[LOL] chase light

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"Let's replace it."

After returning to the base, Qi Rui made such a request to Ah Qi again.This time, Gu Lin was sure that he heard correctly, he really said that he would voluntarily give up his starting position.

He almost laughed out loud.If he had told him on the first day and the first few months when he met Qi Rui that one day Qi Rui would give up the starting position he once valued so much, he would have laughed at that person for being such a fool for saying such stupid things.

"why?"

Coming out of the initial shock, Ah Qi frowned and raised her own question in disapproval.

"Because I can't." He was so exhausted, as if he couldn't take any more. "I don't know what I can do for my team. I'm useless. The same mistake has been repeated so many times and I can't learn from it. Will you continue to give me a chance?"

He stopped and turned his head stubbornly.

"I can't believe it." Ah Qi said softly, the prelude to the storm, and the anger that was worse than the previous few days piled up in a peaceful tone. "You gave up on yourself so easily. Now that none of us have given up on you, you are the first to give up on yourself. Rex, do you know how willful and unreasonable you seem now?"

"I know."

Like a crying child begging for attention.Qi Rui turned his head away.He has become the kind of person he once hated the most.

"You know?" Ah Qi, who was extremely angry and laughed back, became more and more aggressive. "Substitute? Do you think Xiaohuo will thank you? His most admired senior quit automatically because he lost a regular season and gave him the starting position. What should our coaching staff do when we talk about it, together with He Hu How should the management inside be? You think that Xiaohuo can come up to save the mess you left, and you really think highly of him. Then I take back my preface, such a glass-hearted and fragile guy is really not worthy of comparison with the LCK guys, Are you happy?"

"I'm sorry, I..." He paused, and it seemed unnecessary to say anything to a furious coach. "I let you down, I'm sorry."

"You have never hurt my heart so much." Ah Qi closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "I don't even know if I should get mad at you or laugh at myself. I know it's hard to win, but you shouldn't give up and you'll have nothing if you give up. At least try a few more times. Please, Rex, You are still young, you shouldn't regard this as your end..."

By the end, he was practically begging the young contestant to find courage and face the road ahead.

"Enough." It was Gu Linjun who spoke this time.He couldn't tell whether it was anger or something else, at least his face was calm.He stopped the dispute between his team's mid laner and the coach, and let all eyes focus on him.

"You all go out, I'll tell him." He almost drove out Ah Qi, He Hu, Gao Xiaoyang and Xiao Huo who came to serve as background boards. "Stay far away and don't eavesdrop. Trust me, I will handle it well. This is my responsibility, and I will do it well since I have undertaken it."

Gu Lin knew that this was a matter between the two of them, whether it was good or bad, they should decide it themselves.

Yes, it's over.

He walked up to Qi Rui, squatted down, and kept their eyes at the same height.

Qi Rui looked extremely confused, and he might not be any better, but at least he knew what he should and shouldn't do.

"Sorry. None of us should run away anymore, Rex."

The door was locked from Gu Linjun's side, and with a click, the air in the room was completely cooled.

None of them spoke for the first few minutes, the silence was like a mist, quietly covering them, and then quietly waiting for someone to break the deadlock.Just before Gu Linjun was about to speak, Qi Rui, who he thought could not speak, spoke up first.

"What can we talk about? Lin, can't we continue to live in peace?"

He leaned back on the sofa, his overgrown hair hanging down, covering his half-closed eyes.

"I'm sorry." Gu Linjun didn't give up because of his stabbing words. "I found out that I was doing the wrong thing and using the wrong method. I don't want this mistake to continue."

"Wrong." Qi Rui still didn't look at him squarely. "What do you want to say is wrong? Our past relationship or you chose me, are these what you say is wrong?"

"None of these." Gu Linjun noticed that he was a little excited, and calmed down his tone. "I never thought being with you would be a mistake."

They're not here to quarrel or entangle these useless things.Gu Linjun stared at the reflection of the two of them on the window glass. The moon in the mirror was pale and empty, and it shattered with a light blow.

Some of the balance they've been trying to maintain all this time has been disturbed. "All right" is never going to be possible with those things between them that aren't fully resolved.He should have known that none of them could really forget the other.

So what did he do?

"Then what can we say?"

Qi Rui turned his head to look at him, as if looking at another vexatious child.

