Possessive relationship

I put on my wet shirt and suit and slipped out through the side door. I ran to the parking lot without looking up, and drove back like crazy.I threw the car into the parking space, slammed the door and left, Qingqing must have heard the sound, and opened the door before I took out the key and looked at me suspiciously.

"Master? You..."

"Go away!" He originally wanted to come over and help me untie my tie, but my body, which was controlled by Chen Zhiyao just now, didn't want to be touched by anyone, even myself.

Qingqing froze in place, I walked all the way to the bathroom, leaving my shoes and coat behind, and slammed the door of the bathroom with a "bang" to lock myself in. I took off all the extra clothes on my body, but I really wanted to What you can get rid of, you can't get rid of.It replaced Chen Zhiyao like a devil and quietly surrounded me, emitting an evil silver light, reminding me responsibly that I once belonged to that person, and I still belong to that person.

I felt blood rushing up, wanting to smash everything, even wanting to tear up this body that does not belong to me, split its limbs, chop it into countless pieces, and then burn it into ashes and blow away with the wind.Since it doesn't belong to me, don't belong to anyone anymore.Without deeds, there is no bondage, without existence, there is no trouble.

But I can't do anything. I stand in the bathroom and look at my naked body like a fool. My hands and feet are weak and my internal organs are knotted. Fortunately, there is nothing in the bathroom that can make me really hurt myself. I look at this body Dizzy, and just as I regained my senses, I realized I had just raised my hand to turn on the shower.

Cold water hit me, and my anger gradually died down, followed by that familiar sense of powerlessness.My body was cold, only my head was hot, I slowly slid and sat in the bathtub, my hair was wet and hanging down to block my vision, I closed my eyes and felt like I had never hated someone so much.

The past gradually accumulated like water pouring from the top of my head, hitting me cold and turbulent.Such hot feelings were burning in my chest, every expression of Chen Zhiyao appeared in front of my eyes, I hated him, but my hands and feet were weak and my body was cold without any strength.

Why can't he disappear.

Even if he disappeared, those things really happened. I saw myself succumbing to him under him, calling him master inappropriately.The water covered my ankles, and I didn't move. When my body is colder than the water temperature, the cold water will have temperature.

Why can't he withdraw from my life and let me quietly forget it.

Because my body remembers, remembers his temperature, his touch, Chen Zhiyao knows that the first thing to sink is the body.So when the body loses consciousness, am I just a little farther away from him?

Why, the answer he wants to give me must be hate.

what about loveLove can't stop the sinking, and love can't drive out the darkness. What love can do may be to make everything change with peace of mind.

I suddenly feel more confused, but I don't want to think about it anymore.My body was cold, my mind slowed down, and I felt tired.I want to rest for a while, but no matter how I run, I can't find a place to stop.It is so easy to sink, so difficult to wake up.

I'm not giving up, I just want to rest for a while.Let the body fall asleep, let the mind stagnate, when I no longer exist, no one can control me, does it mean that I can get a moment of freedom?

When the mind and body are separated, when I can still open my eyes in the dark, does it mean that I finally master myself?

When I sank into the water, when I lost consciousness, why did my heart still hurt like it was torn even though I was already floating?

I couldn't breathe gradually, and my chest was so stuffy that it was about to explode. What could cause such pain?Why is it that even hating someone hurts so much?

Before I could come up with an answer, I was pulled out of the water vigorously by a pair of arms.His movements were almost violent, he dragged my cooling body like crazy, and stopped me from sinking no matter what.

I was choked by the spray and coughed, but Qingqing kissed me for the first time. His lips were very hot, and he rushed to kiss me like a little beast, biting and chasing, until my cold mouth felt cold. I felt a trace of warm pain, until I tried to push him away to take a deep breath, he finally left my lips to allow me to breathe freely, and silently lowered his head and hugged me tightly.

His clothes were soaked through the action just now, but his body was still warm, his chest heaved as if he had just sprinted a hundred meters, and the muscles on his arms twitched slightly, and it was unknown whether it was because of too much force , or his whole body was trembling unceasingly.

