closed his eyes in disgust as he saw his shrunken and wretched figure reflected in those bright pupils.In order to cover up this action, he nodded violently, as if he would not be afraid, but his voice still revealed his emotions, "I...I promise. I..."

Hearing Peter's answer, Sirius seemed to be relieved, and his face softened.He let go of Peter's hand, turned to pick up some items from the table, and patted Peter on the shoulder—as he'd done all these years. "Good man, let's go now. The sooner the better..."

The picture shakes, and the scene turns from dark tones to bright.

A beautiful red-haired woman was standing at the door holding a baby less than one year old, and she was slightly surprised and puzzled when she saw them standing outside the door.And the child in her arms writhed restlessly in her mother's arms as soon as she saw someone coming, and stretched out her chubby little hands towards them.Sirius took it dotingly, and rubbed his bearded face against the baby's tender cheeks, making the little guy giggle wildly.And when Peter saw the baby lying on Sirius' shoulder and looking into his clear green eyes, a rare sincere smile appeared on his usually frightened face.

After all, it was an extraordinary time, and they did not linger at the door, but quickly entered the room. The simple but warm room made the two tired figures relax their tense nerves a little.He poured tea for himself and found some snacks as skillfully as in his own home. Seeing their childish behavior, Lily just shook her head and walked into the room. After a while, the handsome man with unkempt black hair like a baby was supported slowly by Lily. Come out slowly.

The two people who were playing with the baby frowned unobtrusively when they saw James. Lily also knew that the two would not come to visit for no reason at this time, especially when she noticed that Sirius was quite unnatural. when the right hand.

James' face was pale, but he still greeted his two good brothers with vigor and vigor. Seeing the disheveled Sirius and Peter, he exaggeratedly pointed at them and laughed, which caused the wound to cough continuously.

Lily tapped James on the head and held the baby in Peter's arms. She gave up the rare space to these men whom she hadn't seen in a long time.

When Lily disappeared behind the door with the child in her arms, the faces of the men regained their seriousness and depression.Peter lost the comfort he had just now. He looked at James who was coughing from time to time and Sirius who was in a mess, and lowered his eyes to hide the panic in his eyes.

"James, I have a plan...for Harry..."

The screen began to vibrate violently, and the tone returned to a dark tone.

run... hide...

It wasn't until Sirius took Peter to hide in the cellar of an unnamed manor that the picture slowed down again.In the dark cellar, it seems that no message can reach here, and no one can find him.But they guessed the Dark Lord's wisdom wrong again. When the figure covered in the hood looked at him with cold killing intent, facing the pair of blood-colored pupils, Peter was already unable to think.

Staring blankly at the tall figure, he clearly heard a few simple words that almost made him lose hope from the mouth that was so thin that there were almost no lips. "It's really hard to find you...but your parents are visiting my manor, Peter Pedilu. Soon, your friends will reunite with you there..."

The picture became more and more unstable, and the tones became messy.

Peter was crawling helplessly at the Dark Lord's feet while his parents collapsed in the hall, surrounded by people in black cloaks waving wands and laughing wildly.

"Ah..." Another shrill scream resounded through the hall, and Peter trembled more violently with the voice. His face was covered with tears but he had no time to wipe it off. He just gradually raised his hand and grabbed at the side of Voldemort's robe.

The corners of his mouth curled up ironically, and Voldemort, who noticed his small movements, raised his eyebrows, and then the dozens of wands once again emitted light that was neither strong nor weak, and shot into the two collapsed people in the center of the hall, causing them to emit light again. Shouting shrieks. "ah--"

Peter finally couldn't bear this mental torture, and began to scream like a wild beast, tightly grasping the robe he touched just now, and shouting heart-piercingly: "I said... I said... Please stop... stop..."

Voldemort, who had achieved his goal, was happy. He made an expression similar to a smile in satisfaction, and stroked the top of Wormtail's thin hair with his withered and pale hands, causing an unexpected tremor. "That's right, my boy."

Peter watched his parents being led out of the empty room by two men in cloaks, and for a moment everyone seemed to be gone except him and the Dark Lord.

"...Come on, tell me, where is he?"

There was another flash, and the screen changed rapidly.

He was running in an alley in the city, and his shortness of breath couldn't stop his sluggish pace.Originally, he was avoiding the pursuit of the Dark Lord, but now he is facing the people who have been protecting him, his good friends.

"Peter, you can't escape!" A voice that made him terrified sounded behind him. Peter jumped like a mouse whose tail was stepped on, but still ignored the footsteps following behind him and continued to look at him. Running through seemingly endless streets.

Suddenly, he found another figure blocking the way forward, it was Remus.He stared at Peter with red eyes, his distorted expression seemed to want to tear his throat at any time. "We misread you!"

Knowing that it was pointless to continue running, Peter stopped in despair.Looking at his former friend looking at him with eyes that wanted to kill him, Peter knew that everything was irreversible from that moment on.Dejected and slumped on the ground, Peter looked at the two people who blocked all his retreats with pleading eyes, but did not get any response.

After a long while, seeing that Sirius and Remus' wands had been pointed at him, Peter hurriedly asked his question, "He...uh... how are they doing?" After all, what he got after the so-called action that day The only information they had was the Dark Lord's downfall, but nothing about the Potters. "Don't, don't blame me, they caught my parents... Oh - Sirius... They're all right, right?" Pretending not to see their heart-wrenching eyes, he fantasized about all that would happen with the Dark Lord gone. Everything will go back to how it was before. "Remus..."

Sirius' teeth were about to gnaw into pieces, but after hearing Peter's words, there was no anger on his face, and he just said in an extremely cold voice, "Harry is dead!"

Wormtail's pupils constricted violently, and he didn't even feel his wand slipping from his palm.He just stared blankly at Sirius' distorted face, shaking his head mechanically. "Impossible... Impossible! He, he clearly said that he would not kill him... Impossible!"

Sensing Wormtail's strangeness, Remus pointed his wand at him calmly, no matter what the reason was for Peter, he wanted this sinner to pay for what he did.

To everyone's surprise, Peter suddenly grabbed the wand that fell beside him and pointed it at himself. His eyes, which were usually watery, seemed to be dry and cracked at this moment. He trembled while pressing the wand against his head. "I didn't mean to hurt Harry! Sirius, Rhyme...s, I didn't mean to hurt Harry, really...he promised me he wouldn't hurt Harry..."

"He said..."

"No—" All images began to disappear, and Harry heard Wormtail's growl echoing in the empty, exhausted classroom. "I didn't want to hurt him...I didn't want to—"