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"Huh? Bodyguard?"

Emiya Shirou was stunned when he received the message talisman from Kazuki Kazuki, he quickly looked around, found a small park in the middle of the street with few people, and put the things he bought from the supermarket on the bench , he took out the talisman and said in a low voice: "Brother Huayue, why did you get me a bodyguard all of a sudden?"

Fengniaoyuan Kageki seemed to smile: "Because I don't know magic."

"I don't know magic, so I can't help you, but money can solve many problems these days, so I simply hired a powerful magician to help you. No matter what you want to do, you need help, right?"

Emiya Shirou's eyes widened slightly, he pursed his lips, and said in silence for a long time: "...Thank you, Brother Huayue, I will pay for the employment!"

"I've already paid." Huayue babbled nonsense, and he told the boy: "Be careful of your own safety, Shirou, you know? If something happens to you... Xiao Chuan will be very sad when he wakes up."

Emiya Shilang gave an acknowledgment and ended the talisman call.

He sat on a bench in the park in a daze, the winter wind was like a knife, but because the Holy Grail War was about to start, the spiritual veins in this place had undergone strange changes, and the temperature had risen so rarely that the tree trunks that should have been bare were covered with up leaves.

After an unknown amount of time, Shirou Emiya suddenly said, "Archer, are you there?"

The heroic spirit Emiya did not appear, but said lightly: "I am here."

"What did I look like in the past?"

Yingling Emiya said coldly: "Why do you ask this?"

"Ah, I was dreaming last night, and suddenly dreamed that I was hanged on the gallows."

Heroic Spirit Emiya: "..."

"That feeling is very painful..." Emiya Shirou touched his neck subconsciously: "Tohsaka-san said that after summoning, there will be a certain chance of obtaining the memory of the other party. Archer, have you been strangled?"

Heroic Spirit Emiya didn't want to answer this question.

Emiya Shirou chuckled: "Archer, you must have been miserable."

Without waiting for his heroic spirit to answer, Shirou continued: "But even if you are strangled, in the dream that flows over, you are still smiling..."

Heroic Spirit Emiya's expression at this moment is extremely sinister.

"Compared to being killed yourself, you still managed to save those people before being killed, so you are still very happy even if you die... Is that what you think." Emiya Shiro looked up at the sky: "It's strange, I I can actually understand your thoughts."

Yingling Emiya sneered: "Because you are me."

"But in the dream, at the moment when I was about to be strangled, Ogawa's face suddenly flashed in front of my eyes." Emiya Shiro murmured, "You don't know, Ogawa's health was terrible when he was a child. At first, he didn't even go to school. No way, every day, every day, he lay there with weak breath and pale face, motionless, like a dead person, Kiritsugu's father used many methods I don't know to help Xiao Chuan, but it didn't work at all..."

"Archer, if it was you, you must understand me, right?"

"At that time, I was very scared. I was afraid that he would die."

"If Xiao Chuan died too, wouldn't I be the only survivor of the fire in Fuyuki City ten years ago? The person who stepped on countless lives... I would be the only one left."

Heroic Spirit Emiya suddenly looked at Emiya Shirou, so that's it!

He finally understood why this self was so 'normal'.

In fact Emiya Shirou is not normal at all, he just thinks he is normal and makes other people think he is normal.

Even Emiya Shirou himself didn't notice his abnormality.

Heroic Spirit Emiya gasped.

Emiya Shiro was only six years old when the disaster happened. As a six-year-old child who survived the disaster, the young Emiya Shiro was actually easily influenced by the thinking of others.

After the fire in Fuyuki City, some footage of the post-disaster reconstruction or the families of the victims would be shown on TV from time to time. Looking at those crying heartbreaking people, a little child would naturally have an idea in his heart.

Why am I alive?

Why didn't the relatives of the crying man on TV... survive?

Why was I the only one who was rescued?

Should I really die at that time?

……

If he was the only one, Emiya Shiro would collapse soon, or give birth to a kind... I was saved, so why didn't other people get saved?If I have the ability, then I must let other people also get the idea of ​​salvation...

Just like Yingling Emiya herself.

The former self thought so, and implemented this wish, reached a contract with the world's restraining force, and finally died by strangulation.

But now Emiya Shiro's fate has changed.

The surviving orphan Emiya Kiritsugu adopted during the fire in Fuyuki City was no longer Emiya Shirou alone, but Emiyagawa was also added.

Emiya Shiro was not the only one who was rescued, there was also a boy who was younger and weaker than him.

This gave Shirou Emiya an illusion.

He is not alone.

There is another brother like him, who is supposed to be 'mortal' but alive.

Although the heroic spirit Emiya doesn't know Emiya Chuan very well, but through the two days of contact with Emiya Shiro, we know that Emiya Chuan is a well-known juvenile manga artist. He has his own career. He is in the world of magic and ordinary people at the same time Existence, with ease, is a young man with a strong heart.

