Pet me, are you addicted?

"There's something I want to tell you, um, I'm gay."

Apan was dumbfounded when he heard this, and then laughed: "Really, haha, that's how it is!"

I think Apan should be able to understand the reason for my weirdness and withdrawnness.And at that time, Ah Lei slept on the bed in my dormitory for nearly a month.They can be regarded as roommates with Apan for a month.Ah Pan should have guessed the real relationship between Ah Lei and me.

Two months ago, when I went to Chongqing for an internship, I went to the Xinhua Bookstore and bought a copy of Segelin's The Catcher in the Rye.The image of the protagonist Holden has been lingering in my mind for a long time.

Back in Changsha, after experiencing the Japanese Occupation, I dared to make up my own Holden character, and I changed the protagonist to Apan.

What I want to tell you is my brother's story.I could have told you all about me.But I don't want you to think I'm such a slut because I actually don't look like one.

If you are willing to follow my brother's story, you will find that I always hang out with him, and you can take the opportunity to learn about my life.I don't care at all.

You mustn't expect what I wrote to be some kind of shit literature.I wouldn't be blah blah blah blah blah blah if my internship wasn't so fucking boring right now.

As Pan once said to me: "You don't ever talk about anything to anyone. You miss everyone when you talk about it." Pan was my brother.Since the internship, we haven't seen each other for a while.I'm starting to miss him.

Apan told me that he received a text message from an unfamiliar number that day, and after reading it, he felt like crying, and the content was "I really miss you".There was no reply and he knew exactly who it was.He wants to leave some room for fantasy, for those who really miss him.

I finished this fucking boring internship early and got ready to go back to school.With loss and melancholy, I waited in the waiting room of Chongqing North Railway Station.The slope of the city matches the height, suppressing my depravity and insignificance.

I remembered the last time I was on Renren.com, A Pan on the other side of the Internet blamed me for not caring about him.I said, brother, I know how much you bought any pair of underwear from.I pretended to be angry, but I was really worried.

On my second morning back at school, I walked into my tutor's office with a little timidity and a sense of emptiness.I seriously handed over the outline of the thesis that I rushed out last night to my tutor.

The cold wind blows for a few days and I don't want to go out. It's April and the weather is so fucking bad.On the day of the mid-term inspection of the thesis, I finished talking about the structure of the thesis on stage.

Walking out of the complex, I was pleasantly surprised to find that the long-lost sunshine was shining on the ground.I called Apan and said I would go see him in the afternoon.I just found out that Apan lived off-campus.Appan told me he might be autistic, which really scared me.

Apan lay leisurely on the bed, changing the only few TV stations by remote control.At this time, he proudly imagined the panic after I was deceived, and counted down the time when I came to him.

The television stations were full of reports from the earthquake frontline.Apan said silently in his heart: compatriots, please be strong.

I found Apan, and seeing his still bright smiling face, I yelled at him, you bastard.Pan lived in a very small room in the hotel.I asked him why he wanted this room.

I just stood at the door looking at the house number for 21 seconds and decided that was it.I glanced at the house number disdainfully, and then I was surprised that it was 2046.

It's been raining non-stop these days, and a sudden sunny day makes you fucking want to go out and play wild.In that distant place, the shadow brought by the earthquake seems to have dissipated a lot.

Just like the old, weak, women and disabled who appear on the streets of the campus every day to beg on the ground, they have tempered our inner world into a heart of stone.But A Pan still decided to come to the basketball court of the apartment and donated the packed thick clothes to the disaster area.

Apan has a very lovely song, "I Can't Find This Person" by Chen Xiaoxia.He said that this song can take him back to the long past, a very distant place.

As the night deepened, I turned off all the light sources in the room, opened the windows, and let the moonlight mixed with street lamps flow on the white sheets.And Apan put on the earplugs, leaned against the head of the bed, and listened to "No Such Person" repeatedly.It was the only thing he liked to do when he was lonely.Missing, faithful to the joy of feeling...

A Pan said that his love is only once.I know he has liked many women, but he didn't lie.He said that there is only one true love, and this time is enough.

After a few splurges, my already deflated wallet had a serious crisis.So I made a great decision: From now on, no matter whether you are poor or rich, I will spend every penny in my pocket carefully, so that every penny is meaningful and valuable to society.

I told Apan about this decision, and he added: "Learn to manage money after squandering, and the sooner you lose, the less you will lose. It's the same with picking up girls. Those who have mistresses are all adolescents who haven't picked up girls before."

When I stretched my waist, the sun was shining outside the window.Thinking that my first draft of the thesis has not been sorted out yet.I picked up my schoolbag decisively, walked towards the library decisively, came to the natural science room decisively, occupied a favorable position decisively, and finally withdrew decisively to eat in the direction of the cafeteria.

In the evening, I participated in the "Confucius" main creative staff meeting.A screenwriter from Hong Kong and a scholar from Southeast University shocked me to think about Chinese culture from two realms.When Zi saw Nan Zi and Yan Hui's death, there is only value in disputes.

Walking in the avenue, sharing the world, selecting talents, cultivating credit, loving others as yourself, and the world is in harmony.

A gentleman strives constantly for self-improvement and carries things with virtue.

A family of literature, history and philosophy, the culture recorded in history can only be full of vitality when you input your own thoughts.

