my brother and his boyfriend

Waking up vaguely, I saw my mother holding a dangling white knife, her face, clothes, and hands were all red with blood.I was still young at that time and didn't understand anything, so I asked, "Mom, why haven't you slept yet?"

Before my mother could say anything, tears ran across her cheeks, leaving two clear marks.She hugged me tightly and said: "Don't be afraid anymore, no one dares to bully our mother and daughter."

She looked into my eyes, and the tears couldn't stop overflowing from her eyes: "Xiong Xiong, you have to take good care of yourself, you will have to rely on yourself from now on."

After dawn, a group of people came to the house and took my mother away.

I was crying and shouting behind, getting farther and farther away from my mother.

From then on, I started to eat all kinds of food. The brothers on my father's side hated my mother because my mother killed my father, so they also hated me.The brother on my mother's side hates my father because my father beats my mother, so they don't like me.With cold eyes and cold words, I survived.Even my classmates at school, because I was taller than my peers, they spread rumors that I was an idiot who had retained several grades, and they didn't associate with me.

What's the point of such a day?I chose to leave without a trace of nostalgia.

He came out to wander outside without graduating from junior high school. He had no skills, was young, and suffered from hunger and cold.I used to stand by the trash can to see who passed by who had not finished their food. As soon as I threw it into the trash can, I picked it up the next second.

Some people have said that I am very sensitive, and sometimes I think too much like a girl, but if I am insensitive and don't look at my face, I can't live a long time ago.

Then I went to boxing, and the money was getting bigger and bigger, and I was getting more and more empty inside.I want to find someone to accompany me, I want to find someone who will smile at me gently and look at me intently.

When my colleague Li Chuan and I went to his house to pick up things, in his community, I saw a man with a smile, chatting with an old woman under the tree, with smiling eyes, looking at the old woman intently.At that time, I thought, it would be fine if the person he was looking at was me. He smiled at me, listened to me, and his eyes were all about me.I want to know him.

Li Chuan found out that I was looking at that person all the time. He poked my stomach with his elbow and said, "That person is my neighbor. He doesn't talk much, and he doesn't care about things around him when he goes in and out every day. I told him I have been a neighbor for so long, and I have never seen him look me in the eye, nor have I had a chance to say hello. It is rare to see him chatting with people so cordially. He is good-looking, right?"

"Yeah." I nodded, "It's so pretty, I've rarely seen such a pretty person."

Li Chuan looked at me and smiled: "You boy, are you not fascinated?"

"Chuanzi, you bought a new house in Xicheng. This house is empty and empty, can you give it to me?" I said to Li Chuan.

"You boy, it's done!" Li Chuan patted my shoulder.

I transferred the house from Li Chuan, and indeed, as Chuanzi said, I lived across the street and had no chance of meeting him.

Unexpectedly, the little girl I helped was that person's younger sister. After I found out the news in the elevator, I found an excuse to ring his doorbell when I got home.Before he could ring the doorbell, the door opened, and he came out wearing a skirt, a little dress up, he looked even better.For some reason, I felt that he was flustered the moment he saw me, he hurriedly pushed me away, but stepped on my foot.The thin high heels, stepping on the instep, I couldn't help crying.

Looking down, he found a ribbon, which belonged to him.I stretched out my hand to pull him, and there was a "hiss", and I tore his skirt nervously with my strong hand.

"Sorry!" I quickly apologized.

His face was flushed, he didn't know whether it was from anger or shame, even his eyes were red.

Just when I thought he was about to slap me, he covered his clothes and ran away in a hurry.I conveniently stuffed the ribbon he had dropped into my pocket.

Skirt, he is "she", is it a girl?But last time his hair was not so long, and his height was too tall for a girl.

I tentatively chatted with his sister, obedient, he is really a woman, probably disguised as a man occasionally, it is some unknown secret.What I like is his person, gender is not important, he is a woman, it is even better, we can form a family, I will definitely treat him well.

I was thinking about it happily, but his sister told me a painful thing: "He was taken care of by someone!"

Why, why?I think he is as pure as Bai Baihe, and he doesn't seem like he will be taken care of by others. Maybe he has some difficulties. Maybe he pretends to be a boy because he doesn't feel safe as a girl.I still often bring some things to their house, I want to meet him and get to know him, since he doesn't want people to know that he often pretends to be a boy, then I'll pretend to be confused!

