his cat [Rebirth]

"Yingtai." Chongshan closed his eyes, with a resolute and stubborn expression on his face, he said softly, "If you leave me one day, you will know that the tears shed by the saddest person in the world are nothing compared to One ten-thousandth of my inner torment."

Xing Yingtai pursed her lips and said, "I won't leave you, I will let you go back with me."

"No, no." Chongshan said, "It's good as it is now... Yingtai, my nerves are a little fragile, don't mess with me, then I will obey you in everything."

These words are even more unreliable than empty promises, Xing Yingtai said: "Then you just give me a knife."

Chong Shan was already sitting beside Xing Yingtai, but upon hearing this, he was sitting on his waist, a pair of pale hands leaned forward with bony bones, and they were about to grab Xing Yingtai's neck.

Xing Yingtai dodged backwards and dodged.

Chongshan said: "Look, you are afraid, and I am also reluctant."

"..."

"The way of heaven is inhumane, and people are like ants... Even ants want to do everything to love someone. Ying Tai, when I told you this story, I never thought that I am not even as good as an ant." Chongshan said quietly, "I'm an earthworm lying under your feet. If you want to step on it, I'll come up and let you crush it."

Xing Yingtai frowned, with a solemn expression.

Chongshan raised his hand to smooth the wrinkles between his brows, and continued: "But you see, earthworms have annoying mucus on them, which sticks to you and makes you uncomfortable. You should pity it, Don't shake it off like a snot, okay?"

Xing Yingtai didn't bring a few clothes when he came to Yunnan, but he didn't need to worry at all, because Chongshan bought him a lot.

When Xing Yingtai was still in high school and could only wear school uniforms, in order to please his little nephew, Chongshan often bought him various styles of clothes and dressed Xing Yingtai cleanly and decently.

Later, he found that Xing Yingtai was too attractive to girls, so he tried to restrain himself.When Xing Yingtai went to university, the desire to "buy, buy, buy" for him was like a sprout that broke through the ground, and when the spring breeze blew, it was out of control.At that time, Xing Yingtai didn't ask her family for living expenses, and she fooled around with Chongshan all day long.

Chongshan knew the model of Xing Yingtai's clothes very well, and he was able to buy them easily at this time.When Xing Yingtai was woken up in the morning, Chongshan would put the clothes he had chosen beside Xing Yingtai's bed, and then leaned aside to watch him put on the clothes.

In a blink of an eye, Xing Yingtai stayed at Chongshan's house for half a month.

Because Xing Yingtai likes to read mystery novels, Chongshan also bought him a whole set of detective mystery novels by Agatha Christie.One day, when Xing Yingtai lowered her head to read a book, the hair on her forehead covered her eyes.

Chongshan looked at it, thoughtfully, and said:

"It's time for you to cut your hair."

Xing Yingtai let out an 'hmm'.

"How about I cut it for you?"

Xing Yingtai asked: "Can you do it?"

"No," Chongshan found the scissors, "but it should be quite simple."

Facts have proved that a high IQ does not necessarily mean doing simple tasks well.Qian Zhongshu, a master of the generation, said that he was "clumsy", and he was familiar with Shi Ziji, but he couldn't tie his shoelaces well.

Chongshan cut it twice, Xing Yingtai told him to stop, then took the scissors, and cut himself in front of the mirror.

The cutting effect was not very good, especially the first two slaps by Chongshan, which made Xing Yingtai's ears look like they were missing a piece.

Xing Yingtai himself was not doing well, Chongshan couldn't take it anymore, he leaned against the wall, his eyes were very red.

He muttered to himself: "It turns out that I was not good to you."

Xing Yingtai opened her mouth, but did not speak.

Chongshan said with stiff fingers: "But what should I do? I can't let you go anymore."

Xing Yingtai is kind and friendly to Chongshan because the two had a close relationship before.

Even if Chongshan chained him up and imprisoned his freedom, it would be hard for Xing Yingtai to 'hate' him.

But it was a day at the end of February that really made Xing Yingtai lose control of her emotions.Xing Yingtai tried his best to tell Chongshan that he must go back, otherwise he would not be able to catch up with the school report.

Chongshan said: "It's not necessary to go to university. I can teach you whatever you want to learn."

"But everyone else can go to school," Xing Yingtai said. "I don't want to be too different."

"Are they that important?"

"...I have to get a degree certificate."

"I'll give you as much as you want."

Xing Yingtai said angrily: "My hard work is so unbearable in your eyes. If you are so powerful, what am I?"

Chongshan was stunned for a moment, he hurriedly stood up and said, "That's not what I mean, of course you are better than me, I'm just older..."

"Okay," Xing Yingtai closed her eyes and said with restraint, "I want to go back."

"..."

Chong Shan turned around, looked out the window, and said flatly, "No."

Xing Yingtai was so anxious that his whole body tingled, he wanted to shout, and wanted Chongshan to feel his urgency.

After so many days, he didn't see a single outsider, nor heard other voices.Xing Yingtai didn't even spend the Spring Festival with his parents. His parents must know that he was here in Chongshan, but why didn't anyone come?

Is Xing Yingtai really going to stay here with Chongshan for the rest of her life?

He is still so young, and the world has not yet unfolded in his immature and narrow vision. How can he be convinced if he is drawn so early as a prison and carved wood as an official?

Xing Yingtai held Chongshan's shoulder, turned him around, and grabbed Chongshan's neat and clean collar.

Xing Yingtai said: "Chongshan, I'm really angry!"

