An songs

An Ge lay on the bed, listening to the sound of rain falling.

It has been raining continuously for three or four days, sometimes big and sometimes small, but intermittently and almost never stops.The ceiling of the home leaked, and rainwater fell along the cracks in the roof tiles.Before my mother went to work, she put a few empty basins on the ground, and there was already a lot of water in the basins.

From time to time, raindrops fall into the basin again, "tick tick tick", in fact, the sound of rain falling is very pleasant.

An Ge lay down for as long as it rained. Hearing the sound of "tick tock", he thought of the sound of his own blood falling into the water in the bathtub. It was the same, tick tock, tick tock, even better than the sound of rain.It sounded so good that he didn't want to get up, and he couldn't even distinguish reality, he was still reminiscing about the wonderful sound of blood dripping.

At the moment before he died, he was particularly relaxed.From that year when he was spotted by Miao Baiyan and forced to adopt him, and then forced to stand on the top of the scenery, until he chose to commit suicide when he was 27 years old. For nearly ten years, he has always lived very tired.At the beginning, he was tired of dealing with Miao Baiyan, he felt that Miao Baiyan was disgusting, and hated Miao Baiyan for ruining his life.Later, he gradually realized that he couldn't do without Miao Baiyan. In those two years, Miao Baiyan was so kind to him, so kind that he gave him everything, so kind that he even listened to him, so kind that he was a little innocent. I thought it was love.

At that time, he really thought that they were in a relationship, and he began to face work positively, began to reject Miao Baiyan's decision-making, wanted to be more independent, and tried to have an equal status with Miao Baiyan.Until he saw Miao Boyan flirting with another boy, and more boys, using the same method as he used to praise those people to go to the top.

Only then did he realize how innocent he was.

He had quarreled, even fought with Miao Baiyan.Miao Baiyan coaxes and hugs him, but he won't let him go, and even says he loves him.He is 20 years old, still innocent, he can't escape from this quagmire, let alone love Miao Baiyan, so he can only live in chaos.At that time, he was disgusted with himself like this.

Later, he finally wanted to leave, and Miao Boyan had had enough of playing with him, so he let him go.He thought it would be easier if he left, but he found that life became more tiring, and Miao Baiyan had already penetrated into his life.He fell in love with Miao Baiyan, and he became the most disgusting kind of person he was, disgusting and disgusting, Miao Baiyan said he missed him, but he went back again.

In the end, what was it that made him decide to commit suicide?

An Ge suddenly couldn't remember, the rain outside was getting heavier, and more raindrops fell into the basin.

Amidst the louder ticking sound, he remembered that Miao Baiyan celebrated his 30th birthday that day.He barely slept for a week. After finishing his work, he transferred three more flights and returned from Denmark, full of dust.

But full of joy.

At thirty, he wanted to spend time with Miao Baiyan.

And he, finally finished the job, finally caught up.

However, when he opened the door, the room was filled with ambiguity, and Miao Baiyan was surrounded by beautiful men and women, so many people celebrated his 30th birthday.And he?He was so angry that he threw away all his demeanor, like a madman, and questioned Miao Baiyan loudly.

What did Miao Baiyan say?An Ge thought hard again, and when he remembered, Miao Baiyan squinted at him half-drunk, and said impatiently: "Isn't it good to be your main palace?"

Those men and women laughed out loud.

It's so funny.

Thinking about it now, An Ge couldn't help laughing out loud, the laughter was hoarse.

It's so funny, I don't blame people for laughing.Miao Baiyan is funny, he is even more funny, so cheap and ridiculous.

The corners of An Ge's eyes inevitably got wet again, but he didn't even have the strength to wipe them off with his hands.The door of the house rang at this moment, and the mother's tired but cheerful voice came from outside to inside: "Tongtong, are you awake?"

He didn't speak immediately, and suddenly changed from 27 years old to 16 years old. It was too fast and sudden. He could accept the rebirth. After all, he had acted in a fantasy movie in his previous life, and he was the reborn male protagonist in that movie.But he still couldn't calmly accept the memories in his mind, he was even a little angry, if he wasn't allowed to die, why didn't he wash away those memories in his mind?

But my mother thanked her umbrella, opened the door and walked in. His house is very small, with only a small living room and bedroom, and the kitchen is separated from the small living room.The clothes on mother's body were half wet, and the dim light in the room hit her face, which made her smile a little warmer. She walked to the side of the single bed, looked down at him, and said with a smile: "Is it better?"

