You are the sunny scenery in my heart

That night, my mother, stepfather and sister came here to see me.The three of them were so excited that they didn't know what to say. My stepfather kept laughing, my mother kept crying, and my sister kept asking me if I was feeling well.I feel very distressed, how worried and terrified they should be during the period when I was not conscious.At a time when they were lost in my absence, I was ignorant of their concern.For me, in these three years, there is only one dream so short, but for them, for Gao Ze, it should be like a year!

I was lying on the bed, and my mother was sitting next to me, holding my hand tightly, refusing to let go.She is afraid, she is afraid of a little negligence, I left without saying goodbye, and it will take another three to five years to come back.Thinking of this, the corners of his eyes began to moisten. Afraid that his mother would see it, he hurriedly called Gao Ze over, ordered carelessly for a while, and swallowed the tears.

"My child, don't always lie on the bed. It's very hot in summer, so don't add any other troubles." My mother's gentle voice reminded me, echoing in my ears.

"Ok!"

During the period when my mother was here, it was also difficult for Gao Ze, who had to serve me, mother and stepfather at the same time.

Mom is used to it, but I feel a little ashamed.

When my mother, sister and stepfather were all going to rest, I looked at Gao Ze seriously and said, "Thank you for staying with me during the three years I was stolen." I could feel tears rolling in my eyes , it seems that it will flow out in the next second.

"Hold it back! How can you cry on such a good day!" Gao Ze smiled and blamed, full of pity.

At this moment, I feel happy. Gao Ze is the second person after Zhou Ran who can give me such a happy feeling.I thought I wouldn't be moved again, but it turned out that I overestimated myself.Not a single-minded person, unable to love someone until death.However, I feel that the empathy at this time is something to be proud of.

The Sri Lankan has passed away, and the past is gone.Since we live in the present moment, there is only one person that should be cherished.

Gao Ze watched me staring out the window in a daze, carefully, helped me up, let me lean on the pillow comfortably.I smile at him.Sitting next to me, he also smiled back at me and asked me, "What do you think?"

"It's okay, I'm just thinking about what you were doing while I was asleep!"

"What else can I do, live as usual!"

"There is no picture at all!"

"By the way, I've booked you the muscle stretching training in the rehabilitation center. Starting tomorrow, we'll have to run around the city and the countryside every day. Don't you think it's bumpy?"

"I don't think so!"

He smiled at me warmly and played with my hair with his hands.

This scene is suddenly very familiar, and there is another person in my memory who has done similar actions to me many, many years ago, but it is different from this, so unforgettable that I still remember it to this day.

I got all the news about Zhou Ran from others, so what is he like now?Have you aged a lot?Are there any wrinkles?Do you have watery eyes?Do you still have a beard for me?Who is the beard for?

I want to ask, but I feel that asking this question at this time is really heartless.So many times is enough.

In fact, I can’t say whether I still love him or not, maybe I just feel that there is someone in my heart, and I want to know how he is doing now, whether he is doing well, whether his mentality is good, and whether there is anyone around him who takes care of him.

Because I went back and forth between the city and the countryside, I finally couldn't stand the toss. Gao Ze saw that I couldn't bear it, so he arranged to live in my house in C City.

Because no one has come for a long time, the furniture has been covered with a thick layer of soil.

Press the power button of the TV and found that the power has already been cut off.

It took half an afternoon to clean up before he barely returned to his original state. Gao Ze was so tired that he wiped the sweat from his forehead thoughtfully.

I took a break and went to see Xin Jing alone.

It happened that Xin Jing came out from the door of the building and was very excited to see me.Ask me why I came to City C without saying hello to her in advance.She was going to pick up the child from the kindergarten, and she also said, "Xiao Jian is also in that kindergarten, do you want to go and see him?"

"really?"

Xin Jing was very punctual, and a large group of little guys came out from the kindergarten gate, escorted by young teachers.Outside the door are parents from all walks of life, some are parents, some are grandparents.

"Come on! Little Hua'er, come to mom!" Xin Jing shouted to a beautiful little girl not far in front of her. Three years will not change much for an adult, but, Children have become I do not know.

"Why did you change your name?"

"Xiao Hua is nice to hear and easy to remember."

Xiao Hua'er saw a strange person beside her mother, she was a little timid and didn't dare to move forward, Xin Jing called out again, and then approached cautiously.She quickly threw herself into Xin Jing's embrace, and looked at me curiously.Already forget me!

