Soup of Rebirth

To say that Qiao Rubai struggled for a long time.Although Ji Junxin, who was still tossing and turning on the bed with the pancakes on, was not asleep, she basically had no hope of receiving Qiao Rubai's reply tonight.

There is a saying, people, as long as you persevere, you can see hope.

Although Ji Jun already thought that Qiao Rubai would be asleep and would not reply, but Qiao Rubai's text message still arrived.

Unlike the long text message that Ji Jun sent with a tangled heart, Qiao Rubai's reply was quite short.

[I think a is angry because he is afraid that b's complaints and jokes are not just complaints and jokes, but that b is expressing his true feelings through complaints and jokes. A should be afraid that B will not like her, what do you think? 】Sender, Qiao Rubai.

Under the quilt, after reading the text message, Ji Jun, who was holding the phone, felt a little stiff.Qiao Rubai's words perfectly answered Ji Jun's question in the text message.

However, I just want to chat with my girlfriends, complain, and solve problems. Who wants this kind of feeling of hitting a hit!

Ji Jun's heart was a little overwhelmed.I was actually angry because I was afraid that the jokes that Mi Hongdou said was that she was really complaining about me, because I was afraid that Mi Hongdou really didn't like me anymore... Yes, it should be like this.In addition to being angry, it seemed that I was always worried that my fans would suddenly stop following me, and I was always afraid of losing my fans.That time because Jiang Lingling was always staring at Mi Hongdou, he was in a bad state several times, and he was also worried that Mi Hongdou would not follow him. After Director Pan shouted that he was stuck, he ran away a little angrily.Speaking of it, Ji Junxin thinks about it now, whether it was the time with ng, or the time with eating meatballs, or Mi Hongdou said before that he needs to eat Jianwei Xiaoshi tablets if he eats dates, he is a little angry, but when he thinks about it, It wasn't Mi Hongdou's anger that I was angry with.It's my own anger!Angry at myself for not behaving well, angry at myself for eating too much, angry at myself for being greedy, all angry at myself!

What Qiao Rubai said is correct.It turned out to be right...

Ji Junxin was shocked to find that she was angry so frequently recently that she was actually angry with herself.In the final analysis, as Qiao Rubai said, he was angry at himself for not performing well enough, and was afraid that he would be rejected by Mi Hongdou and disliked by Mi Hongdou if he was not good enough.

Unexpectedly, it's like this... Ji Jun held the phone in her heart and maintained a posture for a long time, without moving for a long time.

Already relying on Mi Hongdou so much? Although she had a premonition, Ji Jun was still a little surprised when she really put a vague feeling on the surface.

Ji Junxin figured out the reason for her recent abnormal mood, but fell into another problem.It's only been more than three months, why did I have such a strong attachment to Mi Hongdou?This feeling of fear of being hated and of being left behind has never appeared even in the face of Qiao Rubai who has been together for more than ten years.

Why, so?

Is it because Qiao Rubai has been too busy recently, and Lu Gaoshi left again, is he really too lonely?Or is it because the food made of red beans is so delicious that people can't control their goodwill?No... not just that.Ji Jun understood that there were indeed two reasons, but it was not only that.

Not only that, but why?Ji Jun couldn't figure it out for a while, but then felt that she was about to touch the edge of understanding.What I hate the most is that it is already very close to the truth, but there is still a layer of cellophane, I can vaguely think of it, but it is still a little bit closer!Ji Jun's heart felt like a cat scratching, itching so badly, the feeling that he was about to think about it but was almost there was very uncomfortable.Unable to think of it, and unwilling to give up the feeling that was about to come to mind at this moment, Ji Jun's heart felt tight, disturbed and itchy, and involuntarily tossed and turned on the bed, not being careful not to make too much noise before.

The lights in the bedroom have been turned off for a long time, but Mi Hongdou has not fallen asleep.Without it, it was really Ji Jun who turned off the lights and baked pancakes on the bed next door.Although there was very little movement, Mi Hongdou, who had been paying close attention to Ji Jun's heart, couldn't sense it.However, although Ji Junxin tossed and turned in the next bed, there was no light at all, that is to say, in Mi Hongdou's view, Ji Junxin was trying to fall asleep.So although Mi Hongdou didn't sleep, she didn't open her mouth to talk to Ji Junxin, thinking that she might be able to fall asleep by turning over the pages.

Who knows, Ji Jun's heart went back and forth for a long time, but she didn't stop, and then she even clicked on her phone once.The phone emitted a faint light, and Mi Hongdou felt that she had to speak out to care about Ji Jun's heart.As a result, after a burst of light, the bed next door suddenly became silent, and Mi Hongdou held back her mouth again.

