Looking back and waiting for the dawn

Feeling inexplicably sad in my heart, I want to use my life to protect Ryeowook, do I have the ability? Li Te gently kissed Ryeowook's forehead, only wishing that God would give him more strength.

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When Kyuhyun came to Cambodia, he was completely unable to adapt to the environment here. Although he had already heard relevant reports and community volunteers sharing the living environment here, coupled with his own search on the Internet, he thought that he should be fine. Only by taking this step can we grow. I didn’t expect that when I first came here, I was not acclimatized. Either I had diarrhea or a high temperature. I wanted to give up after only a few days. Why didn’t I go back because I heard Henry from the Chinese club said:

"Aren't you Kyuhyun senior? I didn't expect you to come here too, let me treat you differently."

Henry is a lively foreign student in the Chinese club. He has always been lively, unpretentious, straightforward, versatile and popular, and Kyuhyun always puts on a poker face in school or clubs, making it hard for people to get close. In contrast, this The foreign students are obviously in contrast with Kyuhyun, and Henry made an unintentional remark, which forced Kyuhyun to stay, because Henry said:

"Master Cao, you don't think this place is terrible, you want to go home early?"

When Kyuhyun heard it, he felt that he would lose face and make others think that he was a young master who couldn't bear hardships, so he looked at Henry with a proud expression and said:

"Who will leave first and don't know?"

Having said that, Kyuhyun still couldn't believe that he would come to such a place where birds don't lay eggs, dogs don't shit, and turtles don't come ashore, and he also posted this sentence in the photo on his mobile phone.

Feel

It’s really hard work in Cambodia. Maybe ordinary students can adapt quickly, but for Kyuhyun, it’s hard work. The climate in Cambodia is very hot, the highest temperature can reach over 40 degrees, and it’s likely to snow Compared with China, it does take time and physical adaptation. In addition to teaching children knowledge and learning, work also includes labor work, repairing houses, building toilets, sawing wood, etc., which requires walking almost all day long and taking care of accompanying school children. Therefore, in addition to physical Well, psychological development is more important, Kyuhyun who has never taken care of anyone, unexpectedly has to take care of a bunch of children and also be a porter, if you tell Changmin or Eunhyuk about these things, they will definitely not believe it.

After more than a month, Kyuhyun has gradually adapted to this place. Maybe life has become simpler and entertainment has become less, making his thoughts clearer and clearer. By chance, Kyuhyun got a booklet, which is a Cambodian name Lele's children gave Kyuhyun a gift, when Kyuhyun got the booklet, he asked Lele curiously:

"What are you going to do with this book?"

"I want to write for you! Write about your happiness."Lele said with a happy smile.

"Writing about happy things" Kyuhyun questioned, did he act unhappy?

"If you are sad, just take it out and look at it, and you will forget your sadness"!

"Thank you, I will definitely write."Kyuhyun saw that Lele was serious and said that he couldn't be perfunctory.

Maybe it's because of the habit of using electronic products. Kyuhyun didn't know how to write at first when he got the booklet. It must not be enough for a diary, so Kyuhyun put the booklet in his pocket and decided to write as much as he wanted.

After a few more days, I met Lele again, Lele hugged Kyuhyun and said:

"I'm going to be taken home by blond-haired foreigners to be their child, and I'll have parents in the future, Kyuhyun, can I call you that too?"

That's right, the orphans here sometimes call the volunteers here father or mother, maybe it's a short term, but it also makes these children feel that they don't have parents. Emotion and reluctance are extremely melancholy, not to mention that we will be separated sooner or later, and the child who has established a good relationship with him is about to be taken away before he leaves here. :

"Listen to your new father and mother, you know?"

"Hmm! Yes, I'm going in to get my luggage, they're waiting for me".

Seeing that Lele went in to get the luggage and came out soon, it turned out that the luggage in Lele's mouth was only a few clothes and nothing else. Unexpectedly, the brochure that Kyuhyun received was actually the most valuable thing in Lele's eyes , so generously gifted to himself, Kyuhyun couldn't help tears, hugged Lele tightly and said, "You will be happy, goodbye"; also because of Lele's parting, Kyuhyun began to write notes on his feelings in a booklet.

Time flies, and it’s time to return to China. During this time, Kyuhyun not only established a good relationship with the local children, but also developed a revolutionary relationship with Henry. As far as Kyuhyun’s cold personality is concerned, the originally inarticulate personality , and was inspired to express concisely and concisely, this can be regarded as a major change! However, Kyuhyun will never know that the real major change is that after returning to Cao's house, he is about to fall into the abyss.

