time gap

Walking through the crowded streets one after another, the passers-by in a hurry all around had the same expression, frowning slightly, rushing to the next destination.People who live a busy life in the city.

For the family, for the lover, he worked tirelessly.

Lu Han, who was slowly wandering in the crowd, seemed so out of place.The chocolate milk tea in my hand was oozing water because the ice had melted, and my feet hurt and my legs were swollen after walking too much.

But still walking.Aimlessly.

Originally, Shi Xun's company agreed to accompany him to lunch, but he sent a text message saying that he had eaten at home and started walking like this.

It's time to get off work in the afternoon.Not only is the traffic jam on the road ecstasy, but the sidewalks are not unimpeded during peak hours, which makes people feel a little less eager to walk.

I simply found a bus stop with not so many people and sat down, my mind was empty all afternoon.

When was the last time you walked so much?

It's time to fall into darkness.

I finally started to concentrate and think about things, and my beautiful big eyes were no longer distracted and regained their focus.The hand also regained consciousness, looked at the chocolate milk tea in his hand, and threw it into the trash can beside him.Fingers are stiff.

"See? That's the guy. He looks like a woman. He has no parents."

"Ah~ I really look like a woman, are you sure it's not a woman? How come there are no parents?"

"My mother said that his mother wanted to run away with another man. After his father found out, he killed his mother and that man, so he has been in prison and can't get out."

"Killed two people? Isn't that going to squat for a lifetime? Then how did this guy grow up?"

"Looks like a woman. The neighbor's aunt and my mother will help him when they see him pitiful. How can he live without relying on his face? Thinking about it makes me angry. My mother even paid for it last night. Let him eat the dumplings."

"He's the son of a murderer. Is your mother crazy?"

"Women are born without brains, and they will go crazy seeing his face."

"Teach him a lesson, us."

"Hmph, I've thought about it a long time ago, this time I'll kill him. I heard from my mother that this guy's father is a complete pervert. When he killed his mother, he was locked in the closet in the room, and he just listened to it the whole time. Yeah, I got a weird sickness because I was terrified. Ever heard of claustrophobia?"

"What disease is this?"

"If you enter a confined space that is too narrow and dark, it will be painful and suffocate."

"interesting."

The container that was locked in the port thought that he would die when he suffocated.

In fact, would it be better to die than now... I thought about it in the long past, maybe it would be better to die.

What now?I'm glad I didn't die, at that time.

The later experience is like a dusty oil painting when I think about it now, blurred.

When I woke up, I was in a dark, boundless, groping forward in that kind of space, my eyes were useless, I couldn't see anything at all, there was no light.

I didn't feel hungry or tired in such a space, so I kept walking, thinking that I was in hell.

Then it will fall into a white light without warning and appear in the world of normal people.

There have been times when I suddenly fell in the middle of the road and was hit by a car in the next second.There is also the experience of falling into a couple's room and witnessing a violent beating in a living erotic palace.

Sometimes when I met a good person, I lived with a grandma for several years, and replaced the unfilial descendants to die for her.

The kind old chef taught him to cook many kinds of meals.

And the first real friend in life, met Zhang Yixing.

It's a pity that I still can't resist falling into the darkness suddenly. Sometimes I fall asleep and then wake up in the darkness, and sometimes I am suddenly swallowed by the darkness while walking. Even the first time I was confessed, the person kissed me In an instant he was taken away by darkness.Thinking about it now, the man must have been terrified.

Every time I come out, I am in a different country, sometimes even a different time axis. While I am proficient in many languages, I am even more unable to communicate with normal people.Because I understand that feelings are terrible things.

Looking back on it this way, the past eight years were really lucky.

I grew up with Wu Shixun and depended on each other for five years. I fell into the darkness and came out of the same house. I can't forget the excitement at that moment.While skillfully cleaning the room, I touched every familiar item in the room with trembling hands and tears. It's great to be here again.

However, two years have passed, and the two years swallowed by darkness cannot be retrieved.Fortunately, it's only been two years. His Wu Shixun hasn't forgotten him yet, hasn't married and had children yet, and still loves him.

"While there is still time, let's bid farewell." The woman's voice came to my mind again, and I didn't know when so many tears flowed on my face, and I reached out and wiped it indiscriminately.

What I have to admit is that what she said is quite right. Thinking about the many times in the past when he left without saying goodbye, he didn't dare to think about what those who were left behind thought, and he didn't know. When he met Zhang Yixing again later, He knows.

Zhang Yixing said that he has been looking for him for many years, even after he came to South Korea, he still went back to China every year, and went back to the city where they lived together to inquire about him.But I didn't expect to meet him in Korea.

It doesn't sound that bad, but Wu Shixun is different. He never asked how Wu Shixun lived in those two years, and whether he had looked for him, but he remembered the messy roof that didn't look like a home when he came back. , Oh Se-hoon, who worked hard and was in terrible health.He dared not ask.

"Hey?"

"Where are you and why aren't you at home?"

"Oh, it's on the street, go back right away."

"Stay still and I'll pick you up."

After hanging up the phone and looking at the two people who were giggling on the lock screen, they had to say goodbye to him properly.

I don't want to disappear unprepared anymore, let him wait aimlessly, and want to be with him all the time, this kind of selfish idea, I have to put it away, because no matter what, I can't do it.

However, he clearly deserves a better life than the nerve-wracking life of a frightened bird.

Without Lu Han, a better life.

His eyes were a little sore, Lu Han lowered his head and rubbed his eyes, and instantly fell into a somewhat impatient embrace.

"Why don't you call me if you can't wait for the car to go home. I'm so anxious that I can't find you."

"It won't happen in the future." Hugging that person back, the wider and wider back felt very secure, making people want to rely on him.There is actually a faint milky smell on the adult man, I really like it very much.

It won't happen in the future, in the future, you don't have to look for me again.Lu Han thought about it and closed his eyes.