You are the sunny scenery in my heart

In the middle of the night, he was awakened by Zhou Ran's snoring, and it was difficult to fall asleep again.

Slightly turn on the bedside lamp beside me, the dim light is difficult to illuminate the outline of Zhou Ran, stand the pillow on the head of the bed, and gently lean on it.

It's been a long time since I slept in the same bed with him, it's been a long time.

Zhou Ran was drowsy, and his snoring was strong and weak, and he remembered what Zhou Ran had said just now, and it was vivid in his mind.

Xin Jing said that Zhou Ran and Sun Hongwei were together because Zhou Ran suffered from stomach bleeding. I also believed it, but the feeling at that time was not as strong as it is now. At that time, it seemed that I was listening to other people's stories and could not be there. Environment, empathy.At this time, after Zhou Ran drunkenly vomited it, I realized that this incident was so dramatic, but it pushed Zhou Ran's heart to Sun Hongwei so sonorously and forcefully.Now Zhou Ran's body is flowing with Sun Hongwei's blood. Sun Hongwei was by his side when he was the weakest and needed the most care, and served him wholeheartedly.And me, at that time, was I doing something that I thought I was a happy couple with another beast in clothes?

It wasn't that Sun Hongwei used tricks to seduce Zhou Ran, nor was it Zhou Ran's empathy. In fact, it was me who pushed Zhou Ran to Sun Hongwei with my own hands, and said with a smile, "Be happy!"

But I have nothing to be pitiful about, after all, I did it myself!

Zhou Ran and I got separated again in this marathon. He met another person on a road that I hadn't traveled. , In front of my eyes, I couldn't see anything except the fog.This marathon seems to have no end, but it may have already reached the end, the end of Zhou Ran and I, but after reaching the end, I got lost, and Zhou Ran made an appointment with someone else to restart the race, that is another A marathon, I am not eligible to participate.

We have known each other for 13 years, from high school to work, from youth to stability, from throbbing to cherishing, after several ups and downs, after several setbacks, we have lost our innocent smiling faces and lost our silly and innocent faces The sweet words whispered quietly, but we have a journey given to us by God, love or not, joys and sorrows, all tightly intertwined in a web woven by time and space, those love words that have been spoken, The stupid things I have done seem to have passed away, but they are as clear as yesterday.

If you want to ask me if I love Zhou Ran, I can't answer, if I say love, then why do I like Yang Lin again?If you say you don't love, what is the reason for the sadness at this time?

It is undeniable that Zhou Ran has long been imprinted in my heart. Even if I am in that heavy city, I will think of him from time to time, wondering what he is doing, and whether he is thinking of me.For me, Zhou is not as simple as a memory, he is a part of me.He is also a part of me when two people are separated, and he is also a part of me, and I can't take it away.

Zhou Ran got up at night and was surprised to find that I hadn't slept.

Half asleep and half awake, said: "What time is it, why are you still not asleep?" After speaking, he sat up and planned to get out of bed.

"Not sleepy, too much nap in the afternoon."

Zhou Ran stood on the ground, looked at his body, looked back at me, didn't speak again, walked to the bathroom, turned on the light skillfully, and then heard the sound of drainage and flushing.

Lie back on the bed again, buried his face in the pillow, and said, "Did we do something?"

"no!"

Zhou Ran raised his head suddenly, and looked at me with vicissitudes written all over his face, as if he could see a little loss in his eyes.

"Will Sun Hongwei blame you for not coming home at night?"

"What are you afraid of? I just said you didn't let me go."

"Don't say that, as if I'm a rascal, and I didn't seduce you."

I was shocked when I said this sentence, why did I confront Zhou Ran in such a tone?Could it be that in my heart, Zhou Ran was still seduced by Sun Hongwei?

"That's true, I'm not someone who can be easily seduced." When Zhou Ran said this, he was obviously displeased.

He rolled over and leaned against the head of the bed like me.

"Give me your hand." Zhou Ran turned to me and said.

I didn't know what he was going to do, so I handed it over obediently.He took my hand and breathed a sigh of relief.His hands were still soft and warm.

As if back to youth, when two people slept on the same bed for the first time, they were so excited that they didn't know what to do, so they held hands until dawn.

"Time flies, remember the first time we slept together in the same bed?"

Sure enough, the two of us recalled that time at the same time.

"How could you forget. We were so stupid back then, we didn't know what to do?"

"Actually, I knew it at the time. I checked a lot of things on the Internet before, but I really couldn't bear to think of all the accidents that might happen to you the first time. You didn't know. That night I secretly bought a box of condoms, the most expensive in the store."

I still blushed when I heard that, it turned out that from that time on, Zhou Ran had considered things more thoughtfully than me, and had seen many more things than me.

Looking at Zhou Ran secretly from the corner of his eye, he casually leaned against the head of the bed, his eyes staring straight ahead, and there was nothing in front of him, unlike his bedroom, where there was a single frame.At this moment, how much I want to lean on his shoulder very naturally, then close my eyes, and then I can fall asleep with peace of mind.

Zhou Ran tightened his hand, looked at me and said, "What are you thinking, so engrossed?"

I shyly opened my eyes and looked at him smiling.There was a very strong urge to kiss her, but it suddenly occurred to her that those lips had already been kissed a hundred times by another person just yesterday, and she instantly lost interest.

"Anji!" Zhou Ran's voice became more and more pleasant. It should be because he hadn't smoked a cigarette since the last time, and his throat was slowly being maintained, and his voice became brighter.

"what happened?"

"If possible, I still hope that you can wait for me, wait for me and Sun Hongwei to explain that he and I really can't last long, and then we can get together again, okay?"

I was a little moved, but more because I felt that Zhou Ran might be ruthless in doing so, so what about Sun Hongwei?

"I'm just joking, don't take it too seriously." Seeing that I didn't answer, Zhou Ran smoothed things over by himself.

I looked at him, smiling bitterly.

I yearn for Zhou Ran like a wolf like a tiger, but I don't have the courage to take him as my own. Looking at the temptation in front of me, I try my best to suppress the raging fire in my heart.Could it be that this is what Gao Ze said, the so-called kindness?

"Zhou Ran, go to bed! Get up early tomorrow morning, and go back to have breakfast." Let go of his hand, lay down flat, and turn off the bedside lamp.

In the darkness, he heard a soft sigh and fell silent.