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Wu Shixun was silent for a long time, he didn't know how to digest the information he got from Zhang Yixing's words.

Is this the secret that Luhan has been carrying all along?For so many years, the invisible barrier between him and Lu Han, is this it?

Luhan struggled alone in that kind of boundless fear for so many years, but he didn't know it at all, the day and night of staying together now seems like bubbles that can break at the touch of a touch, changing wonderfully under the sun. The halo made him think that it was happiness, but as long as he stretched out his hand lightly, everything would be disillusioned.

Those days of loving each other that only he enjoyed with peace of mind made him feel ashamed at this moment.

Having experienced two losses, he could no longer bear this kind of deep pain.What's more, Lu Han, he is always struggling on the verge of this kind of pain.Because you can lose it at any time, it’s like a trap lying in front of you, you know it’s there, but you don’t know where or when, you suddenly trigger that mechanism, and then you lose it dripping with blood.

Those who are silent, those who do not promise.He finally understood, understood the bottomless sadness in Lu Han's eyes.

"Remember what I said? Then, trust me." He remembered what Lu Han said to him after he came back last time.

"As long as I can, I will always be by your side, but whether my people are by your side or not, my heart loves you."

This is the only promise Luhan gave him, he made him believe in him.

But he didn't...

He is just worried that Lu Han will abandon him again, he just wants to tie him up all the time.Don't let him go out to work, don't let him have more friends, don't even open him a bank account, don't give him any chance to leave him.

But Luhan just endured all these silently.

Even if I live in fear all day long, even if I suffer from insomnia every night and my spirit is on the verge of collapse at any time, I still silently endure all unreasonable demands from Wu Shixun, just to make him feel at ease.

Wu Shixun looked around the house where the two had lived together for more than half a year. Although it no longer had the clean and warm appearance when Lu Han was there, he seemed to see Lu Han's loneliness through the cracks in the sunlight. Figures walking around the house.

Wu Shixun suddenly discovered that since Luhan came back and the two moved into this big house from the tower room, it was this house that accompanied Luhan the most, not him Wu Shixun.

He worked desperately, wanting to give Lu Han a better life, and to prove that he is capable of supporting Lu Han so as to prevent him from going out to work, he locked Lu Han here so that he could feel at ease and feel empty and self-blame The heart can feel better.

His humble and guilt-ridden love not only tortured himself but also tortured Lu Han.

The initial ecstasy of knowing that she had been fooled by Dolly didn't last for a few seconds before being overwhelmed by this new round of self-blame.

Wu Shixun has kept one posture for too long, and he has been drinking too much for a long time. At this moment, there is no pain in any part of his body from the inside to the outside, from the internal organs to the muscles and bones.

But all the pain added up did not have his heartache.

【Luhan, Luhan, Luhan】

He closed his eyes and repeated the name over and over again, as if these two words had pain-relieving magic, as long as he said this, it would make him feel less pain.

Zhang Yixing knew how complicated Wu Shixun's emotions must be at this time, he stopped talking about Lu Han, and just patted Wu Shixun on the shoulder lightly.

"I will help you find him. But you have to take care of your body first, and then I will take you to find him. Now, follow me to the hospital."

"Do you know where he is?" Wu Shixun's eyes finally regained a little focus.

"I don't know yet. Dolly said he was in his hometown, but I don't know where his hometown is. He never told me that the place where he met me in China was not his birthplace. Much Li is now unwilling to provide more information, but don't worry, Yifan has a way to get her to speak."

Hearing Dolly's name, the flames in Wu Shixun's eyes flickered, and then dimmed. If Lu Han can't be found, he will use thousands of ways to kill this woman, but he really doesn't want to see her now.

"Take a shower and go downstairs. I'll wait for you in the car. You're in a bad state. Go to the hospital with me." After Zhang Yixing finished speaking, he turned and left the house. He really couldn't stay in this house anymore. Cleanliness, just saw Wu Shixun's appearance, those shocking emotions made him forget his faults for a moment, and he was surprised that he could resist the smell that was comparable to biochemical weapons and stayed in this room for so long.Now that the business is over, he doesn't want to stop for a second.

The smell didn't fade much after the window was open for so long, Zhang Yixing shook his head, he had to check the kid carefully, how much alcohol he drank, I don't know if it would damage his brain.

Wu Shixun got up like a walking dead and walked into the bathroom without even a little extra expression on his face.

His mind couldn't think normally for the time being, and he was in chaos under the influence of alcohol, thinking about a problem over and over again.What's more, what he just learned shocked him beyond measure.

At the moment there is only one thought in his head, he wants to find Lu Han, no matter what.

When he was about to go out after taking a shower, he picked up the card on the dining table and glanced at the moldy food on the table. Wu Shixun's eyes became hot, and he shed two lines of tears almost unconsciously.

Until tears seeped into the corner of his lips, the bitter taste suddenly awakened his nerves.

Find and beat Lu Han, then what?

One day, he will still leave...

Whether they are willing or not, this day will come sooner or later...

He didn't know why in the past, but now he knows, but even if he knew, so what.

Recalling the scenes of that day, when Luhan left, the wrinkled corners of his clothes...the white joints...the round eyes that were afraid of tears...resisting his heart The pain of the tight body that dare not even breathe...

The details circulated in his mind like a film reel, and after taking a bath, he was really sober.

Wu Shixun smiled wryly, and sat slumped on the spot.

When Lu Han left him, he must have made a lot of determination.Luhan's pain must not be less than his.

But even if the two are reunited at this moment, there will still be a day when they will face the doomed separation.

Can no one change anything and live together cautiously again?

What is the difference between the fear in the past and the present?