"That's the little key!" Xin Jing pointed to a little boy and said to me.I followed her fingers and looked over, the boy, slightly retreating from his infancy, with a smile on his face, stood by the roadside, waiting for someone from his family to pick him up.I walked over slowly and looked at him.

When he got close to him, he found me, stared at me blankly, and looked at me at a closer distance, Xiao Jian and his father were really carved out of the same mold, with the same thick eyebrows and big eyes as Zhou Ran.He looked at me, and the corners of his mouth twitched slightly, "Little Daddy, are you Little Daddy?"

I was surprised!Xin Jing was as shocked by Xiao Jian's words as I was.

Why did he call me baby daddy?Why does he still remember me?For three years, when I took care of him, he was still such a little boy, how could he remember who I am?I looked at Xin Jing in surprise, she also looked at a loss.

"Dad, did you come back to live with us?" Xiao Jian grabbed my hand and said.

"You?" I don't know what the child is talking about.

"Dad said, one day, little daddy will come back to live with us. I must tell daddy, I found little daddy." Xiao Jian looked very happy, as if he had obtained the gift he had been coveting for a long time. Happy as candy.

"Are you really Xiaojian?"

"Little dad, don't you remember me? I'm Xiao Jian, Zhou Jian! You even changed my diaper when I was young, have you forgotten?"

Xin Jing next to me was already overjoyed, and Xiao Jian's words also amused me. It was supposed to be my words, but it came out of such a big child, which made me a little embarrassed.

"Of course I remember, but why do you call me little daddy?"

"Father made it, and it was father who made it. Daddy said to call him Daddy, and call you Little Daddy."

Suddenly, I felt that there were too many things, Xiaojian had experienced too many things, and I had never experienced them.I'm a little curious about his past!

"Zhou Xiaojian! Come to Dad!"

A familiar shout crossed the sky...

79

I heard Zhou Ran's familiar voice, and turned my head without thinking. Beside the car, there was a man leaning on the side. The setting sun hit the car window and his profile, as if it had been plated with gold.

"Dad!" Xiao Jian happily ran over, grabbed Zhou Ran's hand, and pulled him towards me, "Dad, I really saw my little dad."

Zhou Ran looked at me, and I looked at him, smiling at the same time.

I finally saw him, after the car accident, finally I could see him again.He really grew a beard, short and very black.The hairline is still clean, and when she smiles, there are shallow crow's feet at the corners of her eyes.The cheekbone has been raised, and it is pushed out by the muscles at the corners of the mouth.

"Hi!" The unremarkable greeting didn't seem like the scene when the two had known each other very well before meeting each other after three years.A little dry, which puts me off.

"Hi!"

"Would you like to go home for a while?" He said vaguely.

"No need, I came here in a hurry, just take a look... Xiaojian then leave."

"Little Daddy, come home with us!" Xiao Jian ran to me and tugged at the corner of my clothes.

I knelt down, stroked his head, and said, "No way, my little daddy has his own home. Little Key is going home, and little daddy is going home too. When I come to see you next time, I'll buy you a lot of them." Is something good?"

"Not good! Not good! I want my little daddy to go home with us. Dad will cook a lot of delicious food, and my little daddy will definitely like it." Xiaojian Laipi said.I'm a little embarrassed to say that, I don't want to deceive the little guy, but I don't want to disappoint him either.I am at a loss.

"Sit in the car, my little dad and I have something to say to adults." Zhou Ran's tone was slightly serious, Xiao Jian let go of his hand obediently, sat in the car slowly with his head down, and said before closing the door : "Dad, we must let the little dad go back with us!"

"I heard from Gao Chong that you woke up a long time ago. I wanted to take the time to visit you, but I was a little busy with work and had to take care of this child, so I kept putting it off." Zhou Ran didn't look at me when he said this.I know that he must be concerned about Gao Ze, if it were me, knowing that I woke up, I would stop all the work in my hand and run over in a second.

I smiled wryly, "Why does the little guy call me little daddy?"

"Oh, he," Zhou Ran sniffed, "one day he saw a photo of the two of us, grabbed me and asked who you were, and I told him you were his father. Then he asked me why he had Two dads, I say you are his little dad."

"and then?"

