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"Why, I really like you...I've never liked someone like this before."

"Give me a chance, okay?"

"I will always be with you, as long as you don't leave me, I won't leave."

"...Even if you leave me, I will chase after you in vain." Li Weike made a grimace that did not damage his handsome face, with a slightly begging expression.

You Suowei's face was calm, but his heart was already trembling faintly.

He has longed for such a person, such words, for too long.

Li Vike's plan to get close to him at the beginning is really perfect. A person like him seems to be completely insulated from those romantic emotions. His rationality is like a precise instrument, but in fact he is extremely soft.

He yearns for emotions so much, but is afraid of emotions, so he puts on a gentle and powerful shell, but he is not a real cold jade, his heart is hotter than anyone else - this is because of his unusual indulgence to his family It can be seen in the love.

He had been left so many times that he had already become numb.

But... You Suowei thought of himself mockingly, and sometimes he couldn't control himself, wanting to grasp the warmth that was as beautiful as a fairy tale.

Li Weike's position in You Suowei's heart has long been beyond the two of them's expectations—maybe there are so many love at first sight in the world, there are so many predestined fates, and the old age is as old as before, and some people use it in the name of husband and wife Getting along for a lifetime, what you get in return is just a little respect for each other, and some people, at the first sight of each other, are destined to love each other, no matter whether the future is together or not.

But he still couldn't do it--no matter what.

You Suowei clenched his fists, and then opened his eyes, it was as clear as before.

"Sorry," he said.

Li Weike really became manic now.

"Why?" His voice became low. "Can you give me a reason, why? A reason that convinces me?"

"...Sorry." You Suowei lowered his eyes and said again.

"I don't want your apology! Why do I want your apology?!" Li Weike suddenly stood up and walked around the spacious bedroom like a trapped animal, "You Suowei, you are not a coward, you It's not the kind of straight male cancer who really hates homosexuality, you tell me what is stopping you and why!"

You Suowei looked at him almost in pain, and realized for the first time that this man, who originally ran counter to all his standards for a future partner, had left such a deep mark on his heart, had... Unknowingly, he walked into the love that he thought he would never have.

He remembered the temptation and appreciation for both sides when they first met, he remembered that Li Weike took him around the streets and alleys of the imperial capital, he remembered the meticulousness he showed in the French restaurant, and he remembered that on the Monterey Bay, the winter sun was shining all over the place. his shoulders.

He remembered everything they got along with, everything Li Weike did for him, those violent mood swings, those fiery and aggressive eyes from beginning to end.

Yes, he knows it all!He remembers them all!

But how could he, how could he tell him that his father was a flirtatious bisexual man who vowed to grow old with his mother and would never leave him, but after many years, he fell madly infatuated with a male killer, Do you even want to abandon your wife and children, abandon your family and responsibilities to pursue "love"?

How could he tell him that the sensitivity and stamina of his pregnant mother inherited from a foreign family, coupled with the slight nervousness of the artist, would break down so completely that he would frantically burn the old poems in the ancestral house and use Chopping the burning firewood indiscriminately, regardless of the daughter in the belly and the two immature sons?

How could he tell him that his father would threaten his mother with death, just to fly away with homosexuals, and that cold-blooded and brutal killer tied his mother and their brothers to "their" "" "Love Nest", under the hoarse curse of the mother, the dagger was stabbed at her chest, and even the two children were not spared...

How could he tell him that, as the only survivor of the explosion, what he saw was the so-called infatuated father's abandonment of his lover who was severely punished by the family, and the avenger who escaped from prison 15 years later had a tragic death on the plane with him? All die together!

How did he say, how to uncover those bloody scars again, tell him that everything he had was destroyed by a pair of homosexuals, they let him see all the ugliness, all the sadness, all the despair and all the ruthlessness in this world .

And now, like his father... like that man, he wants to fall in love with a man?

He even thought desperately, could this be the curse of Youjia, the unclean emotion that is passed down in the blood and violates human relations?Could it be that he is the same as the person he has always hated!

You Suowei raised a hand to cover his eyes.

"Sorry... Wei Ke, I'm sorry... I, can't accept..."

His voice was trembling, with undetectable choking.

Li Weike looked at him sitting there, clearly in his prime, handsome and impeccable, but he seemed to be old, like an old man in his dying years, helplessly hunched over his always straight waist.

A strong sense of helplessness suddenly surged in his heart. He had never participated in the 27 years that this person had lost. He was never by his side during those lonely days that left him with such a deep and painful mark. .

Li Weike still wanted to try harder, and stepped forward to grab You Suowei's raised wrist.

However, You Suowei is still the same You Suowei after all, he will temporarily show fragility due to physical and emotional impacts, but this kind of soft emotion will not stay on him for too long, and will soon be melted into his blood The strong and calm expulsion here.

He stood up, and resolutely shook off Li Weike's arm.

"Sorry." He said for the fourth time, as firm as ever, "Vike, I'm tired and want to be alone for a while."

It cannot be said that this was completely out of Li Weike's expectation, but it did cause him pain.

He just said such a passage like a river flowing, only to realize that his love for You Zuowei is so deep.

——It can’t be said that it has risen to "love"—he scoffed at that stupid word as always—but it is already certain that the love of his life has been poured into this man who is as powerful as him, and it is hard to get it back.