When the young Emiya Shirou should have started to be confused and at a loss as to why I was alive, his younger brother Emiyagawa was seriously ill, and Emiya Shirou would naturally fall into panic. His kind, brothers, and companions would also die, and he didn't want him to die.

So Emiya Shirou's attention was all on Wei Gongchuan, worrying about his brother's basic necessities of life, worrying about his treatment and medicine, worrying about his brother waking up today and going into a coma tomorrow...

When Emiyagawa recovered, when Emiya Shirou had time to think about the disaster that year... His adoptive father died, and his younger brother stood up and began to support the family.

The young children were initially attracted by the elders, and even said that they wanted to take Emiya Kiritsugu's dream as their own, but Emiya Kiritsugu died soon, and the father who looked so handsome when he said the great wish died. , but the seemingly weak younger brother, who usually only knows how to read magic books, stood up!

He held up the family.

Emiyagawa is also a survivor of the fire in Fuyuki City. He has no guilt for those who died in the fire. He immediately found an ally after the death of his adoptive father. 】He is very powerful, and he has met many friends with different strengths and personalities. Even in the world of ordinary people, he has become a super popular cartoonist. The cartoons he drew have published ten booklets, and the animation production is also going smoothly. and played at the beginning of the year.

He is like an ideal monument, standing firmly in front of Emiya Shirou.

Emiya Chuan used his own way of life to tell Emiya Shiro how to continue to survive as a person who stepped on countless bones and was rescued in a disaster.

The praise, recognition and all the achievements that Emiyagawa has received have proved one thing to Shirou Emiya.

He deserves to live.

He deserves to live more than anyone else.

Emiya Shirou, who has been watching Emiyagawa all the time, is indeed not sticking to justice, the existence he is truly obsessed with... has become a human being.

Wei Miyagawa.

But if Emiyagawa died, what would Emiya Shirou think?

He would think, such a powerful and powerful younger brother is dead, what about me?

I really...should die too, right?

If Emiya Chuan died, I'm afraid Emiya Shirou would not think so, but the reality is not the case, Wei Gong Chuan seems to be dying at only 13 years old.

#My life is stolen#

#I will eventually be dragged into hell by the souls who died in the fire#

Heroic Spirit Emiya couldn't help asking after trying to understand the reason.

"Does your brother know about the Holy Grail War?"

Emiya Shiro said: "He knows, he also knows that his father participated in the Holy Grail War, and even...I know that there is a summoning medium in my body. I only learned about it after eavesdropping on Ogawa's conversation with other people."

Heroic Spirit Emiya immediately understood.

"Before your brother's accident, you secretly prepared the Holy Grail War without telling your brother, right?"

Emiya Shirou said as a matter of course: "Yes, I am also a magician."

"I'm afraid he doesn't want you to participate in the Holy Grail War."

Emiya Shirou was silent for a long time before saying: "Yes, but I want to participate."

He smiled faintly.

"I want to tell Xiao Chuan that I am also very strong, so you don't need to hide anything from me." After a pause, Emiya Shirou's tone suddenly became agitated: "And I hope that one day, Xiao Chuan can tell me... my brother is really amazing, Fortunately, there is a brother... such words."

what--? !

Heroic Spirit Emiya was terrified when he heard these words.

If other people heard this sentence, they might think that Emiya Shirou was just a serious brother-in-law.

But Yingling Emiya heard another real meaning.

Emiya Shirou hoped that Emiya Chuan would say that his brother is really good, but fortunately, he said that he didn't really want to be relied on by his brother!

He just hoped to be recognized by Emiya Chuan, a survivor who, like himself, deprived others of the possibility of survival, and survived to admit it himself—recognize what Emiya Shiro inherited from Emiya Chuan Everything... such a way of life, such a way of being, such thoughts and actions...is right.

In other words, everything Emiya Shiro has done up to now is not to protect his younger brother, nor is it to prove that he is strong.

He was just for himself - he felt like a sinner.

So what he needs is not relying on, not protecting, not needing, not even acknowledging.

Emiya Shirou, what he needs is... a pardon.

Forgive the guilt, and turn this guilt into a reason for living, so that he has a sense of self-salvation... that I should be saved....

Otherwise, Emiya Shiro has no meaning of survival.

Heroic Spirit Emiya stared deeply at her past self.

This itself has been broken.

But the sad thing is that Emiya Shiro didn't notice his abnormality, and even thought that as an elder brother, it was a matter of course to try every means to protect his younger brother.

Of course, it is indeed right for the elder brother to protect the younger brother, but Emiya Shirou regards the distorted sense of satisfaction in life in his heart as the affection of protecting his younger brother, and is willing to do everything for it.

Heroic Spirit Emiya suddenly looked forward to the Holy Grail War.

What choice would such Emiya Shirou make?