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When Xing Congjing was 12 years old, because of an accident at home, all seven members of the family except him suffered accidents. He no longer had any close relatives in this world overnight.

The whole year when he was 12 years old, he was like a burden, a burden, and was arranged to live in another distant relative's house from his own.

Until one day He Tianxi's parents appeared in front of him, lowered their heads and asked him: "Come with us and live in our house, okay? Our family also has a son who is about the same age as you, and he is younger than you." In a few months, you can call him brother."

Xing Congjing moved away from home at the age of 13 and moved into He Tianxi's house.

He Tianxi's family lives in the villa area of ​​Crane City, and he needs to drive in and out of the community.

Xing Congjing's family situation is too ordinary in comparison. He just graduated from elementary school at the age of 12. Before that, the most important problem in life was how to save money for breakfast every day to buy snacks and collect a set of cards.

And every day after that is used to learn to be quiet, learn to depend on others, and learn to accept that I will be left behind by others at any time.

On the day of He Tianxi's 25th birthday, he held a birthday party with his friends at night. Xing Congjing's work was on the rise. He rushed to the scene when his birthday was about to pass, and his clothes were meticulously dressed as if he had just come down from a certain meeting.

He Jialin booed and said that Xing Congjing is so unwilling to miss Tianxi's birthday, work and love are both good, amazing.

The impression of Xing Congjing in this circle of friends is always "excellent". Whether it is his personality in dealing with people or his ability to act decisively, someone will always give the word "excellent" when talking about it.

Xing Congjing is a formidable person, no matter whether his family suffered huge changes when he was a child, he is still very strong, or he has been living under the fence for several years, whether he is not humble or overbearing, whether it is the arrangement of his future life, the things he wants to achieve, or he is with He Tianxi He never tried to hide it, it's all his "powerfulness".

Everyone who knows him can praise Xing Congjing with their fingers.

Only He Tianxi would sit on the sofa and smoke while shaking his legs, laughing and retorting Xing Congjing's awesomeness under He Jialin's mocking compliment.

"He wears an invulnerable skin like a dog, and hides a cowardly soul behind his back."

He Tianxi said that they were all deceived by Xing Congjing's decent appearance. Xing Congjing is not only not good, he is simply terrible.

Xing Congjing has always been a terrible man.

From the afternoon he moved into his home at the age of 13, he had been trembling about his own life in the next few years and the next few decades.

When Xing Congjing was young, he lived on the third floor of He Tianxi's house. He would get up early every day because he was afraid to help his aunt make breakfast for the family, help with cleaning, help with packing, and ask He Tianxi with his chin raised. "Who are you? Why did you appear in my house?" I couldn't find a word that could answer the question.

There is a seven-year age difference between He Tianxi and his own brother. Because of his health, he hardly had a collective campus life when he was young.At that time, there were not many people of the same age that he knew, except for the sister Jialin in the building next door.

Before Xing Congjing came to his house, He Tianxi's favorite thing to do was to sneak to the next door to find sister Jialin to play when there was no one at home. After Xing Congjing came, he didn't run to the next door. He started to follow Xing Congjing all day long like an idiot.

Xing Congjing was arranged by He Tianxi's parents to study in junior high school in Hecheng. He would bring small gifts to He Tianxi after school every day. Sometimes it was a boring little card, and sometimes it was a toy the size of a fingernail when he bought snacks A car, sometimes a piece of candy, or even a strangely shaped stone picked up on the road.

Xing Congjing spent a lot of time making the youngest son of the He family happy, and He Tianxi was indeed very happy.

In He Tianxi's impression, before he was 12 years old, among those who were not relatives, his favorite person was sister Jialin, and his favorite person after 12 years old was Xing Congjing.

He Tianxi can honestly say that Xing Congjing played a very important role in his teenage life, because of his intimate relationship, there is definitely a shadow of Xing Congjing in all his formed characters.

Xing Congjing stayed by his side, allowing him to absorb a lot of energy that he didn't know before, making him the current He Tianxi.

He is often scolded by people, and this incident is indeed the real contribution of Xing Congjing. He liked Xing Congjing the most purely in his life, and told him everything that Xing Congjing told him. A sentence is repeatedly chewed in my mind, like learning new knowledge, trying to integrate it into my blood.

He likes to learn how to speak from Xing Congjing, just like he likes Xing Congjing.

Xing Congjing said: "Xiaoxi, don't jump over the fucking wall, go through the main entrance."

He Tianxi followed suit: "Xiao Jing, I'm going to fuck over the wall instead of going through the main entrance."

Xing Congjing narrowed his eyes because of his teasing, and the teenager who started to grow tall patted his calf: "You forced me to be rough."

He Tianxi retorted, "It's not certain who can beat the other."

Xing Congjing crossed his waist with one hand, and pulled him off the wall, sarcastically: "Have you grown, have you grown hair? You are a head shorter than me, can you beat me?"

He Tianxi pretended to be so angry that he jumped, and when he went to bed at night, he still thought that he was not performing well at that time, and that he was not on par with Xing Congjing. At night, he climbed to the third floor with his pillow in his arms, opened Xing Congjing's room door and rushed to Xing Congjing. on the bed, and asked Xing Congjing: "Teach me to swear."

