living guilt

57.

What Chen Zhiping said was not wrong.

Chen Zhiping had already mentioned him in words.Shu Can couldn't understand.They couldn't understand Chen Zhiping's sincere lies, nor could they understand the truth that Chen Zhiping wanted to cover up.

People with different paths are destined not to walk the same path. He and Shi Yun separated much later than God's will.

He still doesn't know Shi Yun well enough. After 20 years of knowing each other, he has cherished, loved, admired, betrayed and blamed sincerely.For a person like Shi Yun, even Chen Zhiping knew that his choice was his renunciation.

One of the characteristics of the human species is that it is extremely cheap.After completely losing a person, even relying on associations can't dig out the treasure that I had.Yes to Shi Yun, yes to Shi Chen.

Right Shichen..

Shi Chen, when he was pouring shower gel into Shi Chen's stomach, Shi Chen's amber eyes were bright and stubborn, he was not always so indifferent, his eyes also told Shu Can clearly that he was very pain.

Shu Can is really a leader in the industry of sluts.

He blindfolded Shi Chen's eyes and deprived Shi Chen of his senses. He called Shi Chen Shi Yun, and Shi Chen shed tears all night. Will feel that I am called Shiyun when it happens again one day.

Shi Chen is like a small animal.A gilled, large-eyed animal with amber pupils.

Shu Can thought, when Shi Chen can be discharged from the hospital, let's buy him a cat.

58.

In Shichen's ward, there was one person missing, and a small red flower was added. I don't know where he found it, and he put the flower on the top cover of the cactus.

Shu Can searched every corner of the hospital, but couldn't find the same flower.

59.

Shu Can never took him to Shu Can's house.

Shi Chen saw himself wearing a hat on the billboard at the taxi stand, which somehow covered the boiled egg, but it was not in season, and people always looked at him.

He borrowed 200 yuan from Wu Min and wrote a serious IOU. Wu Min was embarrassed to accept it, so he put it under his pillow.

Shu Can said she would pay him a salary, but she never paid him, but Shu Can spent a lot of money on his medical treatment, and Shi Chen would be ashamed if it was too much.

He took a taxi to the door of Shu Can's house, saw the lights were on in Shu Can's house, he didn't get out of the car, and asked the driver to wait, the driver didn't want to talk to him, Shi Chen said to give him 100 yuan, the driver said, yes.

Shi Yun went out and dumped a lot of rubbish, it was really a big pile, Shi Yun never worked at home, but he was merciless in throwing out unused things, he was a prodigal.

He looked at Shi Yun from the window of the back seat of the taxi, and Shi Yun looked back at the taxi as if feeling something before entering the door, Shi Chen quickly wiped his eyes, and told the driver, "Hurry up, hurry up."

Shi Chen hoped that the driver would drive more slowly, and also hoped that Shi Yun would come out to take a look.

But the driver didn't have it, and neither did Shi Yun.

When Shi Chen turned his head from the taxi, he curled his lips, brother really goodbye this time.

60.

Today's ferry is very crowded.There are a lot of cars going to the port, it should be a very busy day at the port today.

The wind was strong, Shi Chen lowered his hat a little, he was wearing a very thick down jacket Shu Can bought, even the soles of his feet were warm.

He still has no money now, and if he has money, he will still fulfill his promise to Shu Can and go to the farthest place he can go.

Yes and the bridge is not far enough.

Shi Chen was arrested by several policemen at that time, and it was more or less a point of conversation after dinner, and no one thought that he would come back.

He just wants to come back.

When Hong Bao saw him at the port, he threw away his fat body and laughed like an octopus spraying black ink. He bluffed and jumped in front of him from afar, and the familiar fishy smell came from far and near.It's good that this man doesn't hold grudges.

Shi Chen was wearing clean clothes, sitting at the port watching them move the fish.Unprecedented ease, Hong Bao didn't know what he said to Hong Er, Hong Er smiled at him, Shi Chen also smiled and waved to him.

Hong Bao said that he caught a bunch of big red prawns today, and he didn't remember to call Shi Chen to eat the prawns.

Shi Chen wrapped in a long down jacket and followed him home.

Hong Er slapped his shoulders to collapse, "You bastard, you got caught stealing women."

Shi Chen chuckled.

He has never drank alcohol in his life. The baijiu is spicy and the red shrimp is sweet.

Hong Bao didn't brag, Aunt Hong's Big Shrimp Wonton was the best thing Shi Chen had ever eaten in his life.

