process

[Are you free tonight?have a meal together? 】

Just like the previous few days, Chi Jinglan's text message came on time, 10 minutes away from get off work.

Lu Xingyuan stared at those few words in a daze until the phone screen went dark.

He came back to his senses, turned on the screen, and said hello.

[See you after get off work. 】

Lu Xingyuan threw away his phone, and suddenly someone poked his arm, Lu Xingyuan turned his head, and it was Xiang Sang who was sitting next to him, and asked with a puzzled face: "It's almost time to get off work, why is this expression?"

Lu Xingyuan was taken aback: "What expression?"

"I'm about to cry." Xiang Sang whispered.

After leaving the company gate, turn right and walk around the corner, Lu Xingyuan walked to a black car parked by the side of the road, looked around calmly, opened the rear door, and got in.

Chi Jinglan turned to look at him, then started the car and asked, "Why are you so busy recently? I remember that your team didn't take any major cases this month?"

"It was all dragged down before."

Chi Jinglan said: "Don't work too hard, pay attention to rest. We haven't eaten together for a long time."

Lu Xingyuan was a little dazed: "Really?"

"By the way, what do you want to eat tonight?"

Lu Xingyuan looked out the car window and said without hesitation: "Shun cuisine. Tell Sang that there is a good restaurant on Wutong Road."

The man looked at him strangely: "Why do you suddenly want to eat spicy food?"

"I just want to try."

Probably seeing the weariness on Lu Xingyuan's face, Chi Jinglan didn't speak any more.

Lu Xingyuan touched his coat pocket, took out a milk candy, tore off the wrapper, and threw it into his mouth.

Seeing his actions like this, Chi Jinglan couldn't help but smile.

When Lu Xingyuan was about to fall asleep in a trance, the car stopped and they arrived at their destination.

Lu Xingyuan walked in front of Chi Jinglan, found a corner seat, took a seat first, picked up the menu in a smooth manner, opened it, and began to report the name of the dish.

Chi Jinglan tried to stop him: "If you can't eat spicy food, don't force it."

Lu Xingyuan stopped turning the page, his eyes shifted to Chi Jinglan's face, he thought for a while, then lowered his head, and continued to order.

The food came out quickly, Lu Xingyuan only focused on eating the food, stopped after two mouthfuls, took a few sips of ice water, but still couldn't relieve it, even the corners of his eyes were scorched to tears, the black eyes were shining, and finally the tears and snot came down together, and the napkin was used Go fast.

He looked at the red bowls and dishes in front of him, and felt that his stomach was hot, as if being burned by flames, his lips were so hot that they were red and bright, and soon swelled up, swollen and painful, his sense of taste had been paralyzed, and he had no pleasure , not hearty, except for pain, I can't feel anything.

Chi Jinglan frowned and didn't know how to eat. Because of his self-torturous eating method, when he ate a third of it, he pressed his hand and tried to make him put down his chopsticks: "Be obedient, don't eat, If this continues, your stomach will not be able to bear it."

Chi Jinglan has great strength and a tough attitude. Lu Xingyuan stared at him for a long time. There seemed to be thousands of emotions in his moist eyes, and the tiny light flickered. However, Chi Jinglan's eyes were gentle and worried from the beginning to the end. , and then reluctantly threw the chopsticks.

Regardless of being in public, Chi Jinglan picked up a tissue to help him wipe his red mouth, and his low voice sounded very considerate: "What's wrong with you today?"

Lu Xingyuan was stunned for a while, then pushed him away: "I want to go home."

When the car stopped downstairs, Lu Xingyuan felt the burning pain in his stomach gradually subside, so he didn't get out of the car in a hurry.

Chi Jinglan leaned over to unbuckle his seat belt, and touched his cheek with his hand: "Are you okay? I'll take you up."

The distance between the two of them was so close that their eyes almost collided with each other. Lu Xingyuan turned his face away in discomfort, closed his eyes, and said in a calm tone as if he was announcing an insignificant matter: "Let's break up."

Chi Jinglan was stunned for a moment: "What are you talking about?"

"Sooner or later there will be such a day." Lu Xingyuan looked unwilling to say more.

"Why do you want to break up?"

"You see." Lu Xingyuan opened his eyes and looked at him, "Actually, I really hate spicy food."

Chi Jinglan looked directly into his moist eyes and frowned: "I know you can't eat spicy food, that's not a reason."