Mom reached out to touch his forehead, frowned and said, "It's still hot, Tongtong, can you get up? Let's go to the hospital?"

An Ge shook his head: "It's okay..."

The voice is very cold, this is the 27-year-old him with a dead heart.He didn't realize it yet, and neither did his mother, she just thought it was because of his poor health.He has been sick since he came back. According to his mother, five days ago, before he came back, he already had a high fever here. He took leave of absence from school and has been recuperating at home.

This time, he resented that he didn't die completely, and his health didn't recover.

Hearing his dull voice, mother said distressedly: "You lie down, and mother will cook for you. After eating, you will take medicine. After taking medicine, you will be fine soon!" After finishing speaking, mother turned around and left in a hurry. bedroom.

An Ge's eyeballs rolled and caught a glimpse of her mother's thin back. There was a rare crack in her heart that had been closed for the past few days.

He hasn't seen his mother for many years.

In his previous life, his mother passed away when he was 16 years old. After his death, he dropped out of school and worked around to earn money to support himself.Because of his good looks, the proprietress in the part-time job shop said that he could be a star, and introduced him to work as a waiter in a super-star hotel, saying that he could meet some directors or producers there.

The proprietress was kind. He was naive at the time, and he really believed what the proprietress said and went there.I actually met the director, and once I was lucky, I went to an audition.But he has no background and experience, with a decent face, how can he compete with others?Of course it's nothing.

It's a pity that I was too naive at the time. After that experience, I was even more excited, thinking that a bright future was in front of me.

Then, he met Miao Baiyan there.

An Ge closed his eyes, he didn't want to recall that part, he didn't want to recall anything related to Miao Baiyan.

The bedroom door was pushed open again, and it was still mother's voice: "Tongtong, it's time to eat."

He didn't want to open his eyes either, wishing he could die again, he had never had a good meal these days.My mother worked as a cashier in a chain cake shop and was always busy, so she couldn't keep an eye on him all the time. Although she cooked for him every morning before going out, he seldom ate. It would be best if he could starve to death.

Mom walked to the bed, put down the bowl softly, and reached out to help him: "Get up and eat..."

Desperation is one thing, to be able to hear mother's voice again, to be able to see mother again, is the only consolation for this trip, right?Did An Ge open his eyes again, and was supported by his mother to stand up and lean against the bed, and her mother handed him the bowl.

It's a bowl of noodles.Mother's eyes were earnest, An Ge held the bowl in her hands, and asked first, "Have you eaten yet?"

Mom sat down and smiled at him: "you eat, mom waits to eat."

An Ge hesitated, and his mother stuffed the chopsticks into his hand: "Eat quickly!"

An Ge wanted to smile at his mother, but he couldn't. He licked his lips at his mother, and picked up chopsticks to eat noodles.It was just plain green vegetable noodles, he was not in good health, and his mother cooked the noodles very badly, which was his favorite kind when he was a child.He picked out a few chopsticks, and wanted to deal with it, but he couldn't eat it, but he poked something.

He froze for a moment, and then he raised his eyes to look at his mother, who also pursed her lips, but smiled at him.

An Ge moved his chopsticks, and pulled out a poached egg from the bottom of the bowl.

Only on his birthday, his mother would hide poached eggs in the bottom of the bowl for him.

He forgot, is it his birthday today?After he came back, the past few days were no less muddled than in his previous life, he was lying on the bed all the time, how could he know what night it is?

Seeing that he found out, his mother smiled even more and said, "Silly boy, did you forget? Today is Children's Day, and it's your birthday!"

It turned out that it was really his birthday. Holding the bowl, An Ge looked at his mother who was smiling so happily, and suddenly felt a little overwhelmed.

But the mother said distressedly: "I knew that if I lay down every day after being sick, I must not remember it. I read the weather forecast and it will be sunny tomorrow. After our birthday, our Tongtong's illness must be cured!" Mother was still rambling on, in the trivial voice, the rift in An Ge's heart was getting bigger and bigger.

"Tomorrow is just the time to pay wages. Mom will buy you a hen stewed soup and some ginseng. Chicken soup is the most effective for fever! The day after tomorrow, Mom will see if I can rest. Let's invite a master to repair the house! It can't always leak rain Now, it’s facing your desk, and it won’t be easy to do homework when it rains. It’s time for Tongtong to buy new clothes. I buy them for my birthday every year. As long as I can rest, let’s go!” Mom said to herself, suddenly Clap your hands, "Almost forgot!"

