Possessive relationship

Chen Zhiyao's exclamation made me a little speechless for a while. When Yang Ziyun told me for the first time that our relationship is between a rapist and a victim, I was equally astonished.I finally got an answer amidst the confusion, but the answer didn't seem to make me clear.

"Ahem, anyway, you don't want people to know about our relationship, do you?" I don't want to discuss this issue with him, I just want to quickly solve the problem in front of me. "Give me two years, and I will give you the original copy of this material, as if nothing happened."

"This is your solution, as if nothing happened?" Chen Zhiyao's eyes suddenly became sharp, and he squinted at me, which made me break out in a cold sweat.

I raised my hand and pulled my hair, trying not to flinch from his gaze, and said: "Since it's not a good get-together, let's try to break up. It's good for everyone if you forget it as soon as possible. Do you still want me to hate you forever? ?”

"So you planned to hate me, um, it's not impossible." Chen Zhiyao's voice was very cold, as if it was more piercing than the cold wind of this winter, as if he was talking to me or muttering to himself.What I said was very strange, but I didn't want to ask, I didn't want to stay for a moment, and I didn't want to continue to entangle with him.I haven't seen him for more than two years, and I don't understand Chen Zhiyao even more than before. He looks very strange today, as if he doesn't have any offensive power, but somehow makes me feel flustered.

What am I afraid of?

Maybe it's because of Chen Zhiyao who is used to taking things all the time, so I'm not used to his loose and decadent look today, which caught me off guard and didn't know how to guard against it.

Maybe what I was afraid of was this kind of confusion. I was clearly prepared to run away desperately when he reached out to stop me, but he didn't stop me, so I didn't know where to run.

The only good thing is that Chen Zhiyao doesn't seem to resent me for running away. Maybe the acquisition of that company was just an accident. How could I have such a great charm that he missed me for so long.

Comforting myself like this, I couldn't help but look at Chen Zhiyao more curiously. He has indeed lost a lot of weight, wearing a coat that looks very warm, and instead of smoking a cigar, he is gently stroking the puppy under his feet. The defensive posture made me unsure whether to get closer to him, or to be completely shielded from this gentle state by him.

"I can give you one more year at most," Chen Zhiyao said slowly, his voice seemed to come from far away, with a sense of old fatigue, which broke my meditation. "If you think it's okay, I'll ask the secretary to send the contract over tomorrow. If not, you can think of another way. As for this, you can take it back first."

He put the stack of documents away and put them back in the file bag. They were just photocopies, which had no practical significance at all. The only function was to remind me of what happened in the past.

I stood up and shook my head, but didn't pick up the file, "Tomorrow you ask the secretary to bring the contract, and I will give you the original and all copies. It's time to close this matter, and I don't want to think about it again. "

I turned around to leave, but Chen Zhiyao suddenly stopped me: "Qin Ruo."

I stopped, this was the first time he called my name, not just today, but since we met, Chen Zhiyao called my name for the first time.

He said: "Qin Ruo, you only need to remember the things you have forgotten. You don't want to keep it because you are afraid you won't be able to forget it?"

"No, I'm not afraid, I will definitely forget it." I looked back at him, and said almost provocatively: "After this incident is over, I have no reason to remember it, and I have no reason to remember you. The reason why I came Here, it's not because I have no other way, but because I hope this matter can end soon. Chen Zhiyao, you have no reason to think about it anymore. I didn't see how much you cared about me at the beginning, so we'll stop here. Let's get together."

Chen Zhiyao put one arm on the back of the stool, turned to look at me, his black eyes were unfathomable, he tilted his head to look at me, his voice was meaningful but it seemed to be a sigh: "You really don't want to remember ?”

"I said, I have no reason to..."

"I didn't know, so you need a reason for everything you do." He interrupted me coldly, as if he was a little bored and annoyed, and said, "Go back, I will prepare the contract for delivery tomorrow." past."

I was stunned for a moment, is this over?

"that…"

"Why don't you leave, why don't you want to part with it?" He reprimanded in a low voice, probably because his patience had finally run out, and he suddenly became very manic, "Do you think I will stop you from leaving or what, do you think you are Who, Qin Ruo? Let me tell you, since you are leaving today, it is best not to appear in front of me again in the future, so I can be clean. Do you think you are the only one who doesn’t want to remember? It’s better to forget about it! It’s easy to get together and leave, isn’t it? Anyway, you don’t want to get together when you get together, so you don’t care about the time when you leave, isn’t it what you are best at when you leave? Let’s go!”

I was a little speechless by what he said. Seeing how excited he was, I had no choice but to explain in a low voice: "Pretend it never happened, it was good for us..."

