Inhaichenghe

Author: Jiang Haixin

[Please don't judge me rashly, you only know my name, but you don't know my story.You just hear about what I did, but you don't know what I've been through. 】

That night, Zhou Chuanhu, who had injuries on his head and body, took care of Jiang Yinghai who was lying on the hospital bed.

Zhou Chuanhu's bulky man was crowded on Jiang Yinghai's hospital bed, and he was afraid that he would touch Jiang Yinghai with his hands and feet, so his body was a little stiff.

"It's okay, I don't have any major problems, it's just a hole in my stomach. You don't have to be so careful, just come closer." Jiang Yinghai was amused when he saw Zhou Chuanhu's awkward look.But when I laughed, my stomach tightened.

"A hole in the stomach? You're talking too scary."

"Isn't it? I can't see it, I imagined it."

"If you had a hole the size of the bottom of a bottle in your stomach, would you still be able to lie here and talk to me?"

"you saw it?"

"Well, it's just a circle of scratches. It was pierced with a broken beer bottle at the time, deep and shallow. But coincidentally, it's right around your belly button. It's probably going to leave a scar, but if you design a tattoo in the future, it's up to whoever I can't see it either."

Jiang Yinghai suppressed a smile. "Who will look at it in the future? It's okay to have a scar on the stomach. I don't care."

"This scar is on your stomach, and it's also on my heart. You took it for me, I know, I feel bad."

On a quiet night, after going through this turmoil, the two young people had real and rare peace.

"Yeah, I was the one who suffered this, no matter whether the result is life or death, the matter is over. But you blocked it for me. At that time, she was frightened and stupid. She thought she was killed, so she didn't hurry up .”

"It's better to get it over with. If you really don't love her anymore, don't drag your feet. It's not good for anyone. I saw you being beaten when I went, and I didn't see that girl. You really don't like her. ? I think girls are making so much trouble because they can't bear you, and your heart is cruel enough, no wonder they are so cruel."

"It doesn't matter if you call me a bastard or a bastard. Anyway, as a man, I'm sure I have nothing to say. How to deal with me? I admit it. Although the matter between two people cannot be explained clearly in one or two sentences, although Going to bed is something you love and I wish, but I have always expressed an attitude that I am an asshole. The most asshole thing about me is that my starting point is not love, but I just don’t have love. If you insist on forcing me to accept it, I will not."

[You can still drink the water when it’s cold, but when your heart is cold, even talking about happiness seems lonely. 】

"That girl is also very poor. Her heart is broken and she left. I can understand. It would be best if this matter can be settled like this."

"You are really relieved. You didn't see your wound at that time. The flesh was turned out, and the blood flowed out like running water."

"It's not as evil as you said."

"Am I talking so evil? If it wasn't for me to undress you, bandage the wound, stop the bleeding, and give you artificial respiration..." Zhou Chuanhu stopped abruptly in the middle of speaking.Thinking about it, I was completely surrounded at that time, and I only knew how to do it under Lin Zhiyin's command.At that time, I was terrified of dying, afraid that Jiang Yinghai would die just like that.

"Are you scared to death at the time?" Jiang Yinghai saw through Zhou Chuanhu's mind.

"I'm afraid? Is there anything I'm afraid of in this world? Besides, you were the one who was stabbed, not me." Zhou Chuanhu tried his best to hide his guilt.

"What do you say you are afraid of? You are afraid that if I die, you will be corrupted by the lawsuit."

"Hey, hey, do you have a conscience? I'm afraid, I'm afraid you'll die, not because I'm afraid of corruption lawsuits, but because I'm afraid I won't see you again." Zhou Chuanhu explained what was in his heart.It was a bit embarrassing to say this with his rough and used personality, and he quickly explained, "I'm afraid you will die, and there will be no one who foolishly stands in front of me and gets stabbed for me."

"Zhou Chuanhu, I didn't block it for you on purpose, I did it unconsciously, I think anyone would do that at that time, so you don't have to take it as a psychological burden, and don't feel sorry for me."

