Possessive relationship

I don't want to see Su Jinwen anymore, or even Chen Zhiyao.I'm angry, depressed, but I don't even have the energy to vent.A voice in my heart told me softly that what Su Jinwen said was right.

I'm just a male pet who has nothing but good looks!

Who is Su Jinwen? Not only does he have a rich and powerful father, he also has Chen Zhiyao backing him.No matter how much he wants to tease me and insult me, he has to endure it. I'm afraid eating with someone like me is demeaning him!

He lives in the halo, while I live behind Chen Zhiyao's shadow.

Thinking of this, I got up and walked to the sofa and brought over the stack of newspapers that Chen Zhiyao was reading just now, and took the books he read from time to time to the bedside for a few glances.Eyes full of professional terms and unfamiliar letters, all representing the world that I have no chance to touch.

I took a few glances, flipped through the books quickly, and put them down with a sigh.I pushed them away, covered my head with the quilt and hid myself in the darkness.I've always been afraid of the dark, but now I'm afraid of the light.

Where there is light, My filth will be revealed.

I am no longer worthy, I can only stay in this darkness.

I shrank myself as small as possible, but my eyes were always hot.No matter how much I tell myself not to think about it, I still can't stop feeling uncomfortable.As soon as I feel uncomfortable, I can't control my thoughts even more. For a while, I think that I will never escape this kind of life, and for a while, I think what to do if I escape. Anyway, I can do nothing but serve men now, run away If you die, you can only starve to death. Recovering your identity and then taking revenge is simply a joke.

So what if you stay here?Chen Zhiyao also heard it just now, besides being young and looking good, do I have any other advantages? It seems that I am twenty, how many years can I be younger?

In two years time, he should get tired of seeing me, and I am no longer young. By that time, there will be so many people who will please him who are younger than me and immature than me. He probably won't really like me anymore.Oh no, he doesn't necessarily like me now, he just raises me to relieve boredom.What should I do when he gets annoyed when he sees me?

I have always considered myself different from those slaves, because I was forced, I have hope, and I was once a young master.But now I understand that I am the same as them.I may be a little more miserable than them, because I can't bow my head to people other than Chen Zhiyao. When the day Chen Zhiyao really gets tired of me, I may only die on the street.

If he had been kinder and kept supporting me, I might have been a little more dignified and died quietly in his basement.

I have never inquired about the final fate of those slaves, because I think it is different, and their ending must be different from mine.But now I already feel my stupidity and my arrogance.I can't believe I'm still complacent about my former status. I obviously have no ability other than being raped by Chen Zhiyao. Why do I think I can escape?

The more I thought about it, the hotter my eye sockets became, but I endured it and didn't want to cry.But maybe it's better to cry, because Chen Zhiyao likes to watch me cry, and every time he bullies me to the point of crying, he will be a little gentler.I don't know if he will be angry after I leave like this. If I can cry when he wants to punish me, maybe it can alleviate his anger a little.

He likes to watch me cry, and tears have become one of my survival skills, which is really sad.

No, I didn't just learn this. After more than a year of getting along, I don't understand Chen Zhiyao's thoughts, and his temper has still been somewhat felt.Unlike the rules established by other masters, Chen Zhiyao does not forbid me to touch his body. Although it depends on the timing, I vaguely feel that he actually likes my overtures.

In addition to these, he also likes that I can only call his name when I am helpless by his demands on the bed.

He likes to sleep with his arms around me. Although he often dislikes my dishonesty in sleeping, he likes to treat me as a pillow.

He likes my forbearance when he reprimands me, likes me rubbing his body with my hair, likes to bathe me when I don't have the strength to stand up, and likes to give me medicine after he has taught me.

I reminisce about the past year or so, and Chen Zhiyao's hobbies are probably all I have learned.Most of the time he is calm and self-possessed, I occasionally make him angry, and then he will use various methods to teach me.How to survive his moodiness was my homework, the only lesson I didn't learn very well.

How to make him like me more, to the point where even if one day he gets tired of it, he throws a sum of money and drives me away, this is what I really need to consider.

I thought about a lot of miscellaneous things, and gradually calmed down. I was immersed in the analysis of Chen Zhiyao, and I didn't hear the footsteps behind me.

