four year itch

[I could have endured the darkness / If I had not seen the sun / Yet the sun has made my desolation / A new desolation] [1]

Xu Ruibai stayed at his house until the fourth day of junior high school. They ate and slept together, went out to play, discussed and comics, Xu Ruibai's attitude towards him seemed to have eased a lot, and they seemed to have returned to the time when they just met.Ye Jia never knew the purpose of Xu Ruibai's visit, Xu Ruibai didn't say anything, Ye Jia also tacitly didn't ask, he didn't like to ask the bottom line, if Xu Ruibai didn't want him to know, he wouldn't ask any more questions.

In the afternoon of the fourth day of the fourth day, Ye Jia received a WeChat message from Shen Qingchuan, asking when he would return to City G. He had been in touch with Shen Qingchuan all the time, so he replied with the date he went to work.Shen Qingchuan also replied in seconds, saying that when he came back to help him clean up the dust, Ye Jia only smiled and perfunctory.

After dinner at night, Xu Ruibai sat quietly by the bed and read a book, while Ye Jia began to write his. The room was so quiet that only the sound of Ye Jia typing, they were doing their own things without talking, but they felt very comfortable.

It's just that this kind of comfort didn't last long, the sudden sound of the phone broke the peace, and Ye Jia hurriedly picked up the phone.An energetic voice came from the other end of the phone, and it was even more obvious in the quiet room, "Ye Jia!"

"Chen Lang?"

Hearing this name, Xu Ruibai's hand flicked the book, but he didn't raise his head.

"Yeah yeah."

Ye Jia glanced in Xu Ruibai's direction with some anxiety, stood up and walked to the balcony of the room.

"what happened?"

"Ye Jia, when are you going back to City G?" The boy's voice was full of expectation.

"What's the matter, what's the matter?"

"I want to play with you, I'm so bored."

Ye Jia had long been used to Chen Lang's nonsensical enthusiasm, so he sighed faintly, "Where are your friends?"

Chen Lang's tone was a little disappointed, "They all went home for the New Year."

"You didn't go home for the New Year?"

"No." Chen Lang didn't seem to want to mention this matter, and after hastily brought it up, he regained his interest, "When do you go to work?"

Ye Jia hadn't had time to answer when his back suddenly touched a firm chest, and his warm breath sprayed on his neck. The smell of cedar mixed with the scent of shampoo was fresh and sexy.Ye Jia gasped for breath, and his right hand holding the phone was a little unsteady. Xu Ruibai seemed to understand his nervousness very well, and attached his slender and strong fingers to his right hand to help him hold the phone firmly.

Chen Lang, who hadn't received a reply on the other end of the phone for a long time, was a little impatient, "Ye Jia?"

"Yes, yes." Ye Jia's head was blank, and he responded in a panic.

"What happened just now?"

"No...the signal is not good."

The hot and humid tongue was wandering around his ear, and the restless left hand had reached into the hem of his clothes, making him tremble.

"Oh, I just asked when you will be back, did you hear that?" Chen Lang asked again without doubting him.

The room was too quiet, the voice from the other end of the phone came clearly, Xu Ruibai bit the back of his neck lightly with his teeth with some dissatisfaction.

"I... hiss..."

There was a pain in the neck, Ye Jia frowned and made a sound, the fingers holding the phone couldn't help curling up, Xu Ruibai actually bit down on the side of his gland as punishment.

"What's the matter?" Chen Lang asked nervously.

"It's okay, I bumped into it." Ye Jia pushed the person behind him impatiently, struggling to stay away from him, but the strength was disparate, the more he struggled, the tighter he stuck to him, and the smell of pheromone in the room became more and more entangled. He also seemed a little emotional.

"Why don't you be more careful?"

"Ah."

