forgotten boyfriend

"Xie Yu Nuo gave it to you?" Cheng Fang picked up the silver ring that had fallen on the ground, picked it up and looked at it for a while.

"No, it's that person." I snatched it back, "I found it in the box."

"That person? Have you dreamed about him again recently?"

"I feel very irritable now." There were only the two of us in the dormitory, so I told Cheng Fang, "I think Xie Yunuo is lying to me, but my heart makes me forgive him." I was a little incoherent, and everything was like At an impasse, "Also, I may not love him as much as I thought."

"Then break up with him, and go find the person in your fantasy." I guess Cheng Fang was also annoyed by my entanglement, "What's the use of you saying this to me, a single dog. Xie Yunuo's pitfall is You danced by yourself, I don't care about anything else." He put down the computer and walked out of the dormitory.

"You promised me to forget him." The voice of "Mr. M" echoed in my ears, as if he was standing behind me, flipping through the book in his hand helplessly.

well i deserve it-

"Who is that person?" Xie Yunuo's voice on the phone became cold.

"You eavesdropped on me?" How could he have a recording of my conversation with Cheng Fang that afternoon? !

"Do you think I'm lying to you? Are you honest? The ghost knows how many people you've dated! You were the one who confessed to me at first, and you were the one who promised me. How dare you think about others." He was angry. , vaguely heard the sound of something falling, "Who is he?"

"I don't know" I thought about this question for half a year, "He is a person who appeared in my dream." But it seems so real.

"Are you kidding me? Use such a poor excuse to prevaricate me."

"That's not what I mean, I really don't know who he is." I can imagine Xie Yunuo's disdainful eyes on Chuping's side.

"If it wasn't for Xu Nian, I wouldn't have known you were such a person." His voice calmed down and became strange.

Fuck!It's almost impossible to guard against it.

"Split if you want." -

And that's not the worst.

I curled up on the sofa and watched the sky outside gradually darken.Instead of going back to the dormitory, I went to the apartment to stay.For some reason, there have been a lot of bad things recently.Last night my mother said that she found a photo of me kissing a man at home, yes, it was "Mr. M".This shows what? "Mr. M" is a real person, I am not delusional?

Dropping out of school, being kicked out of the house was the inevitable consequence for me—I remembered the order.Homosexual behavior is not allowed in our family. Even my mother, who has always been tolerant, could not forgive me. The family rules are hard to break.The person who has the same fate as me is my cousin, Jing Sequence.He came out to his family when he first entered college. He thought that his parents would try to accept it under his persuasion, but in the end he failed. He went to a strange city and never came back.

My days of being happy in college were running out, so I just left school.

It was raining lightly outside.It was the same on the day when Jing Xu left, standing alone in front of the platform, looking at the people around who were saying goodbye. "Stupid, don't be like me in the future." His voice came from the phone, his hoarse voice was full of tears.

"Your Xie and Nuo are cheating!" As soon as he answered the phone, he heard Cheng Fang's voice piercing his eardrums, "Evil saw that he was with Xu Nian! It's on Fifth Street."

"Oh, I broke up with him."

There was a sudden silence.

"Are you still a child? You don't even think about breaking up? Xie Yunuo always thought you were playing with him, do you know that?"

"I know, are you trying to say that I shouldn't be with him in the first place?" I lost control, all of this was caused by my selfishness, "My mother knows that I'm gay. It's over!" The development of the situation began to become weird, and I couldn't explain why.

"Calm down first." Cheng Fang was probably frightened by my yelling, "If your mother drives you away, go find your brother. I found out before that he is in X City, the next province. As for This matter is not your fault."

is it my faultI am not sure.My mind was in a mess.

"Son?" The second caller was my mother. Her tone was a little hesitant, and she hesitated to say some irrelevant words to me.

"What's wrong? If you want me to go, I'll do it now"

"Your cousin, he is dead."