Possessive relationship

It gets dark early in winter, but the university campus in the New Year will not be lonely because of the dark.

I parked the car near a university in the city that had been on my radar as one of my goals.Walk slowly along the path in the school with Qingqing.Qingqing is wearing my little down jacket, inside is a loose sweater I bought a long time ago, and underneath is a pair of dark jeans, clothes that are too slim for him to wear now.Dressed like this, she looked no different from the college students coming and going around.

Only I know that he still wears a collar that symbolizes his status, and there is nothing under his jeans. Apart from that, he looks so sunny and handsome, with clear eyes and mature and melancholy that does not match his age. If he was really in school, he might be able to confuse a lot of little girls.

It seems that a long time ago, Chen Zhiyao also said that if I went to college, I would be able to seduce many young girls.

Unfortunately, we don't have that chance anymore.

I took out a cigarette and a lighter from the pocket of my windbreaker and lit myself, took a deep breath, and felt a breath of mint-flavored cool air enter my lungs, making me more awake in an instant.

"Do they look good? They." I pointed around. Some people were on their way back to the dormitory after dinner. They were still carrying two water bottles, and some were carrying a few packs of snacks.Couples of boys and girls were also going out. Looking at the shy smile on the girl's face and the rose in the boy's hand, it was not difficult to imagine that they would not come back tonight.

"Looking good, master." Qingqing looked at them, distracted for a moment, "They all look good."

After he finished speaking, he lowered his head and walked slightly behind me. I pulled him over and said softly: "Look up, let them see you too. My Qingqing is more beautiful than all the boys here. "

He still lowered his head and stopped. I walked about ten meters before he caught up and whispered in my ear, "Master, look, there seems to be light in their eyes."

He was talking about the couple looking at each other affectionately by the playground. I looked back and nodded: "Indeed. Qingqing, that kind of light is called youth. You are also very young, Qingqing."

He shook his head silently, buried his head lower, I smiled, lifted his chin, and said to him, "Are you envious?"

He looked at me, then took a deep look back at the happy couples in the distance, and nodded.

"I don't blame you, Qingqing, I'm also very envious."

"Owner?"

I looked up at the dim yellow streetlight above, slowly exhaled the cigarette, pinched it out, and said leisurely: "If there is not that person, I never thought that I would like a man. But thanks to him, I Now I can only get used to men. I am luckier than you, but so what, I can’t make up for what has been lost. Look how good they are, no one knows what their tomorrow will be, not because there is no choice , but because there are too many choices. What they have to do is to choose the one with the least regret.”

After listening for a while, Qingqing asked softly, "Master, why did you leave that person?"

I glanced at him, breathed out to warm my hands, and smiled, "I ran away."

"Ran?"

"Yeah, he doesn't like me, and, besides, I hate him." I took another breath, took Qingqing's hand, and found that his hand was actually cooler than mine, so I simply held it in my hand and didn't let go . "He didn't like me that night, and I ran away when I found a chance, and then came back to find everything again, and then met you again. Life is really amazing."

I sighed, turned my head to look at Qingqing's surprised eyes, and said with a smile: "What's so surprising about this, I only like the person I choose, and I only want to live the life I choose. If I don't leave, I still have to wait for him I threw it away?"

Qingqing stared at me, and after a while, said: "But there are some things that I can't choose."

"If you have no choice, it's not bad to deceive yourself by blinding your eyes. At least it won't be too uncomfortable." I stopped looking at him and tilted my head to look at the people around me. The teenagers playing basketball walked away a lot, and only a few who were particularly enthusiastic were still sweating.

Unknowingly, I have slipped through most of the campus, and the street lights are all on. Behind the dim light, there are large black shadows of the teaching buildings. From a distance, the dormitory buildings look like grids one after another, and there are people living in it. The happiest kind of person.

In such a quiet campus, it is easy to hide, but it is even more difficult to find someone.Especially that person looks like just an ordinary student, as if he should belong here, hidden by this quiet and noisy place together with thousands of his peers.

"I'm tired, go and buy me something to drink. There's money in it. If you swipe your card, this card doesn't have a password." I handed my bag to Qingqing, and found a place to sit down and wait for him.

There was about 5 yuan in that handbag, and the limit on the card was 50 yuan. If he took the money and left, it would be enough for him to find a place to start his life.He will be confused, helpless, maybe lonely and afraid, but he has a choice.

Qingqing took the handbag, the slight weight made his hands tremble, he looked at me and asked, "Is the master waiting for me here?"

"Yes, I'll wait around here. When you come back, it's easy to see me."

Qingqing took her bag and walked away. I looked at my watch. It was almost ten o'clock. I wonder if the street lights here will go out at night?

I stood up, lit another cigarette, leaned against the tree and smoked it slowly, after I finished one, I lit it again, until all the cigarettes in my pocket were exhausted, and Qingqing hadn't come back yet.

I smiled bitterly, I knew it would be like this, but it was just to confirm my idea.But letting him go is also my choice, isn't it?

I took a deep breath of cold air, and felt that my whole body was awake from the inside out, and I was also cold from the top of my head to my toes.I only wear one and a half long woolen trench coats, which is still too little for winter.

I wrapped the scarf a little tighter, not wanting to leave for no reason.I'm not welcome here, and I don't belong here, but I used to have the opportunity to live here as a member of countless ordinary people.

I don't like studying, I never did, but I never knew that I would miss the life I never had.

Forget it, let Qingqing have what I never had.He lost far more than me.

I moved slowly, remembering which direction the car was parked in. When I passed by the playground, I found that those teenagers playing basketball had finally gone back to rest, and only a few street lights were left to illuminate the lonely campus.

I found a small stone bench next to the playground and sat down. Since it is so lonely here, I will stay with it for a while.

When the day comes, when the light comes on, I won't be needed here anymore.

I will never come here again.

The past has passed, the lost has been lost, and I should stop these meaningless troubles.People have to look forward, and regret can only make people more sad.

But not thinking about it doesn't make it any easier for me.

I finally understand that people will never forget, only not to remember.

I touched the lighter in my pocket, only to realize that I had run out of cigarettes.I smiled wryly and looked at my watch. It was nearly midnight, and it seemed that I should really go back.

I sat on the stone bench with my back against the street lamp for a while, closed my eyes, and felt the dream of my boyhood go away. Every other street lamp was on and then went out, and the night came, but I didn’t feel any discomfort.

He opened his eyes and sat up, intending to leave, when he suddenly noticed a tall and thin figure not far away, hiding behind the streetlight and watching quietly.

He is dark and I am bright, so I can't see clearly, but he can see me carefully.I looked in that direction for a while, and finally stood up and started to leave.

As soon as I took two steps, the people behind quickly ran after me, hugged me desperately from behind, put their head against my neck from behind, and begged softly: "Don't go, master, don't go."