"Then he remembered it. I didn't expect him to recognize you."

I pretended to believe it.

"You recently……"

"Very good, my parents are also very good, yes, Lao Zhang and Hongwei are also very good." He said while nodding his head.

Seeing him in a hurry, I felt that my trip was ridiculous.

"It's getting late, I'm going back, you should go too."

"Okay, give me a call before you come next time, and I'll take you to my house for a sit down."

I nodded.

Zhou Ran turned around, opened the car door, started the car, rolled down the rear window, and the little key exposed his little head, and said, "Little Daddy must come and see me!"

"Will do!"

The car gradually disappeared into the traffic.

"Little guys are more caring than adults. But it's a coincidence that Grandma Xiaojian used to pick him up. How come Zhou Ran is free today."

I didn't think much about it, now his life has nothing to do with me, I just need this one look, I just need to look at them, and that's it.I know they still exist in this world, in a corner that I can't observe, they are still alive, that's all.

Didn't stay for dinner, even though Xin Jing was already slightly annoyed.

When I got home, Gao Ze prepared dinner and waited for me, and I was already asleep on the sofa alone.The sound of closing the door woke him up, he squinted his eyes and looked at me and said, "I'm back, hurry up and eat, I'm going to starve to death." Then he stood up staggeringly.

"I've been out for a whole day. Are you tired? After dinner, sit on the sofa and I'll give you a massage."

Compared with Zhou Ran, the warm feeling that this person in front of me gives me is real and makes me feel appropriate.He gave up the prosperity of the city for me, the bright future for me, and the mission of carrying on the family line for me.He selflessly poured his own three years of youth on me, served me meticulously, and made me feel happy every moment.In this world, besides him, who else would treat me like this?Treat me like a treasure?

To be moved, to be thoroughly moved.

Summer nights are unbearably hot.I sat on the sofa, Gao Ze skillfully massaged me.I once asked why the technique is so sophisticated, could it be done?He said: "I've never done it before. The doctor said that giving you more massages is good for your muscle recovery. Why don't you go learn it? Fortunately, it's not difficult. You can learn it in a few days."

Gao Ze said calmly in my ear, which caused ripples in my heart.

I turned around and let Gao Ze come to me.Because of the hot weather, he was already shirtless, and there was a trace of sweat around his neck.He stared at me with big round eyes, and the corners of his mouth moved unintentionally.I saw the right moment and kissed hard.

The two were entangled in the noisy summer night.

He closed the curtains contentedly.

I have no regrets in this life.

Author's words

It's finally over. After writing this, my feeling is that writing is really not a simple matter.The good news is that everything doesn’t need to be created out of nothing.

A lot of people have asked me, what happened next week?Readers on other sites also asked me, why did Zhou Ran leave Anji in the first place?Are they true love? Was Gao Ze fabricated?Is it because Zhou Ran and An Ji didn't get together later, the author sympathized with An Ji and could arrange such a role, so that poor An Ji would have something to depend on?Also, what is Anji's family like?

There are many questions like these that I don't know the answers to.This is a novel after all, and no matter how hard I try, I can't write it as someone's life, taking every aspect into account.

Some readers contacted me and asked me if I was An Ji in the book, "It can't be the real You Fan, can it?"

Some readers felt that what I wrote was very real, and he said that he felt like he was on the scene after reading it.But he also said that he didn't know what kind of person Anji was, what kind of character he had, and what he had to be proud of.Except for that obvious cowardice.

What everyone is most concerned about is whether there is such a period in life.I can't tell clearly, when the truth is false, the false is also true, and the false is true, and the true is also false.There are some dreams that you can believe after doing them.Some stories make me cry after listening to them.Believe it, cry it, it is real.

So now to answer your questions.

(After Anji's car accident, in the hospital)

Anji's mother and sister were in the ward.

Zhou Ran slumped on the bench outside the door, dejected.He was very disappointed, he was very disappointed with himself, why did An Ji, a person who was not familiar with driving, be allowed to drive on such a heavy white snow.Why didn't I wake up immediately when the accident happened.Why let the weak An Ji sacrifice himself to save him.

