[Football] Choisir

. "Royce said, "You've been like this for a while, maybe... since we were filming?I don't understand, Sunny, I don't understand what I did wrong to lose your trust. "

You did nothing wrong, it was me.Gotze said this in his heart.It’s because I’m afraid that I’ll be more and more confused between you two, it’s because I’m afraid that I’ll betray Mario who really belongs here, it’s because I’m afraid that the growing love for Marco Royce in my heart will make me feel involuntarily. treat you as him...

However, these cannot be said.

"I'm sorry," he heard himself say.

"Enough!" Royce stood up abruptly, his whole body trembling.

He was angry, Marco was angry.He had never seen him so angry, not even Marco in the original world.

"Tell me, Sunny, tell me." Royce took a deep breath, and Gotze knew he was trying to restrain himself, "If I did something wrong...you don't accept me, I understand, and I swore Will wait, but you have never lost trust in me like this! Even the most basic whereabouts are not revealed... Tell me, are you finally tired?"

"Marco, please...don't..." Gotze closed his eyes, he was almost speechless due to the tightness in his chest.

"Ah, I was right, wasn't I?" Royce stepped forward and stared at him.

"The great rising star Mario Gotze is finally tired of the long and boring chasing game and is ready to get away?" Royce's voice was not loud, but it sounded harsh to Gotze, "First of all, gradually Alienated? Then play and disappear at every turn, even knowing that I will be worried to death? And then? Say I'm sorry, I don't want to go on like this, I wish you happiness?"

"That's not like you!" he suddenly shouted, "Mario Gotze! Tell me! When did you become a mother-in-law's coward? Where's your courage? Where's your ruthlessness? As long as you directly Tell me you don't love me! I swear I won't pester you any more!"

"No...it's not like this..." Getze suddenly panicked.

"No?" Royce raised his eyebrows, "Then please give me an explanation."

"I'm sorry...I can't..." Gotze felt like he was going crazy, how could he explain it to Marco without telling him the whole secret, that he was not abandoned?

"Don't..." Royce closed his eyes and took another deep breath, "Don't destroy it with your own hands after giving me hope... This is too cruel, you know? It's too cruel..."

not like this!

not like this!

not like this!

Gotze screamed inside.He wanted to say it, wanted to tell him everything: the person standing in front of you is no longer the person you love deeply, your lover is closed at a fork in the subconscious, and I am just a stranger who crossed over from another world !

Your lover still loves you!You are not abandoned!It's just that there are difficulties that I have to hide from you...

"But don't mention it to Marco, I think...he can't accept that I am not me anymore." Mario didn't have any expression on his face when he said this.But Gotze knew, he felt, what kind of sadness and pain the imprisoned consciousness had when he said those words.

"I'm sorry...Marco, I have to do this...I'm sorry..." Gotze could only keep apologizing, and the rising emotions in his heart made his eyes sour.

"You have changed..." Royce said softly, "When did it start that I don't know you at all?"

Götze felt his head was about to explode.His consciousness is now divided into two halves, one half holding the trident—"Why didn't you tell Marco? He should have the right to know the truth!" while the other half flapped its wings—"But we promised Mario, he won't Hope Marco gets involved!"

"But going on like this won't benefit us!" said the man holding the trident.

"A promise is a promise and we must keep it!" said the other half.

stop!Gotze shouted in his heart, and the two voices quickly disappeared.

Gotze knew that there was one sentence, and if he said it, he would be able to end the quarrel.But he also knew that once he said it, he would hate himself for many days to come.Because he chose to cheat, using the most despicable behavior to cheat a moment of calm.He didn't know if he could bear such consequences.

He took a deep breath and replied as calmly as possible: "If I can remember, I will tell you."

Gotze couldn't control his emotions anymore, and tears welled up in his eyes.He knew that the tears were not from grievances, but from the deep self-loathing that welled up at that moment, but he still couldn't control them from bursting.