"Master, master, master, you can't do this, you can't leave, you can't leave me." He called me repeatedly, his voice trembling slightly, did he think I was going to commit suicide?That should really scare him.

"Qingqing, I'm fine." I stretched out my hand to touch his face, warm, elastic, and a beautiful life, just clinging to my cold and naked body, I wanted to comfort him, but found my voice There was a hoarseness in it that I didn't expect. "I'm fine, I haven't gone anywhere."

What I said, combined with my behavior just now, I know it is not convincing.

Qingqing hugged me tightly, with almost half of her body pressed against me, we were immersed in cold water together, the only warmth was the body temperature of each other.My body, which has been so cold and numb for a long time, finally has some senses, only the clear skin next to it is warm, and the coldness in other places is even more obvious.I embraced Qingqing with my back against this warmth, and stroked his trembling and undulating back one after another. His clothes were a little wet from the water on my body, and his soft skin was exposed under the thin clothes. On the skin, I can almost feel the clear heartbeat directly.

That young, innocent, brave heart belongs to me.That warm, strong, healthy body belongs to me.If it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't know that physical touch can be so warm, right?

In the end, who is whose salvation?

Qingqing finally had enough hugs, and I could barely breathe. He noticed my involuntary swaying, and hurriedly got up and hugged me out.His strength has grown considerably, and his arms holding me are firm and steady, seemingly effortless.

I was naked, so from the moment Qingqing pushed the door and barged in, he should have noticed that thing, and it fell on me, making me feel heavy.

Qingqing carried me back to the bedroom, took two dry towels and came over to help me dry my body. My hands and feet were cold and stiff and I couldn't control them, so I simply let him serve me.He wiped the water off me, put a bathrobe on me, and walked around behind me to dry my hair.After all the work was done, Qingqing finally breathed a sigh of relief, and quietly knelt down at my feet.

I have almost recovered, but Qingqing hugged my legs tightly and put her head on my knees, refusing to lift up. This gesture seemed to be confiding, but also like confessing.

"What's wrong with Qingqing? Didn't you tell me that I'm fine? Come on, sit up." I noticed that he was still shaking, so I wrapped myself in a bathrobe and rubbed his hair to comfort him.I was self-willed just now, and I didn't expect such a big commotion to come.

"I'm sorry, master, I'm sorry." He squirmed his lips, if he hadn't raised his head to let me see the movement of his lips, I could hardly hear the small voice.

My heart, which was originally filled with hatred, suddenly ached, and the cold and hard icicles were melted by his eyes, and there was a soft pain in my chest, which was the overflowing spring water after the ice and snow melted. Feeling bloated, I pressed Qingqing's shoulder in distress, and said softly: "Qingqing, I don't blame you. What does this have to do with you, get up quickly."

However, Qingqing knelt down and took a wrong step back, shaking her head and roaring in a low voice, like the roar of a beast in her heart when it was hurt, "No, it's Qingqing's fault, it's Qingqing's fault. Master, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. "

I looked at the hand that was outstretched in the air, and slowly put it on Qingqing's head, gently stroking his hair, with very light movements, as if I was afraid of startling the little animal, I slowly followed his hair Mao, I can feel the hot air in his breath with slightly cool fingers, I pinched his face, but he didn't move away.

I also tried to slow down my tone, and asked softly: "Qingqing, what's the matter?"

I carefully observed his expression, wondering if my image of the beautiful and inviolable master in his mind had been damaged, making him unacceptable for a while?But Qingqing is not such a slavish person, I said to myself, after all, she is still young, and she has suffered so much, it is understandable, I thought with a wry smile.

However, Qingqing's chest rose and fell, and she said to me with difficulty: "Qingqing failed to protect the master, it's all because of Qingqing's fault, it's because Qingqing is useless."