Zhou Ran didn't dare to raise his head, even though there was no one sitting opposite him, he just felt ashamed to face it.He felt that the person lying in it should be himself.Anji has suffered too much, but God is not a person who is full of sympathy.Zhou Ran began to reflect on himself, what exactly did he bring to Anji?It is undeniable that I love him, but isn't it also because of my meticulous love that I have caused him to be in dire straits several times?After all, he was still hurting him.Anji's eyes, Anji's brain tumor, Anji's car accidents again and again, which natural disasters and man-made disasters have nothing to do with him?Could it be that he is Anji's catastrophe?When two people are together, Anji is doomed to have a bad life?Recalling what happened before, switching to Anji's perspective, it seems that nothing can make him happy.

Gao Ze hurried over and saw Zhou Ran sitting outside at a glance. He rushed over and grabbed Zhou Ran by the neck, glaring at him, but didn't do anything.This is not what he wants to do most at this time. "Wait until I come out and settle accounts with you!"

Gao Ze had already made plans before he came, and he no longer needed to hold back, and he didn't feel at ease if he handed over Anji to anyone.Then it's better to keep it by your side, take care of yourself, and be on guard all the time.Gao Ze asked about An Ji's status.A firm thought came to my mind, "Auntie, I can take care of Anji, please rest assured and leave him to me!"

Mom, still recovering from her grief, flatly refused.

Gao Ze knelt down seriously, and told his mother how he loved Anji and how he was able to protect him.

Zhou Ran outside the door listened to everything without saying a word. At this time, he admired Gao Ze's admiration.He is questioning whether he also has the courage to kneel on the ground and take care of a person who is close to a vegetative state as his lifelong belief.He didn't have an answer, because he didn't plan to do so, so when he saw Gao Ze's sincerity, he had to admire him sincerely.

Xin Jing also came over. She saw Zhou Ran sticking to the door, Gao Ze kneeling on the ground, and her mother and sister hurriedly refused.You'll know what's going on right away.It is no exaggeration to introduce this great painter to my sister and mother, who may be the person who loves Anji the most in the whole world.

The eyes of the mother and sister are full of doubts, such a person who came out of nowhere, said to be the person who loves Anji the most in the world, whoever it is, would be hesitant!

"Give me a week to prepare. After a week, you can see if I am sincere. At that time, you can decide whether to hand over Anji to me."

After Gao Ze finished speaking, he stood up firmly. He still needs to solve one thing, the matter between the two men.

Gao Ze asked Zhou Ran out, and the two of them sat on the table next to the rear glass door in winter, and in front of them was the Kung Fu tea that the waitress skillfully brewed.

"Zhou Ran, it is undeniable that I do not love An Ji any less than you. The reason why I didn't show anything before was because An Ji loved you at that time, and I knew he loved you, so even though I loved him, I Respect his choice." Gao Ze took a breath and continued: "However, it's different now, and I don't feel relieved to continue handing him over to you. You, as a man, can't protect him well, except you are not as good as I imagined. Apart from loving him like that, I can't think of any other reason. So now I want to take him away from you, I'm different from you, I can't just watch him go away from me. "

What Gao Ze said is all the truth, but Zhou Ran knows in his heart that he loves Anji, but it may be because he is used to love, and he no longer has the mood to be moved when he meets.And when An Ji was in a dangerous situation, he was really drunk.If he knew that such a thing might happen, even if he killed Zhou Ran, he would definitely not drink so much.

It's just that it's too late to say anything now, An Ji lay there, not knowing anything.

Gao Ze complained about Zhou Ran's uselessness, and his uselessness in taking care of Anji, Zhou Ran listened to everything, without resisting or explaining.

The two men sat in the teahouse on such a cold afternoon, chatting away.

"So, for the rest of the time, I will take care of An Ji!" Gao Ze said firmly.

Zhou Ran didn't know what reason to refuse, just when Gao Ze heard in the hospital that he and Anji's future had been properly prepared, he knew that he had failed.Leaving aside such a beautiful idea, Zhou Ran didn't even think about how to take care of such a paralyzed person in bed.

Weakly said: "Okay..."

Since then, Zhou Ran has not appeared around An Ji again. He knows that it is time to leave. The current An Ji is different from the past. He has someone who loves him deeply, so he cannot treat him with the same attitude as before.Perhaps my departure this time is a harmless thing for everyone.But he didn't go far. He needs to know when Anji will wake up. He is looking forward to that day, but he also rejects that day. He doesn't know what kind of identity he will face the awakened Anji. , he didn't have the courage to face those big eyes that were equally piercing, and he was even more afraid that An Ji would ask him: "Why was I the only one who walked into the gate of hell? Why didn't you save me then?" Zhou Ran's feelings for An Ji , It is no longer as simple as love and guilt.

