Senior Class Three

My name is Wang Ruohan.

In the first year of high school, I went to Beibei High School. I knew that I was not my parents' biological child. I found the reason why they hated me, and finally let go of it.

Seeing their family of three enjoying themselves happily, I am envious.Even if Ruoqin hadn't been born four years ago, the relationship between me and my parents was still close.With Ruoqin's arrival, I completely lost the qualification to be a member of the family.

That was the darkest period of my life, no relatives, no friends, no one to hurt.Human beings abandoned me, and I became superfluous.I thought, if I die suddenly, will anyone shed a tear for me?Knowing my life experience, I often cry secretly. I am timid, and I am the most suitable target to be bullied by others.

On the way home, I met Yang Qian, a third-year senior in high school, who is also a gangster.

Yang Qian forced me to take out the money. My money was only enough for living expenses, and I gave it all to him. He felt that the money was too little, so he beat and kicked me, and threatened me to go home and ask my parents for more money. Otherwise, he would leave school every day. bully me.

They besieged me for two consecutive days, and on the third day, Zhang Yongqiang appeared.He and Cha Nan beat Yang Qian away, and I took the opportunity to escape the scene quietly.Zhang Yongqiang gave Yang Qian a hard lesson, and he never came to bully me again, but turned to bully other people in the same school. Zhang Yongqiang caught him and beat him up, and he disappeared in Beiji High School.Zhang Yongqiang fought against injustice and hated evil, and since then his reputation has been shaken, and everyone in the four major high schools knows everyone.

As a token of appreciation, I sneakily gifted Zhang Yongqiang red flip-flops.There are two main reasons why I gave flip-flops: one is that he and Yang Qian fought for the second time, and I found that the red flip-flop tape under his feet was broken, so I planned to give him a new pair; Slippers are cheaper.

On the way to school that he had to pass, I ordered the boss who sold flip-flops in advance, and lured Zhang Yongqiang into the bait on the grounds of a free lottery.All the scratch cards are replaced with the third prize, which is the red flip-flops. No matter how you choose, you will always win.He picked the right size and replaced the broken slippers.

Unexpectedly, two years later, my lottery trick would be used on myself. Like Zhang Yongqiang, I was deceived by others.

After wearing them for two or three months, the weather is getting colder, but Zhang Yongqiang never changed his shoes, which I never expected.Another month later, the red flip-flops I gave him broke.I also asked the boss to tell Zhang Yongqiang personally that their shoes will be traded in for free for three years.

After all, I gave him a total of eight pairs of red flip-flops. In the past three years, his shoe size has become bigger and bigger, but there is only one pair that he wears repeatedly.

In the second year of Arctic High School, we were in different classes, and there were very few opportunities to meet each other.I pretended to pass by their class, occasionally glanced at him to satisfy my wish.Seeing him wearing the slippers I gave him, I feel indescribably happy.However, he also wears slippers in winter, and I blame myself, why not give him a pair of sneakers that can be worn in all seasons.

I can only be so frustrated, because I don't have that much money at all.

One weekend in the second semester of high school, I fainted on the way to the city library, and the ambulance took me to a nearby hospital.A doctor wearing a black peaked cap with the word "King" embroidered in white told me that I had liver cancer and that I had few days left to live.He prescribed several large packets of cola-like medicine for me, and told me to come to the hospital to pick it up after drinking it, as long as I reported my name.

At that time, I was immersed in the pain of death, and I didn't realize why the doctor told me about my condition, why they didn't find my relatives, and why they didn't pay me for the medicine.When I thought about these key issues, I went to find that doctor. The other doctors in the hospital said they didn't know this person.I thought he was a liar, he didn't take the medicine on time, the pain was tossing and turning that night, it was unbearable, he was like a living horse doctor, and he drank the medicine nervously, but after a while, his body became much more relaxed.

Tell another doctor that I am an orphan and hope they will tell the truth about my physical condition.They gave me another free body checkup, and it was confirmed that I had liver cancer.Like a bolt from the blue, I hid in the hospital toilet and cried for more than half an hour, as if nothing had happened, and went home with a bag of medicine.

On the penultimate day of the summer vacation of the second year of high school, someone came to my parents and asked me to transfer to Nanmo High School.I wanted to be in Beibei High School with Zhang Yongqiang, and I didn't want to transfer to another school. I was about to politely reject that person. When I looked up and saw the kind and warm smiles of my parents, I hesitated.

I am afraid of attracting attention, afraid that Zhang Yongqiang will see through my thoughts and hate me. After all, I am timid, cowardly and incompetent, and no one will like me.If you don't intend to express your heart to Zhang Yongqiang in this life, it is better to bury it.

I promised to go to Nanmo High School.

Bought a bottle of Coke, dumped the drink, tore off the label, and filled the day's supply to take to the new school.

On the first day of school, I unexpectedly met Zhang Yongqiang again.So similar to the first encounter, Yang Qian bullied me for the fourth time, and Zhang Yongqiang rescued me for the second time.I went to Nanmo High School with him, and I was in the same class. I was so happy that I couldn't sleep all night.

Knowing that I would not live long, I mustered up the courage to approach Zhang Yongqiang. Anyway, I only have one year to live, so let's indulge a little bit.

If it wasn't about to die, I would never take the initiative to walk towards him, just like in Arctic High School, just watch from a distance.