But the more Jiang Yinghai said that, the more moved Zhou Chuanhu was.He has always advertised himself as an iron-blooded man, and this iron man also has a tender side.

"Jiang Yinghai, did you really stand in front of me without thinking about anything? Aren't you afraid?"

"Why don't I be afraid? I've never had a fight. The only time you hooked someone up to beat me. As soon as I entered the house that night, my legs were weak. I saw that woman rushing towards me. You didn't see me at the time. It’s over, in fact, if I think about it, I might get hurt, so I might not dare.”

"That's why I can't stand it even more. People's subconscious actions are more telling."

"What's the problem?"

"It means that you really regard me as a buddy, and it means that our relationship is true."

"Smelly, what kind of relationship do we have?"

"Without feelings, you can subconsciously stand in front of me. Without feelings, you can go to the club to find me and worry about me? By the way, how do you know to go to that club to find me?"

"Sister Yin, she took me there. In fact, everyone cares about you. Are we all friends? I have a problem. If you encounter it, you will definitely do the same."

"Every time you get hurt, it's because of me. I'm really your nemesis. But Jiang Yinghai, don't worry, unless I, Zhou Chuanhu, don't know, but if I, Zhou Chuanhu, know, as long as you, Jiang Yinghai, are in trouble, I will definitely work hard for you."

"Can you wish me something better? I don't want to be in trouble. I don't care if you work hard for me."

"That's right, with me covering you, what trouble can you have, hahaha." Zhou Chuanhu's words were obviously taken as a joke by Jiang Yinghai, because he will return to China soon, and the performance will end soon, so maybe they won't There is no more intersection.Obviously Zhou Chuanhu has not realized this yet.

"When I put you in the hospital, my buddy turned back. She stabbed you. I really wish I could tear her apart."

"Are you stupid? Go back?"

"The clubhouse is opened by her father, and she will definitely be found there. She was frightened and foolish. I really won't lie to you. She never thought of stabbing an irrelevant person, and she thought she was murdered."

"Stop being unreasonable."

"I told her that it will be a clean break from now on. If she doesn't let go, she can stab me again. At worst, I will die with you. She said that as long as you don't pursue it, she will pretend that she doesn't know me."

"Isn't this a blessing in disguise?"

"Because of your misfortune, I was blessed. Actually, I was also in a mess that day. I ran to the clubhouse to settle accounts with them, and I still missed you. I don't know if you are dead or alive. It was still raining that day, and it rained so badly Damn, it made me dizzy, and I felt like God was against me. At that time, I thought, if I just die like this, it will be over."

"What nonsense are you talking about? Where is this going? You must be poor!"

[I wanted to know about you when it rained heavily that day. I stood on the street, like a Sun Wukong in distress, shouting "Master" to every taxi that passed by. 】

Thinking of Zhou Chuanhu's embarrassed appearance, Jiang Yinghai smiled on his face.This man who hurt him twice is not hateable but cute.Although he is simple, he is very direct and sincere.

"Xiao Hai" Zhou Chuanhu called out, "Are you sleepy? I just chatted with you. Would you like to sleep for a while?"

It was the first time that Jiang Yinghai heard Zhou Chuanhu call himself "Xiaohai". The last time Zhou Chuanhu called him, he was already in a coma and did not hear it.The feeling is really different, and I feel that the two people are much closer.

"I'm not sleepy, I've been lying down, my body is stiff."

"Do you want me to wipe it for you to make you feel better?"

"no, I'm fine"

"What's the matter? I'm sorry, I've seen it all? Except for the wound, everything looks pretty." Zhou Chuanhu deliberately teased Jiang Yinghai.

"You can do it, I feel better if you treat me like a buddy, but don't treat me like a woman, okay?"

"I'm sorry, Xiao Hai, I was joking, of course I take you as a buddy."

"I'm not angry, I just think that to you, buddies are like siblings and women are like clothes." Jiang Yinghai retorted.

"Xiao Hai, tell me about your love experience?"