Fortunately, Zhou Ran is a person who makes decisions immediately, which made him leave Anji five years ago, and it made him leave again at this time.Resolutely, even if there are countless opportunities for him to choose again later, he will walk this path again without hesitation.This is Zhou Ran's way of loving Anji, it is his own fault, and it is unforgettable.

Zhou Ran just has such a vigor, a vigor to do what he says, he can really stop appearing by Anji's side after he decides not to appear by Anji's side, and then devote himself to his work Among them, I worked overtime until late at night and got up early every day.While working and taking care of his own children, Zhou Ran knew very well that in the future, he and An Ji could only depend on this innocent little guy.So, occasionally, I would show Xiao Jian the photos of the two of them together before, and tell him what happened at that time, while asking Xiao Jian to call the person next to Zhou Ran "little daddy".

"Why the baby daddy?" Xiao Jian wondered why other children have a father and a mother, and there is a baby daddy after she has a father.

"Because this is also your father, but younger than your father!" Zhou Ran patiently told Xiao Jian every time.

"Besides, he will definitely come to see you in the future. By then, you must behave very obediently."

"Why? Am I disobedient now?"

"No, it's to be more obedient than now."

"why?"

"Because, because you are obedient, he will like you!"

"Oh, but where is baby daddy now? Why doesn't he live with us?"

"Little dad is quite naughty, he likes to wander outside, I think he must be driving a boat towards our house now!"

"Then when will he arrive? I really want to see him now, and I want him to hug me."

"He'll be here soon."

"Oh……"

Zhou Ran used this beautiful lie to coax the little key to sleep again and again.If a sentence is always on the lips over and over again, I will believe it in the end.Zhou Ran also always thought that An Ji was really standing on a small boat, rushing towards their home in a hurry, there were wind and rain, waves and sharks along the way.

At another small gathering with Gao Chong, he was overjoyed when he heard the news that An Ji had woken up.Planning everything for myself, I wish I could rush to Anji's side in a second, look at him, look at his weak face, and look at his anxious look when he is equally excited and speechless.

Instead of going home, I called my mother and drove straight to An Ji's house.

That kind of excitement, as if the groom is about to receive the bride.After Zhou Ran got out of the car, he did not forget to tidy up his clothes. He would never allow himself to appear in front of An Ji with disheveled clothes.There was still a word echoing in my heart: wait, Xiao Jian, I will take your little dad back to you right away!

Suddenly, Zhou Ran's smile froze. He was standing downstairs in Anji's house, looking up at the small window that was not lit. Then he remembered that Gao Ze had picked Anji up three years ago. gone.But Zhou Ran was three years late.

Zhou Ran slumped on the ground, what happened to him, didn't he know that An Ji had been taken away by Gao Ze?Why did he get carried away when he heard Gao Chong say that Anji had woken up?

On the way back, Zhou Ran saw the railway tracks.Every time An Ji goes home, he takes the train running on this track. Thinking about it this way, it seems that this lonely track is full of warmth.If there are no thoughts in this world, is it necessary to lay such a long track?

It was still from Gao Chong that An Ji came to City C.

He drove to Xiaojian's kindergarten and appeared opposite the entrance, waiting to see that delicate face, that face that he thought about day and night, and then appeared in everyone's field of vision chicly.

I am quite satisfied with the performance of the small key, but in front of Anji, I must behave calmly, and Anji likes calm and breezy.

……

Zhou Ran went to the vegetable market, because he felt a little struggling to take care of Xiaojian while working. He saw a woman, plainly dressed, smiling, with a straight body, still childish, but it made people feel that there was a story.Walk up to her and bring her home.

The woman is a hardworking person, and she keeps Zhou Ran's house in order. Xiao Jian also likes her very much, and Zhou Ran's mother is not too picky about her.

After a long time, the photos of the two appeared in the same little red book.

Two people sleep in the same bed.

One day, a woman asked Zhou Ran: "Why did you choose me?"

"Because I think you are like a painting, a young boy leaning on the railing beside the wheat field!"

"You're quite artistic..."

"I learned from others..."