bad daddy

There was still a scent of shower gel in the bathroom, and a soft towel was placed on top of his head, and Xiang Jie reached out to dry his hair indiscriminately.

Sitting cross-legged on the sofa in the living room, the rain outside the window still hasn't stopped.

It rained enough.

It seems that it has been held back for a long time, and it seems to be vented out with all its strength.

He Yaning is boiling milk in the kitchen.Gulu Gulu bubbling sweet fragrance.Xiang Jie turned his head slightly, and heard Xiaozhu come out of the bathroom, and He Yaning asked in a low voice to have a drink before falling asleep.

The child pouted and acted like a baby and bargained with the adults, and finally reached an agreement to drink only half a glass.

Xiang Jie pursed his lips.

It seems like home.

He was never interested in starting a family until he met He Yaning.Because He Yaning has a "family" aura, Xiang Jie melted into it naturally without any effort.

He thought they fit.

It was later discovered that it was only because He Yaning was versatile.

Seeing the family of three coming out of the restaurant, Xiang Jie had mixed feelings.

acid.People who have been lovers for many years are a good match.

envy.A family of three enjoyed themselves happily.

Blocking.He is too redundant, too cumbersome, and too self-aware.

Xiang Jie didn't know why, so he had to agree to have a drink or two with Wang Yang.The bar is across the street from the restaurant, and Xiang Jie took it as a coincidence that he recognized He Yaning's car.

Half a cup of milk was placed on the tea table in front of him, still steaming.

Xiang Jie raised his head.

"Let's talk." The sofa beside him sank, and He Yaning sat down beside him, still wearing the clothes he had when he went out.

Xiang Jie sniffed, and there was a faint smell of rain.

The slender fingers pressed against each other, forming a wrestling force.Xiang Jie leaned on the sofa, trying to think through his thoughts.

What to talk about?

He said he wanted to talk, but he didn't know where to start.

"I saw today..."

He hesitated for a moment and opened his mouth.

"Well, Xu Yingyue asked Xiao Zhu to have dinner with me today." He Yaning pushed the cup towards Xiang Jie, and admitted generously, "I'll take her there."

At once? !Xiang Jie widened his eyes.

He Yaning clasped his hands and squeezed each other subconsciously, "Although he has divorced me, he still has the right to visit his children."

This is true.

Xiang Jie nodded.Although he is a scumbag, he is not legally illiterate.

"Recently...he's been a little too enthusiastic about Xiaozhu," He Yaning continued, "I've already negotiated with him, and he will try to disturb us as little as possible in the future."

Xiang Jie picked up the milk and took a sip.

He didn't like drinking milk, and he didn't like the sticky taste that remained in his mouth.But when he was a child, his family always urged him to drink it, saying it was nutritious and could help him grow taller.

Xiang Jie took another sip.

Then he licked his lips.

Life was like a nasty glass of milk, and he had every reason to drink it.

"Do you know," Xiang Jie suddenly laughed, "Today, I feel that you two are actually a good match."

He Yaning was stunned.

"He's pretty good, right? He's tall, handsome, rich, and good to Xiao Zhu—" Xiang Jie raised his head and took a deep breath, "If I'm not wrong, he wants to remarry you? "

He Yaning subconsciously wanted to deny it.Xiang Jie raised his hand to stop his words.

"If I were a passer-by, I think I can help you move the Civil Affairs Bureau here now." Xiang Jie said with a wry smile, "But now, I am your lover."

Yes.are lovers.

Xiang Jie sniffed and lowered his head.

That awful feeling of feeling unworthy even when it's closely related to self-interest.

He knew that it was not jealousy, but inferiority complex.It's a deep sense of inferiority that I don't know how to deal with.

"I'm younger than you, and I don't have any money," Xiang Jie stretched out his hands to cover his face, his voice became muffled, but he spoke very quickly, "I have nothing, if I just love you, it's really not enough."

"I know you are very rational, and I understand the choices you make. If I were you, I might do the same... If you don't, you won't be He Yaning."

Xiang Jie's voice became intermittent and he began to sob.

"But I... But I'm just sad. I just... feel useless," Xiang Jie covered his face with his hands, his shoulders trembling slightly, "I want to be chosen by you, but I know, I wasn't chosen qualifications."

A hand landed lightly on his shoulder and pressed it.

He Yaning really wants to tell him that things are not as you imagined.But at that moment, he didn't dare to speak again.

He knew that he was also hesitating.