His eyelashes trembled, his eyes looked at me in despair, he crawled over and hugged my leg in great grief and even refused to raise his head, and said in great sorrow: "Qingqing failed to protect you, Qingqing made a mistake, the master is sorry, sorry…"

My heart seemed to be strangled heavily, and I couldn't speak in pain for a while, and I couldn't even breathe.When I came back to my senses, I found that Qingqing was still kneeling on the ground in that position, and quickly pulled him up and hugged him in my arms, coaxing him carefully, as if he was the one who suffered, not me.

Qingqing also slowed down a little, climbed up along with my hand and sat beside me, without hesitation at all, grabbed my waist, put one hand on the back of my head and pressed me against his chest.I subconsciously hugged him back. Although his waist is thin, it is also strong, and some muscles in his chest are thick and elastic, so it is very comfortable to lean on.I listened to his young and powerful heartbeat, felt his warm breath blowing in my ears, and had to admit that this child always surprised me, and always surprised me.

I relaxed and let him hold me, he hugged me very tightly, so tight that both of us could feel the rhythm of each other's breathing, and the peace of mind from skin to skin is worth a thousand words.

When we were all immersed in this real comfort of having each other and gradually calmed down, I deliberately pretended to raise my airs and asked, "Qingqing, have you forgotten that I am the master?"

"Qingqing has not forgotten," he replied softly, lowering his head and rubbing his face against me, sticking it tighter, "If the master wants, please feel free to vent your anger with Qingqing. If the master is tired, please Let's rest on Qingqing's body for a while. Qingqing, is it comfortable to hold Qingqing, master?"

After he spoke, his voice started to tremble, and I didn't know what he was so eager to do for me.

"Comfortable, I raised it, of course it is comfortable." I reached out and kneaded all over his body, Qingqing's body fat ratio is very good, the muscle lines are beautiful and comfortable to the touch, I am worthy of my praise. "It looks much better than when I first came here. This is what a boy should look like. I should raise him better, right?"

I raised my head and kissed him, obviously he was born well, but I wanted to say it was my own credit, Qingqing was also willing to follow me, "Yes, it's all the master's good care."

Somehow, when I saw Qingqing smiling, I was relieved, as if subconsciously, I was more worried about his reaction than myself.Somehow, I seem to know that something will happen, but I don't really worry about myself. Now that I have come, I can only wait and see. I can't run away anyway, so let me see How is this going to end.

Only one year.I was really surprised that Chen Zhiyao only had one year to break up with me, probably he was tired of it but he was not reconciled.Such a proud person, my escape may be his great shame, and it should be enough to torment me this year as revenge.

It's just a year, which is really fast.Before I knew it, I had already left him for three years?

Within three years, although I didn't make much progress, at least I was no longer that young man who could decide his fate at will, and I was just at my beck and call, and I got through it very quickly.

I lay down with my arms around Qingqing, and I always felt that my heart was heavy and lost. Only when I hugged him hard could I feel a little real.For three years, I couldn't feel any sense of reality every day. I didn't realize that I had been running away until Chen Zhiyao appeared again.I don't know what I'm afraid of, and I don't know where I want to escape to. I'm very tired, but Chen Zhiyao moves his fingers and I understand. I haven't escaped from his Wuzhi Mountain at all.He is like the palm of the Buddha. I thought I was far away, but in fact he was just spinning around in the same place, but every time I approached, he became far away again.

Probably in Chen Zhiyao's heart, I have always been a character who comes and goes when called, right?

He doesn't need me to understand him, all he wants is possession and surrender, in fact, in the final analysis, I don't even know what he wants.Know yourself, know your enemy, and never end in a hundred battles. I don't understand him so well, no wonder I lose.It's because he hid it well, and it's also because I don't want to understand, because I deeply know that the more I know a person, the harder it is to forget.So now, the indifferent and distant Chen Zhiyao, when will he need me?

I suddenly looked forward to it.

I look forward to getting closer to Chen Zhiyao, and I have a premonition that Chen Zhiyao himself is the end of this story.