I would like to hold your hand against the world

One

After my job stabilized, I was devoted to art, and I wanted to write and take pictures. In the words of Brother D, I just had a heart that was restless and eager to pretend to be seen by the world. I knew he loved to talk bad about me. Just ignore him.

But the weather is not beautiful, when you have a lot of ideas, there is always very little time to implement them.

During that time, I worked a lot of overtime, and sometimes it was late at night. I was working overtime as usual that day, and Brother D suddenly called me and told me that he was downstairs in our company and told me to go downstairs.

I didn't know what kind of medicine he sold in the gourd, but I greeted my colleagues and hurried downstairs.

As soon as he walked out of the building, he saw this guy's slender figure leaning over there. He didn't have the habit of playing with his mobile phone outside, so he just stood over there holding a leaflet of something unknown, and looked at it intently.

I saw him like that, so I wanted to tease him, so I sneaked around behind him and patted his shoulder carrying the schoolbag, and said to him in a thick voice, "Ni'er, how much is it for one night?"

He didn't turn his head back: "Mr., the little one is not feeling well today. I'm afraid it's from that one. Let's try another day."

A few vendors near us probably heard our conversation and looked at us with shocking eyes.

I accepted it as soon as I saw it, and stepped in front of him: "What's the matter, why don't you fix your picture at home and come to me?"

He raised his head and gave me a very serious look. I was taken aback by him, thinking that something important had happened, and I panicked. I didn't expect this guy to say: "It's okay, I'll just check it out." , to see if you are obediently at work."

I was a little annoyed by his words, so I turned around and said, "Go away, I'm going back to work."

He probably expected my reaction, and before I turned around, he stretched out his big hand and grabbed me: "What are you doing?"

In the past few days, I was mentally disturbed by working overtime, and I was a little annoyed by what he said just now, so I turned around and said to him impatiently: "What the hell are you trying to do?!"

A few eyes that were missing from the side appeared on us again.

I knew that my tone was a little bit bad, so I was ready for Brother D to be angry, but he looked at me with a smile on his face: "What's the matter, I just warmed up and you are so angry, then if I Then say you won't kill me."

"What's the matter, tell me quickly, I'm going back to work." I couldn't get angry when I saw him laughing, so I had no choice but to tell him.

He looked at me flatteringly: "I lost my salary for two months."

"What's the matter, you were fired?" Knowing that he attached great importance to that job, I asked him worriedly.

He frowned: "You can't hope that your man will get better, why don't you ask me what I did with my two months' salary?"

Knowing that he was not expelled, I felt relieved, so I followed his words: "Why did you go, did you still raise a mistress behind my back?"

"Come on, it's enough to raise you, and you will be a mistress." He said

"Damn it, you really came here to despise me." I glared at him.

"No, no, no, no..." He waved his hand at me, took off his backpack from behind, and took out a SLR from it the next moment!

It was like magic, and I was a little stunned on the spot.

It was a Canon 5D3. I saw this camera on the Internet, and the price was worth nearly two months’ salary. I couldn’t express my surprise, but he said aggrievedly: “I bought a gift for a heartless man.”

I looked at his expression with black lines all over my face, then grabbed the DSLR in his hand, turned it on, and shot a photo at his face, I looked at his aggrieved face in the camera, so funny: " As long as you are willing."

"I'm sorry, you are too easy to bribe, you just laugh when you give a gift." He said.

"That's right, it's not the first day you know me, and you don't know who I am." I said, "However, you don't need to buy such a good one, right? I don't feel sorry for wasting money."

He said, "I feel sorry for you."

I was really distressed, but "money is something that is earned by lace", so I comforted myself with the idea that Brother D had been passing on to me before.I asked him, "Did you come here specially to deliver this?"

He slanted his eyebrows: "Not all, the point is to check the post."

"Get the fuck out of here." I said, turned around and left, but he stopped me: "Hey!"

"Why?" I turned around.

"Let's go without hugging!" The sunset stretched his figure infinitely, looking like a soldier full of security, but out of the corner of my eye, I saw those eyes beside him.

He seemed to know my concerns, and said again: "Brother is going out of town tomorrow, you, as a younger brother, should feel good about it."

Hearing what he said, I couldn't help laughing. I walked over in three steps and two steps, and then stretched out my arms and hugged him tightly.

I put my eyes on his shoulders, and at that moment, even though we were still in this world full of prejudice and malice, I was so warmly embraced by this person that I almost cried out.

Two

After getting the camera, I started my own career of pretending.

So every weekend when I was on vacation, I carried a bag and took a camera and ran all over Hangzhou to shoot.

Basically, every time I finished taking pictures, I was so tired that I collapsed, then I threw the camera away, took a shower, fell on the bed and fell asleep.

After taking a shower, big brother D will pick out photos over there, and he will use the computer to retouch the pictures when he picks them out.

We didn’t contribute or post the edited photos, just the two of us just admired them. He said that my photos were not good enough, and I asked him how to fix them with me.

Once big D brother does something, he is extremely devoted, even to the point of selflessness.

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and see him wearing a hanging shirt and editing pictures on the computer. I can’t see the expression on his face, but his broad shoulders are outlined by the faint light on the computer screen. , looks unusually warm.

The beauty in front of me deepened my sleepiness, I closed my eyes again with a grunt, and immediately, I heard the sound of the computer shutting down. The quilt came in, and he habitually inserted his arms under my neck after lying down. I felt his pleasant breath floating on my face, and finally couldn't help the heavy drowsiness, and fell into a deep sleep again.

