masculinity

After strenuous exercise time and time again, I nestled in Chicheng's arms weakly and tiredly. His body exuded a man's unique smell, a faint body fragrance, and I breathed in fascinatedly.

I thought that Chicheng left me to see Lin Feng in the afternoon, and I felt extremely uncomfortable, so I deliberately asked under cover: "Don't you have class this afternoon?"

"Well, I didn't go." Chi Cheng leaned against the bedside, smoking a cigarette deeply, the clouds were light.

Chi Cheng's tone seemed indifferent, he didn't care about my question at all, he just brushed it off and didn't want to talk too much about it.

"Oh... is that all right?"

In fact, I asked this question not because I was worried that the school would dismiss Chicheng, but because I was playing tricks and asked Chicheng to tell me why he went there in the afternoon.

I am so naive, I believe what is written in the book, if a man is willing to tell you what he did, what he did, and everything is balanced, even if he did something wrong, he can be forgiven.

When I read such chicken soup before, I would angrily scold the author of the book, he is mentally retarded or insane!

What kind of logic is this writing, a man cheated?As long as he admits it, he doesn't need to be held accountable, and he can still serve him with basic necessities?

I don't believe that all the women in the world can tolerate it. Even if they can tolerate it, they are forced, and they are extremely unwilling in their hearts!

"Ask whatever you want, as long as I can answer, I will satisfy your curiosity."

Chicheng knew everything in one sentence, and immediately pierced the layer of paper between me and him. It feels really uncomfortable to be dismantled.

"Hmph, do you know what I want to ask you? Don't pretend..." I'm not a vegetarian either. Now that I've said it, come on, don't be afraid.

If Chicheng wants to leave me, I have nothing to say. After so many times of separation and reunion, I have long been used to it, and I am mentally prepared that Chicheng will leave at any time.

"Didn't you guess the matter between me and Lin Feng? Hehe..."

Chi Cheng looked down at me coldly and arrogantly, the look in his eyes when he lowered his head made me unable to escape the look in my eyes, I was like a person who was seen through by Chi Cheng at this moment.

"I know it's my business, but whether you say it or not is your business! Whether you like to talk or not..."

I don't want to pretend either, it's not so much that I don't want to pretend, it's better to say that I can't pretend, it's too irritating, what Chi Cheng means is that I guessed it, so he doesn't need to say it?Hehe, machismo!

"Lin Xi! Let me tell you, don't push yourself too hard..." My arms were clasped tightly by him, and then he said, "I like you, but it doesn't mean you can take care of anything about me. If I want to tell you, just tell me." You, if you can’t tell you, you can’t do it anyway.”

"Good! Well said!"

After hearing Chi Cheng's hurtful words, every word he said was like a sharp knife poking at my heart.

The pain was terrible, I didn't care about anything, I turned over and threw off Chicheng's strong imprisonment with all my strength.

After I got dressed, I turned around and said to Chi Cheng who was lying on the bed, "Chi Cheng, I don't have the strength to love you anymore."

It really hurts, not because I can't let go of my feelings for Chicheng, but because I have been completely hurt by Chicheng. From high school to now, how many times have I been in pain because of him?

Even though I asked for it many times, but now I want to put all the responsibility on him, I don't want to bear such a burden.

Yes, I, Lin Xi, am a selfish man. Whether it is love or other things, I always think about myself first. As long as I am not satisfied at all, I will blame the other party for being bad.

I don't think it's my own fault, Chi Cheng is my man, so I want him to only talk to me and protect me alone, that's how I want to be possessive!

What belongs to me, I never share it with others with peace of mind, because I don't like it, either I leave, or he leaves...

Who else can I refer to when I say him, besides Chicheng's predecessor, Lin Feng, is there anyone else who can make me worry?Hehe, just him alone is enough to make me lose my footing.

wrong?How could Chicheng say that I already guessed it?Curious why he would say that?Since he came back from meeting Lin Feng, his attitude towards me seems to be different. I thought it was an illusion created by my subjective imagination.

Now I suddenly feel that something is wrong, Chicheng really changed his attitude towards me, his disdain and dislike for me is not just my own imagination, I really feel the cannibalistic gaze from Chicheng.

"You go, I don't need you anymore." Chicheng's indifferent tone shocked me, what?He doesn't need me anymore? !

Chicheng, he took my Lin Xi as a physical tool?If this is the case, I really want to laugh, it turns out that I have been acting foolishly affectionate all this time, and Chi Cheng never loved me at all.

Of course, I don't want to think like this, I'd rather hear Chi Cheng say: "Sorry, he's back, I like Lin Feng."

This is better than not needing me to come, and I feel better...

