masculinity

It was Chi Cheng who called. I think there is nothing more to say now. Since he is going to get married, I should quit this scene. I was just a substitute from the beginning to the end, and now I am the master. I still voluntarily quit, so as not to be dumped by someone.

When I returned to my new residence, it was decorated in the style of a single apartment, with one bedroom, one living room and one bathroom. I took a day off and arranged the room carefully. The result is very satisfactory.

After I finished my work, I lay down on the sofa I bought and prepared to take a rest. Unconsciously, I saw a missed call notification on my phone. I looked at the phone carefully. It was Chicheng calling again. What else would he do? Sample?Haven't played enough yet?

I'd better explain it to him once and for all, so I'll call Chicheng back if I don't know what to do in the future. He answered the phone as soon as it rang for the first time, and said to me excitedly, "Lin Xi, what are you doing?" Where did you go? I didn't answer your calls, and the phone was turned off."

I was not in the mood to listen to him, so I said to Chi Cheng on the other end of the phone, "I don't think we are suitable, I choose to leave your life."

I was going to say directly, "It's impossible for me and you!" I still didn't say this sentence, but said what I meant tactfully, not because I didn't want to hurt Chicheng, but because I couldn't express my heartache. Saying that he doesn't love him, there is still a strong love for Chicheng hidden in his bones.

There is a difference between impossible and inappropriate for me. Impossible means that there will be no results with him in the future, and inappropriate may be that some aspect does not match each other's habits or hobbies. I don't know what I want in Chicheng.

Is it commitment or love?I have no clue, can't figure it out and don't want to.After hearing my words on the other end of the phone, I was obviously more excited than before. From the voice on the phone, I could clearly feel Chicheng's anger.

"Where are you? Tell me!" Chi Cheng's voice on the phone was so loud that I was so noisy that I hurriedly held the phone away from my ears.

"You don't have to look for it anymore, I'm not your fiancee." I still couldn't hold back the sarcasm of Chi Cheng, and now I made it clear why I left, and also expressed that I was jealous...

"You know it all?

Chicheng's voice suddenly became limp, with the guilty atmosphere of being exposed to secrets, I sneered and didn't speak on the phone. If I didn't say anything, are you going to keep it from me and ask me to sleep with you? Help you warm up your body and do your physical sex?

How can there be such a man in the world, eating what is in the bowl, but still thinking about occupying what is in the pot? I was mistaken, but I have liked Chicheng for so long. A person's love can be kept for so long, but in the end, he won't get it It's hurting, and deceiving.

right!All of this is just what I asked for, no one forced me to love him, I did it myself, obviously I got hurt the first time, but I still want to try the second time foolishly, I don't hate Chi Cheng, I feel sorry for him now His resistance can only be said to be unaccustomed to his attitude.While being engaged to a woman, he is fooling around with a man.

"You lied to me, I don't hate you, we are just a teacher-student relationship from now on, I don't want to be a mistress..."

I say the word "little three" very lightly, because I don't like this word, it represents too much negative influence, and I don't want it to be one of the words to describe me.

"Okay, I won't bother you anymore."

Chicheng readily agreed, and the only thought in my heart was also shattered. It seems that I overestimated Chicheng's view of love again. I thought he would beg hard, and then give me a promise to get rid of that woman... …result.

It's my fault that I'm arrogant, but the fault I dare not face is Chi Cheng, that's all, what's the point of worrying about whose fault it is now, the separation is already a foregone conclusion, the days to come are still long, and we have to go far, far .

It’s been almost two weeks, and I still go to school on the crowded subway in Canada every day. I get up early in the morning to make breakfast by myself, and go to a western restaurant to earn living expenses at night. I live a fulfilling life like this, and I basically don’t think about other things every day. Because I was very tired, I got home at 11:30 every night and fell asleep.

Chicheng also disappeared for two weeks. During his absence, he suddenly felt uncomfortable. He must have returned to China to get married, and he didn’t hear from the school that Chicheng had resigned. He just said that the course was suspended. Now the male teacher who takes his place is a local teacher. He looks gentle and speaks fluent English. Sometimes I will take this male teacher as Chicheng, and his face as Chicheng's chiseled handsome face.

At noon on this day, I went to school as usual, the school was still so quiet, I was walking on the campus path with a stack of books, it was not as beautiful as those campus youth novels, what about the sunset, walking on the campus path Go up, and then have a bloody encounter with handsome boys, beautiful girls...

But now it is noon, so when the sun is shining brightly, passers-by who are in the mood to see handsome men and beautiful women are all passing by in a hurry.

I don't know what happened, but I noticed a figure, a slender and fragile figure broke into my line of sight, I trembled in my heart, couldn't help but walked towards that girl, she was sitting quietly in a chair of some years old. Under the big maple tree, it is almost autumn, and there are red and yellow leaves hidden in the green leaves on the tree, and a few pieces fall from time to time.

