You are the sunny scenery in my heart

Just when I was optimistic that I could finally return to a complete person, the examining doctor told me to be mentally prepared...

It was almost unacceptable, and then I laughed wildly.Maybe I’m just a joke, from the moment I was born, I watched my parents fight and fight, and then I was bullied by all the boys in school, and then I entered a key university with a grade that everyone thought I copied, and I was with the world I think the best men fall in love and live for seven years, during which time I'm like a crow that never grows up, waiting for Zhou Ran to feed me, and then we separate, he gets married, and I'm still a People, the ridiculous thing is that everyone thinks that I am too obsessed and I don’t want to fall in love anymore. Only I know that it’s just because no one can bear me and no one wants me.A person in his twenties has no progress in his career, and his life is repeating yesterday, so that I have no connection with this world except for my ID card.If one day I die, or I disappear inexplicably, no one will realize it, and no one will do anything because of my disappearance, except, of course, my family.

The doctor said that it was too negative for me to think like this, but there was still some hope, if I agreed to the operation.

Forget it, there is no need for that.

When I came out of the hospital, my legs seemed to be heavy with lead, but this time was just when the sun was setting. If I remember correctly, the last time I saw the setting sun, I was in my hometown with Zhou Ran, sitting on the mountain together. On the hill, there was a small wind blowing, and we leaned against each other to watch the sunset. The sunset that day was very beautiful.

Today's sunset, for some reason, is so bright, a rare fire cloud in the city.What is the need to become so magnificent when it is about to fall?Still want to tell me something, even if there is very little time left, you can be as amazing as this cloud?

Without taking a taxi back, I walked along the curb step by step alone.Take out the phone and call mom.

"Anji, what's the matter?"

"Mom, I miss you a little bit."

"This child is worthless... If you miss me, come back and see me!"

I went directly to the station without going through the house, and immediately bought the earliest ticket to go home. The last time I was like this, I was with Zhou Ran. I heard from my mother that when my brother-in-law brought his family to my house to make trouble, time passed. So fast, five years later, I'm back again, this time for myself.I'm afraid that if I'm not careful, my mother won't even see my last side.

Sitting in the train, the sky is getting dark, but you can still vaguely see the scenery outside the window, retreating relentlessly, without any nostalgia.

The people on the train were very quiet, some were looking at the computer, some were sleeping, and some were chatting quietly.There are very few times when I ride a train by myself and don't know what to do.Beside him was a man about 50 or [-] years old, also very quiet, sometimes looking at his phone, sometimes squinting.A casual side face saw a round metal object at his throat. At first he thought it was a pendant or something, but after careful observation, he found that there was a hole in the center, and he seemed to be able to hear the breath coming from it slightly. the sound of.

Accidentally, he found me looking at his throat.I apologized quickly in embarrassment, but he returned my warm smile.He motioned to me that he couldn't speak, then took out his mobile phone and typed on it: "Is it curious?"

I nodded, but immediately apologized, how dare I ask such a thing.

"It's okay, I'm used to it. I was accidentally pierced by a steel bar when I was inspecting the construction site."

Seeing these words suddenly appear on the screen of the phone, I felt a chill down my back and my scalp tingled.It's hard to imagine what kind of pain that was, thankfully, he is still alive after that encounter.Although he lost his voice, it may be really lucky for him to be able to recover his life.

"I see you are in a bad mood, what happened?"

Anyway, it was a stranger who confided to him generously, and he stretched out his hand to help me wipe away my tears, "Young man, be happy, in fact, after you have experienced more things, you will realize that the panic at the beginning , It was a ridiculous experience in the end.”

"Think about it, and spend the rest of your time with the adults. I'm afraid you will miss them when you leave, and you have to do what you want to do. Otherwise, if you don't have a chance to regret it, it will be too late. Now I just talk to you My wife and I travel all over the country."

After I read the words on the phone, he pointed to the woman sitting diagonally opposite, the same, she must be a very optimistic person.I really envy them, he is like this, she will never leave.There must be something that made her feel that being with him is worthwhile!

Am I missing any quality?Make Zhou Ran feel that being with me is not worth it?Don't think about it anymore, I'll get home after a night of sleep.