"Us? Qin Ruo, take care of your own affairs, it's not up to you to decide." Chen Zhiyao didn't appreciate it, and sharply retorted.

I was also a little angry. I was the one who was the victim, but he seemed to be let down by others. Does he still expect me to be grateful and let go of the past and embrace him?I was already suffocating in my heart, but now I can't bear it anymore and yelled out: "You think I'm willing to take care of your business? You forced me back then, and I didn't even sue you. It's enough to swallow my breath , you have a limit to bullying, right? Since I dare to leave today, I won’t come back again. After the contract is signed, you and I will have nothing to do with each other. Just pretend you don’t know me. It has nothing to do with you, a clean break! No, there is no need to break, we have nothing for a long time, we have been nothing from the beginning, and there will be nothing in the future."

"Okay, it's nothing." Chen Zhiyao calmed down before me. He stood up with the dog, lit his first cigar today, took a puff slowly, and regained his previous indifferent and distant attitude. The state, as if he had already been out of the world, "Don't come to me again in the future."

I couldn't tell whether he was threatening or just a conclusion, because I couldn't touch his emotions again, but the words had reached this point, and I said stiffly, "Okay! I wish I could."

After I finished speaking, I immediately turned around and left. Although I knew that Chen Zhiyao would definitely not follow, and he didn't even look at me, I still ran away from here as fast as I could.It's a weird feeling, when everything I want to do is done, but I feel like I'm running away.It's like the last time I escaped from him. I should be grateful for my freedom, but I always feel that something is missing.

I told myself that nothing was missing, I was just used to being threatened by him, and I obviously won this battle.

It was indeed me who won. I saw that Chen Zhiyao's fingers were trembling when he was excited, his voice became a little sharper, and sometimes he couldn't control his emotions.That was my anger, I should be happy.

But I'm not happy, I vaguely feel that there must be something behind this that I don't know, Chen Zhiyao must be hiding something from me, this premonition is so strong, I feel like there is a stone on my heart, every time I think of it It hurts like I can't breathe.

It shouldn't be like this, I finally won once, I finally made my words clear, and finally, I have nothing to do with him.

But why am I suffering?

I couldn't think of an answer, so I could only silently light a cigarette for myself, took two puffs, and suddenly remembered that I also learned this smoking habit from Chen Zhiyao, and I didn't want to smoke any more.

He took two deep puffs, pinched out the cigarette, and looked at the message notification on the phone, Yang Ziyun had already replied.He asked: "It's been good recently, thank you for reminding me, are you okay?"

I thought about it, and decided not to mention Chen Zhiyao's matter anymore, so I just said: "It's going well, I hope everything goes well."

I just went back, and soon saw Yang Ziyun replying to me: "Chen Zhiyao recently returned to China, have you heard?"

As expected of an international policeman, Yang Ziyun is highly sensitive to many things, and Chen Zhiyao is also very powerful, and he gave me a big blow right after he came back.No, maybe he just wanted to teach me a lesson, after all, he didn't threaten me any more.I replied to Yang Ziyun: "I have already seen it, it has nothing to do with me."

"I hope it doesn't matter." I watched his simple reply and didn't start the car for a long time.The sky had already darkened, and the screen on my phone flickered even more, because I kept looking at those four words and felt a deep sense of ridicule.

Chen Zhiyao and I can't say that we have any serious relationship, but everyone feels that there is something between us, Su Jinwen is like this, Bai Xiaonan is like this, even Yang Ziyun who advocated that I sue Chen Zhiyao is like this.I really want to ask Yang Ziyun, what does he have to do with me?It's been so long, Chen Zhiyao came here for his business, he couldn't come here just to punish me, right?

Thinking of that possibility sent a chill down my spine, but I thought to myself that I did take myself too seriously.It's just a relationship between the rapist and the victim. As soon as that contract is signed tomorrow, we will no longer be in touch.

Maybe then, I'll feel relieved.Unfortunately, liberation does not mean freedom.

Others don't know what really holds me back, but I will never forget that name that I have to shout every time I climax, when will it leave?

The source of my hatred, the prison from which I cannot escape.That bastard Chen Zhiyao may not remember it at all. If I can also pretend that there is no such thing, will I forget it after a long time?

After all, it is still winter, even if I sit in the car for a long time wearing a coat, I still feel bone-chillingly cold.I started the car, turned on the heater, and drove away.

Looking at the farther and farther Nanyang Park in the rearview mirror, thinking of the lonely and distant back of Chen Zhiyao I saw for the first time, sitting alone by the lake, I never felt that this park would be so desolate.