A hand lightly patted my shoulder, and it was Chen Zhiyao's voice: "Are you wronged?"

I lifted the quilt a little, and saw Chen Zhiyao standing in front of me with a plate of something in his hand and looking at me, his tone was quite gentle.

I quietly looked at his face, and felt that he was not angry, so I quickly got up and knelt down on the bed to admit my mistake: "Master, I'm sorry, it's my fault, Ruoruo knew it was wrong."

"Oh, where did you go wrong?"

This is the question I am most afraid of. Every time I do something wrong, he will ask him this question, but every time my answer can’t satisfy him. I think for a while and hesitate to say; Go away without the owner's permission."

After I finished speaking, I looked at his face quietly again, the more calm he was, the more scared I became, but this time he sighed unexpectedly and said: "Forget it, it's not all your fault, I didn't expect that kid Xiaowen would So excited. I used to spoil him very much, maybe I was not very happy when I heard that you came suddenly. I am really spoiled at such a young age."

When I heard him say this, I didn't feel any better, but felt even more inexplicable.He and Su Jinwen's father have spoiled him, so what does it have to do with his dislike for me?Could it be that Chen Zhiyao is raising me and still being next to him?

"He likes you?" I was just thinking about it silently, but I didn't expect to say this sentence. Both Chen Zhiyao and I were shocked.I was scared, he was surprised.

"Are you jealous?" He asked raising an eyebrow.

"No, if you don't dare." I quickly explained, who am I, dare to be jealous of him?Leaving aside who I am, even if I'm not his pet, I won't be in the mood to eat this kind of vinegar.Su Jinwen likes him as long as he likes it, but I don't.

I kind of understand why Su Jinwen doesn't like me, but I suddenly don't hate Su Jinwen so much, because I think that guy is good at everything, but unfortunately his brain is not very good, and I like Chen Zhiyao, a pervert.Lamentable, lamentable.

"Eat something, just now you were too busy arguing with Xiaowen, didn't you eat anything?" Chen Zhiyao put down the tray on his hand, only then did I realize that it was a plate of desserts, a few small cakes, and a bowl of sweet-scented osmanthus fragrance. Milk.

"Thank you, master." I don't have much appetite, but Chen Zhiyao brought it up personally, so I dare not stop eating.I took a small bite of the cake with a fork, and it tasted very good, sweet and not greasy.I haven't eaten dessert in a long time, and such a small piece of cake is very much to my liking.

I ate a few more mouthfuls, took a spoonful of sweet-scented osmanthus milk with a spoon, and the sweet taste spread on the tip of my tongue, which was better than any dessert shop I had eaten before.

Chen Zhiyao looked at me eating, suddenly smiled, and said to me: "Sure enough, you are still young, Xiaowen asked the kitchen to cook these things, and the kitchen made two copies, you love these too? "

I was still wondering why Chen Zhiyao, who has always disliked sweets, would have desserts. It turned out that they were made for him.I immediately put down the hand holding the fork, never wanting to touch the plate of cake again, and instantly felt that the few mouthfuls of cake I had just eaten in my stomach were not digestible.

Chen Zhiyao smiled and rubbed my hair, "I won't eat this? Do you really feel wronged?"

"No, master, I'm full." I shook my head and replied softly, "I'm not wronged. What Young Master Wen said is the truth, and I have nothing to be wronged."

"If you still haven't gained a catty by the end of this month, do you know what the consequences will be?" Chen Zhiyao asked me threateningly.

I shook my head, I don't know.He set a goal for me, at least two catties a month, if I fail to reach it, I will be punished, and if I get thinner, I will be punished even more. The punishment method depends on his mood.He said that I was too thin to be comfortable to hold, and my physical strength was not good, so I had to get up, eat, and exercise according to the time he stipulated every day, all in order to cater to his taste.

But he seemed to be in a good mood tonight, and he didn't bother me anymore. He took the tray aside, and then saw me glance at the books and newspapers that I threw on the bedside table.

"You read it?" He picked up the book and looked at me.

"Yes." I was a little nervous. It would be terrible if he saw that I still thought about running away in the future, but I still had to tell the truth: "I want to see if I can understand, so..."

Chen Zhiyao sat on the bed, and I knelt beside him. He put his arms around my shoulders and squinted at me: "Do you understand?"

