Xiaoshou, come to the bowl

On the last day of the university's military training, it was the first time Cheng Fan saw that boy, wearing an army green camouflage uniform, which was the same as the person walking with him, but Cheng Fan recognized the boy named Lin Xiangnan just from that glance. juvenile.

There is a saying that, just one glance is enough for ten thousand years.

Cheng Fan sometimes thinks that maybe he is talking about his careless punching.

At that time, Lin Xiangnan was actually more like a child, clean and pure, without any impurities.Standing there, with his back to the sun, he smiled and bent his eyebrows.

Cheng Fan never knew that a boy could smile so beautifully.

Yes, Cheng Fan at that time, the first time he saw Lin Xiangnan, was shocked by his stunning face.

At that time, Lin Xiangnan didn't like men yet, that is to say, he wasn't gay yet.

Cheng Fan didn't know that his behavior in those years would change a person so much, and he never thought about the consequences of what he did.He only knows that he wants to be with this person, and he wants to make this person fall in love with him and then be unable to extricate himself, and finally the two will grow old forever.

When Cheng Fan talked to Lin Xiangnan for the first time, the two of them rode their own bikes, met each other on the school path and fell down together.

Yes, Lin Xiangnan accidentally knocked the wheel of the car against a rock on the ground, and then fell down with Cheng Fan involved.It was a very vulgar and bloody meeting, but it was just like that, without the slightest deliberation.

At that time, Cheng Fan was actually thinking that maybe it was destined by the heavens that the two should know each other.Otherwise, how could there be such a coincidence?Because it is doomed, there will be coincidences.

Later, Cheng Fan would sometimes think of Lin Xiangnan that year, and then he couldn't help but smile, thinking that Lin Xiangnan at that time was really funny.

He blushed and looked at the person who helped him get up, then lowered his head and kept saying sorry, all Cheng Fan could see was the vortex above Lin Xiangnan's head.With smooth hair, he couldn't see his face clearly, and only his apologetic voice kept repeating in his ears.

In the end, the two pushed two bicycles that had fallen and were deformed, and went to the school infirmary with each other's support.

Lin Xiangnan's calf was scratched, although it wasn't serious, but in such a hot weather, it's better to go to the school doctor to have a look.The scar didn't completely come off until two years later. At that time, Cheng Fan and Lin Xiangnan were joking, saying that it was because they wanted to leave their own marks on his body, so it might never disappear in this lifetime.

It's just that, when Cheng Fan saw Lin Xiangnan many years later, he hadn't violated the law and asked whether the scar was still there.Probably no more, just like the current self, and Lin Xiangnan must have nothing to do with each other.

After meeting that day, it seemed that the two had more chances to meet each other.Sometimes I just met by accident on the school trail, and then greeted each other, and finally passed by.

There were also roommates who walked with Cheng Fan, of course they knew each other's sexuality, because they were corrupt together since childhood.

That person once said jokingly: "How did you know him, Lin Xiangnan, he is a famous talent in the art department, and the professors are optimistic about him! Zhang's is not bad, I think he looks better on the bed, when will you hook up?" Yes, when will I introduce it to my brothers."

That day, it was the first time that Cheng Fan beat that person so angrily.From Cheng Fan's point of view, Lin Xiangnan is his own, an existence that no one can peek at.Even if that person is the brother they grew up with, even exchanging bed partners is a very common thing for them.It was only later that I realized that that person had become so important to me when I didn't realize it.

Cheng Fan never denied how flustered he was in the past, and even slept with his best friend, but it was just mutual loneliness so he helped each other.It's just that after getting up the next day, it fell apart. Anyway, there is nothing I need to be responsible for.

However, Lin Xiangnan was different, and Cheng Fan felt that this person was different.

So he tried his best to get acquainted with that person. He knew that he was not gay, but he couldn't stop his thoughts of trying to live in this person's heart.

Cheng Fan tried his best to deal with Lin Xiangnan, and almost did some behaviors that he had dismissed in the past, without even thinking about it.

When Cheng Fan and Lin Xiangnan had a showdown, they had known each other for more than half a year.At that time, Lin Xiangnan probably realized that he was different, so he began to try to hide from himself.

How can a person who has worked hard for half a year give up just by saying give up?Cheng Fan confessed without hesitation, but only when he said it did he realize how impulsive he was doing it.What if someone is scared away?

In the end, when Lin Xiangnan said to try it with two people, he even wanted to ask himself if he was dreaming.

