[Comprehensive] The Holy Grail Finds My Husband

I took out the paper and pen, and wanted to write a letter to Fuji Shusuke who was far away.

After three or four years, I still remember his appearance.

When he smiled, his brows and eyes were curved, like a warm spring breeze.

Forgot to say, he is my ex and my first love.

Today, I turned on my phone, peeked at the screen again, and saw the dynamic message he posted, saying that someone said that he will have good luck in the next few days, and something good is coming.

I quietly stared at his news for a long time without daring to comment.

Silently turned off the phone, pretending not to see it.

Opening the drawer, I saw the old diary. I opened it and looked at it. The date on the last page stayed on the day long after we broke up, and I was so broken that I couldn't bear it.

It turned out that time has passed for so long.

He has already started his new life, and he has already been accompanied by a beautiful woman, but I am still stuck in the season of breaking up three or four years ago, stagnating.

I took out the paper and pen, and wrote a letter to my ex-first love whom I hadn't seen for a long time.

It was written in the letter that I fulfilled my promise to find him in another city by car.

Standing at the station that I once dreamed of, I couldn't see him appearing in a daze.

Walking on an unfamiliar street, looking at the scenery around me, listening to familiar and unfamiliar words, recalling how we got along——

"I dreamed that I went to find you, but I got lost."

"When you get lost, I will be by your side."

Back then, he smiled tenderly and dotingly, almost made me feel as if I owned the whole world.

Now, when I'm actually on the road to where he is...

Only the lonely bright moon in the sky is with me alone.

I continued to write about the days after leaving him.

After leaving him, I fell into a decadent depression for a long time.

A cheerful person becomes cowardly, all he needs is a breakup after a relationship.

A gentle person becomes crazy, only needs to have a sincere love.

In the days after the separation, I fell into darkness for a long, long time.Even now, thinking about the days since leaving him, my mind goes blank.

I seemed to be a caged bird, imprisoning myself in the sadness of his leaving.

Every day in front of my eyes is the scene of getting along with him.

I used to think that I was very ruthless. After seeing through the darkness, I was too lazy to look back and just wanted to be clean.

After breaking up, I suddenly felt how stupid I was, even when I was jealous and sad, I didn't say it when I was in love.

Yes, in retrospect, we have long since broken up.

We have long since broken up!

Stopping the pen in my hand, my heart hurts slightly, and my head hurts a little.

Unknowingly opened his message, turned to the photo he sent not long ago, and saw the message sent to him by other people.

I lowered my head and smiled lightly.

He had a good life and a very happy life.

But I have been immersed in too much time after the breakup, unknowingly broke my wings, and imprisoned myself as a caged bird.

I once thought, as an ex, what should I do if I meet him?

Now it seems that it is better not to see.

In the days without me, he finally came out and lived a happier and better life.

And when I was immersed in the darkness, I was slowly changed by the darkness, and I was no longer the appearance he liked at the beginning.

I have... changed.

Years are the most ruthless.

Just like, the scene of separation is vivid in my mind, and I suddenly feel that it was yesterday.

Just like, after parting, no matter the expression or regret, whether it is sunshine or darkness for me, it has nothing to do with him.

I was absent for three or four years of his life after separation, and to him, we had been separated for a long, long time.

After a long time, there are enough people in his life to change him.

When you are in love, who doesn't think that love is forever.

When you are in love, who doesn't promise, love to the point of gray hair and gray head.

When falling in love, who never thought that the love will solidify and never break up.

however……

Sorry, that was all once.

The oath turned into nothingness.

The promise turned into a past.

Those who cannot escape are the most affectionate.

After thinking about it, I crossed out the above sentence.

Affectionately, oh no.

I never thought I was a very affectionate person, on the contrary, I thought I was very affectionate.

I think that the person I love is good at anything.

I feel that I have a flawed personality, I like it but I can't open my mouth anyway.

The more I like it, the more uncomfortable it is.

Why?He wants to stay in my heart.

Why?After the breakup, he was still alive in my mind.

Why?I woke up in the middle of the night and still couldn't help crying.

I should be a fickle person, and I shouldn't care so much.

Putting down the pen in my hand, I couldn't write anymore.

Listening to the song yesterday, I wanted to cry while listening to it, it was very embarrassing.

I tried to get out of the past again and again, I was lost and I didn't know what to do?

The inexplicable impulse made me open his website and saw his message.

suddenly……

As if a pair of hands tore away the darkness, my world entered the daylight again.

Honey, you used to be my color, when I didn't meet you, my world was only black and white.

How did I forget, forget that after losing the color, my world will fall into that black and white world again?

Raising his hand, he wrote the reply message a dozen times, and finally his finger stopped on the delete button.

Yes, I really want to, really want to send a message to ask how you are doing?

I really want to tell you, what have I encountered in these years?

I would love to, would love to do it.

But dear...

See the happiness overflowing in your message.

See how long we have been apart on the date.

I have already lost my qualifications.

I am no longer able to disturb your life willfully like in the past.

Time has met me a lot.

As early as when I drew the ground as a prison and enclosed myself, I lost my qualifications.

Slowly lit the written letter, and watched the fire light engulf the things I wrote to him.

I don't know how to laugh.

smiling.

I spend three or four years commemorating our past and thinking about our love.

You have already walked out, and you already have your own life.

The world, time, past, future.

They all soberly told me, stop being self-righteous and thinking that I have given up, and stop being self-righteous and thinking that I have not done enough.

Because, those—

It's all over.

Those are all in the past, and my him is also stuck in the past.

I have always been thinking about the person I used to be.

The person who always thought that he was still immersed in the past and forgot the truth is also me.

We, me and him, separated long ago.

already separated.

******

How beautiful is love?

A little bit drunk.

How bitter is love?

Take a bite of Coptis chinensis.

love and time,

They never stop for anyone.

People who are walking forward have already left behind waiting in place.

I would like to turn into a prison bird and live in yesterday with you.

but god,

God has not accepted my vow.

terribly sorry,

I still like you.

It's just that I should grow up too.

It's time to come out and grow up and mature.

The author has something to say:

We will all grow up.