I want to save him from the sea of ​​suffering, and I told his sister that I want to keep him.Unexpectedly, he actually told me that he was a man.At that moment, a mountain seemed to collapse in my heart.

I can't accept it, how could he be a boy?Obviously so gentle, obviously so cute... In my mind, he in men's clothing and him in women's clothing are cross-reflected.At first I accepted that he was a man, but later I found out that he was a woman, and now he says he is a man.The night was long and I couldn't sleep in bed.Tossing and turning, lying from night to day, and day to night, I kept thinking why he lied to me.After lying down for a few days, my stomach rumbled, and I realized that people have to eat, and I struggled to get up from the bed, feeling light and powerless.

Finally I figured it out, no matter he is a man or a woman, I still like him, his smile, his eyes that can focus on you, his gentleness and patience.It suddenly occurred to me that he was so erratic, could it be the hobby of the person who took care of him? He must have been coerced by something?After all, he must be a woman.

The moment he smiled brightly at me, I knew something was going to go wrong.Sure enough, he dragged me to the toilet without looking up, and closed the door.All of a sudden, I was imprisoned at the sink.Obviously I am taller and stronger than him, but at this moment, I feel much smaller than him.His eyes kept looking at me, the focused eyes I dreamed of, and I couldn't help but keep looking at him too, for fear of missing a trace of his expression.

Omit N characters.

While rubbing the medicine on myself, I thought about what happened in the toilet.It feels both good and painful.

He would actually kiss me, what on earth was he thinking?Looking back at his smile, he already knew I liked him, right?He's been teasing me all the time, just because he saw a guy obsessed with him and thought it was fun?

I started to resent a little, I know it shouldn't be like this, but I still hate him, I can't control my emotions.I really wanted to beat him up, thinking that one day I would go to the alley to cover him with a cloth bag.

I don't want to meet him, but I want to meet him.After seeing him, I was both happy and complaining in my heart, why should I go to him.

I went to his house a few times, and the more times I saw him, I realized that I couldn't hate him anymore. Even though he was playing tricks on me, I still liked him.

I promised him to help him play a role in a drama. During the rehearsal, he demonstrated the lines and movements for the heroine, and said to me: "Xiongxiong, I love you, I don't care about curses, I just want to be with you."

At that moment, I really thought he was talking to me.When I came back to my senses, I felt deeply lost, and told them that I was a little tired, so I left first.

Standing by the side of the road, I was still thinking about all the things that happened these days, when suddenly a pair of hands hugged my waist tightly.

I looked down the hand on the waist, it was him.

"What are you doing? Didn't see the red light, why are you in a hurry?" He let go of me, and angrily pushed my chest vigorously, speaking in a very anxious tone.

The strength he pushed me was very small for me, and my body didn't move a bit.I looked at him, there were beads of sweat hanging on his forehead, and he was panting a little anxiously.He came after me?

There are quite a lot of people around, all looking at us.He glanced at the people around him, then pulled me away to a place where there were no people.

He let go of mine and leaned against the tree trunk, the sunlight fell on him through the gaps in the tree, and the leaves were blown by the wind to make a "rustling" sound.He covered his eyes with his hands, his chest rose and fell, and he took a deep breath.

"Zhou Xuxiong, Zhou Xuxiong, what should I do with you? You have always been indifferent to me. You said you liked me, but you kept avoiding me. If you don't like me, why did you come to provoke me?" Words slowly came out of his mouth.But together, why can't I understand?

My chest felt tight, as if someone had placed a big stone in my heart.

"Didn't you know that I like you? Didn't I show it obviously?" He took away the hand covering his eyes, raised his head, and blinked vigorously towards the sky.

Taking advantage of his height, his red eyes fell into mine.I opened my mouth and wanted to say something, but my throat felt as if a fishbone had been stuffed into it.

"You say, what should I do? What should I do? Zhou Xuxiong, I, Ye Yaqing, like you. Ye Yaqing likes Zhou Xuxiong so much. When I think of your name, I feel a dull pain in my heart. I can't breathe like a stone. If you just think it's fun to play with me like this and watch me worry about you, then please let me go!" After he finished speaking, he turned around and was about to leave.

He didn't see my eyes, if he saw my eyes, he would be able to understand my mood.

When I heard his last words, I knew that if I didn't do something else, he would leave me.

I took his hand, I don't know what to say, how to express my feelings.lift his chin, just