masculinity

I slowly squatted down, and then lay down on the green and comfortable grass, feeling inexplicably curious about what Chicheng was looking at, so seriously.

As soon as I lay down, I looked up at the sky above my head, only to find that the sky was as blue as the sea, and a kind of tranquility suddenly emerged in my heart.

"What a blue sky!" I sighed in amazement.

Chi Cheng turned his face to me and gave me a gentle smile, and said, "Well, do you like it? I..."

Before he could finish speaking, Chi Cheng suddenly stood up from the ground in horror, and ran wildly all the way to the other side.I vaguely saw Chicheng chasing the figure of a man.

Chi Cheng ran away, followed that figure, and there were many guesses in his heart, what was that man doing, why did Chi Cheng chase him as soon as he saw him?Could it be a bad guy, or someone Chi Cheng knew?Anything is possible, go see it.

I persuaded myself to follow Chi Cheng...

The man in front was walking, unaware that there was a pair of special eyes staring at him behind him.

Chi Cheng followed the man very cautiously. It seemed that Chi Cheng should be observing the man's every move. Chi Cheng kept a distance from Luo Xu and didn't dare to disturb him. He always kept a proper distance...

When the man suddenly turned his head, he found a boy behind him, playing with his mobile phone as if nothing had happened. He didn't care, but continued to walk forward.

The man went to a coffee shop named "Story" on campus and sat down. He chose an inconspicuous place to sit down. I found that he ordered two cups, one with ground iron and one with plain water.

Chi Cheng stopped not far from the house, I saw that he seemed to be distressed, probably considering whether to go in, I noticed Chi Cheng's abnormal expression and hesitation, and thought to myself, this man must be unusual.

Later, not long after, Chi Cheng went in, and chose the position next to the man, separated by a narrow aisle.I didn't go in because the store is too small, Chicheng will see me.

I saw that after Chicheng was seated, the waiter passed by. Through the shop window, I thought the waiter was asking Chicheng what he wanted to drink. Chicheng subconsciously looked at the next seat, his expression suddenly changed, it was fierce, and there was no warning. .

I frowned, Chicheng reacted so strongly, and stared at the man with wide eyes as if confirming the result, I decided to go into the store to have a look.

As soon as I stepped into the store, I heard, "Student, may I ask you..." The waiter politely interrupted Chi Cheng's thoughts.

Chi Cheng said: "Please wait a moment." After speaking, he got up and sat opposite the man, and said solemnly, "I am Chi Cheng! Do you remember me?"

This kind of enthusiasm is too surprising. The man raised his eyes indifferently, and then replied calmly, "I'm sorry, you misidentified the person."

The man seemed to be interrupted impolitely. He was about to get up and leave here. It was really inappropriate for him to leave before the coffee had just cooled down.

I was stunned by the scene in front of me, Chicheng actually took the initiative to talk to people, still feeling a bit vassalized, Chicheng just found out that Luo Xu got up to leave, Chicheng's face immediately showed a look of disappointment.

Chi Cheng roared, "Don't leave like this, I haven't told you what I want to tell you!"

The man walked a few steps, and found that someone was holding his hand. The palm of that hand was wet with sweat, and it was passed to him. His eyes showed a trace of disgust.

The man struggled to shake off Chi Cheng's hand, but he couldn't easily shake off a obsessive waiter, because that kind of longing to the extreme is to ignore all consequences, such a person is more terrifying than anyone else.Chi Cheng was surprised again today, seeing this scene, he began to feel uneasy.

"Lin Feng, have you forgotten me?" Chi Cheng looked expectantly, hoping to look at the man named Lin Feng, and then said to Chi Cheng as gently as water: "Well, my name is Lin Feng."

When I heard the name, I was stunned in surprise. I felt this physical reaction, and the guesses in my heart were almost full, and I was short of a reply from the person in front of me.One sentence can complete your so-called blue sea and blue sky, but it can also shatter all spells.

"Lin Feng, I seem to have heard of it somewhere."

When I heard the name Lin Feng, I felt like an elk that couldn't find its way home, running rampant in the huge jungle, just wanting to find the exit that was desperately looking for.This name, by the way, is the name Chi Cheng called one night.

Lin Feng didn't want to talk to Chi Cheng, he said to Chi Cheng, "You misidentified the person, I don't know you."

The tone of a stranger made Chicheng speechless. I watched Chicheng standing there with a blank face, and my heart gradually felt as if it had been filled with lead.

Chi Cheng didn't ask any more persistent questions, but got up and walked towards the door of the store. I was frightened and hid behind the advertising board in the store.

After Chi Cheng left, I didn't follow Chi Cheng out, but mustered up the courage to walk up to Lin Feng. I could see his face clearly, it was so handsome and sunny.