Speaking of sleeping, I thought of another thing. When I sleep, I habitually lie on the right side of my body. After Big D discovered my habit, I deliberately lie on the right side every time I sleep.But I don't know why, after he lay on my right side, I started to turn to the left side, he ran to my left side again, and I started to turn to the right side again.

He said I did it on purpose, and I was full of grievances. Later, he simply stretched out a pair of arms and legs to clamp me tightly every time he went to sleep. Get used to it slowly, and if you can't touch him every time you go to bed, you won't be able to fall asleep.

For the development of my "virtue", he spent a lot of time proudly.

Three

As I said before, I have a problem. I never like to pay attention to my feet when I walk.

I never thought that I would really suffer a lot because of this matter.

At that time, I joined a photography hobby group in Hangzhou. When I had nothing to do, I watched them post photos and discuss techniques. A few veterans went to shoot outside the North Peak.

The accident happened when we were taking pictures. At that time, we were taking pictures beside the mountainside. Because I was walking in a hurry, I didn't pay attention, and my foot slipped and I slid down the slope.

I just rolled down the whole person, bumped and bumped along the way, and fell into a coma.

In the end, I saved my life by not falling headfirst into the bottom of the mountain because one leg got stuck in a tree gap.

It was already the third morning when I woke up from the coma. I was in the hospital at that time, and the first thing I saw was Brother D. He was leaning on the chair next to him, his mouth was full of stubble, his eyes were closed, and he looked younger. I'm still haggard.

I was about to get up and call him, but the moment I moved, I was lying on the bed weakly.

At that moment, my eyes went dark, and I felt that I was finished, I couldn't fucking feel my lower body at all!

One fall and I will be crippled?I thought about it like this, and felt that I was pretty useless, and I fell like this on a mountain that was only a hundred meters away, and I couldn't help but feel sorry for myself, and the big brother next to me was also confused by my movement at this time. woke up.

"Wake up." His voice was hoarse, as if he had a bad cold.

I was startled by his voice, and I thought about the feeling I had just now, and extended those messy TV plots, so I couldn't help but be convinced that I was really disabled.

Once a person accepts certain things, especially life and death, he will become infinitely open-minded. Well, I am a dead horse and a living horse doctor. I said to him: "Don't hide me, I already know."

He froze for a moment and asked, "What do you know?"

I looked at his expression, thinking that he still wanted to hide me, so I looked aggrieved, and almost cried, but unexpectedly, this guy suddenly rushed forward and hugged me in his arms, his voice was still very distressed Dumb, he said: "You frightened me to death. If something really happened to you, I would chase after Lord Hades and fuck you."

I was taken aback for a moment, but didn't know what to do next. He pulled me away and asked, "Why, did you fall stupid?"

"I'm hungry." I said looking at him.

"What do you want to eat?" He looked at me with water in his eyes.

"I want to eat the noodles you made." I had never eaten the noodles made by him. At that time, I just thought of that kind of stupid TV series, a momentary idea.

Sure enough, he was taken aback for a moment, but then he stretched out his hand and patted my head again, "Wait." He said.

Before I could react, he stood up abruptly.This guy didn't know why, but he completely lost his former calmness and became flustered. He bumped into the edge of the bed, and his whole face turned red.

"Are you okay?" I asked him worriedly.

He waved his hand at me, and then limped out. Looking at his back, I felt a faint pain in my heart.

I learned that I fell from the mountain. I don’t know whether it was fate or luck. On the hillside of a hundred meters, I fell all the way like the falling circus in "Huan Zhu Ge Ge", and I only broke one leg. Only the calf, fell into a coma for three days.

Brother D brought me the noodles he made, and I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief after hearing what he said.

He helped me up to eat noodles. I was holding the hot egg noodles with tomato, and my throat suddenly choked.

I looked at the bowl of noodles, some of the eggs in the noodles were fried by Brother D, and they floated on top, like a few small flowers with strange colors. The noodles were very fragrant. I took a sip, and my eyes blurred. Big drops of tears fell into the face.

I couldn't eat anymore, I started to cry, like when I graduated from college, I was always an immature boy, brother D hugged me, and the patient in the same room behind me lamented how good my brother was, I buried my head in the In Big D's arms, I suddenly felt a sense of security that I had never felt before filling my heart.

I know, the man in front of me, I may never be able to leave him for the rest of my life.

However, I will not tell him the promise of a lifetime. After all, a lifetime is so long, and we still have to live a good life today.

Four

At that moment, I hugged the man in front of me. Outside the window was the pale sky of Hangzhou in December. The cold wind from all directions swept the city, but I couldn't feel any coldness.

I know that the relationship between gays may be different from that of opposite sexes. Without marriage, men also understand the unreliability of men's promises, so it often starts easily and ends quickly.

In one word, vulnerable.

Even the description of same-sex feelings will not use common experiences, but the time spent together.

A particularly popular joke on the Internet:

"A few hours together is called sex, one day is called 419, one month is called feeling, one year is called romance, two years is called plainness, three years is called habit, five years is called firmness, and ten years is called lifelong love."

In this way, Brother D and I are only firm, and when some people know the way we met, they discount this romance even more.

We met through the Internet, which is not the same. There are thousands of encounters in this world every day, but not every encounter is unforgettable, and not everyone grasps this rare moment. fate.

So, even for a moment, when you face this person in front of you, you feel that you are holding his hand or standing beside him and the whole world is just you two.

Then, when the time is right, then be a koala, hold on to your own tree trunk, and go to sleep gently.Even if one day you will wake up, but that is also the time when you are full of love and the courage to fight against the world.