He felt that he couldn't stay in this house anymore, he couldn't face Marco who was defeated in this way, because he despicably used Marco's feelings for Mario to achieve his goal.

So he turned around, and without hearing Royce's suddenly panicked voice, he left the house quickly.

Ram waited for a long time at the door in the thickest pajamas at home, and finally saw a familiar figure coming from the corner of the street.

It was a cold night in Munich in February, and the man was only wearing a black coat that looked very unwarming, and no scarf.It's no wonder that he tried his best to shrink his neck into his collar, and trembled while walking.

The round-faced young man approached, and he smiled sheepishly at the waiting Ram: "Hi, Philip. Sorry for being too slow."

Looking at Getze's red nose from the cold, Ram frowned and asked him, "How did you get here?"

"Come on." Gotze said with a smile.

Ram noticed that Gotze's smile looked forced, perhaps because his eyes were a little swollen.It seems that I have cried, Ram thought.He couldn't ask any more questions, so he had to bring Gotze into the house.

Ram had received a call from Gotze an hour earlier.Gotze on the phone claimed that he was homeless and asked Ram to take him in for the night.It was hard for Ram to imagine how he walked to his house alone on such a cold night.In fact, if Gotze hadn't specifically requested it, Lahm would have ordered him to stay where he was and wait for him to pick him up.

But Gotze rejected the proposal, insisting that he could find Ram's family. His attitude was so firm that he completely ignored the possible dangers raised by Ram.In the end, Ram had no choice but to make a compromise on the surface, because he could fully guess the real reason why Gotze was "homeless" tonight-after all, he told Gotze to keep a distance from Royce.

Putting down the phone, Ram immediately contacted the bodyguards, asking them to find Gotze and protect him secretly—of course, the premise is that Gotze can't be found.After finishing all this, he changed into the thickest set of pajamas at home and waited at the door until he saw Gotze's figure appearing in his sight before he felt relieved.

"Ah...it's really freezing to death outside!" Gotze yelled exaggeratedly after entering the door, and quickly rushed to the fireplace to warm his hands.Ram went to the kitchen and poured a cup of hot milk for him, Gotze gratefully accepted it.

"Arguing?" Ram asked.

Gotze took a gulp of milk, then sat down in an armchair, continuing to hold the glass in his hand as a hand warmer. "It's all my fault." He lowered his eyes and looked at the milk in his hand, "I haven't had a good talk with him since the filming ended, and I've been avoiding him... Now I can't even tell him where to go... I I can understand Marco's feelings.

"But I really can't tell him, I promised Mario...he doesn't want Marco to get involved..."

"But you can't hide it from him all the time." Ram said calmly.

"I know..." Gotze stared at the fireplace, his eyes were empty, and seemed to be thinking about something, but he was discouraged after a while.

"No, I don't know... I don't know what to do anymore..."

"Philip, you know? I really hate who I am now." Gotze said with a sigh, "I have to put on a mask at any time to pretend to be someone else. I really do everything to keep this secret." Come out... I just took advantage of Marco's feelings..."

He paused, as if recalling the harrowing moment again.After a moment he shook his head, took another sip of milk, and continued, "I really feel terrible for myself, I can't face Marco. So...Philip...let me stay with you for a while ,May I?"

"Of course, as your manager, I have an obligation to take care of you and ensure your safety." Ram nodded, "As a friend, I will not refuse a friend's heartfelt request."

"Thank you, Philip."

"This is the second time you have thanked me in two days."

"Because I'm really grateful," Gotze said sincerely, "I really don't know how to survive in this world without you."

"Then in return, I'd like you to go upstairs and take a hot shower and sleep," Ram suggested.

Gotze nodded gratefully, drank the rest of the milk in the glass, and walked upstairs.

"The guest room is the second from the left, the bathroom is on the right. I'm downstairs if you need anything," Ram added.

If you have never been in such a situation, how do you know what a dilemma is?

If you haven't felt deep emotions from another soul, if you haven't faced