Hanqing Japanese Words

Because of the sound of "Fuck me", Cheng Han took a big mouthful of water when he fell into the river. He was pushed far away by the rushing river, and sank with the waves in a panic. There was darkness in front of his eyes.

However, a hand firmly grasped his wrist, and his helpless body was supported by the owner of that hand.There was a darker shadow in front of him. He wanted to speak, but when he opened his mouth, it was blocked by another mouth.

That was probably the most panic-stricken moment in Cheng Han's life. Like a big stupid bear that was suddenly thrown into the water, he hugged Guan Qing tightly with all his strength.

"I almost gave up," Guan Qing said with a smirk, "You are so capable! You have a huge lung capacity, I wanted to breathe for you, but when I kissed you, you felt like a powerful vacuum cleaner , almost sucked my lungs out."

Cheng Han was very dissatisfied with his description, "I haven't disliked you yet! I was suffocating well in the water, but the breath you took made my lungs explode!"

After he finished speaking angrily, he squinted his eyes as if remembering something, and looked at Guan Qing probing, "Did you deliberately take advantage of me at that time? If you kiss me, you won't say anything!"

Guan Qing looked at his complacent expression with amused expression, and was noncommittal to this conclusion.Just went on to say:

"At that time, everything in the water was cold and soft, only you were hot and hard, we were entangled, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't bring you out of the water. I kept cursing in my heart You, in fact, the surface of the water is not far from us, but you are dead and heavy, and you have been holding me down for useless struggle. I just wanted to punch you when I felt your hand on my shoulder loosen. I was suddenly afraid I'm so scared! I'm afraid that I'm by your side, but I can't save you. I'm afraid that if I let go, you will really sink to the bottom of the river and become a dead body.

At countless points in time when I fell in love with you secretly, you had one woman after another by your side, and I asked myself if you died at that time, would I feel better now?The answer is absolutely not.

Sometimes it is better to hate a living person than to hate a dead person.Besides, I don't know if you are dead, whether I hate you more or love you more.Either of these two emotions is easy to talk about, but I am afraid that the two of them will become one, love and hate entanglement, and that will drive me crazy. "

Every time he said a word, Cheng Han's expression became more solemn, and when he finished speaking, Cheng Han's brows were locked, and his eyes were full of fog, deep and gloomy.

Guan Qing's feelings for him were much deeper than he thought. Up to now, it was no longer a question of whether he could straighten out his sexual orientation or change his preferences.Speaking of now, it is a matter of success or failure.

But can it be done?Cheng Han knew that he had never thought much about men in his life. If he really had that orientation, he would have been in prison as early as those years.

"I know what you're thinking," Guan Qing could guess his thoughts from his expression, "I know you won't be able to accept this after I tell you, and I don't expect you to accept it. I'm just a little unwilling, I've loved you for so many years, and I'm not allowed to let you know my feelings, then I'll live a miserable life!"

After he finished speaking, he laughed at himself, and Cheng Han also laughed, "Yes, you are tough now! If you dare to tell me these words, I don't know if it's because I've been aggrieved over the years, or if you've really gotten better at it over the years. .”

He was just joking, but Guan Qing's fiery eyes swept over him, and the overly straightforward admiration and admiration in those eyes made Cheng Han blush.

He looked away from that line of sight by pinching his cigarette, looked at his watch, stood up,

"I should go to the bar," he paused, "Let's talk about it later."

Who would have thought that Guan Qing would also stand up, "Can I go with you? I want to hear you sing more."

Cheng Han hesitated a little, nodded, "I'll wait for you in the car."

After getting on the bus, Han came back to his senses. Originally, he went to the bar to avoid Guan Qing. Why did he keep giving in in the end?It made him think about it wherever he goes now!

The bar is built on a street in the ancient town of the small town, facing the river. When the lights are on at night, a row of red lanterns are lit up by the river, and the wooden houses with paper windows under the reflection are very elegant.

But there are both Chinese and foreigners coming and going, especially the bar is even more mixed.But it is this kind of mixing that gives underground musicians unlimited possibilities.

When Cheng Han and Guan Qing arrived, not only the band and the bar were there, but also the guy who hadn't shown up for a long time.

Rao Ye, a woman with flat chest and arrogance in one body, flat chest is born, and arrogance is also born.It's because she is not only talented, but she is also hard to beat when she punches and plays dice.

This woman is now a serious beauty, so beautiful that she is wanton and glamorous. She used to be Cheng Han's ex-girlfriend, and she almost became an ex-wife.

Cheng Han didn't know if the atmosphere was embarrassing for Rao Ye and Guan Qing, but he was embarrassing anyway.

"Hey, Qing'er is back? I haven't seen you for a few days, I thought you'd gone away from us!" The old man raised his eyebrows ambiguously.

Before the person could answer, Rao also took the lead in saying with a smile: "For people in the same way, the end of the world can only be reduced, and they can't run away."

Cheng Han felt that there was something weird in the words, so he quietly leaned into the old man's ear and gritted his teeth, "You're chewing your tongue again!"

The old man turned his head and replied in a low voice: "You two are too ostentatious, and everyone here is a genius, so there is no need for me to chew my tongue."

"Okay," Shao Che knocked on the table, and said solemnly: "Let's talk about business. In half a month, it will be Midi again. This time, let's go to Shanghai. I decided that we will drive there two days in advance. Tian prepared the things to bring. Then Cheng Han," he raised his chin towards Cheng Han, "you go to Hangzhou with me tomorrow, and I will take you to see Li Zhi's concert tomorrow night."