Lu Xingyuan looked at him frankly, and for a moment, he smiled briefly: "I thought we wouldn't make too much trouble. Is that person called Lu Fang?"

Chi Jinglan froze, looked at him in surprise, and slowly sat back in the driver's seat.

Lu Xingyuan also looked at him, his eyes were sparkling, shining like little stars, his voice was so gentle and calm, the corners of his eyes were crooked with laughter, and the pity and sympathy in his eyes didn't know whether it was for himself or for Chi Jinglan.

Chi Jinglan was still calm, and pondered for a while: "Xingyuan..."

Lu Xingyuan interrupted him and said sincerely: "I don't blame you. I really envy you for being able to love him for so long. However, you should come out sooner. I'll go first."

After saying that, he went to open the door, Chi Jinglan grabbed his wrist with an eager look, as if he had something to say, Lu Xingyuan paused.

"...I'm sorry." In the end Chi Jinglan only said these three words.

Lu Xingyuan pulled out his wrist, and as if he suddenly remembered something, he took out a candy from his jacket pocket and put it in Chi Jinglan's palm: "Parting gift. Eat something sweet and you will feel better."

Chi Jinglan watched him open the car door, and silently watched Lu Xingyuan's back disappear into the night, without looking back, without even stopping in his footsteps, he had already expected such a day, but he seemed unprepared and lost his mind method.

Looking at the candy in his palm, he suddenly remembered that when they met for the first time, Lu Xingyuan gave him a mint candy. Later, when they were dating, Lu Xingyuan would sometimes give him candy, but he didn't know where he had forgotten. went.

Lu Xingyuan returned home and closed the door. He didn't cry, but lost strength for a moment. He didn't even have the strength to turn on the light. burning sensation.

He thought he was quite satisfied with his performance just now, and the psychological construction he had done in the past week was not in vain. He did a good job, clean and easy, as if he no longer missed this relationship.

His stomach suddenly started to churn, he stumbled towards the bathroom, and vomited into the toilet, as if he was going to take out all his internal organs, and he was extremely embarrassed in the dark.

When he was almost late for work the next day, Sister Yang arrived earlier than him, and she was surprised: "Xiao Lu, the sun is really coming out from the west today, and you actually stepped into the office?"

Lu Xingyuan was not feeling well, he didn't want to explain, so he smiled.

After a while, a sandwich suddenly appeared in front of Lu Xingyuan, he raised his head, and Xiang Sang looked worried: "You look so ugly, did you not eat breakfast?"

Lu Xingyuan took the sandwich: "Thank you, I just didn't sleep well."

Lu Xingyuan went to the tea room, Xiang Sang followed behind him, and secretly asked, "Broken in love?"

Lu Xingyuan smiled wryly and asked: "Is it so obvious?"

Looking at his haggard face, Xiang Sang said worriedly: "Do you want to be more open, it's because she has bad eyesight."

Lu Xingyuan smiled: "No, I took the initiative to break up with him."

Xiang Sang was surprised: "Then since you are so reluctant, you still want to break up with her?"

Lu Xingyuan looked down at his cup: "He doesn't like me."

Sympathy welled up in Xiang Sang's eyes instantly.

Lu Xingyuan didn't feel disgusted, Xiang Sang was a very sincere and simple girl, her words and deeds were all out of good intentions, which made it hard to be hated.

When he came out, he just bumped into a group of high-level executives from the company. Lu Xingyuan and Xiang Sang stood beside him and waited for them to pass by. Chi Jinglan walked in the front, passing him expressionlessly, without looking sideways, as if he didn't see them.

Lu Xingyuan felt a strong wind suddenly blowing in his heart, everything was blown away, leaving nothing.

The days went on, Xiang Sang was very considerate, he didn't bring up the matter of his broken love, and he didn't mention it to anyone, but he usually spoke cautiously, and deliberately talked about light topics, and made an appointment to go to the movies after work Eating desserts is entirely to help Lu Xingyuan get rid of the shadow of broken love.

Lu Xingyuan fully understands her painstaking efforts, not to mention that he has never been a person who likes to torture himself, since he has chosen not to disappoint himself or others, his life is not bad, he should eat and sleep, so that he can be busy and fulfilled. I seldom think of people I shouldn't think of when I have free time.

However, what we have to face is the self deep in our hearts. Every time when we wake up in the middle of the night sweating profusely and exclaiming someone’s name in the dream, his clothes are soaked, and he comforts himself by pressing his chest that seems to be empty. The process will pass.