masculinity

I sent them a message the day before going abroad, telling them that I was going to chase my own utopia, I hope they are all well, and I hope they are all happy on the day we meet again.

After sending the text message, I didn't wait for someone's reply with my mobile phone, but lightly pressed the power off button of the mobile phone, and the calling card will be canceled tomorrow.I left the place where I lived for 18 years quietly and quietly like this. I may or may not come back in the future, everything depends on the arrangement of fate.

The plane landed on the ground in Canada, and my heart slowly calmed down. I didn't think about anything anymore, and started a new life. Everything was strange, without those things and people from before.

A new life is coming, and what I have to do is to be a perfect person completely according to my own ideas, so that all new friends will envy me and envy me.I want to be a good, attractive man again.

I don't live for anyone anymore, Chicheng, Yunlong, Yue Jiaqi and other people will only stay in my mind and will never appear in my life again, so I can do whatever I want, no one knows what I used to be story.

In a few days, I successfully processed all the relevant materials and entered the Aisgar Business School. I listened to my father. He asked me to come here. I have no objections. I'm talented and smart, is there anything I can't learn?I know my dad has always wanted me to study business management and want me to be a CEO or something...

Poor parents all over the world, he has already arranged my future path, there is no room for negotiation, they didn't pay enough attention to my study before, it was not because of my self-discipline, so they arranged it without telling me Don't worry about everything, study, they worry about my future.

That’s why my parents are different from other people’s parents. Hehe, no matter what, it’s fine for them to love me, and it doesn’t matter what they do, as long as they are happy. I’m not a child anymore, and I understand their thoughts.

As parents, it is just a small wish, I hope that my children will grow up happily, and when they are sick, I can see them in front of my mother, and I can send them off after a hundred years... As I grow older, I also I started to understand, tolerating my parents with selfish love.

"Lin Xi! Hurry up, you're going to be late."

The morning sunshine in Canada shines into my room through the pure white gauze curtain, scattered on the wooden floor, fresh and warm.Every day, I wake up and eat breakfast in the sound of my mother's urging, and then take a ride with my father to go to school. What a happy time!

snort!My dad bought a car and found a job. I was the last to know. I was unhappy. My dad and mom have been hiding everything from me recently. I wasn’t angry at first, but my dad bought a car before I started school. On the day I started school, my dad didn't even send me there!I have been looking for a subway for a long time on the streets of Canada...

That night, when I went home for dinner, my father sighed regretfully: "Lin Xi, why didn't you let me see you off today?"

I wonder, Dad, are you stupid?Are you sure you want to take the subway with me to go to school, and then you go home... I don't believe it, I was about to answer my dad, but my mom interrupted me, and I cried to death.

"Your father bought a car a few days ago and completed the formalities."

Mom put the steaming food on the table, looked at me with a smile and said, I just want to cry, Dad, why are you doing this to me? !On the first day of school, I was squeezed into the subway, holding a lot of gifts for new friends...

I complained directly to my dad and mom. The new day of school is so hard. What’s wrong, a gringo always squeezes me, and black-skinned classmates think I’m short!However, I am almost 1.8 meters.

My goal was finally achieved, so my dad sent me to school very early every day, and then he went to work, haha, I was unhappy the next morning, why?

Because my dad is going to work, and then he will send me to school first, so!So I have to get up half an hour early, I have no choice but to get up early, I don’t want to squeeze the subway, look at those foreigners with all kinds of appearances, feel like a strange person, I can probably understand the English they speak, and their speech speed So fast, I can't hear you all.

In this way, every morning when I lie down, my mother will come to my room quietly, and then yell loudly, I dare not continue to hide in the bed, I am afraid that my mother will suddenly lift the quilt, after all I He is an adult and cannot be watched by his mother casually.

"Mom, can you be gentle next time?" I got up and sat on the messy bed, stretched comfortably, and said with my hands wiping my sleepy eyes.

I haven't seen where my mother is at all. I didn't even open my eyes and said that my mother is my nanny. After she wakes me up every morning, she will go to the private bathroom of my room to put hot water Wash me up, and then I'll go downstairs to make breakfast.

She is my mom, the best mom ever, and someone I want to protect and love for the rest of my life, of course.Now that my dad protects and loves me, I dare not rob him, the consequences will be serious.