Until Ji Jun didn't know why, he started to roll vigorously again, this time the movement was particularly loud.Mi Hongdou suddenly had a flash of inspiration. Could it be that Ji Junxin ate too much at night and was too embarrassed to get up to find medicine?Thinking of this, Mi Hongdou couldn't help it.

Just when Ji Jun was tossing and turning and was about to roll on the bed, trying to figure out why she had such a nostalgia for Mi Hongdou, what was this feeling of worrying about gains and losses, a voice suddenly came from the next bed.

"Cough...cough cough..." Mi Hongdou was afraid that Ji Jun's heart would be frightened by her sudden sound in the dark, so she lowered her voice and coughed twice before asking, "Can't you sleep?" The tone was the same Release it very gently, fearing to shock Ji Jun's heart.

The rolling sound of Ji Jun's heart stopped abruptly.

Can it not be stopped abruptly? Ji Junxin was concentrating on the matter between herself and Mi Hongdou. When the person who thought she had fallen asleep spoke up, Ji Junxin not only stopped her movements all of a sudden, but also went into a panic. In a cold sweat.For some reason, Ji Jun was very afraid that Mi Hongdou would discover her tangled thoughts.

From Mi Hongdou's point of view, he just asked a question, and then the person on the bed next to him seemed to have been packed and thrown into outer space.Is it really uncomfortable to eat too much?

The room was silent.

Mi Hongdou thought for a while, she couldn't let that guy persevere. "Would you like a small hawthorn-flavored pill?" Mi Hongdou tried hard to sell with a friendly face.

Although Mi Hongdou's expression could not be seen in the dark, Ji Jun could still hear Mi Hongdou's cautiousness and...

She really misunderstood me again!Am I just a foodie in her eyes!Foodies who have to take hawthorn-flavored tablets every day!Mi Hongdou's words pushed Ji Jun into a vicious cycle of worrying about gains and losses.But fortunately, after Qiao Rubai's advice, although Ji Junxin was depressed and unhappy now, she still sensibly did not complain to Mi Hongdou.

"No, I didn't eat too much." Ji Jun tried her best to calm down her tone to increase the credibility of her words.

"Then why haven't you been able to sleep? Is there something wrong?" Mi Hongdou's concerned face, Ji Junxin still couldn't see it in the dark.

So she's been up all night?Ji Jun's mind was a little confused, no, Mi Hongdou couldn't find out what he was struggling with.Ji Jun, who was a little dizzy, quickly found a reason: "It's a bit cold under the bed today, so I didn't fall asleep."

As soon as these words were spoken, Ji Jun felt the scalding temperature from the soles of her feet, and immediately felt that things were going to get worse.

Sure enough, Mi Hongdou's voice was full of doubts: "I filled the hot water bottle today, and mine is still very hot. Did you kick the hot water bottle out? Or is the hot water bottle leaking? Let me help you look."

Ji Jun was stunned for a moment, before she could refuse, Mi Hongdou sat up and turned on the light in the room.

The darkness was expelled and the light reappeared, which should be a heart-warming thing.However, at this moment, the bedroom was lit up, but Ji Jun's heart was cold.

It's rare to just tell a lie!Do you want to expose it so soon!Can we still be friends!Ji Junxin, who had been in the dark for a long time, was suddenly illuminated by the light, his eyes were sore, and the complaints in his heart were like swiping the screen, swish swish swish swish swish swish.

Then... Ji Jun narrowed her sad eyes reflexively, and vaguely saw Mi Hongdou had walked to her bedside.

After all, no more excuses could be made up.

"Actually..." It was quite warm...Ji Jun got stuck in the middle of her honest words.

Standing at the end of Ji Junxin's bed, Mi Hongdou, who was putting his hand into the quilt at Ji Junxin's feet, looked up: "Actually what?" Mi Hongdou stopped what he was doing while asking, and quickly touched the hot water bottle in Ji Junxin's bed, "Hot water bottle It's very hot, it didn't leak, and it didn't get kicked out, didn't you step on it? It's here, you step on it." Saying that, Mi Hongdou patted the hot water bottle under the quilt to give Ji Junxin's little feet pointed the way.

"It's nothing..." Someone found a reason for building a ladder, why don't you hurry down.Although she felt that Mi Hongdou's hand was in her quilt, it made people a little shy, but Ji Junxin, who was eager to get off the ladder, obediently stretched her foot over.