I just wanted to see who Lin Feng was, that's all, but I didn't expect that Lin Feng knew me, asked me to sit down with me, and bought me coffee.

"Lin Xi, hello, my name is Lin Feng." He smiled and stretched out his hands politely towards me.

"Hi, how do you know..." Before I could ask, Lin Feng answered me.

"You are the man of the school, haha."

I am speechless, who can say what Lin Feng said is wrong?

The two gradually became acquainted. Lin Feng told me that he met Chi Cheng by chance, and then he became a partner. He was also gay. Then one night, Chi Cheng suddenly left without saying goodbye. Disappear without a trace.

Lin Feng also said that Lin Feng is a classmate of Chicheng, and he has known each other since he was a child. Two different people have an intersection with the same person. Yes, the same school, because the same person is here.

Always pointing to fate, fate and other factors for no reason, saying that God is unfair, fate is playing tricks, and there are predestined and unfavorable excuses.I never thought about whether I did not do well enough, whether I really worked hard to love.

I listened to Lin Feng talking about the strange friendship created by the encounter between the two of them. Chicheng and him have a very good relationship, and they often go in and out together. , The two of them always felt a sense of guilt for betraying that person.

After opening his eyes, another day begins. I don’t know how many times there have been beginnings. Chicheng still hasn’t seen that person. He has to review a piece and every bit of that person every day. He is afraid that time will ruthlessly bury everything. , and at the same time more afraid of getting used to life without him, and then forgetting...

Habits can make a person start over, and at the same time can be so numb that you don't want to chase, and it's fine now.

Finally returned to the residence, I threw the book in my hand to Chi Cheng who was sitting on the sofa, "No, put the book away for me." After speaking, I took off my white shirt and went to the bathroom, the water from the faucet was flooding When I went to the bathroom, I had already taken off my shirt, but it was still too hot.

I can't wait to pull off this pair of skins, as if I peeled off the skin, everything will be calm, and the weather is not hot now, but the hot and restless heart...

I looked at myself in the mirror on the wall, muscular and well-built, the shallow lines spread to that place on my chest, he likes men, madness is not a kind of sexual behavior, it’s more about too much Loving others, becoming unable to love oneself, is a kind of folly of love.

After washing up carelessly, I told Chicheng that I was very tired and needed to sleep, lying on the bed, no outsiders would disturb me, and I needed to be quiet.

While I was sleepy, I heard someone come into the bedroom, who else but Chicheng, his big palm started to move, and I was aroused, even though the two of us were presumptuous, the world between the two was like a barrier.

Boys who are handsome and have a good figure, suitors can go to a small solo concert. Although they are all fans of the Appearance Association, they are still fans in the end. Sometimes without their magic, it means that you have become Past tense.

Lin Feng met and chatted with me a few days later. He didn’t know about my relationship with Chicheng. It was all a scandal before, otherwise he wouldn’t have told me about his relationship with the size. He told me that the former Chicheng was outside , is a lonely and cold appearance, walking in various places, people think how enviable he is living, but when he comes home, a pair of shorts, a pair of flip flops, a cup of cold drink, and a computer Life is very simple.

You don’t need to turn on the lights, you don’t need to make any movements, and you don’t need to make any expressions. You just remember what you are, and you sit in whatever posture you start with. The undisturbed dementia life is the life that many people strive for all their lives.

At the beginning, Lin Feng still hated such a Chicheng in his heart, and gradually felt that this person was not very like that person, maybe it was a long time, until he got used to Chicheng's every move and replaced the memory of that person.

Or Lin Feng can't remember that person's habits, his speech and behavior are mixed up, no one knows what the answer is, it's too exhausting and time-consuming...

No, why did I put the fault on the hands of time again?

Wait?

"Lin Feng, go slowly, don't worry, I'll wait for you." That person's smile is warm and caring, not caring. Love cannot be attached easily, otherwise the self-world will collapse because it cannot bear it.

"Hmm! Chicheng, walk slowly, I can catch up with you very quickly."

"I will chase you while waiting for me."

Lin Feng also said that in fact, he really wanted to betray him. One day, a girl at the same level came to him and confessed that she liked him. She really liked him. She really liked him. Boys cut their wrists.

During that time, Lin Feng lived in the entanglement of love and not love. In order not to love, he took care of the girl's body every day, and went in and out of the ward with the unpleasant medicine smell every day.For love, he searched for that love, and then ended himself in that dark, moonlit alley, which was a shameless relief.

Later, both loving and being loved were exhausted in that shameless liberation. It was really a complete liberation and ushered in a new imprisonment.

"Don't go! I haven't made it clear..."

Lin Feng remembered that day, he left silently, without words, without warmth, all the warmth and words were in his eyes and he could understand them clearly.