four year itch

"Come to pick you up to go back to celebrate the New Year."

Bai Zhuyu stood at the door with a smile on her face. She wore light makeup, a water-green cheongsam, and a white shawl. The pearl necklace on her neck shone under the light. She looked elegant, pure and noble. It is out of place with this narrow gate.

Xu Ruibai glanced at her from beginning to end, and said, "No need."

After speaking, he turned and walked towards the drawing board, ready to continue to finish the unfinished painting with his left hand.

Bai Zhuyu's smile seemed to freeze for a moment, and then he returned to his flawless appearance, and said softly, "Haven't you had enough fun? The whole family is waiting for you to celebrate the New Year."

From her point of view, Xu Ruibai's 28-year-old wandering is no different from his 18-year-old one, but it's all a child's joke asking for sweets, and the end result is the same.The difference may only be that the 28-year-old Xu Ruibai suffered a little more, which was also a small punishment she gave, which made her lose face at the whole party.

As long as she makes a little concession, her child will always come back to her.

Xu Ruibai said flatly: "If I remember correctly, I should have found no such person now."

Since there is no such person, where did the family come from?

"The days when you don't belong to the Xu family are very difficult, right?" Like a mother who tolerated the return of a child who ran away from home in adolescence, Bai Zhuyu's eyes were gentle and her tone was even softer. She said, "As long as you are willing to come back, you will always be happy." You are a child of the Xu family, and you will always be Xu Ruibai."

"It can also be the southwest wind." Bai Zhuyu gave Xu Ruibai a candy.

"It's not that difficult, I'm fine now." Xu Ruibai was unmoved.

Bai Zhuyu laughed, and even his tone was seldom disdainful: "Setting up a stall in the square to paint, sleeping in a crowded small room, worrying about the next day's lunch every day? Rui Bai, this is you freedom to pursue?"

"Isn't that good?" Xu Ruibai asked back, "I don't have to worry about anything except eating, sleeping and drawing."

"Rui Bai, none of this can last. Everyone may leave you, only family members will always stand by your side. Look at the homeless people on the street, aren't you afraid to become like them?" Giving him a piece of candy and then giving him a whip is just Bai Zhuyu's usual method.

"Scared." Xu Ruibai said his fear without hesitation, but the movements of his hands did not stop, he was still drawing the picture.

Xu Ruibai is not resisting anything now.

"But it doesn't matter, even if you can't escape your control, it doesn't matter." Xu Ruibai continued.

He was no longer the Xu Ruibai who did sharp sabotage and then fantasized that the Xu family would give him the freedom he wanted, that was more of a childish waywardness.

Freedom is not about traveling to passionate countries, nor is it about indulging in the sinking of the body. The real freedom is to cut off the shackles and develop freedom where there is no freedom.

"Of course you can turn everyone around me away from me," he said.

"But the world is too big, you can't live here, you can live in another place." Xu Ruibai said so, his tone became lighter.

Bai Zhuyu listened quietly, but her face became more and more ugly.They remained silent like this, only the intermittent sound of firecrackers and some impatient whistles outside the door could be heard

The sky has darkened, snow has fallen again, and the air is getting colder and harsher. Everyone is eager to go back to the warm room and reunite with their families.

After a long time, Bai Zhuyu asked, "What about Ye Jia?"

Xu Ruibai paused, panic flashed in his eyes, but he quickly regained his composure: "I have nothing to do with him anymore."

Bai Zhuyu wanted to say something else, but Cheng Jun's voice came from the door.

"Xiaobai, come and help me get something."

Xu Ruibai stood up and said, "It's getting late, you should go."

When walking past Bai Zhuyu, she grabbed his arm and said, "Come home with me."

Cheng Jun urged outside the door: "Xiaobai, hurry up, your sister Ziwen can't take it."

Xu Ruibai pulled out his hand and said, "No more."

Cheng Jun parked the little donkey at the door, and put two bright red bags on the front pedal, and she was trying to maintain the balance of the car.Fang Ziwen had two red plastic bags hanging on his hands, which were full, revealing the packaging of snacks, which was their material guarantee when they watched the New Year at night.They didn't bring an umbrella when they went out, and the newly bought woolen coat had a lot of snow on it, making it look cold and wet.

"You take the two bags in front of me, and I'll stop the car." Cheng Jun instructed Xu Ruibai, and couldn't stop complaining, "The snow fell so suddenly, I almost slipped when I walked around the corner. One fall."

Xu Ruibai picked up the bag in front of Cheng Jun, and went to pick up the bag in Fang Fangwen's hand.

Fang Ziwen shrank his hands, refused his help, and turned to Cheng Jun and said, "I will go in with Xiaobai first."

As soon as he turned his head, he saw Bai Zhuyu coming out of the house. The two met face to face, and Bai Zhuyu gave her a condescending look.The man in a black suit who looked like a bodyguard had already opened the umbrella respectfully and escorted her all the way into the snow.

Fang Ziwen looked at the backs of the two, and it took a while to react, and asked Xu Ruibai: "Any guests?"

Xu Ruibai glanced at the direction they left, then turned and walked into the house: "No, I asked for directions."

"Come to ask for directions dressed like this?" Cheng Jun had already parked the car, brushed the snow off his body, and asked suspiciously.

Without Xu Ruibai's answer, although Cheng Jun still had doubts in his heart, he had no choice but to give up.What Xu Ruibai didn't want to say, no one can force him.

Xu Ruibai put the things on the shelf, saw through the glass that Bai Zhuyu got into an extended version of the Land Rover Range Rover, and watched the car disappear into the wind and snow.

After a long time, he put on his coat and said to Cheng Jun who was clearing the table, "Sister Jun, I'm going out for a while."

"Where are you going? I'm going to have dinner soon."

"do not wait for me."

Xu Ruibai didn't even take an umbrella, and rushed into the wind and snow. At this moment, he didn't want to care about anything. There was some emptiness in his heart, and some emotions were relaxed. He felt extremely happy, and he just wanted to see him immediately To Ye Jia.

The tiny ice crystals gathered in the clouds, and then condensed into snowflakes, which floated into silver debris all over the sky under the blue-gray lights.They covered Xu Ruibai's hair and shoulders, condensed into a layer of transparent ice, and fell with his movements.

Xu Ruibai was running in the middle of the road, his eyes were filled with whiteness, and his back was empty.

Across the lights of thousands of houses, he heard the clinking of cups and cups of happy gatherings, the cheers of children amidst the sound of firecrackers, and the emotive voices of the hosts on the TV.All the voices gathered in his ears, broken and faded, and finally only his own rapid heartbeat and heavy breathing remained.

On New Year's Eve last year, he spent 7 hours on the highway without understanding why he had to travel hundreds of kilometers just to meet Ye Jia.

At this moment, he finally figured it out. Mountains, rivers, lakes, and rain falling in the wilderness are not as good as standing in front of his lover and saying to him, Happy New Year.

——I want to see him, and I can't wait for a moment.