Lin Xiangnan was too good, and his good self didn't dare to dream of standing by this person's side.He even felt that getting to know this person was actually a big dream of Hua Xu, and he would wake up eventually, and he stayed in the dream and refused to quit.

Cheng Fan thought that those three years in college should be his best time.Because at that time, I could still have a dream, a dream of being able to be with the person I like.

In the dream, there was Lin Xiangnan who stood under the tree and raised his head and smiled with himself, there was Lin Xiangnan who was a little surprised when he walked out of the classroom and saw himself, and there was someone who rode a bicycle with him to a place far away where there was no one, and then hugged and kissed Lin Xiangnan.

It's just that it was a dream after all, and he would wake up eventually.When waking up from the dream, all the happiness came to an abrupt end at that moment.

Before Cheng Fan met Lin Xiangnan, he was actually very clear about his ending and what would happen in the end.But after meeting Lin Xiangnan, those feelings in the dream that he would rather be immersed in made his original sobriety disappear in an instant.

Cheng Fan didn't know how to tell his parents that the person he liked was a man, and it was impossible for him to marry that young lady whom he had fallen in love with a long time ago, have children, and finally join hands for the rest of his life.Maybe it's because I don't dare, maybe it's because I don't want to, it's more because I can't bear it, I can't bear to destroy my parents' expectations.

Cheng Fan did not expect such a scene when he was smashed. Lin Xiangnan, half undressed, was lying on the sofa, wrapped in a bath towel and pressed on top of him. His parents were standing at the door, looking into the room in disbelief. Two people lying on the sofa.

Lin Xiangnan finally left him, maybe it should be said that he left him first. When standing at the airport, he hoped that that person would appear, but in the end that person still did not enter the gate of the airport.

The woman who went to the United States with him was the woman who would become his wife.

When he returned to China again, he asked a lot of people, and only then did he know that Lin Xiangnan had a car accident on the day he went abroad, and then he never contacted him again, and no one could even tell him where Lin Xiangnan was. What.

"Are you still thinking about him?"

Cheng Fan pretended not to know what the woman said, turned his head to look at her strangely, and asked, "What are you talking about?"

"You have been absent-minded since you came back to China. I know there was a Lin Xiangnan in the past. I know where he is and how he is living now. Let me tell you, but you can't change anything after meeting him. In the end, you You still want to marry me. Treat it as a gift from me." The woman gave Cheng Fan a piece of information about Lin Xiangnan's life in the past few years.

That person lost his parents, was abandoned by his biological sister, lay alone in the hospital, started from nothing, and now opened a small tea house, living a very leisurely life.

There are also some recent photos of this person in the data, facing the sun, smiling, mottled light and shadow flashing on that person's face, those photos don't seem to be taken secretly, but those photos are indeed taken secretly.

In the end, I still missed it. Cheng Fan looked at the man with Lin Xiangnan. Even in casual clothes, he looked successful in his career. Standing beside Lin Xiangnan, even Cheng Fan felt a little ashamed. Lin Xiangnan's side.

He had some hopes, maybe that person was just his ordinary friend, maybe the relationship between the two people was not what he imagined, but it seemed that it was just his own delusion.

Lin Xiangnan wore the same style of clothes as that person, attended his wedding, and then left side by side with that person. His dazzling appearance made him even want to burn them both to death.

Standing behind him, his wife said with a smile: "You have already ruined half of Lin Xiangnan's life, why bother with him for the rest of his life, that man is not his boyfriend yet, but not far away, that man is ambitious , how could I let Lin Xiangnan go."

Later, when Cheng Fan and his wife went abroad, he thought nothing would happen if he didn't meet or hear about them, but when he accidentally saw the happy appearance of those two people, he became madly jealous, jealous of why that person was by Lin Xiangnan's side.

When he returned to the country quietly, his wife was six months pregnant. He didn't expect her to chase after him. When he went to find Lin Xiangnan, he didn't even think about how to deal with it. He knew that Lin Xiangnan must know the person who sent those photos be yourself.

The person sitting in front of the computer and looking at the data turned his head and glanced at his wife lying on the balcony chair. His stomach was already obvious. His four-year-old son was squatting on his wife, playing with the toy he just bought yesterday.

The sun shines on the two of them, and Cheng Fan feels the satisfaction he has never had before. Even without Lin Xiangnan, he lives so happily. His family is very happy, and even without love, it is so warm that people don't want to leave.