Gee, are you picking me?

The few days of the new year passed quickly, and the two had a warm and sweet little day, and finally had to return to reality.

Xu Yang does not have the sense of gap that Song Xu has. He has been in the small town for more than ten years, and he is very used to the salary level and living standards. I started looking for a job much later, but was hired quickly.

Song Xu was still unable to achieve high enough and low enough, and his mentality, which he had finally adjusted during the Chinese New Year, was gradually corrupted again.

"What the hell?" Song Xu couldn't help getting angry as soon as he entered the door, "I don't even care about going."

"Don't be impatient", Xu Yang also just got off work and was about to cook, "Are you tired, drink some water first, and then you can sit on the sofa and rest."

"Not tired", Song Xu glanced at him, "You just make one serving, I'm not hungry and don't want to eat."

"Are you angry with others or with yourself?" Xu Yang looked at him helplessly, "Okay, don't be awkward with such an old man."

"I just don't want to eat," Song Xu's momentum was slightly weakened by Xu Yang's words, but he still whispered, "I'm full."

Xu Yang knew that he was trying to coax him, so he thought he might as well feed him with a bowl of rice later, and see if he was still angry, so he turned and went to the kitchen.

Song Xu didn't know what he was thinking, seeing that Xu Yang really ignored him and turned back to the kitchen, his eyes widened in anger.

About four or ten minutes later, Xu Yang brought out all the meals and put them on the table. Seeing that Song Xu was still lying on the sofa like a log, he asked him to come over for dinner.

Song Xu didn't speak or move.

Xu Yang came over with a bowl of rice, and asked with a smile, "How old are you, do you still want me to feed you?"

Song Xu thought he was deliberately making fun of him, and said coldly, "No need."

Hu Er stood up again and said, "Hurry up and eat, we'll go out after eating."

"Where are you going?" Xu Yang asked in surprise.

"Find a place to have a few drinks."

In the past, Song Xu's usual way of pastime was going to bars, Xu Yang knew this.Song Xu hasn't been there for a long time since the two of them ran out.But if it’s for fun, of course it’s okay. Although Xu Yang doesn’t like it, he’s willing to go with him, but if Song Xu wants to get drunk now, it’s really not a good way to vent, at least it’s better for the two of them to have a good chat .

"Song Xu, aren't you..."

"You don't want to go?"

Xu Yang hesitated for a while, then nodded.

He thought that as long as he said he didn't want to, Song Xu might not go either.

It's just that he didn't expect that the pressure in Song Xu's heart reached a limit, and his temper also came up.

"Are you really not going?"

"Song Xu, I don't want to..."

"Then I'll go by myself."

Song Xu said, turned around and walked into the bedroom.

Xu Yang looked at the door that closed in front of his face, feeling uncomfortable.

He has seen Song Xu's irritability these days, and he is trying his best to enlighten him. Song Xu also cooperates to suppress his temper every time, but he knows that going on like this is actually not the solution, and the fundamental problem will not be solved, no matter what Advise him, if things go on like this, one day he will explode.

Moreover, Song Xu loves him now, and because of loving him, the current situation has come about. It is said that poor and lowly couples are sad for everything. Song Xu has given up everything he has for him now, but how strong is love in the face of reality? Well, no one of them knows about this issue now, and it is hard to guarantee that their relationship will gradually wear down in this kind of day-to-day tempering in the future.

Such days are not endless, and they all know that as long as one person gives up, they can all slowly return to their previous living environment.

Xu Yang put down the bowl in his hand, turned the doorknob and entered the bedroom, only to find that Song Xu was taking a shower in the bathroom.

He stood at the door, and finally couldn't help but say, "Song Xu, why don't you go back."

No one made a sound in the bathroom, only the water flow kept "squeaking".

Xu Yang paused for a while, and finally turned around and left.

Sitting at the dining table, Xu Yang lost his appetite. Although he was thin, he could eat at least two bowls of rice at night, but now he couldn't eat one bowl, so he rolled half of the rice into the opposite bowl.

Song Xu came out of the bedroom not long after, put on his original brand-name clothes, and took a bottle of hairspray to fix his hair in front of the mirror in the living room.

He did it very carefully, and even pinched a handful of hair on the top of his head repeatedly for a long time, as if it was deliberately done for Xu Yang to see.

Packing himself up, Song Xu closed the door and left without even looking at Xu Yang.

Xu Yang didn't eat since he came out, but kept looking at him, seeing Song Xu going out.

Song Xu got angry, got angry with him, deliberately ignored him, Xu Yang was not angry, he was so angry, he thought Song Xu was just making trouble, maybe he was squatting in a corner downstairs waiting for him to go out to coax him, But when he packed up and went out to find someone, he found that their rented car parked downstairs had actually been driven away.

