Possessive relationship

Chen Zhiyao wiped my face with his hand, only then did I realize that I was still crying, I moved my body to lean deeper into his arms, buried my head in his clothes, and used my last strength to hold my hands tight Hugging him tightly, he was stunned for a while, stopped his hands, and asked in a low voice: "Why are you crying, it's over."

"No, no." I buried my head on him and cried in a muffled voice.

"Nothing?" he asked patiently in a low voice, wrapping his arms around me.

I looked up at him, with tears on my face, I couldn't stop it, and I had no intention of stopping it.I was crying so hard, my speech was incoherent, I could only plead intermittently in a low voice: "Go for surgery, please, don't do this. Go for surgery, Chen Zhiyao, please."

After hearing this, Chen Zhiyao threw me aside, walked to the opposite sofa and sat down, lit a cigarette, took a few puffs, and asked coldly, "When did you know?"

"About half a year ago." I murmured.

"Half a year ago?" He snorted and roared in a low voice: "Okay, that's really good. It was Xiaowen who told you, right?"

"He wants me to persuade you..." I hastily explained.

Chen Zhiyao interrupted my explanation. I don't know who was staring at me more angrily. After staring at me for a long time, he took a deep breath of the cigarette, twisted it viciously, and said with a sad wry smile: "The past six months , you and I are acting or anything, you have succeeded, Qin Ruo, you are free."

My hands and feet were weak, and I moved to the side of the bed. One of them was unsteady and stumbled to his knees. I hugged his legs and begged desperately: "Don't do this, Chen Zhiyao. It's not me. What you want is over, go for surgery, please. It’s not too late to go now, I can accompany you..."

"This is not what you want, so what is the ending you want, Qin Ruo?" Chen Zhiyao glanced at me, and slowly took another puff of his cigarette.

"I..." I don't know.

"You are free, I lost. Now you can love whoever you want, fuck whoever you want, there is no reason to hate me anymore, and there is no reason to continue. Isn't this what you always wanted?"

I stared at him blankly, not knowing how to answer.This is indeed what I thought I wanted, but I don't know why, and I can't accept this ending.

"Do you know that even if the operation is successful, what are the consequences?" Chen Zhiyao's voice sounded above my head.

I numbly nodded, if successful, he would also have a high chance of losing his memory.

"I don't want you to hate me anymore, but if you don't hate me anymore, what else can you remember? Since you don't remember what's good, why don't I remember it myself." Chen Zhiyao's voice showed a bit of determination, but also a bit Helpless, "This is my own memory, Qin Ruo. No one can take it away, neither can you."

"So you want me to hate you because you are afraid that I will forget?" I looked at him dully and asked.

He sighed, and said slowly: "I was wrong after all. I made mistakes again and again, and misjudged myself. I thought I had you, but I was wrong. Then I thought I would lose you forever, but like that Not right, in the end, I thought it would be easier for you to hate me, but unfortunately it was even more wrong." He took a deep look at me, and continued: "I probably misjudged you too. You left absolutely, hate But it’s not absolute enough. Qin Ruo, why is it always easier for you to let go than to own?”

"Because," I was still a little dazed, and subconsciously said, "Because if I don't let go, how do I know if I will come back?"

"Oh, so that's how it is." Chen Zhiyao buried his face in his hands and gave a wry smile a few times, and then let out a long sigh, which seemed particularly long in this quiet night, hiding his indescribable feelings and awareness.

After a long time, my knees started to go numb when I was kneeling, and my limbs were cold and weak. I could only hug his legs and feel his body temperature. Maybe I was too cold, but I felt that Chen Zhiyao's body temperature was unexpectedly warm.

Suddenly, he stood up, and I was thrown away unexpectedly. Sitting on the ground and looking at Chen Zhiyao's tall back, I felt that it was too far away from me, and I couldn't reach it.

"You won, Qin Ruo." His voice sounded dull, I knew he had made a decision, but I didn't know what his decision was.He never explained it to me, but always thought I understood.

Chen Zhiyao sighed, turned his head and gave me a deep look, with such a penetrating gaze, as if he wanted to remember this scene in his heart forever. "Qin Ruo, you won."

He repeated it again, and I asked nonchalantly, "What did I win?"

"Everything." After he finished speaking, I was about to stand up and pull him, but he handcuffed him back and locked me on the sofa leg. No matter how much I yelled behind me, I left me in the dark without looking back. .

I heard him come out of the gate, start the car, and then the sound of the car driving away.I sat on the ground and yelled in despair, but unfortunately no one will be in this house in the middle of the night, and it is impossible for anyone to pass by and hear my voice.

I yelled for a long time, until I couldn't make a sound, and then I stopped helplessly, but I felt water on my chapped lips.It was I who cried again.

I don't want to be so weak, but as Chen Zhiyao's last breath disappeared into the room, I just feel like everyone is falling apart, and I can't join together to become strong.

I don’t know how long it took, but I couldn’t hold on physically anymore, and gradually fell asleep. When I woke up again, I found that the house had been tidied up, and I was lying on the bed wrapped in a thick bathrobe. Everything last night seemed like A ridiculous and sad dream.

I reached out and touched my lower body, and the little ring was no longer there.

I know that all that is not a dream.