Ji Junxin had been tossing and tangling for a long time before, so tossing and tossing, now Ji Junxin's feet are not hot, but scalding.So when Ji Junxin followed Mi Hongdou's prompt and stepped on a soft, cool, slippery thing, the contrast between hot and cold was particularly obvious, making the touch feel particularly prominent.

It's Mi Hongdou's hand!Ji Junxin quickly realized what she had stepped on, and quickly retracted her foot at a hundred times the speed when she stretched it.

"Haha, your feet are quite hot. Are my hands too cold, are you icy? Well, I'm going back to sleep. Hurry up and cover the hot water bag." The hand with the soft feet was clenched behind her back.Then it was to quickly turn off the lights, go to bed, and... to calm down the strange palpitations from the touch just now.

Mi Hongdou, who was busy calming down, was in a hurry to turn off the light to hide her abnormality, so she missed the even more abnormal appearance of the person on the bed.Similarly, Mi Hongdou ignored it. When she finished speaking, Ji Junxin remained silent.

Yes, no words.How could he still be able to talk... Mi Hongdou's slightly cool hand seemed to be electrified. Just as Ji Junxin realized that she was stepping on Mi Hongdou's hand, she felt that she was being charged.Even if he moved his feet in time, the numbness like being shocked by an electric shock continued from the bottom of the feet to the legs, until the limbs were numb...

This is the first time Ji Junxin has such a strange feeling since he can remember.A little uncomfortable, a little excited, and even... a little unbearable.My limbs were stiff, my whole body was numb, my breathing was short of breath, and my body suddenly became hot.It was just an accidental touch, why, it happened like this... Ji Junxin's body under the blanket trembled unconsciously.

Will such a strange feeling really appear between friends or girlfriends?Ji Junxin curled up her body and fell into deeper confusion.

It took a long time for her body to calm down.Ji Jun's tense body also gradually relaxed, and her curled feet slowly fell back onto the hot water bottle.

Just now, Mi Hongdou's hand reached into the quilt, and she must have touched the hot water bottle... Thinking about this, Ji Jun raised her foot slightly in a panic, and left the hot water bottle, but soon fell back.

Although Ji Jun touched Mi Hongdou's hand just now, her first reaction was to run away, and she did.It's true that a momentary contact plunged Ji Junxin into a turmoil from body to heart, but after thinking about it, Ji Junxin not only doesn't hate that kind of contact, but actually likes it inexplicably.

Obviously, on weekdays, there is a lot of physical contact with Mi Hongdou, but why, today, is so strange.Ji Jun carefully put her feet on the hot water bottle...Thinking about what happened just now from beginning to end.

Ji Junxin's living environment has always been very simple.It was a simple campus at the beginning, but even though she entered the entertainment circle later, with Qiao Rubai all-inclusively backed by Qiongyu, Ji Jun's heart became red again, and she didn't encounter any complicated things along the way.Her own experience is indeed insufficient, but Ji Junxin is best at applying the experience gained in the play to reality.

In the middle of the night, I reached into the quilt and touched my feet... It was like an electric shock, my body was numb, but it was strange but not annoying...

Isn't this similar to the psychological activities that the screenwriter used to supplement the script when filming love scenes, some intimate actions such as holding hands and hugging!

Speaking of which, the most difficult thing for Ji Jun to grasp is the intimate scene.Every time she encounters something to shoot, hug, hold hands, stand next to each other... Ji Jun's heart will become a little stiff unconsciously.Even if he re-enters the scene and is touched by a stranger, his body will instinctively repel him.For Ji Junxin, it is still a bit troublesome to overcome the body's own reaction.Later, everyone in the circle probably knew about Ji Junxin’s little problem. In some dramas, if the screenwriter was considerate, he would mark it next to this kind of intimate drama. At this time, what reaction should Ji Junxin give so that Ji Junxin can express the intimacy? The emotional psychology and actions during the play are better grasped.

They are all intimate scenes, so although they are different scenes, those notes, coming and going, using different vocabulary, all describe the same psychological activities and physical reactions.Ji Junxin thinks about it now, and feels more and more that her strange reaction just now is similar to the ones that the screenwriter noted next to the intimate scene!

But here comes the problem... Shouldn't that kind of feeling appear when couples are in contact?Why……

Ji Junxin, who had been tangled in thinking and searching for the strange truth, all the thoughts in his head suddenly disappeared.Ji Jun's mind was blank, only one thought remained.

So...do I actually have such thoughts about Mi Hongdou...

Sure enough, this is the case. In this case, whether it is a strange feeling or the anger before, it seems to make sense.