Engineering students are doraemons, they are realistic in everything, cut into reality, and they have to make a real thing when playing with concepts.

Students of literature, history and philosophy are bookworms, who let their thoughts reach the highest level of freshness and are not afraid of reality.

A student of physics, peeking at every detail of the world, becomes a lunatic who surprises the audience with his whimsical words.

Mathematics majors make themselves simple and at the same time make the world complex, because they are constantly building their own independent space.

That's the end of the story about A Pan, because I can't fucking stand him anymore, why does such an excellent person fall in love.

Love is illusory. What you love is only the one in your fantasy, not the real person in front of you.Study and work hard like Du Lala!

During the three years of working in Chongqing, I never thought that the road of life would be the same as that of Tu Hao again.In the past three years, my life has been muddled, whether it is work or love, it is like a nightmare.

Getting to know Li Lei is a beautiful story, but it didn't have a good start.From the moment he met him, the tragedy was counting down.

It was New Year's Day and I didn't go to work.I made friends and chatted in Internet cafes to pass the time.I used chat software to join several groups in my local circle, one of which was a student group of the University of Posts and Telecommunications.

There are people who devour loneliness one by one lurking in the group.I naturally belong to this category.It was under such circumstances that Li Lei and I met in the group and chatted privately.

Li Lei and I looked at each other's photos and were both satisfied.Then I told him that I had just started working for half a year, and I had three days off for the new year.Li Lei said that he was studying for the final exam these days.

After we got to know each other's situation, we agreed to meet tonight, and I went to the University of Posts and Telecommunications to find him.It was still afternoon, and our appointment was in the evening.

After leaving each other's mobile phone numbers, I got off the plane and walked out of the Internet cafe.My heart was suddenly filled with anticipation.I went straight back to the company dormitory and cleaned the exterior.

When I was going out, I told Li Lei my location and asked him the bus route to the University of Posts and Telecommunications through text messages on my mobile phone.Li Lei said that the University of Posts and Telecommunications is on Nanshan, so I need to go to Wanda Plaza and transfer to bus No. 346.

I thought it was still early, so I came to the Shaxian snack bar and wanted to eat something first.Halfway through eating, it was getting dark.Li Lei asked me if I got in the car.I said not yet and was eating.

Li Lei told me to hurry up, because the 346 bus closed earlier.So, I gobbled it up, and immediately set off in the direction of Wanda after eating.In the end, I caught up with the 346 bus.

In the car, there was a call for new news from the mobile phone. I opened it and saw that it was Li Lei who asked me worriedly if I got in the car.I said, I have already got on the bus, but there are more people standing.Li Lei said, that's good, let me call him when I arrive.

I usually get motion sickness, but I don’t when I’m in a good mood. For example, I took a car to find Li Lei at the medical school a few years ago. For example, I took a car to the University of Posts and Telecommunications at this time. It’s really strange.

The journey to the University of Posts and Telecommunications really surprised me.This is my first time going to Nanshan Mountain, and the mountain road has eighteen bends before I reach that mountain.If these distances are turned into a straight line, then I am afraid it is enough to leave the scope of the main city of Chongqing.

I finally got off at the station, and I walked into the University of Posts and Telecommunications under the night, and what I saw was a steep long slope.The cold wind blows and makes me feel a bit chilly.

I can feel that the temperature on the mountain is slightly lower than that on the mountain.I jumped up and down, dialed Li Lei's phone, and walked up the stairs.

"Hey."

"I have arrived."

"where?"

"On the steps inside the school gate."

"Okay, wait for me there, I'll pack up my books."

After hanging up the phone, my inner nervousness, coupled with the cold wind outside, made my body tremble uncontrollably.Soon, on a higher step, Li Lei appeared in front of my eyes.He was wearing a black coat with a black shoulder bag on his shoulder.

Li Lei took me around the campus.We chatted and laughed, and talked about many topics, such as the development of Chongqing, global current affairs, and university life.

Li Lei loves to laugh, and he can chat better than me. In front of him, I, a boring person, seem to like chatting too.We walked out of the campus without knowing it, and the remote streets were empty.

"It's cold on Nanshan, you're dressed so thin." Li Lei said, putting his hands on my shoulders, pulling my body towards his, and leaning against each other.

I suddenly felt warm, and felt that Li Lei's body was full of maturity, maybe because he was wearing a leather jacket.I said happily:

"No, it's very warm!"

Li Lei laughed, and I laughed too.

We turned back and walked to the University of Posts and Telecommunications.Across the campus, Li Lei led me to another exit.We walked into the small dark street, only a few people stood on the side of the road and chatted.

There are several hotels on this street, and Li Lei seems to be undecided which one is better to go to.In the end we picked the one with the brightest lights.

When we walked into the hotel and looked at the room, we were all satisfied.When Li Lei was about to pay the deposit, I offered to ask me to pay it. After all, Li Lei was still studying and I was working.Li Lei agreed.

Hiding in the room, I turned on the TV. It happened to be Saturday, and Mango Channel was broadcasting a variety show.In this situation, I suddenly thought of Tu Haolai.

Li Lei reached out, touched my face, and said, "Go take a shower first." I said yes, then took off my underwear and walked into the bathroom.

After taking a shower, I ran out of the bathroom, yelled "It's so cold", and hid in the bed.Li Lei laughed and threw a pillow at him.