He drank too much, blushing and drunk, Hong Bao and Hong Er laughed at him, Hong Bao took out a key and threw it to him, whispering that Shi Chen was arrested that day, he went to lock the door, he always felt he will come back.Hong Er slapped him and scolded him as "simple" with a smile

When Shi Chen was full and went back to his small house with painted steel tiles alone, he thought that the reason why his mother was a surrogate was because she wanted a daughter, because Shi Yun had been crying for a younger sister since he was in kindergarten.

When I was young, I always heard my father say regretfully to Shu Ting'an at the dinner table, "I'm sorry, Lao Shu, if Xiaoer is a girl, I will be your daughter-in-law."

When he was four years old, he didn't understand why a boy couldn't be a wife.

He didn't know until he saw his sophomore brother kissing Shu Can, um.cannot.

61.

He is used to stealing things from Shiyun.

Steal his eyes, his face, and his love.

That's not just coveting, that's stealing.

If you steal something, you will be caught. If you steal feelings, he doesn't want to return them. He is a white-eyed wolf with a black heart.Nasty and selfish.

Only one is actually pure.

He has always wanted to tell Shu Can, I sleep in your bed, I covet your likes, not because of jealousy, I just like you, purely, like you.

Shu Can actually treated him very well during his last stay in the hospital.

He didn't know if Shu Can could tell whether it was Shi Yun or Shi Chen who was holding him, but Shi Chen felt that he had stolen it, and within the allowed grace period, he secretly hoped that his brother would forgive him a little more. alright.Anyway...

Anyway, it is impossible for Shu Can to really like him.

Shu Can would not like him, because Shu Can punished him so unscrupulously because he didn't like him, and he could also unscrupulously spy on love at a close distance.

They are all sinners.

62

Shi Chen's sea breeze, coming from the north, blows across this high cliff, turning around with great momentum.

He hadn't been farther and couldn't run anymore.

But here, Shu Can should be nowhere to be found. This is far away in the true sense.

In fact, ever since Shu Can threw him out of the car that time, Shi Chen didn't want to run anymore. No matter how far away, as long as he can go with his legs, it's just a matter of distance for Shu Can.

What he wants to be far away, what he said to be smart, is as it is now.

Shi Chen felt that he wanted to say too much to Shu Can, but when he thought about it carefully, he and Shu Can had never been in a relationship where they could chat and talk, so there was nothing to say.

It's probably similar to the fact that you should hold Shi Yun in your hands this time, if you like him, hold on to him, and I won't do it, I won't come to catch you.And don't feel guilty about me, I don't have cancer in my brain, and sooner or later I will get cancer in my intestines, sooner or later, so don't give my brother enemas every day, but Shu Can should be reluctant.

63

"Shichen..."

"Shi Chen!!"

"Shi Chen!!"

Shi Chen "puchi laughed." He was wearing the black down jacket that Shu Can bought, and hid in the crevice of the cliff nearly 20 meters above his head.

The same sea breeze that blows over her also blows through all of Shu Can's places.

In his whole life, Shi Chen had only been greedy for the embrace of one person.That person didn't hold him many times, most of them pressed him and rushed, and approached the dream very gently, twice in total, the last time was fifteen, six or seven years ago, when Shu Can not only hugged him and sat on his hand, On the leg, even kissed him.To be honest, Shi Chen now feels like he is as energetic as a flashback, and his mind is indeed like the memories in the book, like watching flowers on horseback.

When he saw Shu Can hiding on the cliff, he really wanted to call him.But he was too frustrated to find himself, and stood frozen in the wind and looked at the sea.

Shi Chen waved at him but he couldn't see it.

Shi Chen panted and sat down again. He looked at Shu Can's back, with a slight smile in his eyes, and muttered, "You don't like me, why pretend to be affectionate."

But thinking that it was really far away this time, I remember the back view is pretty good, really good, just like he is looking at Shu Can now.

Just forget about my face, if you recognize my back, remember to avoid it in your next life.

Don't hug me casually, don't meet me.

Shi Chen opened his mouth and took a deep breath. The sea in Heqiao was gray during the day, but dark green in the middle of the night.

Fortunately, he used up all his strength to climb this cliff, and the remaining time was just enough to see the stars in this world.

He is going to that far away place.

He closed his eyes to the figure on the shore, and raised his hands.

He will not survive, will not open his eyes again, and finally will not be sad anymore.

Like flying, he jumped down from the most remote cliff of Heqiao.

He prayed that passing ships would smash him, and that all human beings would not find him again.

This world is not good.

He doesn't want to keep anything.

I won't come next time either.

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