night fades

Zhou Ning'an felt relieved and felt a little embarrassed, he didn't know what was wrong, after hearing Ah Wu's story, he always felt uncomfortable, and the feeling of being lost made him suddenly feel a little scared.

Lin Ye knew that Zhou Ning'an was a very insecure person. He didn't quite understand why, but he was very happy that he could make him depend on him. He let go of Zhou Ning'an's hand and squatted down in front of him, saying: "Come on, come on, brother will carry you up."

"Who's the elder brother? I'm older than you." Zhou Ning'an said, but he climbed onto Lin Ye's back awkwardly, and asked Lin Ye to carry him back to the bedroom and put him on the bed.

Zhou Ning'an is still a 1.8-meter adult man, and he is not too light. Lin Ye was sweating from carrying him on his back, and unloaded him on the bed like a burden, and said with a smirk: "Of course I am an older brother. That day You called it yourself here, don't deny it."

Seeing that Zhou Ning'an didn't speak, Lin Ye laughed again after a while and said, "It's okay if you don't admit it, anyway, there will be opportunities to call in the future."

Lin Ye saw that Zhou Ning'an's face looked better and went to take a shower. When he came out, he found that he was still holding his mobile phone and didn't know what he was looking at. He walked over and lay down on the bed, which surprised him. Right? What are you looking at?"

"You still want to be an older brother." Zhou Ning'an gave him a contemptuous look. Lin Ye ignored his disdain and rubbed his wet hair against his neck. Er said: "I am, I don't care."

"Okay, big brother, shall I blow your hair?" Zhou Ning'an was helpless.

"Hey, good brother, so good." Lin Ye was not shy at all, and agreed without hesitation. Zhou Ning'an glanced at him helplessly. Lin Ye stared at him and sat on the bed and smirked. Zhou Ning'an was also infected by him, and the two of them smirked together. for several minutes.

Zhou Ning'an went to get the hair dryer to dry Lin Ye's hair. Lin Ye usually didn't bother to dry his hair, so he just took a towel to wipe it off.Lin Ye was still a little silly after blowing his hair, Zhou Ning'an smiled and said, "What are you laughing about here?"

Lin Ye was taken aback, "I don't know either."

After finishing speaking, he laughed again, reached back and touched Zhou Ning'an's waist, and said rollingly: "My good brother, don't just blow my hair, you can blow it on other places."

"Is there anything else to brag about..." Zhou Ning'an realized halfway through this sentence, his face turned red immediately, and he spat at him, "You rascal."

"Then who made you like hooligans?" Lin Ye had already developed his face, lay down on the bed with Erlang's legs crossed, and said with a playful smile, "You were so happy when I played hooligans with you at first."

"I'm that..." Zhou Ning'an was at a loss for words, pushed Lin Ye aside and lay down next to him, muttering for a long time, "I was afraid that you wouldn't like me."

"Then let me tell you, I like you now, and now I think I'm a rascal, it's too late!" He said viciously on purpose, turning over and pressing on Zhou Ning'an like a hungry tiger, pinching his neck with empty hands, with a vicious look on his face. Wang Zi asked, "Why, do you regret it?"

Zhou Ning'an looked at him for a while, his eyes were a little worried, he didn't know which string he had put on wrongly, he seemed quite nervous, then suddenly laughed and said: "Hahahaha, crazy."

Lin Ye couldn't pretend anymore, the two rolled into a ball laughing, Zhou Ning'an patted Lin Ye on the back: "Get down quickly, I can't breathe anymore."

Lin Ye rolled on the spot and changed from lying on him to lying on him. Before he could lie down, Zhou Ningan pushed him off. He curled his lips in dissatisfaction and said, "Ruthless."

Zhou Ning'an made him make such a fuss, and he lost his drowsiness, but the feeling of emptiness in his heart just now also disappeared. Lin Ye's panting and sweating body was next to him. After thinking about it, he understood that Lin Ye Why did Ye fight with him so vigorously? Suddenly, he felt very at ease in his heart, as warm as Lin Ye's body temperature at this time.

Lin Ye gasped for breath and was a little tired. He was already very tired all night, and his voice was hoarse after all this fuss. He drank some water, put his hands and feet on Zhou Ning'an, and said, "Don't make trouble." Alright, go to bed."

Zhou Ning'an's mood became very soft. He looked sideways at Lin Ye's face, leaned over and kissed him on the lips, "Okay, sleep."

After lying down for a long time, Lin Ye heard Zhou Ning'an flipping over and over, and raised his leg to kick him, "Can't sleep?"

"Arguing with you?" Zhou Ning'an asked after being silent for a while.

"No, I didn't fall asleep either." Lin Ye turned over and lay on his side facing him, his eyes were bright in the darkness, "You have something on your mind."