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Texu, who lives on the mountain, will also have neighbors on the mountain, but the distance between households is a bit far. What Ryeowook is most afraid of is that when Liteuk gets sick, he will have problems asking the neighbors on the mountain for help, so he has to ask the school professor privately. The ambulance of the hospital, when emergency is needed, arrange a car suitable for going up the mountain to avoid the danger of the mountain road.

Over the years, Li Te’s condition has been good and bad. Currently, the medicine can’t distinguish whether the tumor is benign or malignant, so he can only be treated with surgery until it can’t be opened. In the past few years, Li Te has been operated on three times, and then relapsed, so the attending doctor He didn’t dare to open it again, so he had to transfer to the oncology department to continue radiation therapy. The treatment process was painful. Leeteuk always acted relaxed in front of Ryeowook. In fact, when he turned his back to Ryeowook, he could only bite his teeth and hold back the pain. , dare not make a sound of wailing, Ryeowook is majoring in pediatrics at school, and usually uses his time to ask other related departments, as long as he can improve Liteuk's condition, Ryeowook will never give up.

Although Heechul has helped him these years, Leeteuk is passive in contact. Unless Heechul insists on giving, Leeteuk will never accept Heechul's financial help. This is why Liteuk insists on living on the mountain. The reason for moving, although hard, but also to maintain the self-esteem I want.

Recently, the time for Leeteuk to go to and from the hospital has increased. Ryeowook also learned pain point therapy from Chinese medicine practitioners, acupressure on muscles or acupuncture points. Dare to put down his strength, because Ryeowook knows that this method will be very painful when used on patients, and he hopes to improve Leeteuk’s condition, so Ryeowook has to ask Zhong Yun for help, so Zhong Yun will often help Liteuk with pain point therapy.

Every time Zhong Yun helped Lite massage the acupoints and muscles, Ryeowook would hide and dare not look at it, and Lite also seized this opportunity to ask Zhong Yun:

"Do you like Ryeowook very much?"

"Hehe...Brother, why are you asking so bluntly, we are both boys, it's a little embarrassing for you to ask like this."Zhong Yun blushed suddenly.

"Oh! You know, I love Ryeowook very much, but I can't protect him in my lifetime. If there is fate in my next life, I hope I can meet him again."

"Brother, don't be so pessimistic."Zhong Yun stopped his hands sadly when he heard this.

"I'm not pessimistic, this is just my small wish, I want to tell you, if you can't treat Ryeowook like me, you should keep a distance from Ryeowook, if one day you really get together, you will definitely be hurt It's him".

"Brother, don't think about these things, you will get better gradually, and I will definitely treat Ryeowook the same as you."

"Thank you for your comfort, I know my body best."

When Lite said this, Zhong Yun couldn't continue, Lite continued:

"I don't know how long I have time. I just hope you treat Ryeowook the same as me. I don't want you to maintain the status quo. You can't let Ryeowook depend on you. Don't let your love become "love". With your family background It is not allowed, and I don't want to be unable to let go of this matter after I die."

"So hyung..., hyung doesn't want me to pursue Ryeowook"

"Unless, you are sure that your family members will not harm him"

Hearing Lite's affirmative eyes and question, Zhong Yun didn't know how to continue, but Lite continued to tell Zhong Yun in a stern tone:

"Your father is a city council member, and your mother also works in a government agency. I heard from Ryeowook that your entire family is inseparable from politics. Although your sex is over this time, your future should also be inseparable from politics. Ryeowook and You won't be happy together."

"I've thought about what brother said a long time ago, and I'm still looking for a way, so until I find a way, I won't confess to Ryeowook."

"Knowing you for so long, I know that you have always had a heart for Ryeowook. The pure Ryeowook has a heart of glass, and now he treats you as an older brother, so he should have no other thoughts. I really don't want you to hurt him, maybe it's not you, It’s your family members. I’m worried that if I die, no one can protect him, and the person who hurt him may be someone he once trusted. How can you make him feel so bad? What will he do in the future.”

Lite's straightforward words have already stopped Zhong Yun's love for Ryeowook, and he doesn't know how to move forward. The Ryeowook he met in junior high school was a well-behaved and sensible child. Unexpectedly, when they meet again many years later, Ryeowook becomes Even more handsome, elegant, gentle and gentle personality has not changed, so I gradually fell in love with Ryeowook, although I want to know more about the past in Ryeowook, but Ryeowook almost never mentions it, what is the reason that makes Ryeowook Ryeowook closed himself, and there were many doubts in Zhong Yun's heart, but these are not the point, the point is that he has fallen in love, how can he