As soon as he answered, Xu Ruibai's kiss blocked his lips, sticking out the tip of his tongue to entangle with him, Ye Jia wanted to hang up the phone, but Xu Ruibai pressed his hand tightly, Xu Ruibai was probably determined to embarrass him.Such a shameful scene made Ye Jia unbearable psychologically, and even the corners of his eyes could not stop the tears of grievance.

Chen Lang seemed to be aware of the abnormality on the other end of the phone, "Xiaojia, are you...is there someone else around you?"

Xu Ruibai slightly opened the distance between the two of them, and pressed against his forehead, then chuckled softly, lowered his voice and said in his left ear, "He asked if there was someone else beside you."

Ye Jia was speechless, and looked at Xu Ruibai pleadingly, he had no time to think about other things, he just wanted to ask Xu Ruibai to let him hang up the phone quickly.

Xu Ruibai seemed very satisfied with his current expression, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, his expression was full of the pride of the winner, he lightly released Ye Jia's hand, looked down at him, and gestured for his mobile phone with his eyes , as if it was his great gift.

Ye Jia didn't even have time to say goodbye, so he hung up the phone in a hurry. His heart was still beating wildly. How does Lang think of himself, and where does he have the energy to care about his dignity and image.

Xu Ruibai is always like this, pushing himself into a corner, so that as long as the other party backs down a little, he will feel that he has given himself the greatest tolerance.

In the end, he threw away his helmet and armor, retreating steadily, with no way out.

Xu Ruibai grabbed Ye Jia's chin in pity, and forced him to look at him. There were still wet tears in the corners of Ye Jia's eyes. His eyes were stubborn but sad, with a rather pitiful look.If this is Xu Ruibai's goal, then obviously he has won a big victory.

Early the next morning, Ye Jia opened his swollen eyelids and stared at the snow-white ceiling for a long time before realizing where he was.He moved his limp body, struggled to sit up, and felt a tingling pain from the back of his neck, which was the imprint Xu Ruibai deliberately left on his body.

Last night was really a ridiculous night, Xu Ruibai tossed him until the early morning before giving up, every sprint he made, every word he said carried a warning meaning, he changed countless postures as if vowing to find his most shameful place, forcing him to say the most unbearable words in order to crush all his self-esteem.

Ye Jia looked around, but did not see Xu Ruibai's figure, dragged his tired body out of bed, and found a high-necked sweater to put on.

There was no one in the living room, only Chen Jing was preparing lunch in the kitchen.

"Mom." As soon as Ye Jia opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was terribly hoarse.

Chen Jing was busy cooking, and didn't look back, "Are you up?"

"Well, where's Rabe?"

"Ruibai has gone back." Chen Jing couldn't help complaining, "I said you are really a kid, you don't know how to give away the guests when they are going back, you just know how to sleep."

Ye Jia was surprised, "Going back? Why didn't you wake me up?"

"That's right. Ruibai said that you went to bed very late last night, so you should be very tired. Let us not wake you up." Chen Jing became more and more satisfied with Xu Ruibai, he was sensible and considerate, and he was also likable.

"When did he leave?"

"It's past eight o'clock. I don't really remember. Your dad just woke up and saw that he was already sitting in the living room and was about to say goodbye to us."

Enduring the discomfort, Ye Jia ran back to the room and sent a message to Xu Ruibai, "Ruibai, have you gone back?"

It was another text message that went nowhere.

Xu Ruibai's tenderness is like a warm breeze, clearing the sky and light rain, bit by bit.When you don't pay attention, he wants nothing more, allowing you to enjoy it for a while, but if you want to catch it, he seems to exist, leaving you melancholy.

Ye Jia looked at the empty dialog box and shook his head helplessly. If it wasn't for the discomfort coming from his lower body, if it wasn't for the scars on the back of his neck that were still clearly visible, Ye Jia would almost think that this was just a dream of his own.

After waking up from the dream, he and Xu Ruibai were still strangers, torturing each other.

No, he was the only one who was tortured.

[1] From "If I Never Seeed the Sun" by Emily Dickinson