Chongshan gave a 'hmm', and after being held by the collar, he had to look up into Xing Yingtai's eyes.

After a long time, he raised his hand to touch Xing Yingtai's arm, and commented: "...I lost weight."

"..."

"You vent out when you're not happy," Chongshan touched the blisters on Xing Yingtai's lips because of getting angry, and said, "Don't be stuffy in your heart, I will worry."

Xing Yingtai loosened Chongshan's collar and begged bitterly, "Chongshan, I want to go back."

Chongshan took a deep breath, changed the subject in a not so clever way, and asked, "Which book did you read yesterday? Look——"

"Chongshan."

"——I told you not to mention this matter again!!" There seemed to be a flame burning in Chongshan's eyes, but it was quickly extinguished forcefully. He cleared his throat and said suppressedly, "Yingtai, I feel a little uncomfortable. Come find you again."

After finishing speaking, Chongshan rushed into his room as if fleeing.

That night, Chongshan slept in Xing Yingtai's room.He lay quietly beside Xing Yingtai, and when the alarm rang, Chongshan straightened up and looked at the person lying beside him who was soundly asleep but with a tired expression.

Chongshan kissed Xing Yingtai on the forehead, then hugged him, and tied Xing Yingtai to the chair with a rope.

Chongshan could not match Xing Yingtai if he put all his strength alone, probably because of this, Chongshan gave Xing Yingtai medicine in the end.

After Xing Yingtai woke up, he moved, his eyes were a little confused, and he asked: "What's wrong? Uncle, I'm so dizzy."

Chongshan didn't say a word, and said softly: "Don't call me that." He thought for a while, and told him 'what's wrong' in the most direct way.Chongshan leaned over and opened his mouth to lick Xing Yingtai's lower body.

Xing Yingtai let out an 'ah', jumped up suddenly, and flinched back as hard as she could.He was startled and angry, gnashing his teeth in anger, and frightened out of his wits.It's not hard at all in this case.

Chong Shan was not in a hurry, he used his mouth slowly and licked patiently, his movements were jerky at first, but he quickly got into the mood and showed a variety of tricks.

In the end Xing Yingtai soiled Chongshan's mouth, and Chongshan swallowed everything in his mouth expressionlessly.

Xing Yingtai started to cry, he said: "You are crazy, uncle, I can never be with you again... woo..."

Before he finished speaking, Chongshan gently covered Xing Yingtai's mouth, leaned close to him, and licked his cheek and earlobe: "Don't talk, Yingtai, don't call me that again."

"..."

"are you comfortable?"

"..." Xing Yingtai's tears stuck to his eyelashes, he panted quickly, and the hot air hit Chongshan's palm.

Chongshan said pitifully: "I'm afraid your blood won't circulate. Be good, and I'll let you go, okay?"

Xing Yingtai was silent.

Chongshan untied the rope from Xing Yingtai's body.

The room was dead silent for a few seconds, Chongshan looked up at Xing Yingtai, waiting for his reaction.

Then Xing Yingtai punched Chongshan hard in the face.

Chongshan let out a suppressed moan from his throat, and he fell to the right. If he hadn't helped the floor with his hands, Chongshan would have fallen to the ground at this time.

"Chongshan!" Xing Yingtai grabbed Chongshan by the collar and dragged him up from the ground. He was angry and couldn't believe it, "How could you? How could you?!"

Chongshan's left face was almost numb, but his eyes were serious and distorted. He said, "It should have been like this a long time ago, I wanted to be like this a long time ago."

He spoke lightly, but with a weight as heavy as a thousand pounds.

Before Xing Yingtai lifted his trousers, two lines of tears rolled down Chongshan's shirt.

"Don't cry, Yingtai."

"..."

"Don't cry, can you? Baby, you cry so much that my heart hurts." Chongshan said softly, "I didn't do anything at first, if you don't feel relieved, just hit me again."

Xing Yingtai let go of her hand.

He wanted to treat Chongshan fiercely, let him know his anger, and make him dare not do this again.

But seeing Chongshan's eyes, Xing Yingtai knew that maybe, no matter what he did, Chongshan would never let go.

At the end of April, Xing Yingtai fell ill.

Xing Yingtai has allergies and is still young. Every spring, Xing Yingtai will have asthma due to allergies.

Chongshan knew about it long ago and made preparations in advance, but I don't know if it was because of his bad mood, even though he took the corresponding medicine, Xing Yingtai still fell ill.

He had a high fever and was having trouble breathing.

After two injections, the doctor was called for first aid, and the situation was very dangerous every time.

Chongshan stayed by Xing Yingtai's bedside for three consecutive days.

Sometimes Xing Yingtai would open his eyes. He was sore from the fever and his eyeballs were dry. It took him a long time to react before he could feel the Chongshan around him.

Chongshan shook his hand quietly and asked, "Do you want some water?"

Xing Yingtai said hoarsely, "I want to go home."

"..."

Chongshan said bitterly: "Go home...don't you want to accompany me?"

"I'm afraid I'll never see you again," Xing Yingtai gasped for breath and said, "but I don't want to see you again either."

Chongshan's body trembled, and his eyes turned red from staying up for a long time.Chongshan leaned forward, holding Xing Yingtai's neck with cold fingers.

As long as you work harder, this person will be by your side for the rest of your life.

Chongshan thought this way, but he couldn't do anything anyway.

I made him cry.

I made him frown.

I made him scarred because of me.

Damn it wasn't Xing Yingtai.

...why don't I die?