In order to get close to him, I thought of many tricks, such as sending "108 Ways to Improve Academic Performance" and let him teach me to become stronger.The closer I get to him, the more I am addicted to his tenderness and consideration, the more I can't control my heart, so much so that I want to stay by his side forever.This wish was impossible to come true, and my heart was in so much pain that I became a crybaby.

Maybe I have become stronger and may change the fact that I have liver cancer. I have been paralyzing myself like this.So, no matter how hard it is, I will work hard and try to become stronger, hoping to become like the strong brother, who can protect the weak from wind and rain.

Brother Qiang planned to pursue Yuan Xiaoling, I was hit hard, I forgot to take my medicine on time, curled up in a ball and couldn't bear to live.Only then did I know that the way to relieve heartache is to make my body hurt more.In order for Brother Qiang to be happy, I put aside my selfish thoughts, tried every means to match the two of them, and even wrote a love letter for him myself.

I'm not a saint, and I'm still selfish.Only the first sentence of that love letter was written to Yuan Xiaoling by me on behalf of Brother Qiang, and I wrote all the rest to Brother Qiang.This is my secret, no one knows I'm cheating except me.

Brother Qiang bit off the fingers of the gangsters to protect me. I rested at home with him for a day. From his attitude and words, I knew that he might like me.I'm a dying person and I can't let this happen.

I can like him, he can't like me.

As winter is approaching, I am afraid of the cold, and even more afraid of death. I don’t know when I will die alone, and I will never see Brother Qiang again.

I pay attention to the weather forecast every day, and I dream of watching the first snow in the third year of high school with Brother Qiang, which is also the last snow in my life.

The snow finally fell, and most of our high school (17) class was in Ruchunlin.Brother Qiang went after Ma Muzhi's school girl Ye Linchun, but he and I still missed the opportunity to watch the snow together.I was so sad and lost that I couldn't even drink the medicine. I fell asleep on the cold floor in pain and caught a cold. I couldn't go to the hospital to visit the injured Ma Muzhi.

Brother Qiang has repeatedly found opportunities to confess his love, and I have repeatedly changed the subject, but he is not angry and keeps trying.Why don't I want to accept him, I can only pretend that I don't know anything, be an emotional idiot, and silently guard his last few months as a brother or apprentice.

In the next semester, my physical condition is getting worse and worse.On the first day of the school opening ceremony, I coughed after only a little rain.That was the first time I coughed up blood. Although the doctor wearing a strange hat prescribed me medicine, it couldn’t stop the disease from getting worse. My liver cancer was in the advanced stage, and I barely survived the college entrance examination.

To prevent Brother Qiang from finding out that I was seriously ill, I hid the blood on my palm and said to him "Brother Qiang, don't, don't bully your classmates", I really wanted to tell him "Brother Qiang, don't leave me, I will I like you for three years."

Go to the toilet to wash off the black blood. After washing off, you can’t see it. If you can’t see it, you’re not sick. If you’re not sick, you can continue to like Brother Qiang.

On the night of June 6th, I knew all the truth.

I became the only living person in class 17, which is a million times more painful than liver cancer.I would rather die including me, I don't want to live, I want to see Brother Qiang.Brother Qiang didn’t know my intentions before he died, and I haven’t had time to tell him: Brother Qiang, I like you very, very much.

The other students are running towards the same world in pairs, so why is there a yin and yang gap between me and Brother Qiang?Why did the collective choose me to live a good life?It's not fair.I'm also a member of class 17, and I'm still the class leader. Why don't you let me participate in such an important choice?Why……

Tears were like ditches, all spilled on the open black notebook, blurring and smearing the handwriting.Gradually, the black characters corroded into grains of sand that could not be grasped and scattered with the wind.I growled and hid my notebook closest to my heart.

This is the last thought left to me by Brother Qiang and his classmates. I want to protect it and not let them disappear.When I opened the notebook again, I couldn't see any words. The paper was as white as snow, as if it had just been unpacked, without water stains or creases.

I flew into a rage and threw the notebook in the trash, not accepting their choice, I don't want the notebook, I just want them back.

After living for 18 years, it was the first time I really got angry.I cried and made noises, smashed the window glass, cut the sheets and quilts, threw them into the sky, and looked at the fluttering snowflakes I dreamed of with a smirk.My parents thought I was being stimulated and came to comfort me one after another.I pushed them away angrily, pointed at their noses and yelled at them, repeating all the obscenities I learned from Chanan.

Instead of being angry, they felt more guilty and blamed themselves, crying bitterly with me.

so funny.

They used to scold me, but now I scold them.Sure enough, as Mr. Shen said, "Fate favors you, you will have a smooth journey, and no one will be your stumbling block."

It's so funny that I make trouble for no reason and someone cares about me and loves me.

This is in exchange for the lives of 20 people, I don't want it, I would rather die.

Unable to persuade them, they called my own father, Brother Wang, in the middle of the night.

As soon as Brother Wang came, I shifted the blame and scolded him loudly.He fell to his knees and sincerely apologized to me.

I violently kicked the chair away like Brother Qiang, and rushed out the door with tears all over my face.My parents and Brother Wang followed me all the way, for fear that I would do something stupid.

When I met an Alaskan dog on the road, I suddenly thought of my elder brother, and thought of Qian Youcai's entrustment, so I couldn't help but call out my elder brother's name.The Alaskan came running up to me, wagging its tail around me.

I cupped its face, "Brother, what should I do?"

"Ow Oo"