"...Don't think so." He Yaning hesitated for a long time before finally uttering a sentence, "You are fine, you don't need to compare yourself with anyone."

"I don't need your comfort!" Xiang Jie suddenly raised his voice, which startled He Yaning.

The eyelids were red and swollen, there were two tears in the eye sockets, and the tip of the nose was red.Probably Xiang Jie also knew that his face was not very beautiful, so he wiped away his tears fiercely and turned his head away.

The door of Xiao Zhu's room opened with a "squeak", and He Yaning raised his head.The child must have been frightened by the noise.

He Yaning got up, walked to the door of the bedroom, and coaxed the child in a low voice for a while.

After a while, the door was leisurely closed.

Xiang Jie sniffled, not daring to look up at him, "...I'm sorry." He was wronged, like a child who made a mistake.

"Go to sleep too." He Yaning took a breath, stretched out his hand and pinched the space between his eyebrows.Things are many and complicated, all piled up together.

It was already dark.He Yaning leaned against the window, held a cigarette between his fingers, and looked at the silent night of this bustling city.

A handful of soot fell down, and he reached out to dust it off.After a while, he changed his position again.

When things got to this point, He Yaning felt that he had to reflect.

He doesn't like to turn back, and he doesn't want to be a bad guy who deceives children's feelings.

Scratching his head depressingly, He Yaning let the cigarette burn out between his fingers, and he threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray painfully until the spark was about to burn himself.

The door was pushed open, and a pair of little feet stepped on the wooden floor, curling up their toes uneasily.

He Yaning looked up and saw that it was Xiaozhu.

"What's wrong?" He moved, a little embarrassed.I haven't showered yet, my hair is a little disheveled, and I smell like cigarettes all over my body.

This look of embarrassment happened to be seen by her daughter.

"Can't sleep." Xiaozhu tugged at the hem of her skirt.

He Yaning got off the bay window sill, squatted in front of the little guy, reached out and touched her head, "Why can't I fall asleep? Did you eat too much dinner? Hmm?"

Raising a child is hard.

She is not an adult and has many problems.

And she regards herself as the only family member, which makes He Yaning often have to forcibly cheer up, so that she can grow up to be Xiaozhu's support.

Even after all these years, he was still not used to being a father.

"No..." Xiao Zhu grabbed He Yaning's clothes, "Dad, am I going to have a new father?"

He Yaning was taken aback for a moment.

This question is very delicate.

new dad.Is it pointing to Jie?Why does Xiaozhu ask such a question?Is she unwilling to accept it?

In just a few seconds, He Yaning had already thought of many possibilities and explanations.

"...Why do you think so." He Yaning picked up the child. She was no longer young, a little heavy, and could hardly hold her. "I didn't tell you that, did I?"

Xiaozhu was silent.A small hand rested softly on his shoulder.

"Don't think too much, okay? If you like Dad Xu, you can meet him in the future..." He Yaning kissed the little guy's cheek, "If you like..."

"Father, don't act like this." Xiao Zhu interrupted him.

He Yaning choked on half a sentence, and looked at the little guy in surprise.

Xiaozhu stared at him with big round eyes, and looked at him seriously, saying word by word, "Father, the important thing is who you like. Our teacher said that whoever you like, you can stay with whoever you like. naturally."

The little guy said again: "I think, whether Dad Xu or brother is good, they are very good to me. But, Dad, you are the best to me. I don't want you to make choices because of me. I will be very sad that way .”

He Yaning was tongue-tied and stunned for a long time, unable to speak.

Xiaozhu is a dull child.When everyone saw her, they would say that this must be He Yaning's child.

Depressed, restrained, sensible.Sometimes, even He Yaning himself couldn't figure out what the child was thinking.

But can you think she really doesn't understand anything?

On the contrary, she really knows everything.Moreover, it is very clear.

He Yaning admitted that his thoughts had been seen by this child.

He was ashamed.

"What matters is who you like."

What a simple truth, it is easy to agree with it when it is said.But He Yaning couldn't do it.

He is a planet that revolves first around the husband and then around the daughter.In this round and round, he always loses himself unconsciously.

Xu Yingyue sincerely invited Xiang Jie to cry with inferiority.Two completely different faces superimposed together, like a nightmare, He Yaning woke up instantly.

He remained silent and carried the child back to the bedroom.

"Dad knows." He squatted in front of the bed and covered the little guy with a quilt. "Give Dad some time, Dad needs to think about it."