You are the sunny scenery in my heart

On New Year's Eve, it was really difficult for our little guy. The sound of jingling firecrackers scared him to lie motionless in my arms, with his two big eyes staring out the window. The curiosity was really similar to when I was a child. Some fight.It was impossible to coax him to sleep, it was so lively outside that no adults could fall asleep, let alone a child.So I was at home with my mother and had a family routine with my neighbors. Later, when they wanted to play cards, the little guy and I sat by and watched the Spring Festival Gala.

I thought that I could fully integrate into the hustle and bustle here, without thinking about anything, but for some reason, holding the small key while watching the TV, my eyes suddenly went dark, and I didn't know anything after that.

When I woke up, my heart was filled with fear that it might be coming.

When I opened my eyes, my mother was sitting next to me, holding the sleeping little one in her arms.

"what happened?"

"You finally woke up, but it frightened me. On the night of New Year's Eve, you suddenly passed out for some reason. Fortunately, you woke up this morning, otherwise I would have to take you to the hospital."

"Don't go to the hospital, today...they haven't gone to work yet!"

Look at myself, when I have nothing to do, I get confused first, for fear that others will not know that I have ghosts in my heart.

The little guy in my mother's arms looked at me curiously, blinking his eyes, I smiled at him, but he also looked at me and smiled.

Before noon, Zhou Ran rushed over, rushed to me as soon as I entered the room, and kept asking me if I was still feeling sick and if I wanted to see a doctor.

"It's okay, I'm not a three-year-old kid anymore, and my mother can still make me have an accident at home. It's cold after running all the way here!"

"I didn't even care whether it was cold or not, I rushed over when I received the call."

I glanced at my mother complaining, mother shouldn't, it seems that I am so delicate, even if I have a little ailment, Zhou Ran will come all the way here.

"It's okay, in fact, it happens that I can also look at the little key."

"It's been a few days since I've been away!"

Zhou Ran backed her head in embarrassment. "Whose child doesn't want to?"

When I got home again, it was already the third day of the Lunar New Year, and I came back from my mother with the little guy in a good mood, and brought some sauerkraut along the way. Zhou Ran loved it, and so did I.

The little guy is dishonest occasionally. He likes to grab my wig. He grabbed my wig a few times. When he saw my wig fall off, he would be stunned for a moment, and then he would laugh inexplicably, as if he thought I was doing something wrong. It's like teasing him.

These days are beautiful and sunny, the sun is shining on the ground without hesitation, and there is no trace of snow on the streets.It is indeed a warm winter.

"No, your brain is flooded. What if you catch a cold?"

Zhou Ran vetoed it straight away. I thought it was very warm outside, so I thought about taking the little guy out to get some fresh air. Being stuffy in the house all the time, I tend to get angry.

"How could it be possible to catch a cold in such a warm day? Besides, I'm not an idiot, how could I let him freeze?"

"That won't work, what if!"

I grabbed Zhou Ran's hand, swayed it from side to side, and looked at him with blinking eyes, pitifully.Eventually he gave in to me and went out with me obediently holding the little one.

Really, when the sun is shining, the air smells good.

I looked at Zhou Ran, and watched the gas exhaled from his mouth liquefy in an instant, turning into a cloud of white mist.It may be an unspoken tacit understanding between lovers, he also looked at me, and the two of them looked at each other and smiled.

Facing the sky, I exhaled lightly, and then seriously looked at the white mist in front of me. I didn't expect that the little guy would imitate us and spit on it.

It made Zhou Ran and I laugh out loud, and the little guy was even more overjoyed, exhaling non-stop.

Zhou Ran's worries were not superfluous. Not long after returning home, the little guy really started to cough, his eyes became blurred and he looked sickly.I was so scared that I was at a loss for a while.

"Where is the contact information of the children's doctor that Xin Jing gave you last time!" Zhou Ran thought of this in desperation.

"It's in the drawer under the TV."

Zhou Ran hurried over to look for it, and after a while, Zhou Ran's voice came from the living room: "No!"

"That's in my purse."

I remember that my forehead started to sweat, holding the little guy in a daze.The little guy looked at me with inexplicable eyes, as if laughing at my panic.It's really ridiculous for such a big person to be in a hurry because of a small cold.

After several twists and turns, I finally got in touch with the well-known children's doctor.

"It's nothing serious, don't worry, I'll prescribe some medicine for children, take it on time and you'll be fine."

On the way home, I looked at Zhou Ran timidly, waiting for him to get angry with me. After all, it was my stubborn child who got sick.

Zhou Ran didn't look at me, hugged the little guy, faced forward, and asked me: "When did it happen?"

"What?" I couldn't keep up with his rhythm.

"How long have you had that disease?"

Hearing Zhou Ran say this, my heart skipped a beat. I concealed it in every possible way, but still revealed it inadvertently. I kept the case sheet in my handbag, and I forgot it in a hurry.Suddenly there was a feeling of darkness, I closed my eyes helplessly, thinking about how to face this scene.

"Why didn't you ever tell me about it?"

I kept silent and stuck to my self-righteous kindness.

"Anji, you know that surgery is possible, you know that it's not a problem at all, and we can finally be together stably, why can't you make an effort for this?"

"Zhou Ran, do you know that if the operation fails, I will become a log."

"So what's the matter? You're not the only one in this world. Aren't those logs trying to survive and waiting to become human again one day?"

My eyes are salty, my heart is being grabbed by someone, and my breathing feels oppressed.

"Do you think you won't hurt me if you don't deal with it, and I will feel lucky? An Ji, you are wrong, you don't know what I am afraid of, you don't know what will make me feel desperate, you don't know that I am How can I love you! Is it still in your heart that I have never been qualified to love you?"

I shook my head helplessly, buried my head in his shoulder, choked up, and couldn't speak.

Zhou Ran, I don’t intend to tell you because I love you more. I’m afraid that you will force me to have an operation. I’m afraid that my soul will stay on the operating table. You still love me, you say you don't care if I'm a piece of wood, but I can't allow me to be a burden to others.

Zhou Ran gently hugged me into his arms, the taxi driver was stunned by our intimate behavior.

Under the passing street lamps, I vaguely saw that the corners of Zhou Ran's eyes were wet.

When I got home, the little guy was already asleep. Zhou Ran gently put him in the crib and sat down beside the bed with me.He casually put his arm on my shoulder, and I responded by resting my head on his shoulder.

"Find a time and go for surgery! You don't have to worry about success or failure, I will be with you, but don't stop working hard because of this promise. You have to remember that we still have a family, and we still have a family waiting to be fed. Zhou Jian, we will have a beautiful future."

Nodding silently, soft in Zhou Ran's sweet words, forgetting the bewilderment when he just got the case sheet and the self-righteousness later.