"... blah blah blah..."

All I got was the sound of rushing water in the bathroom. My mother had already closed the door and went out. After closing the door, she didn't forget to turn around and add: "Hurry up, the water is about to be full..."

"Oh."

I put on my clothes, washed up quickly, looked in the mirror, twiddled my hair with my slender and beautiful hands, and smiled with satisfaction. He's so handsome, why didn't I notice it before?Wearing a pure black suit with a white shirt and a Korean tie, it looks so formal. I suddenly thought of accompanying you from the school uniform to the suit...

I don't want to, why do I think about it again, I miss a man lonely, and I don't have anyone anymore, so I packed up and went out to have breakfast.

I have been in this school for half a month, and I basically know everyone in the same department. I don’t have many friends, because I don’t want to know anyone, because I have been studying and have no time to think about other things. If you insist on having fun , there are two, one is Locke and the other is Sophia.

The two of them are members of my discussion group, so they are quite familiar. They often discuss and research professional knowledge together, and they naturally become acquainted, and sometimes they also attend their family gatherings. Sometimes I feel guilty, and I really want to treat them seriously, but I dare not, I am afraid that if we become friends, we will lose if we get too close...

Locke told me that he liked Sophia, but Sophia didn't seem to like him, so he never expressed his love to Sophia. When I heard him say this, he just smiled silently and didn't say anything.

Only he decides, so do I, I like Chicheng, I have never said that when we love someone, we dare not take the initiative to express our love, because we are afraid of rejection, afraid of being rejected by the loved one.

"Nancy, do you know that our department is going to have a teacher?"

Nancy is my English name. Locke asked me in a very mysterious way. I was surprised. I haven't heard of any teacher?

"Ah? What? New teacher? I don't know." I made a gesture that I didn't know, and spread my hands to show that I didn't know either.

A look of disappointment appeared on Locke's face, then he waved to me and returned to his seat. I like to sit in the corner of the classroom and listen to the teacher carefully. I remember that it was very difficult for me to listen to the class , The teacher's English is very fluent, but I always don't listen very well, I hear the first half of the sentence, but I don't understand the second half.Now I am used to it, and I have adapted to the language here, and I digest it very quickly.

The next day, I came to the classroom, passed by my classmates, and heard them talking about it. I roughly heard about the new teacher. The next class will be the new teacher's class, and it is a male teacher of the same nationality as me! !

Don't you know, how excited a person from a foreign country is when he hears that there are people from his hometown!In this department, I haven't met a fellow student of the same nationality.

Like other students, I waited for the next class with anticipation and curiosity, to see how good-looking the teacher is?Is it a handsome guy?I am more interested in those with good looks, and I am energetic in class.

After a few minutes.

Everyone was waiting for the male teacher to show up. I don't know if the teacher was deliberately intriguing or arrogant and self-righteous, but he was 15 minutes late.

Fifteen minutes passed, and the students were seriously traumatized. One by one, they began to discuss the teacher's personality.

I'm also angry, isn't he just a newcomer, as for showing off like this?I didn't scold him, after all, he and I are fellow villagers, I just have a little contempt.

"The teacher is here!"

I was a little bored waiting, and I looked down to read a book. After hearing the sound, I raised my head out of habit. As a result... I thought I was dreaming. I could meet him in Canada. He is still my teacher. This is not true, it must be I am dreaming!

When he entered the classroom, his gaze collided with mine in mid-air. I was so startled that I didn't even blink. I looked at the slender man on the podium in disbelief. He was wearing a pure black suit with a blue and white stripe. With a plaid tie, you can see that he has a light blue shirt under his suit, and he looks so mature.

He is that person - Chi Cheng!

My mind went blank, I couldn't control it, it was like a cassette tape, there was no one in front of me except him, and time stopped, I couldn't even hear the nympho and envy of the students around me, I just stared at it with wide eyes. that person.I once wasted the time of my secret love for him, agreed to leave, and forgot the hurt and loneliness he gave me, but now I have forgotten a little bit, and before it is completely over, he came to disturb my city again.

"Hi everyone, my name is White..."

Chicheng looked at me calmly and smiled, and then introduced himself in a very magnetic and charming voice, but I only heard his name was White, and I didn’t know anything else... I walked out from the back door of the classroom, because I was in the corner, Better to skip class.