"There's nothing to talk about. It's not as exciting as you, and it's not as thrilling as you."

"Tell me about it, I want to hear it. I'm heartless. I'll learn from you, and I'll have a serious relationship with you in the future. Why don't you miss me?"

Jiang Yinghai was a little funny, thinking about his love experience, can Zhou Chuanhu really learn from it?

"My love is very hurt, I don't want to lie to you, Zhou Chuanhu, so I don't want to make up a story to tell you. My story is not only not beautiful, but you may find it disgusting, but I can tell you, you still Want to hear it?"

"The more you say that, the more I want to hear it. The more restricted the more attractive it is."

"You also know the person I fell in love with, his name is Yang Zicheng."

...

Jiang Yinghai gently told the story of himself and Yang Zicheng, rather than telling Zhou Chuanhu, it was more like telling himself.Zhou Chuanhu didn't interrupt.

...

In the end, when it came to looking for a mobile phone in the sea, Jiang Yinghai stopped talking. He remembered that scene. After so long, he could still feel the biting coolness of the sea water.

"And then?" Zhou Chuanhu was enthralled.

"Then there was no more. My brother Tomachi told Yang Zicheng that I was washed away by the sea and left."

"He believes that too? Do you still keep in touch after that?"

"No more, we disappeared from each other's lives."

"For so many years, you haven't inquired about him?"

"He should be pretty good, right? He should have passed the civil service exam, his job is stable, he should be married to that girl, he should be very happy, right?"

"Should? Did you guess or did you inquire?"

"I guess. My disappearance is the beginning of his happiness."

"Do you think he's better off without you?"

"Don't you think it's awkward? Me and Yang Zicheng?"

"Maybe if it was someone else, I might feel awkward. But you, I really don't think so. Maybe I've seen you on stage, so I can accept it. I guess, Yang Zicheng has also been fascinated by you before?"

"Also? What do you mean?"

"Because I was also fascinated, it was the first time I saw you in the theater dressing room."

"Shall we be serious?"

"Xiao Hai, I'm serious. If Yang Zicheng is really a man, he will definitely be in great pain. He won't be as relaxed and happy as you think."

"He is really good to me. The more he is like this, the more I feel that I can't harm him. Although I don't think I am harming him by being with him, his family will not accept it. He will not have a good future. It hurt him indirectly, maybe letting go is also an expression of love."

"Maybe, maybe it's the wrong time. But I'm also a man. I know that a man's true love is to be responsible. He must feel responsible for you. But now that the person who wants to be responsible is gone, how empty he must be." ah."

Zhou Chuanhu's reaction was beyond Jiang Yinghai's expectation. He didn't expect that such a person who has seen countless girls could understand the love he experienced.

[The so-called growth is to force you to be alone, stumbling and injured, and stumbling to be strong. 】

"Maybe I hurt him more than hurting him. My leaving is also a kind of escape. I didn't fight with him, didn't wait for him, and didn't give him hope. Am I cruel?"

"If you are just for fun and don't care at all, then you are really cruel, but you are also heartbroken. How much courage is needed to give up, you need to empty your heart first and then throw it away. Look at chasing me I know that. So I think you are both hurt, you have both suffered, so there is no fairness or unfairness, who is right and who is wrong. "

"Do you really think our relationship is the same as the one you experienced?" Jiang Yinghai felt a sense of recognition in his heart.

For so many years, he didn't dare to say that it was Yang Zicheng's mother's irony, abuse, and humiliation that made him dare not face his humble and humble feelings.Although he feels that without such feelings, he is a walking dead, and he has nothing.But his feelings cannot be counted, they are not recognized, and he doesn't even have the courage to speak out.So I can only pretend that I have never loved, never happened, or experienced.

Happiness and pain have all been taken as nothing, and suddenly I have no sense of existence, can't say, can't admit, then I have nothing?

When facing Zhou Chuanhu, after Jiang Yinghai shared his experience, what he got was not ridicule and insult, which made him very relieved.

"Of course our relationship is different?" Zhou Chuanhu raised his voice slightly.

