want to be your person

Today is the last day of 2015, and I don’t know what kind of mood I have when I write these words. I used to waste my time and become more confused and miserable, I used to be hypocritical and jealous and more self-willed, and I used to feel inferior and resentful and more disappointed.These are my opposites, these are my shortcomings, I don’t know how much I can correct, but I can only express it in words.Forgive the author for writing his own confession at the beginning of each article. I am not trying to make up the word count, but just want to write it down. I wish you all the best in the new year.

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Dingka felt that he had a very beautiful dream. He dreamed that he and Chen Mo were doing things that can only be done between lovers who love deeply.

But... Dingka really did it with Chen Mo... It's just that they like it or not, only they know if they love it or not...

Chen Mo woke up very early, and has been sitting on the sofa not far from the bed smoking a cigarette. His clothes are a little messy, and there are still a few buttons that have not been buttoned, revealing a large and strong chest.

As soon as Chen Mo opened his eyes in the morning, he saw Dingka who had been under the ground last night. Dingka's avatar was closely next to his own avatar.Chen Mo woke up immediately after seeing it.

Damn, myself... Why did I sleep with him? !

I shouldn't have brought him home for a drink!

But... it looks like I stabbed him...

It's all my fault?

Chen Mo also didn't want to wake up Dingka when he was in a mess, he didn't want Dinka to be at a loss when he saw him.

Carefully getting out of bed, he inadvertently saw blood oozing faintly from the sheet under Dinka's buttocks, and the blood hadn't dried yet.

I... When did I become so fierce?Has it really been too long...

Chen Mo recalled the scene when he woke up, with black lines on his face, and took several puffs of cigarettes in depression.Looking at Dinka, who was tightly wrapped on the bed, making obscene laughter in his sleep, he was even more speechless.

I'm addicted to this stuff too!

Dingka laughed in the dream because he dreamed of sleeping with Chen Mo,

And Chen Mo was depressed because he slept with Dingka.

One is very contented to be slept by others, and the other is very depressed.

One is happy, the other is miserable.

Dinka's nose was particularly sensitive, and he gradually woke up when he smelled a strong smell of smoke.

It hurts, it hurts, ya ya, it hurts so much~~~~

Dinka gritted his teeth from the soreness on his body and the pain of tearing at the buttocks. Dinka, who was still thinking about it, had to lie on the bed obediently. Looking at the white ceiling, Dinka suddenly remembered something very strange. important things……

As soon as Dingka turned his head on the bed, he saw Chen Mo, who was smoking a cigarette, sitting on the sofa and looking at him. This look... was trying to kill him... But this guy smoking is so charming and sexy...

"Awake?" Chen Mo raised his beautiful eyebrows. He was a little worried about Dingka's body being ravaged by him. If I remember correctly, when I was doing it with him yesterday, I didn't use any lubricating oil or do any expansion. According to my own method, I inserted it abruptly, and everyone would be in pain like this.

Dingka hurriedly sat up on the bed, the burning sensation of tearing from the buttocks affected all the nerves.

The quilt also slid down from Dinka's naked upper body, and Dinka saw his naked lower body swelled up a lot, with slight swelling pain and twitching.

Dingka immediately understood that the things in his dreams were all reality~~~

Dingka's conditioned reflex was very strong, and regardless of the pain in his body, he rolled over and got out of bed. As a result, he exposed his naked body outside in broad daylight. Chen Mo had a panoramic view, and his heart was aroused with inexplicable desire.

Dingka hurriedly picked up his scattered clothes on the ground, he couldn't care less, the clothes would be torn if they were torn, let's make do with it!Now I have lost all face in front of him, even yesterday's incident can be stopped by resisting a little bit, but in the end I didn't refuse because of my selfishness, instead I cooperated with Chen Mo, trying to ask for a lot, wanting more ...

Chen Mo looked a little annoyed at Dingka who was hurriedly getting dressed.

Is that what he looks like?

Doesn't he like his own very much?

Shouldn't he have shown the shy, happy but embarrassed expression that he should have thought of, and then desperately begged himself to be responsible for him?

Ding Ka put on the tattered clothes that Chen Mo had torn yesterday and slowly moved to Chen Mo's side like a child who did something wrong.

But without waiting for Chen Mo to say anything else, he expressed his sincere attitude. He didn't want Chen Mo to hate himself because of this matter, and he didn't want Chen Mo to promise himself because of this matter, and he didn't need the sympathy of being handed over , There is no need for the so-called responsible love without feelings.

"Don't worry, I won't tell this kind of thing. It doesn't matter to me. You can live a good life. Just... just pretend that nothing happened. I know you hate me very much, and think I'm gossiping all day long. A lot of nonsense, but I..."

Dinka sniffed, what were he talking about!Are you confessing yourself?

"But I like you so much! Believe it or not, I...I...I..." Dinka's voice became smaller and smaller.

Originally, Chen Mo just wanted to listen to Dingka's continuation. Who knew that Dingka thought that Chen Mo thought he was hated for not saying a word to him. Coupled with Chen Mo's iceberg face that hadn't changed for a thousand years, it turned out that Dingka thought he was hated. The strong little heart suddenly shattered, and the beautiful world collapsed.

Sure enough, I was still hated...

Without waiting for Chen Mo to say something, he ran away.

It was me who broke the relationship between good buddies and made it embarrassing...

It's me who babbles around him every day and becomes disgusted...

