letter of commitment

I am Shen Qingshu, a woman, but I want to pretend to be a man

Show it by yourself.As for why this is so, I have to start with the chance encounter between my father and a fortune teller.

When my mother was pregnant with me, she had a sore mouth. Everyone thought that my mother was pregnant with a handle, but when my mother was pregnant with me for more than eight months, one day, my father went to work in the field as usual, and a man passing by by chance A fortune teller begged him for a drink.

In order to express his gratitude to my father, the fortune teller gave him a free divination.What he said hit the general idea, but there was one thing that my father couldn't believe, that the mother was pregnant with a girl!But the fortune teller also said that although she is a girl, she will be a talented person in the future. If she is cultivated, she will definitely be the number one scholar.How can a father who can't read a word believe this, he just thinks he is talking nonsense.

Later, when I was born, the fortune teller's words hit the mark, my father was a little disappointed but more surprised, and thought of what the fortune teller said later... But, how can a woman become the number one scholar?After thinking hard, my father decided to raise me as a boy, and my mother was naturally unwilling, but my father convinced her that I might be able to honor my ancestors in the future and change the fate of the Shen family from farming for generations.

He also told the midwife Mrs. Wen thousands of times, so that people outside were convinced that Mrs. Shen's wife gave birth to a man with handles. Not only that, but my father also asked the most respected teacher in the village to take this for me. Bookish name, just like that, I lived a completely different life from the girl next door.

Although I live as a man, I am not like other boys in the village. I have to help in the fields at the age of seven or eight. On the contrary, if I have this idea, my father will scold me severely, and then send me to school with earnestness.

Fortunately, I am much smarter than other students. I can always answer the teacher's questions first, and I am always the fastest to memorize the homework. The teacher likes me very much and often praises me in front of my father. As time passed, my father became more convinced of the fortune teller's words, so he paid a lot of money and went to the county to find a teacher for me alone.

What makes me sad is that the cost of hiring a teacher is too high, and my father and mother have to work harder in exchange for my tuition money. Because of this, the high-intensity labor finally crushed one of them, and my mother left Me and dad.However, my father did not slack off because of this, but even did my mother's share, just to provide me with better learning conditions. Since then, I have made up my mind to work harder to live up to their expectations.

The hard thing is that life is always cruel, and my father fell ill due to the heavy work over time. Fortunately, I can take care of myself and my father. The grandmother next door who once gave birth to me will occasionally help us, and I have Kong will go to the county to paint pictures or write letters for people to earn some income.

The sun and the moon flew by, and my father went with my mother, but before he left, he told me to go to the imperial capital to find Uncle Sun, but he failed to explain clearly, and I have no impression of this Uncle Sun, the worst thing is that I can be confused I didn't notice until I dropped my luggage on the carriage.When I thought I was going to confess that I was in Fengdu, a big family in the city asked the teacher to find me.

To be honest, I refused at first, but now I just want to thank the little brother Zhuang who came to me. Although you are no longer alive, you will always live in my heart.

Another thing worth mentioning is my love luck. I don't know what attractive partner I have, but as a woman, I provoke the hearts of those who are also women around me.

Admittedly, they didn't know my real gender, so I was really panicked.

The first one who confessed to me was the servant girl next to Miss Di in the mansion, but I treat her as a fellowship, after all, we are all serving the same person.Unexpectedly, I wholeheartedly regard her as a friend, but she wants me to follow her, how can this be?Not to mention being a woman, when she made a statement, she thought she was smart and hugged me. Since I was a child, I didn’t like any close physical contact with people, so I was disgusted with it, and I struggled desperately. What can I do? She was so strong that I struggled for a long time before breaking free.

Since then, I have had a deep gap with her.

I forgot to mention that the second one is my "master", that is, Mu Chu's daughter-in-law, Mu Chu. The most worthwhile thing to talk about is that when I was out with her on Qixi Festival, a group of people in black suddenly appeared, and in the face of The man in black wanted to kill me, but she blocked the knife for me without hesitation. Fortunately, the injury was not serious, otherwise I would definitely feel ashamed of her.

Unfortunately, after finishing this wave, when we went back, we saw the Mu Mansion that had already been in flames, and all the people in the Mu Mansion were killed in the fire.However, according to the insider Ling Moumou, the death in the fire seems to be only a superficial phenomenon. The fact is that there is a mysterious organization secretly manipulating it, but even if I know this, I can’t say it, because Mu Chujing was greatly stimulated by the incident. Even though she recovered later, it still made me feel scared, because she even confessed her love to me!