I shook my head honestly, "I don't understand."

"Why do you want to watch this?" He looked into my eyes, not allowing me to avoid it.

"Because... I..." I don't know how to explain it, saying that I don't want him to do it, I'm not sure I'm humiliating myself, and I will be ridiculed by Chen Zhiyao.But say I might need to use these one day?Then Chen Zhiyao probably won't let me live to that day.

I stammered "I, I, I" for a long time, Chen Zhiyao gently lifted my chin to let me look at him, and ordered: "To be honest, I don't blame you."

All I had to say was, "I don't want to be like what he said."

"You don't have to pay attention to what he said, he is still a child."

"But I really...can't do anything."

"What do you want to learn? Now it's good." Chen Zhiyao comforted me.

I hesitated for a moment, but I still said it: "But when you don't like me, what should I do?"

Chen Zhiyao smiled, and slowly leaned towards me, his unique aura enveloped me: "You want me to like you?"

His aura was too overwhelming, I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at him. I followed him and slowly leaned back, saying vaguely: "Well... I don't want you to think that I have nothing. meeting."

"Since this is the case," Chen Zhiyao no longer moved forward, my arms could hardly support him, he stretched out his hand and pulled me into his arms, and let me sit on his lap, "then let me teach you You, what I like is something that only belongs to me. What do you want to learn, I will teach you myself."

"Really?" My eyes lit up.

"Of course it's true, but my tuition fees are higher than Xiaowen's university tuition fees." Chen Zhiyao actually gave me a book as he spoke. Start reading this one.

I looked at it, and "Currency Wars" seems to be very profound.

I concentrated on watching for a while, and soon finished Chapter 1, and found that my neck was sore, and then I remembered that I was still sitting on Chen Zhiyao.

He had been looking at me just now, concentrating on reading that book.As soon as I moved, he also stretched and let me down, asking me, "How much do you understand?"

"Well, I didn't understand much." I asked him with a guilty conscience.

Chen Zhiyao was leaning against the head of the bed with a book, and I knelt down in front of him to listen to him explain the content involved.He explained in detail and sharply. I understood many complicated things as soon as he explained them.For the first time, I have a little understanding of his world outside of the bed. I admire his rich knowledge, and his understanding of many things exceeds the sum of the so-called elites I have met before.

That night he explained to me the general concept of finance, the meaning behind the appreciation and depreciation of currency, and I listened very carefully.

He closed the book and suddenly asked me: "Ruoruo, do you know what the essence of the currency war is?"

I thought about it and said, "Benefits."

"Yes, interests are a part, but not all." He looked at me with deep eyes: "Behind the currency war are people, and people fight for interests, but when the interests reach a certain level, the numbers lose their meaning. What you really want is power, control."

I looked at him and felt that he was not just talking about the content of this book.

"Whether it's the army or currency, it all reflects one person's control over the country. And do you know what most people pursue, whether it's fame or fortune, and what it has to do with it?"

I shook my head and he told me, "Sex."

"Everything in the world is related to sex, only sex itself has nothing to do with sex. Sex itself is power and control." Chen Zhiyao looked at me with burning eyes.

I get it, what he's trying to tell me is that he has control over me, he has ownership over me, and sex is just an adjunct to that control.I will not be devalued because of other people's words, because I belong to him, and the only person who determines my value is him.I don't have to worry about only sleeping with him, because it's just a way of using me.And whether I have other uses, it all depends on him.

"I understand, master." I replied seriously, kneeling down and leaning over to kiss the back of his hand lightly, expressing my respect.

"This lesson has taught a lot of things, you have to remember it well, I will test you in the future." Chen Zhiyao changed his tone and said very easily: "Now, how do you plan to repay me? My The fee is much higher than that of ordinary university professors."

Everything about me is his, what else can I give him?I smiled knowingly, leaned in front of him and pecked lightly on his lips, and before he could respond, I kissed his neck, side of his face, earlobe...

Then I came to him again, smiling brightly: "Master, is this kind of reward acceptable?"

He was already a little emotional after being teased by me, his breathing became low, and he asked me with a low voice on purpose: "Is this the end?"

I smiled charmingly again, put my head on his chest, and said softly, "Please use me, Master."