Cheng Han looked around, "Just take me? The others won't go?"

"They don't need to go." Shao Che was busy tuning the guitar by himself.

Cheng Han was puzzled: "They don't need to go, I will use it? Why?"

With a flick of Shao Che's fingers, the electric guitar issued a series of brisk scales, and said high above:

"Because you can't sing well enough, I want you to feel the singing skills of Brother Bi."

Cheng Han almost jumped up after hearing this, "I'm not good at singing? You're fucking talking nonsense! You go now, go right away," he pointed at the gate with righteous indignation: "Find someone who can sing better than me Come on, if you can't find it, I'll fucking wedge you to death!"

Everyone laughed, and the old god persuaded him: "The main reason is that Cheche grabbed two tickets in total. He is the arranger and you are the lead singer. We idlers don't have much room for appreciation, so naturally only you two will go." myself."

After finishing speaking, he let out a long sigh, "Brother Bi is hot now, when will we be hot too! If I knew it earlier, I would have made you two fair faces sacrifice your appearance to accompany that sister Zhao, if we don't keep it together, we will be hot too!"

Cheng Han wanted to say more, but Rao also stood up and gave him a wink.

The two walked to the door of the bar, and Rao Ye handed him a dark red post. Cheng Han looked carefully and found that it turned out to be a wedding post.

"This……"

"It's my wedding with Miaomiao," Rao Ye replied, "It happened to be the day after your Midi came back, in Moon Bay. But I didn't post you the post to let you go, after all, we've been together before, you It’s too embarrassing to go there. The main purpose of posting to you is to ask for red envelopes from you, remember to pack a big one and ask the old man to send it over.”

Cheng Han didn't know what to say, so he just said, "If I remember correctly, same-sex marriage is not legal in our country, is it?"

Rao also let out a cold snort of disdain, "I'm marrying my lover, it's nothing to do with the law! Feelings are fire, and both parties are firewood. If the fire is good, it will last for a long time. If the fire is not good, one Broken paper is nothing more than ashes and smoke, and labor and swallows are separated."

Rao also said this, staring at him with a very emotional look, "Cheng Han, I have seen the matter between you and Guan Qing a long time ago. I am not saying that I am gay, just longing for the harmony of the world. I just Think about it, you are a heartless person, it is difficult for you to really care about anything or anyone. During the time we were together, we were on and off, and I didn’t see you coming to me in hysteria. But I heard that Guan Qing Once you leave, you will be out of your mind, and you can’t even sing. So it’s hard to talk about feelings. You should think about it carefully. If you can’t figure it out, try to spend a while. Give others a chance, and give yourself a chance Chance. Don't regret it."

After speaking, Rao Ye smiled like someone who came over, and left without even saying goodbye.

Cheng Han returned to the table with the wedding invitation in his arms, wondering if he was too sensitive, Guan Qing's expression was not as natural as before.

After midnight, the bar is full of drunk people. After a fast-paced DJ dance music, everyone takes time to sit down and take a breath, and the heat of alcohol burning has not completely faded people's passion. At this time, the band is ready to go, and the piano Strings, tickling emotions.

Cheng Han stood in that narrow square inch, with the lights pouring from above his head, he was tall and solemn.Looking not far away, his whole face is like a pencil sketch portrait, from the brow peak to the chin, there are sharp and rough silhouettes under the pen tip.

"Why is there still a fire in your eyes, so I don't know what to do. I tried to escape from your eyes, but I still wanted to keep you in my heart. Unknowingly...unknowingly, I have been seen through by you.

You ask me how I live these days, is it lonely without you?I'm still impulsive, I'm still heartbroken.When...when, time has passed. "

"It was you who took my hand and went to the dream together, was it you... really you, everything about you and me... is it destined?"

The moment the voice was like a sharp sword unsheathed, it suddenly overflowed with brilliance, and the voice was hoarse but deep:

"I know what you think, I want to have hope. I am not the original me, I am really not as good as you imagined. I want you to be different from me, give you a round of sun and fantasy, but you refuse to say to me, Now you have somewhat changed."

The current Cheng Han can hardly see the rebellious appearance of the past. Most of the time, he perfectly maintains his hearty temper and the jerk of a rock and roll youth. Only when he sings seriously, can he see the precipitation of the past a shadow of

Bai Yuncanggou, time has passed, and the stories they have experienced together have easily become a "past".The time of jokes and playfulness is nothing but a "memory".

The past and memories are too powerless. If you can't get to the present and you can't go to the future, then all the earth-shattering past is just a fart!

After the bar closed, everyone had supper together. Because Cheng Han drank, Guan Qing became the driver, and after sending them home one by one, it was almost dawn again.

But Cheng Han hadn't had enough, so he set out small dishes and wine glasses happily, and finally opened a pack of seven wolves and put it on hand, but Guan Qing was replaced by Black Ice Marlboro as soon as he turned his head.

"You're about to perform, protect your throat and don't smoke too much."

Cheng Han smiled resignedly, "Okay, sit down, let's continue talking during the day."

Guan Qing said: "It seems that next, it's up to you to talk."

Cheng Han thought for a while, and hummed, about how he got into prison and what he did to get into prison, he should say it himself.