It's liking, based on his appearance, his talent, his temperament and his nobility, or to be more straightforward, based on the strong hormonal attraction between males.He longed for that man so much, wanted to kiss him, want to have sex with him, wanted to integrate him into his own flesh and blood, never to be separated again.

He clearly realized that You Suowei had retracted into his shell again, without leaving a single gap.No matter what you say now, nothing can change the result that has already been decided.

Li Weike stood up obediently, as if the intense conversation had never happened, and spread his hands as usual: "Then I'll go back first, you have a good rest."

You Suowei nodded.

"The doctor told you to keep warm and pay attention to your diet. The nutritionist will bring you breakfast later, remember to eat it well. Xiao Xu told me that there is no urgent business in your company recently. You, the boss, can take this opportunity to relax... Anyway , the body is your own, don't make things difficult for yourself."

"Remember? I live in the yard next to you. Remember to call me if you need anything. I work there these days."

While chattering, he stopped You Suowei who barely stood up from continuing to see him off, and walked to the escalator by himself. It was not until the moment before the door closed that Li Weike asked hesitantly:

"...Why, we're still friends... right?"

You Suowei was silent for a long time, and gave him a weak smile: "Of course."

Then the door slammed shut.

You Suowei stared at the door for a while while maintaining that expression, and when he heard the sound of the door on the first floor being closed again, suddenly the corner of his mouth dropped, and he fell on the bed exhausted.

He has persisted for so long, and persisted so bitterly.

Staring blankly at the ceiling, he wondered what he was insisting on.

For so many years, those taboo memories, not to mention taking them out to recall, even if they were touched by accident, are all painful and cold to the bone marrow, so cruel that they are dripping with blood.

However, he somehow understood in his heart that he, or those who knew about those things in his family, just blamed the grief and hatred that had nowhere to vent to the most... rebellious sexuality issue, and even the relationship between that group. superior.In fact, it was just a coincidence that what they hated deeply and the instigator of everything was two people who once loved each other——

the man.

He turned over, buried himself in the soft quilt and pillow, groped for the bracelet that Li Weike had placed on the bedside table for him last night, and pressed it tightly in his palm.

The warm beads are extremely smooth and translucent after years of caressing, and the golden lines of inner strength are like living things, swimming slowly in the moist field of vision.

But it was still so cold, with the ruthlessness unique to inorganic matter, which made his heart ache.

He decided to give himself a day of indulgence. In this quiet and weak morning, he suddenly didn't want to bother to maintain the appearance that had made him exhausted for many years. He just wanted to have a good rest and re-experience mortals The cowardice and warmth of flesh and blood.

He remembered that when he was still young, his mother said to his elder brother:

"When you love someone, whether he is rich or poor, healthy or weak, even whether he is a man or a woman, it will not be so important at that time, because you will love and cherish each other until death."

His mother is a very artistic woman, who was pampered by her grandfather's family since she was a child, like a rhododendron growing in a flowerpot, delicate and gorgeous, innocent and innocent, her emotions are delicate and abundant, she likes all the beauty in the world, and is susceptible to everything Touching love.

Therefore, after she was brutally betrayed by her beloved husband, she would collapse so quickly and completely.

"Sorrow is the worst. Quit to lean on the dangerous building, the sun is setting, and the willows are heartbroken."

He shook his head, he didn't want to think about the company, family, marriage and Li Weike anymore, he didn't want to think about all the troublesome things, he just took this opportunity to try to find the little warmth from his memory, those happy past events, Mother, eldest brother, and younger sister accompany the day.

But there are not many of these good times in his memory, and they are not clear. After all, he was still young and experienced such a tragic change. These years, he has always forgotten intentionally or unintentionally. What remains in his mind is only a few remnants fragment.

On the contrary, my younger sister has more memories when she grows up, but in those years, his time was full of cumbersome and complicated successor courses, endless learning, training, assessment... and punishment when he was not satisfactory , he spends far more time with the old man than with his sister.

Not to mention that when he took over the family, in order to avoid bloody storms, he threw his younger sister to a boarding school in the UK, and he didn't see her all year round except for video calls or occasional holidays, which lasted for five years.

You Suowei found painfully and guiltily that he didn't seem to have much participation in the growth of his favorite sister. These years have been struggling for his life, as if a gust of wind blows, his sister suddenly grew up from a baby to what he is now.

But fortunately - he comforted himself - fortunately, Yanyan will be moving here soon, and there will always be more time to spend together in the future.

People's thinking is not always controlled by themselves. After a while, he realized that he was thinking about Li Weike again.

Smiling Vike Li drinking tea Vik Li angry Li Vik eating Vik smoking Li Vik basking in the sun Li Vik riding horses Vik Li jealous Li Vik confessed affectionately to him...

Vik Levi, Vik Li, Vik Li, Vik Li, Vik

"Hmm..." You Suowei hugged his head, only to realize that he had so many Li Weike in his memory.

He wondered blankly, since when did Li Weike invade his life so forcefully.

...I can't remember it anymore, it seems that since this person appeared, his shadow has been everywhere in my life.

"How cunning..." He hid his face in the pillow and smiled softly.