Obviously at this moment, all the doubts in my heart have been successfully answered, but I don't feel relieved at all.Ji Jun's head was a little dizzy, and her mind was full of thoughts about Mi Hongdou, and she couldn't get involved in other things.

This is what Pan Xiang said, Lily...it's not the fourth type of emotion, it's the love between a woman and a woman... Ji Jun smiled bitterly, she just fell into it after being enlightened?Without what Pan Xiang said before, I'm afraid I still can't associate my feelings about Mi Hongdou with the feelings when men and women meet in the script.

Ji Jun kept lying on the bed in one position for a long time, her mood was so complicated that it was hard to describe.

In Ji Jun's simple real world, and even in the slightly more complicated plot world, the love between women seems to be something outside of her world.Even if Pan Xiang mentioned it before, to Ji Jun's heart, it was just opening a gap in a new door.Ji Jun never thought that she would approach that door, open it, and walk in.Such a faraway thing is suddenly close in front of my eyes, and it is confirmed by myself, which is really surprising and at a loss.

But when she thought that the person she liked was Mi Hongdou, Ji Jun couldn't feel any regrets in her heart.

Mi Hongdou is really a very, very special person.Whether it is Mi Hongdou, who has outstanding acting skills on the set, or Mi Hongdou, who is gentle and considerate in life, Ji Jun thinks about it now, Mi Hongdou has always had a gentle but not dazzling light, attracting himself, step by step, to She became interested, admired, and even favored and relied on.It turns out that at some point, this attraction has turned into liking...

Ji Junxin has no experience in love, to be precise, she never thought of falling in love in the past.I have watched my parents respect each other like guests since I was a child, and I obviously don't want to understand, but I still know that my parents neglect me.For Ji Junxin, no matter whether it is marriage or having children, there is no attraction for her at all.Even, she is afraid.Fear and a person, like an ordinary friend, who live under the same roof every day, just have a meal and say a few words at night, and also fear having a child.Because, she has no idea how to get along with a child.She was afraid that maybe she would inherit the indifference in her parents' genes. If she was destined to be hurt, why would she give birth to a child, and then let the child experience the unhappiness she had experienced.

But now that Ji Jun thinks about it, she is used to being alone. I don’t know when it started, but she is used to Mi Hongdou being in the same room with herself.They went in and out together, ate and slept together, and even feared more than once that after the filming of this film, they would resume their lives alone.

It turned out that it wasn't that I didn't want to fall in love, or that I didn't want to be with another person.

Ji Jun moved her heart in the quilt, and slowly put her hand on her heart, she recognized herself more clearly, but felt even more uncomfortable.

Falling in love with someone who is destined not to be together... Ji Jun's eyes were sour, and tears fell silently, gradually moistening the pillow cover.

Fortunately, Mi Hongdou said she wanted to be her assistant in the morning, but she rejected it.Ji Junxin, who was afraid of crying out loud, tears fell down in big drops, but her hands tightly covered her mouth.If Mi Hongdou became his assistant, facing each other day in and day out, sooner or later he would show his feet.I can't even imagine how surprised and disgusted Mi Hongdou would be when she knew that she had such thoughts for her.Ji Jun didn't dare to think about what kind of disgusted expression Mi Hongdou would have when she knew about it, but just thinking that they would only be like strangers in the future was enough to make Ji Jun feel sad.

No, it must not be known by Mi Hongdou!Under the quilt, Ji Junxin curled up, feeling so sad that she was about to cry, but she still tried her best to control herself not to cry out, not to move too much.

Most things in this world are difficult, and it is difficult to satisfy people's wishes.And secret love can be regarded as one of the most difficult things.It's really a test of acting skills to like someone, but to hide it from her.

The next morning, Ji Jun got up half an hour earlier, and Ji Jun, who had put on her eyes, made it with her acting skills.

Although Mi Hongdou felt that it was rare for Ji Jun to wake up without waiting for her to cry, but it was just a little strange.Seeing that Ji Junxin's words and deeds are similar to usual, after washing up, she immediately ran to the sandwich dates she had taken a fancy to the night before. Mi Hongdou looked at Ji Junxin, who ate the dates deliciously and smiled a little, felt that Perhaps Ji Junxin got up early today to eat dates earlier.For a foodie, such a move is really not surprising.

Thinking of this, Mi Hongdou relaxed and went to wash up.

There was the sound of running water from the faucet in the bathroom.The smile on Ji Junxin's face gradually disappeared, and she slowly put down the jujube she was about to put into her mouth just now.

After only one night, the dates are a bit bitter...