Song Xu actually came for real?

Dressed like that and went out to find someone to drink?

Xu Yang didn't have time to think about it, so he went out of the community and took a taxi, planning to go to the local bar street to find someone.

In fact, it is reasonable to say that although the bar here is also called a bar, it is far from the high-consumption bars that Song Xu used to go to in Beijing. In desperation, in a fit of rage, something happened, so he went in and searched every bar from the street to the end of the street.

However, I couldn't find anyone, and I made countless calls but no one answered.

"Fuck!", Xu Yang searched for someone for a long time, but found nothing. He was extremely anxious, and his chest was full of breath.

Now if Song Xu dared to appear in front of him, he felt that maybe the two of them could start a fight.

He was dazed under the streetlight for a while, walked the street several times, and finally decided to take a taxi back.

When I got home, the lights were off, and there was still no sign of anyone coming back.

Xu Yang simply didn't bother to turn on the light, closed the door and went out again.

He walked to a quiet corner of the community, sat in the dark, and looked at the passing vehicles hesitantly.

After an unknown amount of time, the screen of the phone suddenly turned on, which was a bit dazzling in the darkness.

Xu Yang picked it up and saw that it was Song Xu, who connected the phone.

"Where have you been?"

Song Xu's panting voice came from over there.

"Shouldn't I be asking you this sentence? Where have you been? Did you find someone to drink?"

"I……"

"I'm going back to Beijing..."

He gasped, "How dare you!"

Xu Yang had already turned to the main road, and saw the lights in their room from a distance, he said calmly, "I'm on the bus going to the station."

"Fuck you!", Song Xu yelled on the phone, "You dare to leave!"

The lights in the room went out.

He could be heard coming downstairs and panting on the phone, "Xu Yang, you fucking stop, if you dare to leave, I will make you miserable for the rest of your life!"

Xu Yang walked downstairs slowly, "Song Xu, don't you think that if we are like this, maybe we can't go far? Otherwise, you can go back. If you miss me and come to see me secretly, we don't have to together..."

"What are you talking about!" In the past, it was absolutely impossible for Xu Yang to say such words. Such words are equivalent to agreeing to an open relationship, and it is absolutely impossible for him to make such a concession.

And the more he said that now, the more flustered Song Xu became.

But Xu Yang is serious, he now realizes that this is the only possibility for him and Song Xu, it seems impossible to be together legitimately.

He trusted Song Xu too much before, and Song Xu loved him too much, which made him unwilling to live up to his trust, and instead brought a heavy burden to himself.

Song Xu ran from upstairs to downstairs in one breath, then rushed out from the corridor, and saw Xu Yang standing not far away.

He rushed up, grabbed his waist and pushed him into the green lawn next to him.

When Xu Yang was looking for him earlier, he was holding back his anger, but when he saw him appearing in front of him, he lost his temper all of a sudden, lifted his feet and greeted Song Xu who was pressing on top of him.

Both of them were angry, Song Xu desperately restrained Xu Yang, and Xu Yang moved desperately, punching him a few times from time to time.

"Didn't you say you went to the station!" Song Xu was so angry that he died.

"Didn't you go to the bar?" Xu Yang was also very angry.

The two rolled into a ball, and the neighbor aunt who was walking at night saw them, and thought they were two brothers who were having a conflict, and tried to persuade them to fight, "Stop it, what are the two brothers fighting for?"

However, neither of the two who were fighting in full swing cared about the other's reaction.

Song Xu yelled at Xu Yang, "What fucking bar do I go to, and what bar do I go to alone, tell me!"

"Then your car drove away!" Xu Yang yelled at him, "Where did you go? I f---ing searched for you and couldn't find you!"

"You...you went to find me?" Song Xu suddenly eased up when he heard this sentence, "I went out for a drive."

Xu Yang stopped, only then did Song Xu see that his eyes were red.

"I didn't ask someone else to drink." Song Xu immediately softened his attitude when he saw him like this, and said softly, "I just wanted to make you angry. If you're still angry, I'll let you hit me."

Unexpectedly, Xu Yang didn't move, he cried.

Song Xu has never seen him like this before, he quickly hugged him into his arms and coaxed him, his heart ached like a needle, "Don't cry, don't cry, let's not be angry, huh?"

He thought Xu Yang was crying because of him.

The aunt next to him didn't know that the two of them were fighting each other just now, why the atmosphere suddenly changed, the crackling smell of gunpowder was gone, and the young man who looked like his brother should be more sensible and know how to coax him softly Brother, so she went on walking in peace.