It was also when I said my confession that I suddenly ran away and became shrinking...

Chen Mo stood up and wanted to stop him, but Dingka ran away.

This guy didn't wait for himself to finish speaking!

Why is this family always so aggrieved!

How can this guy always touch my nerves, and make me want to fall in love~~~

Chen Mo angrily tore his tie and smashed the ashtray against the wall.

"Bang..." The ashtray shattered, and something melted.

Touch your heart, it turns out that it is here...

Since then, Chen Mo has never seen Dingka again.He knew that Dinka was avoiding him all the time, so he wasn't in a hurry. Anyway, this guy was sitting next to him, so it was impossible for him not to come to class!

In the end, Chen Mo was wrong. Dingka really didn't come to class for several days.Looking at the blank sketch paper, Chen Mo felt empty, and now he didn't even have the mood to draw in class...

Chen Mo couldn't sit still anymore, he stood up from his seat, and the chair behind him made a weird rubbing sound against the ground.

Regardless of the strange and surprised gazes of all the classmates and the teacher, he walked out of the classroom in an upright manner, and skipped class gorgeously.

"What are you doing! Is the classroom you study in a place where you can come and go whenever you want!" This was the Mediterranean teacher last time.

The classmates in the classroom couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief for Chen Mofa. This teacher is very powerful and has a very violent and severe personality.

Teacher Haidi blocked Chen Mo's way.

"Teacher, please step aside." Chen Mo's face was cold and expressionless.

"If you dare to go out this semester, you don't even want to take all the exams. All your grades will be cancelled. Let me see how you can graduate!"

It's really ruthless, but to Chen Mo these are irrelevant matters.

Except Dinka...

"Whatever." Chen Mo didn't even look at it, he pushed the teacher away...

The whole class was boiling, booing, applauding, cheering, and some boys whistled.

Teacher Mediterranean's face turned red with anger. He has never been bullied like this by students in his career of teaching and educating people!

"Damn it, go sleep on your bed!" Xia Jian insisted on sleeping in the same bed with Dingka.

"What's the matter with you, you don't go to class these days, do you miss me because I often skip class and sleep in the dormitory?"

Xia Jian squeezed Dingka with a deadpan face, trying to make a small space to sleep.

"Hey, don't pull on me, I'll let you do it!" Dingka was in an extremely bad mood, and he didn't fight with Xia Jian anymore.

On the contrary, Xia Jian became restless, and his hands were always rubbing against Dingka's buttocks. Dingka's buttocks were already painful, and it was uncomfortable for a person who hurt even a tiny touch.

"Hiss...can you stop touching my ass?" Dinka looked at the wall with a sullen face, still thinking about that matter.

"Dingka, do you have hemorrhoids in your butt?" Xia Jian asked coldly, with an evil smile on his face.

"Been stabbed?" In fact, Xia Jian's words were all jokes, but Dingka took it seriously, turned over suddenly, his expression was a little pale, wouldn't Xia Jian also know about that?But he didn't say it?Who said that!

"Do you think it's disgusting?" Dingka probed very directly, and his mind was too simple.

"I don't feel disgusting if I do it with you." Xia Jian's hands touched Dingka's avatar, and Dingka's whole body tensed up.

"What are you doing!" "Your place is quite big~~~ but it's still pitifully small compared to mine."

"Go away!" Xia Jian ignored Dingka's struggle, directly took the bait and rode on Dingka's upper body.

Unzipping the zipper of Dingka's jeans with his hand, he touched the inside, and Dingka suddenly felt a burst of warmth all over his body.

"What are you doing!!!" Chen Mo saw that the door of the dormitory was ajar and pushed the door open, only to see Xia Jian pressing Dingka's body and holding Dingka's avatar in his hand.Immediately, he trembled with anger, his eyes were red, and the hinge holding the doorknob was smashed to pieces.

Before Dinka could swear, an extremely deep voice exploded in Dinka's ears like a thunderbolt, shaking Dinka's ears a little bit.

"Dinka, you're really good at it!" At this moment, Chen Mo showed the eyes that Dinka felt really disgusted and contemptuous of.

"No...it's not like this..." Dingka kicked Xia Jian out of the bed with some strength.

He grabbed Chen Mo's sleeve.

"It's not what you saw." Dinka's heart ached and burned as if soaked in alcohol.

"Let go." Chen Mo's eyes were full of the indifference and alienation that Dinka saw, just like Chen Mo's eyes the day he turned around.

"You and him really have nothing..." Dingka wanted to explain, but was interrupted by Chen Mo.

"Let go." Chen Mo grabbed Dingka's hands tightly and opened them one by one.

"I'm here to tell you, we're just having fun."

Dinka lost his strength but still refused to let go.

"Dingka, you are disgusting." Chen Mo's indifferent tone and cold eyes completely stabbed his heart.

Chen Mo was so stimulated that he went crazy, he didn't know what to say.

But the words spoken, whether it is a nice compliment or a mean and hurtful one, can never be taken back.

Dingka was taken aback, and Chen Mo was also taken aback.

If Dingka doesn't let go, Chen Mo will also leave.

Dingka let go, Chen Mo won't stay.

On the first day, we all wanted to be together,

Also the first day, our story is coming to an end.

Who lived up to the distance?Who lost forever?

It hurts to be apart, and it hurts to be together

It's better to torture each other together,

I will be there when you laugh or cry, and no one can take it away.