Xing Congjing rolled him into the quilt, and then scolded him: "Stupid."

Because Xing Congjing has always been so strong in his words and deeds, no one of them can see the trembling behind Xing Congjing's self-righteousness. In fact, He Tianxi has never discovered it before. I haven't discovered all the secret pleasing behaviors of Xing Congjing since he was sent under the fence.

I never knew that Xing Congjing was born with a lingering fear of all that was hidden under a thin and mean face.

He Tianxi did not really start school life until he was 14 years old. He entered the first grade of junior high school at the age of 15, two years older than his peers. This is because he wanted to go to school with Xing Congjing every day and begged his mother to come. of.

On the day of school, his mother told Xing Congjing to take care of Tianxi.

Xing Congjing said, "Don't worry, Auntie."

He Tianxi hummed: "I'm such an adult, why do I need him to take care of me?"

Mom patted him on the head to tell him not to be skinny at school, and not to hurt himself by bouncing around.

Later, he climbed over the wall and wanted to go to the high school to find Xing Congjing. He rolled off the wall and hurt his head. When he was in the hospital, he heard his mother accuse Xing Congjing.

Xing Congjing didn't speak, nor did he enter the ward.

He Tianxi reasoned with her mother after she entered the ward: "What does it have to do with Xing Congjing that I am naughty over the wall? I heard you scold him just now?"

Mom said: "You are different from others."

He Tianxi has been thinking for a long, long time, if he hadn't climbed the high school wall when he was 15 years old, would his and Xing Congjing's lives be different in the next ten years or so.

There is no way to speculate on these, and there is no way to predict the life before and after.

It was past nine o'clock in the evening when he, He Jialin, and the three of them drove back to the city center from the cemetery, and the four of them kept silent for a long time.

Yang Eryu, who was driving, asked when getting off the expressway: "Where to stop?"

Sun Ji, the co-pilot, turned his head slightly, with a serious expression on his face: "Tianxi, where do you live at night?"

He Tianxi propped his chin up and looked at the dark receding scenery outside the window, without answering a word.

Yang Eryu tentatively said, "How many days will you stay at my house?"

He Jialin made a final decision: "We will all go to live at your house today."

He Tianxi's eyes were still looking at the darkness outside the window, He Jialin reached out and gently placed his hand on the back of his hand: "Tianxi..."

He Tianxi hummed from his nasal cavity.

He Jialin apologized softly.

He Tianxi hummed again, calmly: "It's okay."

He Jialin was silent for a long time before she said with difficulty: "You really hate him, you really should hate him..." She said, "But why didn't you tell me about this?"

The relationship between He Jialin and He Tianxi is both a sister and a friend. She felt that he would be the first to tell herself about this kind of thing.

He Tianxi asked, "What did you say?"

He Jialin was stunned by the question, and hesitated for a while but couldn't say a word.

Sun Ji, who was sitting in the co-pilot, said calmly: "When something like that happened to you, you are 29 years old now. If he hadn't died, you wouldn't have said anything for the rest of your life? I think you need to see a doctor. I suggest you go see a doctor ..."

Before he finished speaking, He Jialin suddenly yelled, "Shut up, it won't hurt your back to talk standing up." After she finished yelling, she turned her head to look at the back of He Tianxi's head, and lowered her voice, "Sister Jialin knows some psychiatrists. , take you to see it tomorrow?"

He Tianxi said, "No need."

He Jialin's eyes turned red: "Fucking Xing Congjing..." She couldn't continue speaking halfway through. She also knew Xing Congjing for more than ten years, and she never thought that her knowledge of this person would be here. Refresh and rebuild after a person dies.

Sun Ji said: "He's dead, no matter what happened before..." He hesitated for a while, and felt that it would be difficult to say what he said next no matter from any angle.

When a person dies, it doesn't matter whether you love him or hate him, there is nothing you can do.

To die means that all the love and hate about this person in this world should disappear.

The dead don't have any perception ability, only the living will be trapped in the quagmire of love and hate.

The joy he brings to you and the pain you suffer from him should all go away with this person's departure.

It's awful, the only thing you can do.

Only let go.

Even if you are not reconciled.

There was still no sound in the car for a long time. The car drove into the urban area and stopped and stopped in the traffic. He Tianxi, who hadn't spoken for a long time, suddenly asked in the quiet car: "If I forget him too, will I Prove that this person really disappeared in this world?"

None of you will remember him for the rest of his life. All the people in this world who are sad for him will start to live their own lives after being sad for him for a short time. All he has in this world is his memory.

When the memory is overwritten, he ceases to exist.

He Tianxi often asked herself in the 40 days after Xing Congjing's death——

When does a person actually die?

He just got the answer—it was when no one in this world remembered him anymore.

Let Xing Congjing completely disappear from this world, is it revenge for him?

He Tianxi knows better than anyone else that this is of course not, this is his revenge on himself.

The author says:

This chapter timeline is flying around, hopefully it doesn't look messy, if it looks messy...

that's impossible