His tone was very firm. Before Zhou Ning'an could say anything, Lin Ye immediately said, "It's okay if you don't want to tell me. I may not be able to help you with things that make you worry. Let's talk about something else. Don't overwhelm you." .”

Zhou Ning'an tilted his head and glanced at him. Although he could only see the outline clearly, he could still feel the tenderness of Lin Ye's gaze on him at the moment. His eyes became hot, and he lowered his head into Lin Ye's arms.

Lin Ye hugged him and gently stroked his back. Zhou Ning'an hugged him a little tighter, his forehead was pressed against his lips, and he could feel the heat from every breath he took. Lin Ye said softly. Asked: "It's not just because of Ah Wu, is it?"

"Well," Zhou Ning'an agreed in a muffled voice, "Sometimes I feel flustered."

"Why are you flustered? Are you afraid that I don't want you? Or are you afraid that you don't want me?"

Zhou Ning'an thought for a while, looked up into his eyes, and asked, "Did I never tell you the story of my parents?"

"No, but it doesn't sound like a very good story." Lin Ye was taken aback for a moment, then put his hands on his back, and soon began to stroke him again and again.

"My mother had a lover before she married my father," Zhou Ning settled down, "my father forced her to marry him. I don't know how he forced her, but the process should be very unpleasant. He loves her very much, and I I can feel it, but no matter how much he loves, he can’t get a response, so he is also very desperate. After despair, he decided to have a child with her, I don’t know what he thinks, maybe he just wants to keep a child as a child It was an idea, but maybe I wanted to have a child to make her bond, it seemed useless, so after I was born, they divorced. I always feel that my mother seems to hate him even more because of this incident , She didn't appear much in my whole childhood."

Lin Ye's hand slowed down. He knew that Zhou Ning'an's childhood was lonely, but he didn't expect such a story behind it.

"Sometimes I feel sorry for her, because my dad and I took away her happiness. If it weren't for us, she would probably have a good life with the person she loves. But sometimes I I hate her a bit, she gave birth to me just as a tool to get rid of my father and obtain property, so why should I be born?" Zhou Ning'an didn't seem too excited when he said this, but had a deep feeling Puzzled and confused, Lin Ye was very distressed when he heard it.

"Maybe she doesn't hate you, maybe she just doesn't know how to face you?" Lin Ye comforted.

"I don't know, I'm afraid to ask, in my scenario she would actually be happier if I hadn't been born. She could be with the person she loves and have his kids instead of watching that person get married , have children, and live their own lives."

"Your mother hasn't been with that person since she got divorced?"

"No." Zhou Ning'an gave Lin Ye a complicated look, "That person believes that people are responsible for their own families and choices. Since my mother chose marriage and had children, she should be responsible for it. Later he also married Now, with their own children, they will never have a chance to be together again."

Lin Ye clicked his tongue, "Hey, it's really, no fate."

Zhou Ning'an looked at him seriously for a while, then slowly asked, "Lin Ye, do you know what I'm afraid of?"

"What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid, what if even the so-called true love doesn't mean anything? My mother doesn't love me, I can accept it, but since she loves that person so much, why did she leave in the first place? What I can't understand is , if that person also loves her, why let her go? Why can't be together because of what happened in the middle after she is free? Even if she is not reconciled, why don't they quarrel happily and continue to love each other, but choose their own Endure the pain and bless the other person? If I were Bai Xiaonan, why can't I punish him severely once and continue to live together? If you really love someone, why is it always easier to let go than to stay together?"

Lin Ye listened, thinking for a while in silence, and his tone sounded a little confused: "Maybe...maybe love is to hope for a person's happiness, but they can't carry out this happiness themselves. I don't understand either, probably, You can’t get over your own hurdle, so you’d rather not go through it?”

"What the hell is that? What is there that allows people to continue to live together no matter what happens? If it's not even love, what is it?" Zhou Ning'an took his hand, and he held on to it without letting go.

Lin Ye grabbed Zhou Ning'an's hand and squeezed it hard, but he didn't speak for a long time, and he opened his mouth after a long time: "Maybe it's...family. For me, family members do this. No matter how angry they are, we still have to be together." Solve the problem and look forward. In fact, my grandfather and I have no blood relationship. It is not accurate to say that blood relationship is between us. So... it should be love and responsibility. It is not enough to hope that he is happy, but also to make sure that only you can give him Happiness, so that we can continue to be together no matter what happens. After all, people with such feelings can form a family."

Zhou Ning'an was silent. He could tell that although Lin Ye's father failed to raise him, Lin Ye deeply agreed with his values. He would never abandon the right and wrong of this world for one person.