Jiang Yinghai was taken aback for a moment, it turned out that it was still different.

"You and Yang Zicheng are truly in love. The love is deep, the love is deep, the love is about life and death, and the pain of love is unbearable. The love no longer wants to have and just wants to be fulfilled." Zhou Chuanhu said to himself, "My little experience How can I compare it, I was just playing, it was just a whim, an adult game for men and women. I went to bed to vent, got out of bed and left."

"Why do you make yourself so unbearable." Jiang Yinghai didn't expect Zhou Chuanhu's love to be so noble.

"But this is a bittersweet scene of yours, and I wouldn't care if it was given to me. If it were me, whoever I love, my own feelings are the most important. I don't want anyone to interfere with what I want, and no one wants to take it away. I care who he is Whether you are happy or not, who is happy or not? For decades in your life, how can you have time to take care of this and that, right?"

"I don't care about anything, I only care about my own happiness. Isn't that too selfish? That way you hurt your family and everyone in order to fulfill yourself, can you really be happy and calm in the end?"

"Actually, I don't know either. But one person has one way of life. You can't force it. I'm doomed to have nothing to do in this life. People like me will burn incense without burdening society. So Just being yourself is enough.”

Maybe, if I have Zhou Chuanhu's freedom and ease, I won't have so much suffering.Maybe if I don't have so many worries, the story won't end so hastily.It ended so suddenly, so bitterly.Even the memory is limited.

Yes, will Yang Zicheng be happy?Such giving up, wronging oneself, if the exchange is the pain of two people, isn't that the greatest cruelty?Does it still make sense to give up?Will Yang Zicheng think about himself?

Jiang Yinghai would rather Yang Zicheng forget himself completely, he would rather hope that Yang Zicheng has always been that sunny boy, who was ignorant when he was young, and that experience was just a play on the stage.When I grew up and became sensible, I knew that those were just games, and then I patted my thigh, smiled, and forgot, completely forgotten.

Under the supervision and operation of his parents, he was admitted as a civil servant and worked stably in the government department.When I met a beautiful and sensible girl, and had a sweet and sweet relationship, the warmer and more romantic I felt, the more I felt that the so-called love I had with myself before was all nonsense.A joke, a game...

Yes, it must be so.Jiang Yinghai decided to think like this, this is the truth.This is the best result, the best result for Yang Zicheng and himself.We just performed a play together, and when the play was over, no one would take the other seriously.

[Some people, some things, if you should forget it, just forget it, never worry about it, why bother to be passionate. 】

"Zhou Chuanhu, can you promise me one thing?"

"promise"

"What's the matter you haven't heard yet?"

"I promise you everything, you say."

"It's been five years. Only you know about Yang Zicheng and I. I've never mentioned it to anyone. It's a lie to say that it doesn't hurt, and it's a lie to say that I've completely forgotten about it. But I don't want to forget it, I just want to start over again. Come alive."

"Must, you should start a new relationship. How can I help you?"

"Is there the most beautiful beach in Thailand? I want you to take me there. My heart disappeared on the beach. I want to find him back."

Zhou Chuanhu's heart skipped a beat, could he be the second Yang Zicheng?The second man who fell in love with Jiang Yinghai or was loved by Jiang Yinghai?Is that lucky or unlucky?If I have this feeling, do I dare to face and pursue it bravely as I said?

After Jiang Yinghai gave up his life for himself, did he fall in love with Jiang Yinghai?Zhou Chuanhu was suddenly touched by this thought in his heart. How could he think so? For the past few days, he felt that he had an unusual feeling for Jiang Yinghai. Is this love?

Whether he is or not, come if you want... Zhou Chuanhu never imagined that he fell in love with someone seriously, let alone a man.

First of all, we need to make a plan, take Jiang Yinghai to the beach... Jiang Yinghai wants to find the heart to love someone again, what about himself?Let's prove whether he is in love with Jiang Yinghai...

Zhou Chuanhu thought, no matter what, he will accept it, because the person lying beside him is worth...

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