Pet me, are you addicted?

Soon, the students at the front of the line walked into the classroom in pairs.Since girls are short, the first row of seats is given to girls.Starting from the second row, a pair of boys and a pair of girls walked into the classroom in turn.

Now, it was my turn and his, and the classmates watched the two of us walk into the classroom.I couldn't help fantasizing in my mind that he and I were actually entering the wedding hall, and we were just about to hold hands.

We were sitting in the fourth row of seats, and I didn't dare to look at him directly, so I could only peek at his profile from the corner of my eyes.After sitting down, the heartbeat gradually returned to calm.

"Hi, I'm Tu Hao, I'm glad we are at the same table."

He suddenly stretched out his right hand to me, and my heartbeat, which had been steady just now, suddenly accelerated again.

what!What kind of prologue is this? It made me even more nervous.What is this bastard pretending to be? Didn't he already know each other?Could it be that he wants to resolve the previous grievances and grievances with me and start all over again?

I hurriedly stretched out my right hand, and then slowly approached his right hand, getting closer little by little!Unexpectedly, my hand was held together with his like that, as if an electric current passed through it, and my whole body felt refreshed.

How embarrassing, I stammered and said:

"Hi, my name is Ou Yue."

Although our hands have long been loosened, the crisp feeling of intimate contact still lingers for a long time.My heartbeat was still unwilling to calm down, as if I was surprised, I couldn't believe it, and it seemed like I was frightened, and the shock was still undecided!

A boy like me wants me to be too close to other good-looking boys. Although subconsciously I desire it, if it really happens, it will be a kind of torment for me.

As for my own problems, I was vaguely aware of them as early as the second grade of junior high school.The indistinctness towards my deskmate, my wild thoughts towards my roommates, and my inexplicable feelings began to bother me, and it became more and more out of control.

It was not until the year when I was in the third grade of junior high school that a generation of superstar Leslie Cheung died young, and I read stories about him from various media, I had a flash of inspiration and realized that I am different and that unique inner world.

After that, I started to become more complicated. On the surface, I appeared restrained, but in my heart, I became more presumptuous.I started liking other boys without scruple, and often even enjoyed it.

When the senior high school entrance examination was approaching, others were dealing with intense study and exams, but I was indulging in reverie about my deskmate, because during the few days when I went to the city for the high school entrance examination, I was arranged to sleep with him on the same bed.

But it was useless, lying next to him, I stayed up all night, but he slept with gusto.At that time, I realized with great pain how unfair the emotional world is.

Why doesn't the person I like feel the slightest bit about me?

When I was in the first year of high school, I took a part-time job as a tutor. Every night, I went to the home of a boy in the second year of junior high school to help him solve his study problems while doing homework together.

When I saw this boy who was two years younger than me for the first time, although I thought he was sunny, lively, handsome and cute, and full of affection, but after a period of contact, I always felt bullied by him, and even had the illusion of being molested.

As time goes by, the goodwill gradually decreases, and the inner world becomes gloomy and dark.So I understand more and more how shallow love is. Once you find that the smell of each other is not the same, you will try your best to find the shortcomings of the other party, so that the love will disappear.