[Football] Choisir

Things are going in a direction I don't want to see.

If you ask me the crux of the problem, I can now tell you with absolute certainty that it is Marko's possessiveness and self-obsession.

Maybe these two words sound too much, but they can sum up the problems I encountered at that time very well.

Marco has never claimed "sovereignty" over me, but he has become increasingly intolerant of my normal social circle.Of course I have friends, I mean besides Marco - maybe my nature is not very gregarious, but I've still been lucky to have a few real friends.So we started to quarrel, from once a month at first to once a week, and then we quarreled basically every day.During that time, I was exhausted physically and mentally. Every time I thought of Marco, what I felt was not the unspoken love I harbored, but endless troubles.

We had a serious talk before graduation, and then we both decided to separate for a while to calm down.What I didn't expect was that Marco quickly went from one extreme to another.

Perhaps you have already guessed what I am going to say.

But what I'm going to tell you is another thing.

A year after graduation, I got word that Marko had returned to the Volkswagen Group.This shocked me at the time.During the four years of college, when we got together day and night, I knew very well that Marco was trying to get rid of the shadow of his father.He didn't want to live under his father's giant palm, and lived his life step by step according to the arranged path.And the most vigorous protest he could make was to refuse access to the public as a director.

At that time, my life was very bad. I couldn’t get plays, so I could only do odd jobs in the crew for a living, and I even had to work in restaurants at night to barely support myself.It was three o'clock in the morning after get off work one day, and I received a call from Marco at home.He told me on the phone that he had used his power to intervene in the casting of a movie invested by the public and won me the second male lead.He gave me the role as a gift and asked me if I would be his boyfriend.

That was probably the worst argument we've ever had.

No, don't make me recall those details.Even today, I still don't want to think about the details of that quarrel.

That was the first time he said "I love you", but I felt like an enemy.

Yes, I turned him down.

Maybe you will think that I don't know what is good or bad, after all, such a huge contribution of a person should not be exchanged for such indifference.But you know what I think?If we really love each other like I think we should, we should be equal.It's not about the equality of life experience or social status, but at least it is in love.

I am not someone's accessory, nor is my love a commodity that can be traded.You can't just kidnap my love for you just because you made a great sacrifice and got me a role that will make the future brighter for me, and if I don't accept it, I will become a completely despicable heartbreaker.

Sorry, you know I'm talking about Marco.

In fact, I don't think Marco understood that at the time.He's just—I don't know if this description is accurate enough—he's just obsessed with himself, the noble feeling of giving for me, he's just moved by himself...

You might think it's cruel to say that about Marco, and I actually thought so at first.I told myself, you are too evil, how can you speculate on your lover with such malice?Of course I know that I am not as kind and harmless as I describe myself, as if I am just an innocent victim in the whole incident.

No, I'm just a selfish coward in love.

I have never said this to anyone because I know no one will understand except you who I feel connected to.So please allow me to tell you this, and no one else will know it except you.

I am too timid.Maybe unlike the outside I used to show, I've always been a coward on the inside.That's why Marco and I haven't confessed to each other for so many years.In fact, I had many opportunities to express my heart to Marco, because I was the first to be moved, so I should tell him first.But I was too scared, of course I know what I will face once I express my heart, once I make my love public.So I've been running away from myself, even though everyone saw our relationship, even though no one showed us any kindness, I didn't bring myself to say that and kept lying to myself that I could use it if I didn't call it out "Brotherhood" to explain what happened.

So you see, this is why our love is twisted.

We are all wrong and have always been wrong.

When I was trapped in the dark, I thought about it for a long time.I picked out these memories and watched them over and over again, and I found out why.And from the moment Marco's warmth helped me escape, I made up my mind not to escape anymore.

Because I love him.

I had to tell him what was on my mind and pull him back from the paranoid path, or neither of us could be forgiven.

So if you can, if you have a chance before you manage to find a way back, tell him those words.As much as I wish it was me who told him, the sooner this happens the better.

Marco has to understand what love is and what isn't, he has to be able to tell what it feels like for me.If he finds out that all he has done has come from indulging in the nobility of devotion, then I will do nothing but kidnap him with my confession.Because that shows that he doesn't love me, and he will find his true love one day.

Chapter 11

Gotze felt that what the other Mario said was right, this matter could not wait any longer, the sooner the better.

But he still hasn't found a good time.In the past few days, he was preparing to be discharged from the hospital, and he had undergone various examinations, large and small. While being moved by the doctor's responsible attitude, Gotze still couldn't help feeling a little anxious.

After chatting with Mario, he wanted to talk to Royce more and more, but Royce seemed to show up less and less.But soon Gotze knew the reason-there was a problem with the Volkswagen Group.

Gotze had previously been confused about what Reuss' job at Volkswagen was because he didn't appear to be working.Royce maintains a routine of going out at [-]:[-] noon and returning home at [-]:[-] p.m. - if you don't count the nightlife after [-]:[-] p.m., he seems to go out every day just to have lunch.

However, during the days when Gotze lived in Harlaching, Royce seldom went out at night, but stayed at home and read books.Gotze once became curious about the books he was reading, and secretly observed Royce a few times when Royce was not paying attention, but he found that the English vocabulary he had mastered was too heavy for him-those thick English books It's full of jargon that he doesn't understand, but one thing's for sure, it's either about economics or management.

Later he knew why Royce didn't go to work before, because the public didn't need him to go yet.What's more, the "going to work" in the eyes of those people is not something that a football player like Gotze can understand.

Now, the reason why Royce is suddenly busy is that the Volkswagen Group is facing a crisis.

It took almost no effort for Gotze to find out, as he saw reports of the incident as soon as he turned on the TV.

"Not long ago, the EPA accused Volkswagen of intentionally violating the Clean Air Act in a statement. The statement said that the so-called 'defense device' software that Volkswagen installed on internal combustion engine vehicles would only turn on pollution emission controls during mandatory inspections. , to ensure that these vehicles can pass the customs with 'high environmental protection standards'. This means that this device is completely ineffective in the daily driving of the car, so in fact some Volkswagen vehicles emit nitrogen oxides that seriously exceed the standard, and even reach the limit 40 times of that. About 48.2 vehicles are suspected of violating the regulations, involving Jetta, Beetle, Golf, Audi A2009 from 2015 to 3 and Passat from 2014 to 2015. According to the "Clean Air Act", Volkswagen will Facing a fine of up to $3.75 per violating vehicle, the total could be as high as $180 billion..."

Before he finished listening, he turned off the TV.

Gotze felt that just listening to this news was already a headache, and it was hard to imagine that Royce had to face these. A fine of US$180 billion is an unusually large amount for anyone, perhaps much more than the annual profit of the Volkswagen Group.

He understands that now is not the time to talk about his own affairs at all, and the most important thing is to find a way to help Royce overcome this difficulty, but he knows nothing about economics and management, so it is really hard to say that he can help.After thinking about it, Gotze finally decided to express his spiritual support.So he took out his mobile phone and typed a text message to Royce. After typing, he felt that it was not suitable, so he quickly deleted and rewritten it. words——

do not give up.

Royce quickly came back with an expression :)

Looking at this expression and such a quick reply, Gotze felt a little relieved.

When Royce received the invitation text message, it was impossible to say that it was not a surprise.

Strictly speaking, it can't even be regarded as an invitation message, because there are only two sentences in the text message: Is it convenient to come back now?You know where to find me.

Gotze's first reaction when he saw the text message was that his head was big. "You know in