I can't help but wonder if I have same-sex attraction?I panicked again about this, but unlike the one above, I don’t hate her, I even feel sorry for her, and seeing her sad, I would spit bubbles in my heart, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, not only did I not reject her directly I followed her and asked her to go back to my hometown with me. Now, we are on the carriage back to my hometown. From the moment she got on the carriage, her eyes have been on me. To be honest, I think something big is going to happen, and I am starting to regret it .

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The carriage had been driving for two days, and there was an inn passing by, Shen Qingshu and the others planned to rest here for a night before continuing their journey.

Entering the inn, Xiao Er greeted him warmly, and said sharply, "Guest officer, do you want to stay at the top or stay at the inn?"

"Stay in the hotel." It was Shen Qingshu who spoke, and Xiao He added, "Pick up some food." After eating so much dry food on the way, how could the young lady's stomach take it?

"Okay, please at the counter."

The three hurriedly asked for two upper rooms, Shen Qingshu originally wanted three, but because Xiao He insisted on taking care of Mu Chu personally, they had to let the two of them share one room.

As for Mu Chu, she didn't talk much except for looking at Shen Qingshu from time to time along the way. She was thinking about what the place Shen Qingshu would be like when she grew up, and what was more, she and Shen Qingshu's future. Although I lied to him in order to let him take me away, how can someone love the other party one-way and not beg the other party to respond to him in the same way?

Shen Qingshu watched the two of them enter the guest room guided by Xiao Er before saying, "Then I'll go back to my own room. My room is next to yours. Call me if you need anything."

"En." Mu Chu responded.

After drinking and eating, they simply tidied up, and the three of them fell asleep, but Mu Chu didn't sleep well. It was the first time he was away from home, not to mention, it was raining outside, and the sound of the clattering rain disturbed everyone. My own is no mood to sleep.

Simply trying not to wake Xiao He up, got out of bed, put on clothes, and opened the door lightly, only to find that the light in the next room was still on.

Mr. is not asleep yet?Mu Chu thought so.Knock on the door?Hmm...would it bother him?

The heart is tangled, but the body is much more honest, and then knocked on the door.

After a squeak, he saw Shen Qingshu standing in front of him, but at this time he was wearing his hair, which looked quite different from his usual bundled hair. Mu Chu even wondered if he had knocked on the wrong door.The person in front of him, instead of being cool and handsome, has the feeling of Xiaojiabiyu.

"Mu Chu?" Shen Qingshu called softly.

If it weren't for this familiar voice, Mu Chu would have thought that Shen Qingshu couldn't live in this room at all.

"What's up?"

"It's hard to sleep tonight. I wanted to come out and look around. When I saw that the lights in Mr.'s room hadn't been turned off, I unconsciously knocked on the door." Mu Chu lowered his head in embarrassment and quickly raised his head, "But are you disturbing Mr.?" Unexpectedly, the voice was louder , Shen Qingshu hurriedly made a shush gesture, and turned sideways to let her in.

"It's so late, sir, still working hard?" Mu Chu asked looking at the books spread out on the table.

Shen Qingshu closed the door and returned to his seat, picked up the book again and said, "I, like you, have difficulty falling asleep. Instead of lying in bed and daydreaming, it's better to read more books. Hmm? Why don't you sit down?"

Mu Chu moved the stool to sit next to Shen Qingshu and sat down, "Can I watch it with you sir?"

Her face was very close, and the breath she exhaled hit Shen Qingshu's face. Shen Qingshu felt his face was hot, and he was embarrassed to look at her. Speaking of which, she was like this when I was teaching her for the first time.

"it is good……"

Although Mu Chu said so, his eyes didn't take a few glances at the book before he glanced at the person beside him. Perhaps he was getting close, and Mu Chu could smell the faint fragrance of orchid musk emanating from her body.Hmph, you are so intent on watching, how do you know my torment.

The flickering candlelight reflected on his face, which was so harmonious and beautiful.

Mu Chu yawned slightly, feeling strange, why did he feel drowsy when he got here, he tried not to close his eyes, but his body lost his center of gravity and fell towards the other party, it seemed that he was really sleepy.

In a daze, I heard myself say to him, "Sir, let me stay for a while."

As for his answer, I don't know.