Pet me, are you addicted?

Adults say that the college entrance examination is a turning point in life.But in my opinion at that time, the college entrance examination is the whole of life.

Those two days were like the execution day that had already been judged. That was the only meaning of our life. After the college entrance examination, we either died or were reborn.

Originally, for me, whether it was death or rebirth, it was only about me, and everything was left to God to arrange, and I had no complaints.

But I don't know when, Tu Hao broke into my spiritual life and survived, every thought and action of mine had to be influenced by him.

During the days when I was waiting for the college entrance examination scores at home, I was always estimating my scores. I had never been so eager to be reborn, and I also wanted to fly away like Tu Hao and leave this crappy little county.

Finally, when the college entrance examination scores were announced, Zhang Xiang accompanied me to check the scores in the Internet cafe. It was still ideal, neither abnormal nor abnormal.

Filling in volunteers is a headache, more complicated and tangled than the exam.If approved in advance, you can fill in the military academy and teacher training. I finally chose the military academy.

Every volunteer I approved in advance was filled in the military academy, leaving no chance for the normal college.Although my family didn't understand, my mother agreed to accompany me to the provincial capital for interviews and medical examinations.

That was the first time I came to the provincial capital. Although it was hot and crowded, Tu Hao was here. From the air of the city and the noisy crowd, I seemed to be able to feel Tu Hao's breath.

I finally came to his city and once again I felt that I was so close to him.But that's all, I'm already very satisfied, and I don't expect to have a chance encounter with him.

Our lives are destined to be different.

He must continue to leave, go to a bigger city, and become a famous doctor of the generation who is well-known in the industry.I can fully guess that based on his grades, he must choose the best medical university in the best city in China.

And I had no hope of being admitted to the military academy, neither the interview nor the physical examination, the results were not very satisfactory.I left his city disheartened, not knowing which city belonged to me and what it would become!

Give him a call, ask him about his scores, or the volunteers he filled out, I should do this, and I can do it.It may not necessarily be the case that I choose the same city, I wished it was wishful thinking.

After returning home from the provincial capital, the only thing I could do was to wait for the admission notice. It was a very long summer vacation.After a whole month, I finally received the acceptance letter from the university.

My premonition came true. The belated notice came not from a military academy, but from a comprehensive university in Changsha, which was the first batch of volunteers I filled out.The major I was admitted to was the most popular mechanical design, manufacturing and automation among the engineering majors that boys are keen on.

In my opinion at the time, as long as I went to a new city, I would definitely be able to start a new life.But I never expected that that major, which I didn't care about, just absolutely hit my Achilles heel.All regrets are too late, no one can understand my pain, just like no one can understand my loneliness, and my fear.

I'm always terrified of being in an unfamiliar enclosed space.If the darkness also joins in the fun, then any absurd and terrible things will be imagined by me.Then the fear set in again, and I was convinced over and over again that the fantasy was about to become reality.In a panic, I quickly called the light to learn from the reality.So I was defeated by fear.

Facing the difficult unknown in the future, I always dread that moment.I guessed about all kinds of bad consequences, and then the fear set in.What to do, how can I solve all these.I started making endless assumptions about what I would do if things went this way.Assume that inner worry cannot be suppressed.I can only wait for that moment to come.

But fear can only be enjoyed for so many times.When the space gradually becomes familiar from unfamiliar, when time is approaching every second, the absurd fantasy is no longer scary, and the unknown difficulties are predicted in the palm of your hand.Fear can't get close to me bit by bit.This time, I overcame my fear.But I know, I'm not getting rid of it.Because, fear is a weakness I was born with.

It was too late to say goodbye. In September, I set off for Changsha, where a brand new world was waiting for me.Li Xuan was not there because he went to Beijing.There was no Shao Wei there either, because he chose to stay in the small county to repeat his studies.

As for Tu Hao, I don't know where he is. Anyway, I couldn't believe that he would show up in Changsha.Although there are also top medical schools in the country, Changsha is not the best choice compared to Beijing and Shanghai.

However, everything is possible. After all, life is like a dream, and we live in a dream woven by God.

My mother didn't send me to the city because I made an agreement with a traveling partner through several phone calls that I would not bother my parents to go with me.When I was parting at the station in my hometown, my mother repeatedly asked me to stand upright and hold my head high.Although I acted tired of her words, there was a pang of parting in my heart.

At the train station, I met my traveling partner for the first time. She was a girl named Liu Jiating.We were freshmen admitted to the same college, alumni of the same high school, and then it turned out to be college alumni again.