Her leg-length dress, the back image of a beautiful woman with long hair reaching her waist, coupled with the foil around her, I was successfully attracted to her.

It's just a kind of appreciation, not related to the factor of love. I still know this clearly. I like men, and I only appreciate women. I don't have thoughts of possession or unreasonable thoughts.

I walked to her side and opened my mouth to say hello to her. The girl stood up as if she had the ability to predict, turned her back to my body, looked at me with a smile and said, "Hello, who are you?"

"Uh,... that... I saw you sitting here alone, so I couldn't help walking over." I was asked by her so proactively, I suddenly didn't know what to say, and I was slightly embarrassed .

I continued to explain and apologized to her, "I'm sorry to interrupt your study." She turned around, and I saw the book she was holding in her hand, and felt instantly sorry that I had disturbed other girls' study.I apologized in embarrassment. I thought that girls would leave here. This is usually the case. Girls don’t like boys who disturb their quiet study. They don’t always leave with a tactful smile, as if nothing happened.

But this girl didn't, she smiled and introduced herself to me, "Hi, my name is Bai Yiyi. Baiyun's Bai, Yiyi who is reluctant to let go, hehe... How about you?"

Her smile is so sweet, she is as quiet and indifferent as her name, she has a kind of secluded woman who is out of the world, giving me a secret sense of mystery, with a little fresh and beautiful style.

"My name is Lin Xi, Shuang Mu Lin, Hope's Xi." I introduced myself with a light smile, I really wanted to smile a little more approachable, but I couldn't let go of my restraint, so I could only smile lightly.

After some chatting and introduction, we realized that Bai Yiyi and I are from the same country and both can speak Mandarin, which made us communicate in English for so long just now. I smiled awkwardly, and I also learned that Bai Yiyi is I am alone in Canada. Like me, I have no relatives here and rely on myself for everything. I have a common topic with her, and the distance has been shortened a lot.

The two chatted more and more vigorously, which caused me to miss the class time. Anyway, Chicheng had already given me full marks in this class, so it doesn't matter if I go or not, so Bai Yiyi and I went to the school cafe and sat down.

Bai Yiyi was talking to me while drinking coffee. She said that her house was about to expire, and the landlord refused to give it to her. She didn't know what to do.

I heard Bai Yiyi say that she didn't have a house to live in, and I said to Bai Yiyi without thinking, "I have a place there!" Afterwards, I felt that I was brave. There is only one living room, one bedroom and one bathroom in my place. How can I sleep? And Bai Yiyi is a girl, how could she agree to live with a boy.

"Hehe, I only have one bedroom, one living room and one bathroom, but! If you want, I can sleep on the sofa." I smiled foolishly, as shy as a childish boy.

Bai Yiyi interrupted me, "No, how can I let you sleep on the sofa, I am willing to live with you, I sleep on the sofa, I don't want you to think that I am bullying you."

"It's fine if you don't dislike it. It's okay to sleep on the sofa or something. You are all fellow villagers. Besides, you are a girl and I am a boy. Help if you can."

I am especially a man who said these words. As a man, he should have a sense of responsibility and responsibility. Bai Yiyi is a girl, so it is not a problem to let her live on the sofa!

After class that day, I took Bai Yiyi, who was waiting for me at the school gate, to the place where I lived. She packed up her personal belongings in the afternoon. There were not many things, just a suitcase.

I also asked curiously, "Yiyi, you have so few things?" Don't girls generally like to buy clothes, and then various cosmetics, bags and shoes?Could it be that Bai Yiyi is different from other girls in these things?

However, Bai Yiyi told me, "Huh? This is all I have." Bai Yiyi looked at it with serious eyes, and she was a little moved, and it was hard for my glass heart.

I tidied up the room, Bai Yiyi still couldn't hold me back, and agreed to sleep in my room, and I tidied up the sofa. Fortunately, the sofa is foldable, it is used as a sofa during the day, and it is my bed at night.

I go to school with her every day. If I don’t have class in the morning, I will get up and make her breakfast. She will get up and make breakfast when she has no class, and then go to school together. Those who have no class will go to the school library to stay, like this Half a month passed, and rumors about me and Bai Yiyi began to spread in the school. The main thing was to say that I was a scumbag, liked boys, and now hooked up with girls.

I felt uncomfortable and felt very sorry for Bai Yiyi. If it wasn't for me, she wouldn't have been hurt so much. I apologized to her. Bai Yiyi was very calm and said to me, "Lin Xi, it's okay. I've heard about you before, I don't care, and now they say, I don't care either."

Faced with Bai Yiyi's calm state of mind, I don't feel so uncomfortable...