As expected, Chi Cheng is more proficient at hurting me, he said with a sneer, "Lin Xi, you're just one of my friends."

His indifference and ruthlessness gave me a throbbing pain in the dark, the sting is too severe, does Chi Cheng have to peel my heart open to see what kind of injury it can cause me to despair?

"Hehe!..." I was suffocated and felt powerless, "Chicheng, thank you for being so unfeeling to me, let me tell you! I, Lin Xi, know you blindly in my life, and the cheapest thing I have ever done is to fall in love with you .”

I couldn't help but burst out, and said what was in my heart again, but this time I said it more seriously, and I didn't care about my face and his feelings.

"Hehe! Don't pretend to be arrogant, you know the relationship between Lin Feng and me, why don't you have a relationship with him, and then tell him about my love with you, and deliberately hurt him?"

Chi Cheng suddenly accused me loudly, his voice and words made me dumbfounded and I couldn't refute, because what Chi Cheng said was all fabricated out of thin air!

"Chicheng, Chicheng, which one are you acting in? If you want me to leave, why bother to slander me? Hehe, it's so old-fashioned!"

My injured and numb heart, when I heard Chi Cheng's words so painful that I couldn't breathe, I couldn't feel the damage anymore. I only hated myself for being too stupid and naive, and I just believed in the tenderness of a man over and over again. .

"I still don't admit it, hehe, you go, don't let me see you in the future."

Chicheng stared at me coldly. Under such gaze, I still have no reason to stand in this room. It would be humiliating for a second longer. I packed up all my clothes and daily necessities related to myself, As long as Chicheng bought it with money, I won't take it away. As for what Chicheng will do with it, that's his business.

"Okay, what you said..."

If you are ruthless, I will give up. I am not so cheap that I want to love you like this. I am an ordinary person with flesh and blood. I will be hurt and tired. Now I can no longer bear the pain and exhaustion that Chicheng has brought to me.

Now that I feel tired and painful, it is better to end it earlier, and then go on to find the next stop of happiness that belongs to me. Life is just meeting someone, getting tired, meeting another person and then going on again. Start again, forming an endless loop.

I left Chicheng, and then I didn’t know where I was going. In a strange city in Canada, I couldn’t find my so-called home. My eyes were empty and confused, and I looked ahead, feeling lonely, helpless, and lost. , blocked my breath.

It was almost nightfall, and the streets of Canada were just beginning to be lit up, and all kinds of passers-by passed me by with indifferent expressions.I moved aimlessly on the street step by step, as if I had lost my most fundamental soul.

Walking and walking, the night was getting dark, and the neon lights on both sides of the pedestrian street were flickering, which made me feel restless and depressed, and the weather began to gradually cool down, so I could clearly see the heat coming out of my mouth.

I'm cold and hungry now, because I ran out just after finishing sex with Chicheng, and I used up too much energy before, so I only feel hungry now.

I walked into a restaurant, chose a seat by the window, and ordered a cheap dish without paying attention to the name of the dish. I don’t have much money now, and I only see the price on the menu, which is 10 yuan!Then he said to the waiter on the side, "This is it, thank you!"

After five or six minutes, the waiter brought the food, and I saw that I was in a daze, what kind of international joke are you talking about? !A bowl of ordinary porridge costs Ben Bao ten yuan. This is robbery, otherwise what is it? !

But I have no money now, and my mobile phone is also wet by the rain, so I have to admit it, count me as unlucky, let’s ignore 21, filling my stomach quickly is the top priority.

"Huh? Lin Xi? Nancy..."

I lowered my head and was happily enjoying the short-term happiness brought by the hot porridge, but unexpectedly, I was affected by a random voice. I recognized that voice. It was the Japanese man I met during the day, Chiba Lishu!

"Ah? Oh..." I replied slowly, I looked at Qianye Lishu, I was so surprised, why is there such a fate, this can also happen, the world of Canada is so small!

"Don't remember me? I just met today, Chiba Lishu."

Qianye Lishu talked to me jokingly, and I said politely, "Where is that, of course I remember your Excellency, Qianye Lishu, my name is Nancy, you can also call me Lin Xi, haha."

"Well, you alone?" Qianye Lishu looked around me, and finally asked the question he wanted to know the most. It seemed that Qianye Lishu was very interested in Chi Cheng, and what Qianye Lishu meant was, Why didn't Chicheng come with me?

"Well, what's the matter?" I was trying to find out what Qianye Lishu wanted to say, whether he wanted to hook me up, or just wanted to discuss business with me...

"It's okay, since you're alone, I'll come down and have dinner with you?"

Uh... But I'm eating, if he doesn't mind, he can come and eat together, after all, Chiba Lishu is the head of the district, I can also ask some questions, make a friend, it will be useful in the future...