"I know you really want to go to S6, and I will try not to be a stumbling block for you, Lin, what else can we talk about?"

"Stop lying, I want to hear what you really think."

Such words seem to have cast a huge boulder in the mirror, splashed countless water, and finally shattered all illusions of emptiness and perfection.The rift between them is far deeper than others can see, but they always thought that they would heal one day if they put it there.

"What do you really think? When we lost to SINCE, no matter how much we didn't want to admit it, we were all defeated. Can we really win against them? I think, I even gave up on you, and it doesn't seem to matter if I give up my dedication to the championship "He said to himself, and finally laughed out loud, some emotions accumulated in his heart for a long time finally lost control at this moment. "It sounds difficult, but I found that it's not that difficult. We are not so determined. If there is a first time, there will be a second time. No matter how much I don't want to, how reluctant I am, as long as I endure Just a moment."

The two things that had kept him here had been reduced to a puff of smoke, and he had never been so confused.

——You know, the only thing keeping me here is the champion...and you.

The words he said in the past have become a curse, but it is not only Gu Linjun who is bound, but also himself.

"I really hated you." Even though his voice was so soft that it could disappear with just a little interference, it was still so clear and loud to Gu Linjun's ears. "Why are you the only one who can look like nothing happened. I don't want to be friends with you. I'm self-willed and stubborn. I find that giving in is not my style. But you don't seem to care."

At the end, there was even an imperceptible tremor.

He quickly raised his hand to wipe the hot corners of his eyes, it was dry, and he let out a long sigh of relief where he thought the other party could not see.

"I thought you didn't care, or at least you didn't regret it. You even told me you were going to be friends with me. It seemed like I was the only one suffering through this, and you didn't care, and you were able to start anew life. The better you perform on the court, the more I hate you, and the more I hate you, the more I feel that this is unreasonable. We should all get out of the shadow of yesterday, only I can't do it, it's so pitiful. "

He seldom narrates what he thinks in such a long-winded manner, and even speaks a little incoherently.During the few months their relationship lasted, he was boyish, if blunt.

"I regret it." Before Qi Rui could react, Gu Linjun walked up to him again, knelt down, and hugged him tightly. Did not let go. "I thought this was good for you. I'm about to retire, and I don't have any more time to watch you. If one day I become your entanglement on the field, I will be overwhelmed with pain. You deserve the best Yes, and I am a cowardly and self-righteous person."

Qi Rui, who gradually stopped struggling, buried his face in his neck, the hot and wet touch almost scalded him.But Gu Lin knew that he shouldn't look at it, so he had to continue talking.

"I can't give you almost anything, I don't know how to keep you by my side. I don't have confidence, because none of us know the world outside the arena. I don't want to be selfish and tie you down, let you be in a certain place in the future." I regret it one day." Gu Linjun was almost speechless, but he understood that this was their last chance.He missed Qi Rui's last plea, and he could no longer escape. "I have no way to promise, I can only say that I will try for you... Even if it is me like this, do you still want to be with me?"

"You actually told me you wanted to go back on your word."

They are slightly separated.I don't know who started such a head first, but the feeling of kissing is really good.They should have done this sooner.

Gu Linjun gently licked away the tears that hadn't been evaporated by the body temperature.The slightly salty taste melts on the tip of the tongue, revealing a little bit of imperceptible bitterness.Their foreheads touched, their breaths blended together, quietly enjoying the most rare peace in so many days.

"I really want to leave you, Lin." Qi Rui almost said these words against his lips. "I can't even figure out whether I should love you or hate you."

"But I can't live without you."

They kissed each other again.The teeth gently gnawed on the soft lips, but the tip of the tongue aggressively and irresistibly pried open the jaws, wrapping around the other person's.Gu Linjun's fingers tightly clasped the back of Qi Rui's head, preventing him from getting out of such a thick and fiery kiss.

The suffocating passion made their stomachs tighten for a while.

After finally letting go of each other before completely getting off track, Gu Linjun couldn't hold back and touched Qi Rui's swollen lips again.

He has a lot to say, such as don't give up on yourself, such as I'm sorry, such as I miss you... They need to be honest with too many things, so many things are unbelievable.

But these can all be put aside for now.

"I love you."

He stretched out his hand to cover Qi Rui's widened eyes from shock, leaned over, and said it again.

"I love you."