At around [-] o'clock in the evening, we lined up to check the tickets and entered the platform, got on the train bound for Changsha, and headed for the university in a hurry.In the middle of the night, the carriage turned from a bustling crowd to a complete silence, and we gradually fell asleep on the hard seats.

In the afternoon of the next day, the train that had traveled for more than ten hours stopped at Zhuzhou Station.The most terrible thing is that it lasts for 2 hours when it stops.And we used these 2 hours to eat up all the snacks leisurely.Afterwards, I got up and inspected the front and rear compartments, and told the girl, unfortunately, that:

"The locomotive is broken, and it probably won't be repaired in a while. Most of the passengers got off the train."

Liu Jiating was finishing the last bag of potato chips. She looked worried and said:

"Ah! Then what should we do? Today is the last day of registration!"

"Other passengers have got off the bus, let's get off quickly too." I said.

In fact, this is only my second time taking a train, and I have no experience at all.The girl agreed with me and said:

"Anyway, let's get off the train first and ask the railway staff. It is estimated that we have to apply for a ticket change. If we can't report in time for the train change, then we will go to the bus."

With that said, we unloaded our luggage and got off the train.I asked the conductor what should I do.The conductor replied, go to the counter to apply for a visa, and transfer to other trains.

So we got out of the station very obediently, waited in a very long queue, applied for a transit visa, and then entered the station.Fortunately, after waiting for a while, I boarded another train bound for Changsha.

At that time, we thought that this kind of thing happened once in a hundred years, and we felt very unlucky.Later, after experiencing the Spring Festival travel rush, I discovered that long-distance trains were delayed or malfunctioned.And every time we think about it, we realize that we made a naive mistake on the issue of rebooking.

In fact, we don't need to go out of the station, just wait on the platform and get into another train directly.Because no one came to check our endorsed tickets.We've been fooled by boring rules and come full circle.Fortunately, the flustered train pulled into Changsha Station before dark.

After getting off the train, we each carried bags, various handbags, and various suitcases, and walked anxiously.

I thought it was written in the freshman registration handbook that the school will organize orientation volunteers during the registration day, and set up orientation camps at train stations and campuses.And today is the last day of registration, and it's already this time, we are very worried whether the orientation point will be closed.

Mountain darkly, vista.When we walked out of Changsha Railway Station, came to the exit, and saw the school's welcome camp from a distance, our inner anxiety was finally calmed down.

We dragged our luggage to the base camp under the umbrella shed, and several seniors took our luggage and let us sit down.Several senior sisters brought a few glasses of water.I found that the seniors and sisters were all wearing the same style of T-shirts, and there were volunteer logos on the T-shirts, and I thought it was really funny.The senior who handed me the water looked fresh and refined, as beautiful as a fairy.

"Come on, let's drink some water." Senior sister said.

"Well, okay, thank you beautiful sister." I smiled.

"Hey, kid, you can't call me a beautiful woman. Call me senior sister."

"Hehe, yes, pretty senior."

"You are really funny, just take a rest and wait for the school bus to come, and I will take you to school."

"Okay, senpai."

Sitting under the umbrella shed at the welcome point, I admired this exquisite and small train station.If it weren't for the towering high-rise shopping mall opposite, I really wouldn't feel like I came to a provincial capital city.

The sign of "One Pillar Holding the Sky" above the station is very interesting, and there is also the simple and elegant "Changsha", which is Chairman Mao's character at a glance.Looking up, it is a clock, the hour and minute hands are exactly at a right angle of ninety degrees.

After a while, a few new students came under the umbrella.The senior sister greeted everyone to pack their luggage and prepare to get on the bus and go to school.After a while, under the guidance of the welcome volunteers, we finally boarded the school bus to the university in a down-to-earth manner.

There were no more than ten people in the car, so we were probably the last ones to arrive.The person in charge on the school bus, that is, the beautiful senior, seriously asked which college we belonged to.

Finally, the school bus started frantically and left the station slowly.After the school bus drove smoothly, I opened the window and looked at the tall buildings on both sides of the road.Although I have been to the provincial capital before and seen this scene, but at this time, I feel a different kind of happiness in my heart.The street market, the river view, the pedestrians crossing the bridge, this is the city where I will live for four years.

The school bus traveled along a straight avenue and then onto a bridge.At this time, someone excitedly talked about the Xiangjiang River and Juzizhou under the bridge.But I just look at the tender river, the long and quiet flow, going north and not returning.

Unknowingly, the school bus drove me into the university campus, the distant and mysterious university in my heart.