After my mother finished speaking, she hurriedly got up and went out again. After a while, when she came back, she was holding a small ordinary strawberry cake about six inches in her hand.

Mom laughed and said, "The proprietress knows that your birthday is today, so she specially gave it to you!"

Mom carefully put the cake on the low table by the bed, put in candles, but found that there was no lighter.She hurried around looking for it.An Ge's voice was a little sluggish. Before committing suicide, he hadn't spoken to anyone for more than half a month, and had kept himself locked at home.

He hasn't spoken much since he came back for the past few days. He wants his mother to stop looking for her.

Mom had already walked out with the candle, and came back soon, and said happily: "Go to the gas stove to borrow a fire." She inserted the candle on the cake, clapped her hands again, and looked at An Ge, "Okay!"

An Ge also looked at the little cake, and then at the number 16 on the candle.

In his previous life, fans would celebrate his birthday every year, the crew would celebrate him, countless people would celebrate his birthday, and Miao Baiyan would celebrate his birthday every year. The world is full of birthday wishes for him.He has seen all kinds of beautiful cakes, and he has also seen with his own eyes that the numbers on the cakes get bigger and bigger year by year.He still remembered that when he was 26 years old, Miao Baiyan personally lit the candles and delivered the cake to him.

In front of so many people, Miao Baiyan kissed him, said he loved him, and said that he would spend every birthday with him in the future.

Around them, everyone was applauding and booing, and it was rare for him to show a sincere and happy smile.

That was the first time the word "future" appeared in Miao Baiyan's words, and he thought it was a promise.

But before the 27 candle appeared, he died.

His mother urged him: "Tongtong, eat poached eggs quickly! After eating eggs, let's eat cake."

An Ge resisted the astringency in the corners of his eyes, and even though his stomach was on fire, he still lowered his head and ate the poached eggs made by his mother in two or three bites.At the urging of his mother, he ate a few more chopsticks of noodles, and his mother grabbed the noodle bowl in his hand, picked up the cake, and handed it to him: "Tongtong, make a wish..."

Make a wish?

What wish?

An Ge stared blankly at Little Cake, what other wishes could he expect?Dazed, he heard his mother say with a smile: "Before I knew it, my Tongtong was 16 years old. My mother has no skills. My mother hopes that my Tongtong can be happy every day and be healthy. That is my mother's greatest wish. "

An Ge looked up at her mother again.

His birthday, the day he both loved and hated the most in his previous life, served people in Israel, and as he got older, it showed that Miao Baiyan would become more and more impatient with him.But it was also his birthday, and Miao Boyan would carefully prepare for him. On that day, he would listen to everything and say anything nice to him.

But he forgot that his birthday was also his mother's good day.

In his previous life, no one would be sad when he died.

But he came back, and he still has his mother.If he dies again, what will happen to my mother?

He was born with difficulty by his mother, and almost killed two people.

An Ge lowered his eyes, and the liquid finally dripped from the corners of his eyes.

"Tongtong?" Mother called him in surprise before she noticed him crying, "The candle is about to go out..."

An Ge sniffled, raised her head and quickly blew out the candles, her mother said anxiously, "I haven't made a wish yet!"

An Ge's tears fell more and more, more than the rain outside the house.He made a good wish. He hoped that his mother could live a long life in this life. He hoped that he could earn more money in this life so that his mother could live a long and happy life.

"Oh, let's order another one, there's another..." Mom said as she turned around again, An Ge put the cake aside, and suddenly threw herself into her mother's arms.Mother was taken aback for a moment, then smiled again, "You child, are you acting like a baby with your mother again?"

Yes, in the past, he liked to act like a baby to his mother.

My mother didn't study much, but she taught him the truth, goodness and beauty, and raised him so innocently.

He no longer likes acting like a baby, and he is no longer naive.But this is his mother, his only relative, the only mother who can make him completely return to his original self and cry happily.

Adding up the two lives before and after, An Ge closed his heart for ten years, the gap was completely torn open, and the gloom and despair flowed out crazily together with his tears.

Only at this moment did he understand the meaning of rebirth.

He was born again, back to his 16th birthday.

This is his life.

Fuck Miao Baiyan, fuck suicide.

He must live his life with dignity, innocence, and dignity, and live the life he should have.

On Arbor Day, plant a tree and wish An Ge a new life.

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The first three chapters give out red envelopes.

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